Bungo common problem

Sakunosuke Oda was still "working" when he received Chisato's new novel. After seeing the reminder message sent by Chisato, he resolved it decisively and quickly. After finishing all the work for the day in advance, he hurried to the computer to read it.

Although reading from a computer is not as ceremonial as reading paper, but at the moment when the book has not yet been released, it is an honor that many people can't ask for to be able to see freshly released novels that are still hot.

What's more, it's also his first novel since he left Qianli, and it's also the first novel after the other party doesn't need to "remind", so it's hard for him not to pay attention.

Or because of this, it needs more attention.

With anticipation, Sakunosuke Oda solemnly clicked on the document sent by Qianli, and began to read it carefully.

At first, he looked relaxed.

After watching for a while, he smiled.

After reading half of it, he suddenly felt a thump in his heart.

After reading more than half of it, he frowned tightly, and his heart sank.

A few hours later, Sakunosuke Oda, who had finally finished watching all of them, blinked his sour eyes, and turned his gaze from the bright white screen back to the room, only to realize that it was already midnight.

Except for the computer screen, the room was pitch-black. He only turned his eyes to the computer after relieving the soreness of his eyes. The last paragraph of the novel on it was extremely eye-catching.

For the protagonist who is in a foreign land, he thought that the protagonist would go to look for his parents.

But there are also the sudden changes in the plot, the protagonist who "wakes up in time", and finally, other people's evaluation of the protagonist, all revealing absurdity.

Yes, the occurrence of all these things can even be described as absurd.At least in the eyes of Oda Sakunosuke, the protagonist's so-called awakening should be the beginning of obliterating himself.

but……

Thinking of his many wrong interpretations in the past, Oda Sakunosuke paused, looked away and reached for the phone, falling into hesitation.

Shall I... give Osamu Dazai a call and ask for his opinion?After all, judging from reading Qianli's novels, the opponent is much stronger than himself.

Just when he was still hesitating, the mobile phone in his hand suddenly rang, his eyes narrowed, and it turned out to be a call from Osamu Dazai.

"Dazai?"

Oda Sakunosuke who answered the phone was a little surprised.

"I was thinking of calling you."

"Because I guess Odasaku you should have finished reading Chisato's new novel by now, so I called you."

When Dazai Osamu said this, Oda Sakunosuke immediately reacted.

"Ah, Qianli also sent it to you."

Thinking this way should be posted together, and Dazai has already finished reading it.

Thinking of this, Oda Sakunosuke decisively asked the question he was struggling with.

"About this "Foreign Land" Dazai, what do you think..."

Before he could finish speaking, he was interrupted by Osamu Dazai's voice.

"Odasaku."

With a serious voice transmitted from the far end, what Oda Sakunosuke heard was Dazai Osamu asked an inexplicable question.

"Do you want to hear the truth or the lie."

"True and...false?"

Oda Sakunosuke was taken aback, lost in thought.

Dazai would not say these words for no reason, since he said this, it means something unusual.

"Things are bad, right? Dazai."

And it's not generally bad, it can even be said to be bad.

Osamu Dazai didn't confirm it, but he didn't deny it either. He just asked a question after a breath.

"Odasaku, what do you think of the ending of "Foreign Land"?"

"It looks beautiful, but it's actually a mirror image."

Although he didn't know why the other party asked this question, Oda Sakunosuke answered seriously.

"It seems that the protagonist has forgotten the idea of ​​returning home and living happily in a foreign land, but many details show that it is not like that, it is more like a kind of self-persuasion."

"True relief is not forgetting or deliberately not thinking about it, but a real letting go, a subjective change from the heart, a calm mood, no waves, even if you mention it again, you can easily laugh it off, this is complete relief. .”

Rather than the protagonist, it has almost become an attitude of showing others and yourself.

"A mirror image, indeed."

Osamu Dazai on the other end of the phone raised his eyes and looked out of the dark window, his reflection reflected on the glass, calm.

"What if this ending is considered happy?"

There was no wave in his voice, just a simple narration.

"I don't think it's a mirror image, but it's really considered a happy ending."

"You mean..."

Oda Sakunosuke's body froze in place, and instantly understood what the other party meant.

A happy ending, this kind of fantasy is considered a happy ending, and this kind of forceful thinking is considered a happy ending.

But this is obviously sad, isn't it?

"But this is consummation, at least in line with the conventional sense of consummation."

Dazai Osamu's voice interrupted Oda Sakunosuke's thoughts.

"No one is sad, no one has an accident, the protagonist has also integrated into a foreign land, and everyone is 'happy'. Isn't this the consummation in the eyes of the public?"

But is the protagonist really "happy"?

Oda Sakunosuke retorted subconsciously.

"No, but..."

"if not?"

Dazai Osamu's voice was still calm, he asked back.

"Otherwise what else?"

"..."

Oda Sakunosuke fell silent suddenly, he wanted to say something, but found that he just moved his lips, but he couldn't make the slightest sound.

