May I ask who's calling?

In the dream, Zhao Xiaoyu seemed to see another life of her own.

He would often have such a dream, but he didn't take it seriously before, he just thought it was a dream, but this time he didn't know why, it made him feel that everything in the dream was really happening.

In the dream, he wanted to get love so crazily, and even foolishly gave everything of himself for it, but in the end, he got nothing.

Despair erodes his heart, causing him to wake up in tears, the painful feeling in the dream has not dissipated.

He clutched his heart, looked at the real world, and felt very lucky that he did not live such a pathetic life.

After waking up, he couldn't fall asleep, grabbed the quilt, and stared blankly at the front.

This dream was too real, but also too painful.The crazy longing in the dream even made him feel scared.

It is too painful to search for a person's life so hard.However, what concerned him the most was that the person he was looking for in his dream was none other than his master, Li Sufeng.

Perhaps there is truth to the saying that dreams and reality are opposites.In reality, Li Sufeng is pursuing himself.

"Master, are you there?"

Zhao Xiaoyu called tentatively.

Li Sufeng appeared in front of his bed in an instant, Zhao Xiaoyu crawled over and hugged his waist.

Li Sufeng was at a loss for a moment, reached out and patted his back, and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Master, I just had a nightmare."

"It's okay, the dreams are all fake, I'm by your side."

Zhao Xiaoyu tightened his arms around his waist: "Don't you ask, what kind of nightmare did I have?"

"If it makes you unhappy, don't bring it up again."

"But I want to mention it," Zhao Xiaoyu raised his head and looked at his chin and said, "I dreamed that you were good or bad in my dream, and I couldn't catch up with you no matter how hard I chased."

Li Xufeng paused: "Really? Maybe I was a fool in the dream."

"Master, I have been thinking about it for several days, and now I understand it. In fact, I like you too, let's be together." Zhao Xiaoyu didn't know if it was because the longing feeling in the dream was too strong, When he looked at Li Sufeng, he couldn't help but say these words.

Li Sufeng looked at him in surprise at that moment, and of course there was also the surprise that Zhao Xiaoyu hoped to see: "Okay."

Zhao Xiaoyu felt a little regretful when he said it, but obviously there is no regret for this kind of thing, he grabbed Li Sufeng's hand and said: "But, after all, we are a master-student relationship, and my mother will definitely not accept us. , besides, I'm still young, so... so, can we not let others know about our being together? "

Li Sufeng agreed to him.

From that day on, the two became an underground couple.However, after confirming the relationship, in fact, the way of getting along is not much different from before. The most extraordinary thing the two of them have done is just holding hands.

Zhao Xiaoyu thinks this is also very good. In the past, he was always worried that after the relationship between his most important master and himself changed, the relationship between the two would deteriorate.

After holding hands with Li Sufeng and going to the north to see the snow, he has carefully examined his heart, and he will be moved by such an outstanding person as Li Sufeng.

However, for some unknown reason, he found that after Zizai was with Master, he would have nightmares every day, dreaming that the pain experienced by another self was so real and so vivid.

There are elder brothers and fathers, but more people are masters.Every time he sees the master in his dream, he feels that there are countless pains in his heart.

In the dream, I was in too much pain to love, but no matter how painful it is, I still have to persevere, because I can only grasp this.

So humble, so desperate, so unloved.

This kind of dream invaded Zhao Xiaoyu again and again, so that every time Zhao Xiaoyu woke up, he was immersed in the dream for a long time and couldn't recover.

He couldn't understand himself in that dream, but he knew pain, Li Sufeng was pain, and he wanted to avoid pain.

Anyway, they are not very close, anyway, he usually has many things.

So he ignored Li Sufeng intentionally or unintentionally.

In fact, it's not just because of the pain in the dream, Zhao Xiaoyu is not a fool, although most of the time the two of them are happy together, but sometimes he can feel that there is a story about Li Sufeng, and his eyes, Once or twice, it just felt wrong, but after more times, Zhao Xiaoyu could feel that Li Sufeng was looking at others through himself.

Once, he asked Li Sufeng: "Who are you looking at?"

