Sentimental charm

Xi Chuan returned to the familiar classroom in a daze. There were only two or three students studying hard in the empty classroom. Guan Lu whispered chirping, and the classroom suddenly seemed so quiet.The empty silence made Xi Chuan feel so powerless to think about the past. There was no sign at all, the love had already passed away, and when he looked up, it seemed like a dream, as if he had experienced the cycle of life and death.It's been less than a year since we got to know each other, and we haven't even realized what love is like, and love has quietly withdrawn.

After not seeing him for half a month, Xi Chuan even felt that Xue Zihan's appearance had become blurred, and no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't figure out what Xue Zihan looked like.Xue Zihan's rebelliousness and sincere smile, but now for Xi Chuan, it's like watching a movie. After the movie is over, everything is gone, and they separated like this without even saying goodbye.Xue Zihan has since disappeared from his life. Love is a matter between two people, but love can be one person. If it is only one person's love, for Xi Chuan now, love is lovelorn.

The walkman who used to compete with Xue Zihan because of love is still quietly placed in the book hole of the desk, quietly witnessing the love with Xue Zihan, reminding Xichuan that this is not a dream, it has actually happened.If it was a dream, waking up would not be so painful. If it was sad, it would be considered as a feeling. Xi Chuan hoped that none of this was real.

Dazed and helpless, Xi Chuan skipped class for the first time, and walked aimlessly on the street with the Walkman who quietly witnessed the love he once had. Xi Chuan wondered if Xue Zihan who left without saying goodbye was also sad, and whether he had struggled to leave without saying goodbye. If there was, then Xue Zihan who went away should have decided to forget himself It's gone, it's no longer sad.

The ringtone of the mobile phone was faintly remembered, and all the sounds were a bit tinnitus to Xi Chuan.Xi Chuan had a glimmer of hope that it was Xue Zihan, but the moment he picked up the phone, Xi Chuan's glimmer of hope was shattered immediately.Yin Hao said to come to him, but Xi Chuan didn't know where he was now, and told Yin Hao a general location, Xi Chuan still couldn't stop, as if he would stop if he stopped to breathe.

The arrival of Yin Hao did not make Xichuan's mood better, and even made him feel more uncomfortable. Xichuan suspected that his love was wrong. If he liked a girl, he could talk to his best friend when he was broken in love. If you can't say it, all your troubles can only be buried in your chest.Xi Chuan felt strong guilt for concealing Yin Hao, but it was all broken by his first love with Xue Zihan.And now if he wants to make mistakes, Xi Chuan can only force himself to laugh and say something to Yin Hao that has not been filtered by his brain, because his mind is occupied by Xue Zihan, and there is no space to think about other superfluous things.

Love is lost, but at least friendship is still there. Xichuan wanted to tell himself that he didn't have nothing, so he asked casually, "Yin Hao, are you my best friend?" At a loss, he was stunned for a long time before he nodded stupidly, "Of course, we have been friends since childhood." Yin Hao felt that these were not enough, so he emphasized his tone and said fiercely: "No matter what happens in the future You, Xi Chuan, are my best friends."

Xi Chuan felt that he was smiling so bitterly, why can't love be as strong and unrelenting as friendship, if you don't get it, you won't know the pain of getting it and losing it if you lose it.Before I met Xue Zihan, the misplaced love that I thought would never blossom and bear fruit began, but when the fruit ripened, the fruit of love also fell. It used to be a beautiful dream, but it was so painful to recall.

It is so difficult to say every sentence, and I don't know where to start every sentence, "Yin Hao, do you know any famous universities in France? A university with a good architecture major!"

"France, are you going to study in France?"

Yin Hao's words are like a dream to Xichuan, the unattainable study abroad is something that Xichuan, a child from a poor family, has never thought about, and dare not imagine, "Hehe... I want to be able to study in France , that should be the unification of the world.” Yin Hao was amused by Xichuan’s joke, “Well, I know a French university, and I heard about it from Xiaosheng.”

Anything related to Xue Zihan makes Xichuan particularly sensitive, not to mention Xiaosheng, a friend who has a close relationship with Xue Zihan, "Xiaosheng! What university?" Even if he knows the name of the university, it doesn't mean anything to Xichuan. But Xi Chuan didn't know what kind of psychology he was based on. Even if he left without saying goodbye, at least he should know where Xue Zihan was going. Without Xue Zihan's farewell, he would have to draw a reasonable ending to his first love.

"Louis Pasteur, Whisper is talking about this university. I don't know if it is a major in architecture. It was also the last time I went out with Whisper. I heard him mention it. It seems that he is going to go there after graduating from university. Bar."

Poverty has never been a big deal to Xi Chuan, nor is it something to be ashamed of. As long as he works hard, his mother can live a good life.I can imagine that I used to play with Xue Zihan and his friends, but now I realize that I was so naive at the beginning, that I have been derailed from their world, that I have never integrated into their world, an unreachable world. There was a ridiculous figure of myself, and the gap between rich and poor turned out to be real.