What else could it be?

He followed this question to ask himself.Then, he found that there didn't seem to be any correct answers.

Is it necessary for the "protagonist" to return to his hometown?But he...or she, there is no way to leave, right?

There was silence in the air for a while, and there was silence at both ends through the mobile phone.

Suddenly, Osamu Dazai's voice sounded.

"Although there is a saying to read the author through the article, don't always substitute the novel into the author."

Osamu Dazai stared at the moths outside the window that were attracted by the light and hit the glass, his voice was telling the certainty of the facts.

"I know what you're worried about, but as long as you're fine, Qianli won't let anything happen to you. The rest..."

Even Oda Saku can't compare to the existence, so people can't ignore it, can't they?The most important thing is that even if Oda Saku can really understand himself, it doesn't mean that he can really understand and pull back Qianli.

Although Qianli and himself are similar, they are completely different.

Osamu Dazai paused, but did not say the rest.

"So be it."

He said.

"Excessive concern is stress, so be it."

The stagnant air made the two ends fall into silence again. After a long time, it was Oda Sakunosuke who spoke first.

"I reject."

His gaze came to the remaining end of "Foreign Land" on the computer again, and he gave his own answer.

"I'll find a way without overdoing it."

But there is no way?

Oda Sakunosuke asked himself again, and found that he didn't know either.

But there will always be, he can do it little by little, unobtrusively, or maybe...

The bright light curtain of the computer moved in those blue eyes. Oda Sakunosuke opened the drawer, took out a notebook, opened it, and stared at the blank pages for a long time.

Or, can he express himself in a novel?

……

The new novel "A Foreign Land" went on sale soon after it was warmed up. While admiring that Teacher Qianli had released a new book, book fans excitedly lined up in a long line at the bookstore. After buying the book, they read it as soon as possible.

As a member of the logistics department of the port mafia, it is not unusual for Tanaka to have Sensei’s new novel on the purchase list arranged by his boss, Bushi. He himself once had a fight with other members in the cafeteria because of a certain point of view. Three hundred rounds.

After shopping (the emphasis is on buying enough books), he dragged his heavy bag back to the Hong Kong/Black Building.

As soon as I went back, I was surrounded by my colleagues.

"Buy enough, buy enough, didn't you see that I took the cart?"

As soon as Tanaka moved the bag to the ground, he saw his colleagues looting it with green eyes like hungry wolves who hadn't eaten. He hurried to the corner with the new book that he took out in advance for him in his arms. He was not surprised by this scene.

What a joke, if anyone is not excited to see Teacher Qianli's new book, he is definitely not from Yokohama!

Those Yokohama people are all proud of Mr. Qianli in Yokohama!And Mr. Qianli is probably also a native of Yokohama. What is this?This is glory!

This was the last task of the company, and Tanaka thought it would be fine to go home, not to mention that he wanted to read the novel first, so he just read "A Foreign Land" in the corner.

I really can't fall asleep without watching it first.Speaking of which, is the story this time about the protagonist going far away?

With such doubts in mind, he turned to the first page of the novel and began to read it with a serious attitude.

Immersed in the world of the novel, the passage of time is imperceptible.Tanaka tried to turn the page backward again in a daze, but the touch in his hand told him that there was no page left to turn.

He has finished reading it.

After realizing such a fact, he let out a long sigh of relief as he looked at the book in his hand with a sense of loss.

Seeing the back, I almost burst into tears, and finally this feeling of loss...

Fortunately, the ending is good, and the protagonist has also integrated into a foreign land. Although it seems that there is something wrong there and a bit awkward, but that should be because I didn't take it seriously, right?

It's rare to see a really happy ending. Teacher Qianli must be in a good mood recently, right?

Thinking of this, when Tanaka stood up and wanted to move his stiff body, his ears, which were no longer shielded from external sounds by his brain, suddenly heard a resentful inhalation sound.

He turned his head to the left in a daze, and what caught his eyes was his colleague holding a tissue with red eyes and a strange look of a macho man crying.

Tanaka: ? ? ?

No, brother, what's the matter with you?

"See, I laughed."

The colleague who realized that his appearance was noticed by Tanaka next to him forced a smile.

"Mr. Qianli's "Foreign Land" is so good, I couldn't help but read it..."

As he spoke, he couldn't help but wiped his eyes again, and began to ramble.

"Tanaka-kun, you don't know. I'm a foreigner. I came to Yokohama five years ago because of some things. I didn't expect to be here for so many years. Now I suddenly saw this novel, and I couldn't help it..."

Speaking of this, the colleague's eyes were red again.

"The protagonist is so miserable. I want to ask for leave to go back to my hometown to have a look. I haven't been home for a long time, and I don't know how my father and mother are now. How much rhubarb at home has grown..."

"Ok?"

Hearing what his colleague said more and more, Tanaka frowned, feeling that something was wrong.

It's fine if you're homesick, but what's up with that sentence "The protagonist is miserable"?Have you missed something?