Li Sufeng was shocked for a moment.

Zhao Xiaoyu thought sure enough.

Even after Li Sufeng explained that he was not looking at anyone, Zhao Xiaoyu did not believe it.

Zhao Xiaoyu asked him if he had loved anyone before, but Li Sufeng said that he only loved you.

Zhao Xiaoyu only felt that he was perfunctory himself, and the relationship between the two of them continued to be neither salty nor weak.

In fact, Zhao Xiaoyu, who is only 15 years old now, regretted why she said that she wanted to be together so impulsively after the period of passionate love.

He wanted to share, but every time he saw his master's loving eyes, he couldn't say a word.

He was deliberately indifferent, looking for a chance to escape.

Until the blind date arranged by his parents, Zhao Xiaoyu felt that he finally had a chance.

He thought, after all, his father is Li Sufeng's master and the head of Qingyun sect, if his father made the decision, Li Sufeng would definitely not object.

It's not that he has someone he wants to be with. Instead of finding a Taoist partner, he actually wants to continue to pursue the Tao.

That day, after meeting the woman he had arranged for, Zhao Xiaoyu saw Li Sufeng's dark face and his chest heaving with anger.

"Master," Zhao Xiaoyu said, "I've thought about it for a long time...I think we still..."

"Do you like that woman?" Li Sufeng looked at him steadily.

Zhao Xiaoyu was a little flustered, he felt that what he did was too much, but he only felt that he was with Shizun, he didn't have that deep love for Shizun, and on top of that, Shizun didn't want to talk about his past, He felt that if he continued to fight like this with him, he would only harm him.

His master is a genius who is favored by all the people in the world. Such a good young man who is rare in ten thousand years, everyone said that we should cherish this talent, and one day he will be able to pursue the great way in the future.

It is such a person who hangs around with himself every day, and the two delay each other's cultivation.

In short, Zhao Xiaoyu can find ten thousand reasons why the two of them are not suitable for being together.

After all, there is actually only one reason, that is, not so much love.

For Li Sufeng, he is more of a companionship, friendship and family affection.

Indecisiveness leads to disaster.

Zhao Xiaoyu closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and said with determination: "Yes."

Li Sufeng looked at him in disbelief.

Zhao Xiaoyu clenched his fist: "Master, we should not be together anymore. I'm sorry."

"Why?" Li Sufeng staggered and took a step towards him, "Why?"

Zhao Xiaoyu pursed her lips without speaking, and turned her head to look away.

Li Sufeng cornered him, then pressed him against the wall, forcing him to look at himself: "Are you lying?"

Seeing his crazy look, Zhao Xiaoyu couldn't help but became frightened.

He has never seen Li Sufeng like this before, it seems that he will lose control in the next second.

"Yes, I'm lying!" Zhao Xiaoyu couldn't help shouting, "I don't like that woman, but I want to break up with you. Let's not be together, okay?"

"why?"

"Because you don't love me, because I don't love you that much." Li Sufeng hugged him in a panic: "I love you, I only love you, from beginning to end, I only love you One. If I do something wrong, you tell me, I can change it, but don't say you don't love me, I'd rather you dig out my heart than hear this sentence. "

Zhao Xiaoyu wanted to push him away, but he couldn't, so he could only grab Li Sufeng's arm forcefully, and said in a disturbed voice, "Master, let me go."

"Master, the relationship between us will not be recognized by the world. My mother will not agree, my father will not agree, and there are not many people in Qingyunmen who will agree. Besides, no one in this world is separated from anyone. I won't be able to survive, so..."

"If they all die..."

Zhao Xiaoyu looked up at him with wide eyes, and even suspected that he had heard wrong.

When Li Sufeng met his eyes, he realized what he said just now, and he was also stunned for a long time.

Zhao Xiaoyu felt that he was a little scary like this, he was very at a loss, and wanted to find Wenqing or someone, to find someone to help him.

Li Sufeng looked at the back of him resolutely leaving, and the last sliver of reason was swallowed up.

