For the sake of my life, I am determined to Qingbei!

In the end, Jiang Sheng found Gu Sinan in the garden on the top floor. He was sitting on the bench in a very lazy posture, with his hands in his pockets, looking up at the night sky.

The city is brightly lit at night, and most of the stars can't be seen, only a few can be seen occasionally.

"What are you doing here?" He walked over.

Gu Sinan seemed to be in a daze, he was startled when he heard his voice, and after a few seconds he said: "It's nothing, let's take a breath."

"Run upstairs without saying a word, at least I want to say something." Jiang Sheng's tone was very light. After speaking, he sat down beside him and reached out to touch his forehead, "Uncomfortable?"

Gu Sinan avoided subconsciously, "I'm fine."

Without missing Gu Sinan's action, Jiang Sheng was slightly stunned for a moment, then retracted his hand, "Go down?"

"Ah."

He doesn't really want to be alone with Jiang Sheng now, the scene just now shocked him too much, like the shock of opening the door to a new world.

It's not that he doesn't know the existence of homosexuality, it's just that the way the two get along is too similar to him and Jiang Sheng.

Only then did he realize that his intimacy with Jiang Sheng had exceeded the limit.

He has to slow down.

Returning to the box one after the other, Hao Xiao saw them, put away his mobile phone and said, "It's just in time to come back, I was just about to call you, and I have to cut the cake."

After finishing speaking, he turned his head and gestured to Li Zhi and Qi Mingsheng who were not far away. They nodded, and all the lights in the box were turned off in the next second, and they fell into darkness.

The door opened, and Zhang Chengyi walked in pushing the cake.

The cake was made by Qin Shi herself. She practiced it more than a month ago, and she made it very beautifully, not worse than the ones in the store.

"Happy birthday to you;

Happy birthday to you;

......"

Starting with Qin Shi, everyone surrounded Xu Hanyang and sang the birthday song. He closed his eyes and made a wish with emotion. When the last note fell, he bent down and blew out the candle.

The lights were turned on again, and everyone said to Xu Hanyang in unison: "Happy birthday!"

When I came out of the hotel, it was only after [-] o'clock, not even [-] o'clock, so it was a bit early, so someone suggested to go to KTV, because I didn't enjoy singing just now.

Most people don't object.

Xu Hanyang finally asked Gu Sinan and Jiang Sheng, "Are you going?"

"No," Gu Sinan was still thinking about the scene he saw just now, he was not in the mood, and found an excuse to refuse, "I haven't finished my review task today, I'm going home."

Jiang Sheng only said two words, "Same."

The corner of Xu Hanyang's mouth twitched: "You really are..."

Gu Sinan glanced at him.

Xu Hanyang quickly changed his words, "Bye bye Brother Nan, you work hard."

Separated from everyone at the entrance of the hotel, Gu Sinan stood shoulder to shoulder with Jiang Sheng.Gu Sinan is no longer next to Jiang Sheng like in the past, deliberately keeping a distance.

Glancing to the right, Jiang Sheng observed Gu Sinan calmly.

After crossing the road, they came to the pedestrian street.

This time is lively, and today is Saturday, so there are more people coming out to play.

A group of people in front of them were fighting and not looking at the road. Gu Sinan didn't know what he was thinking, so he didn't notice it at all.

Jiang Sheng's attention was always on him, and he was about to bump into him, so he quickly gave him a hand.

Due to inertia, Gu Sinan instinctively fell backwards, Jiang Sheng moved a step, and Gu Sinan crashed into his arms directly.

Caught off guard by Jiang Sheng's jerk, Gu Sinan recovered from his messy thoughts, found himself with his back against Jiang Sheng's chest, and immediately jumped out in a panic.

The lights were bright, clearly casting his expression into Jiang Sheng's eyes.

He asked directly, "Why are you panicking?"

Gu Sinan quickly retorted, "Panic? No, I was in a daze just now, it was an instinctive reaction."

Jiang Sheng looked at him quietly.

Seeing his focused eyes, Gu Sinan's heart beat faster again, he looked away and repeated, "I'm really not panicking."

Although he didn't look at Jiang Sheng, he could still feel Jiang Sheng's gaze.

Only half a minute later, Jiang Sheng looked away from him.

Then, he seemed to hear a very soft sigh.

Like an ostrich, Gu Sinan buried his head in the sand, pretending he didn't know anything.

Jiang Sheng didn't ask Gu Sinan any more, and fell silent. His previously warm expression returned to indifference, his eyes were very dark, and the lights on both sides slanted towards him, but they couldn't reflect them at all.

He didn't speak, and walked ahead.

Gu Sinan stayed where he was, staring at his back for a while before following him.

They were silent all the way down from the subway.

Seeing Jiang Sheng getting off the car with him, Gu Sinan remembered that he had invited Jiang Sheng to stay at night, and Jiang Sheng agreed, and even brought clothes to his house.

The current situation is very embarrassing.

Stepping on the shadow, Gu Sinan took a deep breath, trying not to think about the scene he saw in the hotel, not thinking about the way they got along, not thinking about his excessive closeness with Jiang Sheng, and focusing on his studies.

Raising his hand, he patted himself on the cheek twice, and silently recited "Li Sao".

After silently reciting it twice, he finally slowed down.

Back home, Gu Sinan took off his coat and put it on the sofa. Just as he turned around to talk to Jiang Sheng, Jiang Sheng picked up the backpack that was originally on the sofa.

He froze, "What are you doing?"

"Go home." Jiang Sheng said.

"But..." Just after saying one word, Gu Sinan swallowed the rest.

It was indeed good for Jiang Sheng to leave.