"You and Xue Zihan are so good, haven't you heard from him? They should all go to study abroad after graduation. Last time I met Zixi sister in Hong Kong and heard her talk about studying abroad. She also said that if you have any difficulties, you can Ask her for help. But it’s impossible for people like us to study abroad, right.” In fact, Yin Hao’s family has enough capital for Yin Hao to study abroad, but Yin Hao, who has experienced poverty, never regards himself as a wealthy person. Qian Ren, his life has been stuck in his childhood with Xi Chuan, and he still speaks in the original tone, and Yin Hao's father's sudden outburst did not affect his relationship with Xi Chuan.

"En! They should all leave in the end, as well as Xue Zilin and Guan Lu..." Xi Chuan weakly listed all the people related to Xue Zihan, as if he had already thought of their lively appearance abroad. Xue Zihan was still arrogant and unruly, but There is already a lovely and gentle beauty Guan Lu by her side, maybe it is the bold and unrestrained elder sister Liu Hanwei. Thinking of this, Xi Chuan actually laughed foolishly, remembering that everything that happened in the past was like that It's ridiculous, people who have never been on the same track, because Xue Zihan suddenly broke into his life, when Xue Zihan lost alone, these people also disappeared.

In the end, the friend Yin Hao who had cheated was still by his side. Looking at Yin Hao who didn't know anything and still regarded himself as his best friend, Xi Chuan's tears flowed down unconsciously. Xi Chuan wanted to control He stopped, but the more he wanted to stop, the more uncontrollable tears came out of his eyes.Xi Chuan remembered hearing Xue Zihan say that if you don't want others to see you cry, just look up at the sky and the tears will go back.

But even looking at the gray sky, tears still flowed from the forehead to the ears, Yin Hao was already at a loss, Xi Chuan, who had never cried in front of Yin Hao, suddenly shed tears like this, Yin Hao anxiously Asked: "What's the matter with you, what's the matter, Xi Chuan!"

"Xi Chuan, don't cry, tell me what's going on!" Yin Hao stood in front of Xi Chuan helplessly, "Who bullied you?"

Xi Chuan suddenly laughed, "Hehe...Who dares to bully me, can they beat me? I can also find you if I meet a strong one, and we can deal with them by two people."

Yin Hao was even more overwhelmed by Xi Chuan's crying and laughing. Yin Hao, who knew Xi Chuan's personality, knew that Xi Chuan must have something, "Don't cry and laugh like this, it scared me. I thought What's the matter with you?"

Xi Chuan glanced at the gray sky indifferently, "It's okay, I burst into tears all of a sudden, I don't even know what happened."

"Xi Chuan, don't hide it from me. Tell me what is it, am I not your best friend? What can't you tell me." Although Yin Hao didn't know what happened, he He didn't have the same mood as when he came out just now, and his heart became entangled.

"It's really nothing, I will tell you if I have something to say." Xi Chuan really wanted to take this opportunity to tell everything, but if he really said it, maybe Yin Hao, his friend, would also be lost. What can there be?Even if he wants to feel guilty towards Yin Hao, Xi Chuan doesn't want to lose Yin Hao as a friend.

"There must be something wrong!" Although Yin Hao knew Xi Chuan's personality, if he didn't want to say it, no matter how he asked, he would not say it, but Yin Hao still wanted to know what happened to Xi Chuan from the bottom of his heart. To help Xi Chuan.

"Really not, Yin Hao, don't worry, I'm fine, why don't I tell you if something happens?" The more Xi Chuan said, the more it meant that Xi Chuan must have something.

Yin Hao walked in front of Xichuan and blocked Xichuan's way, and asked seriously: "Is it related to Xue Zihan?"

The three words Xue Zihan are undoubtedly like a time bomb to Xi Chuan. Xi Chuan immediately denied it and shook his head vigorously, "It has nothing to do with him, it really has nothing to do with it. It doesn't matter..." The tone behind it became weaker and weaker, Xi Chuan I have already forgotten to think about how Yin Hao would think that he has something to do with Xue Zihan, as long as he tells Yin Hao that this matter has nothing to do with Xue Zihan.

It wasn't until the sun went down and the night covered the city that Yin Hao went home with Xi Chuan. Xi Chuan originally wanted to go back alone, but Yin Hao was worried when he saw Xi Chuan's appearance. Chuan went back to the alley together, and Yin Hao didn't turn around until he delivered Xi Chuan to the door of his house. When he got downstairs, Yin Hao didn't forget to send Xi Chuan a message, which probably meant that if something happened, he must tell him.

Xi Chuan opened his mouth vigorously at the door of the house to make himself look less ugly. Xi Chuan didn't want his mother to see him like this. His love made his mother worry. "Mom! I'm back!"

"Why did you come back so late?" Mother was busy arranging food for Xi Chuan.

"Oh! One more self-study session. I went with Yin Hao!" Said Yin Hao also added a little more credibility. Xi Chuan, who never lied, lied for the first time because of his own broken love and his mother. , The sadness in his heart has made Xi Chuan forget his guilty conscience.

"Eat more, studying is so tiring." The mother didn't notice Xi Chuan who was pretending to be eating like a dream, but the food got stuck in his throat and it was difficult to swallow.

"Mom, why don't you eat!" Xi Chuan swallowed a mouthful of food abruptly by taking the time to speak, with a tingling pain in his throat.

The mother looked at Xi Chuan and said with a smile, "I've eaten it!" The mother paused for a moment as if remembering something, and continued: "By the way, Xi Chuan, a classmate came to see you today. You haven't come back yet, the classmate waited for a while and left!"