He kidnapped Xiaoyu, took Xiaoyu and left Qingyun Gate, went to the town where the two lived when he was crossing the mortal tribulation, and imprisoned Xiaoyu in this small town.

Perhaps it was because he felt that he had done such a shameful thing as kidnapping, and he felt ashamed to see Xiaoyu, so he would leave during the day, and every night after Xiaoyu fell asleep, he would come back, put his arms around Xiaoyu on the bed, and over and over again Say to him, Thou shalt love me.

You should have loved me.

After Zhao Xiaoyu found out that he was imprisoned and his freedom was restricted, he didn't worry about his safety at all. In fact, this is also normal, because for him, Li Sufeng is the person who is the least likely to hurt him in the world. .

If he was worried, he was more worried about Li Sufeng.

Now he is really too wrong.

For a while, he wondered why he had such a big influence on him just by talking about points.

He wanted to see Li Sufeng and have a good talk with him, but no matter what he called, Li Sufeng would not appear in front of him.Obviously he was the one who kidnapped him, but he seemed to be kidnapped by him, and he didn't even dare to see him.

After failing to escape countless times, he shouted angrily into the air: "Li Sufeng! You are a coward!"

……

Li Sufeng stood in the middle of a lake, his figure reflected in the calm water.

It turns out that this is where he stayed when he disappeared every day.

He lowered his head and looked at the palm of his hand, and he has been looking at it for several days.

How did everything become like this?

Ah...it doesn't matter anymore.

Nothing matters anymore but the little fish.

He saw with his own eyes that cracks had formed in his innocent heart, which had completely shattered until now, and finally became a decoration in his body.

He never knew before that being an ordinary person would have so many emotions.

Jealousy beyond love, aversion to time, negative killing, and distortion in the heart.

Why restrain yourself?

Li Sufeng stepped on sleep, walking forward step by step.

Whatever you want, use your own strength to plunder.If you hate something, let them disappear from this world.If you want to kill, then go for it.

He thought, why did he escape like this?

It seemed to be just an ordinary step, but he walked from the deep mountain to that small town in a few steps.

Xiaoyu was holding the money that Li Sufeng left him, and ran to the tavern alone to experience the feeling of drinking for the first time. After getting drunk, he lay lazily on the table, the sun shining on his face, shining in his eyes misty.

His attire looks like that of a rich man who doesn't know much about the world, so he has been targeted for a long time.

But being targeted by thieves is nothing, the key is that he wears a lot of top-grade instruments. Ordinary people may just blindly think that they are just ordinary gold and silver, but in the eyes of those who know the goods, they are priceless treasures.

He has been watched all the way, and the people who watched him have also investigated for several days, and after confirming that there are no masters following him, and after he really behaved like a young man from a family of cultivators who are ignorant of the world, those people started The idea of ​​killing and looting goods.

Zhao Xiaoyu felt sleepy, so he got up unsteadily, paid the money, and walked back.

Halfway through the walk, he felt that he was being followed, and there was no one on the path. He frowned, and suddenly rolled his eyes, thinking that this was a good notice.

He didn't believe that if something happened to him, Li Sufeng would not come out.

Seeing the eyes of those people, Zhao Xiaoyu knew that they wanted to kill herself.

When those people rushed over, Zhao Xiaoyu gritted his teeth and closed his eyes, as if planning to die heroically.

When the sound of fighting sounded, he knew that Li Sufeng had come out, and when he was about to open his eyes, he felt warm liquid sprinkled on his face, and in front of him was the fallen figure of the person who wanted to kill him.

Standing in front of him was Li Sufeng who had just finished his attack, his sword was stained with glaring blood, and his healthy eyes were full of disgust and contempt for those people.

Seeing that the person lying at Xiaoyu's feet was still alive, Li Sufeng stepped on the person's back with icy steps, and stabbed without hesitation, then turned the hilt of his sword, listening to the There was no sympathy in the eyes of the dead man's screams.

The methods were cruel, and the eyes were only indifferent, which made Zhao Xiaoyu open his eyes wide, and stretched out his hand to touch his face foolishly, looking at the blood on his hand, he looked up at Li Sufeng in front of him.