Otherwise, with his current mess of thoughts, he might have to keep silent, not knowing what to talk about, and it would make Jiang Sheng worry instead.

"Be careful on the road," he said.

After a pause, he added, "Let me know when you get home."

Hearing this sentence, Jiang Sheng finally felt a little warmth in his eyes, "Okay."

Gu Sinan escorted him to the door, looked at him when he was bending over to change his shoes, and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, something happened to me tonight, and it's a bit messy now."

"fine."

After Jiang Sheng changed his shoes, he turned to stare at him, "If you want, you can chat with me."

Opening the door and going out, he paused and added, "Any time is fine."

Gu Sinan curled his little finger behind his back, lowered his head and responded softly: "Yes."

This night, Gu Sinan fell into a dream again after a long absence.

It's just that this dream is no longer like the past, it's a flashback of his previous life's memory, but a dream of Jiang Sheng.

The dream was like a movie, playing it from the first meeting between him and Jiang Sheng to the present, and even clearly showing his strange reactions a few times.

The authorities are fascinated.

Bystanders are clear.

Looking at his getting along and interacting with Jiang Sheng from the perspective of a bystander, he found that something was really wrong, and it was perfectly fine to change it to a relationship between a couple.

Opening his eyes, Gu Sinan was lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

After two seconds, he suddenly sat up, grabbed the mobile phone beside the bed, and called Xu Hanyang.

As soon as the phone was connected, before Xu Hanyang could speak, he asked, "How did you know you liked Qin Shi?"

Xu Hanyang probably hasn't woken up yet, and didn't hear his question clearly at all. He said in a hoarse voice, "...Brother Nan?"

Gu Sinan crossed his legs, picked the bed sheet with his index finger, and asked again patiently, "Last night, Qin Shi confessed to you, how did you find out that you also like her?"

It took a while for Xu Hanyang to speak, his tone returned to normal, he should have come to his senses, "Heartbeat faster, blushing, happiness, and I will be jealous of her getting along with other boys and smiling at them.

Every time I see her, I feel happy from the bottom of my heart; if I look at her more, I will feel satisfied; I like to see her smile, and when she is happy, I will also feel happy.

In fact, I fell in love with her very early on.

I have always been possessive of her, but because we are too familiar with each other, we grew up together when we were young, so I never understood it, and confused friendship and liking.

But yesterday when she told me that she liked me, at that moment, it was as if thousands of fireworks exploded in my heart, my heart beat very fast, and I was crazy with joy. "

His tone was a little shy, "I also want to kiss her and hug her, and I won't do it to anyone else."

Gu Sinan changed from digging to pulling, and he pulled out several folds on the bed sheet.

He changed his posture, hugged his feet, put his chin on his knees, stared at his toes, thought about his words for a while, and then said: "Then if you always want to get close to someone, want to treat him well, and think of him from time to time." , I want to share both happy and unhappy things with him, what is it?"

The phone fell silent.

Gu Sinan didn't say a word, waiting for Xu Hanyang to speak.

After a long time, Xu Hanyang spoke, seeming to sigh, "I like it."

……

After hanging up the phone, Gu Sinan slipped along the wall, rolled up the quilt and buried himself in the bed.

It turned out that all his reactions were because of liking.

He likes Jiang Sheng.

He fell in love with Jiang Sheng.

He wanted to trace back when he fell in love with him, but recalling their relationship over and over again, he found that he didn't know.

Maybe it was because he had a stomachache on the bus, and Jiang Sheng accompanied him to the hospital.

Or maybe, it was the day Jiang Sheng transferred to another class, he knew Jiang Sheng's fate was similar to his, and began to understand him.

This feeling is accumulated little by little, silently, slowly seeping in, just waiting for an explosive contact.

The two young men he met in the hotel yesterday were the fire that ignited his feelings, and now they exploded uncontrollably.

It's like a rebound after bottoming out, or like a spark falling on the grassland, burning into one piece in an instant.

But then, what should he do?

Does Jiang Sheng like him?

He is the same as Jiang Sheng, he is a boy.

Gu Sinan rolled around on the bed irritably.

I fell in love with someone for the first time in my life twice, but I couldn't confess it at all.Although his physical age is at the most presumptuous age, his mental age is no longer.

He doesn't want to.

Even more reluctant.

Jiang Sheng should have a perfect family, instead of being pulled into this thorny road by him.

So, nothing can be done.

Gu Sinan pulled down the quilt, exposed his face, and lay down for another ten minutes with a listless expression, before he suppressed this feeling and put it in the deepest place in his heart.

Getting up from the bed, he brushed his teeth and washed his face.

By the time he finished washing, he had suppressed all his emotions.

Walking into the kitchen, he cooked milk porridge for himself, Gu Sinan took a bowl and sat down at the dining table, took his mobile phone, and checked the messages that Xu Hanyang sent him one by one.

Xu Hanyang: [Brother Nan, why did you suddenly ask this question?What happened? ]

Xu Hanyang: [Could it be that you have someone you like? ]

Xu Hanyang: [Probably not? ]

Gu Sinan bit his spoon and typed a paragraph, but deleted it all before sending it out.

Better not to say.

If Xu Hanyang finds out and doesn't hide his words, then he and Jiang Sheng probably won't be able to be friends anymore.

Gu Sinan: [No, it's about my friend. ]

After sending out, he turned the phone upside down on the table, picked up the bowl, lowered his eyes and finished eating the milk porridge seriously.

The author has something to say: Open up!

Next, it will officially enter the stage of two-way secret love that each thinks, and it won't be too long.

good night.

感谢在2021-02-2022：26：55~2021-02-2122：07：47期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Chenghuan 1;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: z10 bottle;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!