Is this person in front of him really that Li Sufeng?His master?

That person who was careful not to step on ants on the road actually killed people in front of him like this?

"Master?"

Li Sufeng raised his head happily, pulled out his bloody sword, swung it lightly, the blood on the sword was clean, and the sword returned to his body as if escaping: "Little fish?"

Li Sufeng showed a smile, he took out his handkerchief, walked in front of Xiaoyu, and carefully wiped off the blood on his face bit by bit.At the same time, he said in an extremely gentle but chilling tone: "I don't like the title Master, so don't call me that again in the future, okay? I like it when you call me by my name."

Zhao Xiaoyu's body was trembling slightly. He glanced at the tragic corpses lying on the ground, and was quickly blocked by Li Fufeng's body. He looked at Li Fufeng's handsome and young face. The face was still so impeccable, but there was a bit more evil that made people's hairs stand on end.

"Sudden wind?"

"Yeah." Li Sufeng showed a bright smile, reached out and took Zhao Xiaoyu's hand and turned around, "Let's go, let's go home."

When he took two steps forward, Zhao Xiaoyu couldn't help turning his head again, and saw those people who were planning to kill him all lying on the ground, and black flames ignited on the mountain, and within a few blinks, they were burned to death. clean.

Back in that room, Li Sufeng cooked for him, the two of them sat around a table and ate like ordinary people, and then lay down on the same bed after washing like ordinary couples.

Li Sufeng was like a different person.

Li Sufeng put Zhao Xiaoyu in his arms, and suddenly said: "Let's go for a tour, where do you want to go?"

Zhao Xiaoyu was in a complicated mood, and he was silent for a while and said, "You can go anywhere."

"Then tomorrow we will choose a direction, go straight ahead, wherever we go, we can leave Linghaizhou and go to other places outside,"

Zhao Xiaoyu said yes.

It was already dark, and the two were lying on the bed, knowing that the other was not asleep.

Suddenly, Li Sufeng said: "You didn't like your father before, and it seems that you still do now. If you still hate him, then I'll help you kill him now, okay?"

Zhao Xiaoyu's heart tightened, and she sat up straight and grabbed Li Sufeng's hand, breathlessly said: "Are you crazy? He is my father, when did I not like my father? How can you say that you want to If you kill him? He is your master."

Li Sufeng also sat up straight, stretched out his hand and snapped his fingers, a luminous pearl with soft light appeared above the two bed curtains, his pale eyes illuminated their faces and the surrounding environment.

Li Sufeng said: "In the past, I cared that he was my master, so after he did something that hurt you, I couldn't do anything for you, and I couldn't even stand up and make decisions for you."

Zhao Xiaoyu looked at the person in front of him puzzled: "What are you talking about, Su Feng?"

Shocked and saddened in his heart, he wondered if Li Sufeng was really crazy. If he wasn't crazy, what he said now became more and more outrageous, and apparently he started talking nonsense.

"I, never hated my father."

Li Sufeng stretched out his hand to caress his face, and said softly: "Actually, you know it, otherwise, you have been back to Qingyunmen for so many years, why didn't you change your surname back to Wenwen? Also, although he has always treated you well, but The relationship between you is not close, don’t you think it’s strange, little fish. Obviously before the age of five, you longed for the existence of a father so much, but when the real father appeared in front of your eyes, you were even cold I have to go to see him once a month and I don’t want to.”

Zhao Xiaoyu clenched his fists.He has never thought about these things Li Sufeng said so seriously.

Now that he was reminded like this, he himself felt unbelievable.That's right, why didn't he change his palindrome surname? Why did he always want a father, but after seeing his father, he instinctively refused to get close to him?

"Why?" he murmured to himself.

Even he himself can't figure out why, it seems to be instinct.

"Because he hurt you." Li Sufeng has gradually had an indescribable feeling recently.

Although he did turn everyone's time back to the past, he vaguely felt that time was still passing forward.

"When did he hurt me?" Zhao Xiaoyu looked at Li Sufeng and asked.

Li Xufeng choked suddenly.He can say the answer to this question, but once he says it, it means that he may also have to say the things he was ashamed of to Xiaoyu in his previous life.

In this case, a completely failed self will be exposed in front of Xiaoyu.

He didn't want to.

So he stretched out his arms to embrace Zhao Xiaoyu: "I won't lie to you, you just need to follow your heart and believe in my words. He almost killed you once, so he should pay his life."

Zhao Xiaoyu was sure that he was really crazy.

But he didn't know why.

Looking at Li Sufeng in front of him, the person who grew up with him, he thought he knew everything about him, but now he suddenly realized that he seemed to know nothing about him.

Zhao Xiaoyu stretched out his hand to hold Li Sufeng's face, looking at the closest stranger in front of him, his heart was trembling, throbbing with pain, his eye sockets were moist, and the overflowing tears quickly slid down the corners of his eyes .

Seeing him crying, Li Sufeng, who seemed to have a solution to everything, suddenly became at a loss again. He wiped the tears from the corners of Xiaoyu's eyes in a panic, and asked with concern in his eyes: "Xiaoyu, what's wrong with you?" Why are you crying? What did I do wrong? Don’t cry, don’t cry, I will give you whatever you want, as long as you stop crying.”

Zhao Xiaoyu pulled the corner of his mouth and showed a sad smile, and said with a choked voice, "Sufeng, I suddenly realized that I don't know anything about you."

Li Sufeng gently wiped his tears with his thumb and said: "How come, you even know how many clothes I have and how many magic weapons I have."

Zhao Xiaoyu shook his head, he reached out and touched Li Sufeng's white pupil, and asked: "Brother Wenqing told me that when you were 15 years old, your eyes were normal, and your hair was not normal either. This color, but suddenly from a certain day, this eye of yours turned white, and you can no longer see it, as well as your white hair. Coincidentally, during that time, you were the one who picked me and my mother back home At Qingyunmen."

Li Sufeng blinked for a moment, the white pupils were flat and clear, but nothing could be reflected.

Zhao Xiaoyu held his face and lowered his head, tears dripped on the quilt, leaving a dark dot on the quilt.

"Although, no matter how you think about it, you are just going to pick me up, and your eyes and hair have nothing to do with me, but my intuition tells me that your hair is white for me, and your eye is blind for me. yes, isn't it?"

When he said the last "Is it?", he raised his head and looked at Li Sufeng without blinking.

"Yes."

Li Sufeng reached out and stroked his hair: "Don't blame yourself, I did a lot of mistakes."

Zhao Xiaoyu looked at him and didn't speak for a long time.

Now Li Sufeng looks completely crazy, what he said now, Zhao Xiaoyu can also be considered crazy.

But the feeling in Zhao Xiaoyu's heart is telling him that Li Sufeng is not lying now.

"Why? Is it worth it?"

Li Sufeng smiled, took him into his arms, and said to him: "There is no reason. It is worth it."

Zhao Xiaoyu's heart moved, and he put his hand on Li Sufeng's back, and the two hugged quietly like this.

For a moment, he seemed to understand why he was so attached to Li Sufeng in the dream.

Suddenly Zhao Xiaoyu was shocked. Although he felt that it was unbelievable, he still tried to say: "I have been having a nightmare for a while."

Li Sufeng said: "It's okay, I will always be with you in the future, no matter what it is, I can never hurt you again, even if it is myself."

Things have turned to this step, and he no longer intends to turn back, nor will he give himself a way to turn back.

The eyes he looked at the world were full of malice, and he knew that sooner or later he would completely go to the abyss until the day he was hopeless.

He has even arranged his own final outcome.

He will be hated by the people of the world, and finally died under Xiaoyu's sword, becoming an unknown bone in the mountains, his body was transferred by wild beasts, and his bones were buried in the ground by muddy water.

Xiaoyu doesn't love him, but he will let Xiaoyu remember him forever.

Even from then on, there is no such person as Li Sufeng in the world.

"I dreamed that I loved you so much."

Li Sufeng's arm around him suddenly tightened, he let go of Xiaoyu, and looked at Xiaoyu's pupils trembling.

Zhao Xiaoyu vaguely felt that he might have come into contact with the truth, even if it was only on the edge of the truth.

He continued: "I dreamed that my life was not good. I just felt that I was very pitiful and sad in the dream, and no one loved me. Until you appeared in Fengfeng. The world in the dream was distorted. My heart is often full of disgust, but after you appeared, everything seemed different. It felt like a ray of light appeared, driving away the darkness and bringing light to me. Although most of the time in the dream It's all very sad, but since you appeared, I have felt a joy that I have never felt before, even in the real world, I have never experienced such a shocking feeling."

Li Sufeng grabbed the arms of Xiaoyu's hands, his hands were trembling uncontrollably.

Xiaoyu thinks all this is simply incredible: "Although the feeling in that moment in the dream is enough for me to forget for the rest of my life, it is too painful. Just for the momentary happiness, I spent my whole life and gave everything to try I exhausted all the pain in the world to pursue it. I was like this in my dream, but I feel that this kind of life is really too scary for me.”

As Zhao Xiaoyu said, he recalled the strong despair. It was obviously summer, and the coldness invaded his body. He couldn't help holding his arms: "If it's someone else like this, I will definitely admire it. But if this matter is placed on my own body, it is not so wonderful. I can't understand, can you understand, like a beggar who is given a bowl of insignificant hot rice in the cold winter, that beggar is It doesn't matter if I use my whole life to repay that person, even cut off my own hands and feet, so that I can become unrecognizable. Such a person may be praised as a repayment, but such a life, that meal That's the whole point of his life, and that's too sad, isn't it?"

The luminous pearl suddenly disappeared, and the whole room was suddenly plunged into darkness.

Zhao Xiaoyu felt that Li Sufeng let go of herself suddenly.

Vaguely, he seemed to hear the sound of tears falling on the bedding, maybe this was just his illusion.

He just said an unrelated example, and he didn't feel anything when he said it, but for some reason, this sentence seemed to have a great influence on Li Sufeng.

Zhao Xiaoyu felt that he might need to calm down.Then he was silent, thinking about the self in the dream, and his emotions were gradually occupied by the self in the dream.

……

Li Sufeng finally understood why the former Xiaoyu loved him so much.

Sure enough, he thought, there is no one more ridiculous than himself in the whole world.

He just laughed like this, smiling and tears falling down.

Like a madman, more like a drunk, he staggered to the ground and ran out barefoot.

Standing in the same small courtyard that A Chou used to live in, looking at the dim starlight in the vast sky, and the hot wind blowing his robe, he felt that he was no longer qualified to have a place to live between heaven and earth.

Zhao Xiaoyu, worried that something might happen to him, chased him out without even putting on his shoes. He knocked over a lot of things along the way, and his body hurt a few times.

"Sudden wind?"

There was concern in his voice.

Even if he kidnapped him, killed someone in front of him, and showed his fearful side in front of him, he still cared so much about himself.

After Zhao Xiaoyu ran out, he was relieved to see that he was still there.

He walked in front of Li Sufeng, panted and asked, "What happened to you just now?"

Li Sufeng looked into the distance, and his voice was a bit ethereal when he spoke.

"Because, I just discovered that I am the stupidest, most ridiculous, and most pathetic person in this world. I don't know what I have been chasing after all these years. Up to now, everything has been nothing...that's all. "

It was just one sentence, but Zhao Xiaoyu heard the feeling of death.

Li Sufeng looked at Xiaoyu now, and showed a sincere smile again: "Xiaoyu, do you like your life now?"

After thinking about it seriously, Zhao Xiaoyu nodded vigorously: "I like it. I think my life is very happy now. I have many people I love, and everyone loves me."

Li Fufeng said: "This is good... this is good."

Originally, he wanted to die vigorously under Xiaoyu's sword.Thinking about it now, he was nothing but a complete selfish ghost.

He raised his hand to unlock Xiaoyu's seal, as well as the seal that imprisoned him in this town, and turned his back to him.

"I'll let you go."

Zhao Xiaoyu was stunned.

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