Dujun love

On the day when Nian An woke up, the ice and snow had just melted, and the snow that had melted for half a month finally drifted away with the wind, as if the accumulated snow in people's hearts had finally melted away.

Just when everyone thought Nian An would never wake up again, when Qin Yuan was already six years old, Nian An woke up.

That day, Qin Xi wiped Nian'an's body as usual, put on all of Nian'an's coats, looked at Nian'an's calmness as always, smiled and kissed Nian'an's mouth again, and said: "The snow outside today It’s about to melt, when will I take you out for a walk, okay? Yu’er learned from Guozi yesterday, and was still talking about those delicious things, saying that he will buy them for his father when he wakes up, and I’ll give them to him I have saved up all the money, and said that as long as you wake up, I will buy you everything."

Still like the past five years, Qin Xi didn't get the answer she wanted, and she was neither angry nor angry, just lying beside Nian An, holding Nian An's hand in her own, and talking to Nian An sentence by sentence. Trivial things, sometimes read poems to Nian An, sometimes tell him that Yan Qing and Xu Zhu are about to get married, and then ask him what to do with Zhuo Yun and Yu Yu's marriage, what Qin Yu'an learned in Guozixue , How much I miss him waking up today.But he didn't say a word about how much he wanted him to wake up, because he didn't dare to say it, he was afraid that if Nian An heard it, he would never wake up again.

He believed that Nian'an would wake up one day. His An'er would consider others the most, knowing that there were so many people waiting for him, he would definitely not just sleep like this for a long time, and would definitely wake up sooner.

Just when Qin Xi was about to fall asleep next to Nian An, Nian An moved her hand slightly, as if it was an illusion. It moved slightly in Qin Xi's palm, but Qin Xi knew that it was not an illusion. Qin Xi got up hurriedly, tears fell down all of a sudden, he touched Nian An's hand tremblingly, and asked one by one: "An'er...are you awake...are you awake?" Qin Xi stumbled He rushed to Qin Zun's main hall, pounded on the door like crazy, and shouted hysterically: "Xi Feng! An'er seems to be waking up! Xi Feng!"

Li Shun heard Qin Xi's movement in his sleep and ran over in a hurry, Yan Qing Yuyu and others followed closely behind, all waiting in the outer hall where Nian'an was, Xi Feng hurriedly passed through the inner hall. A coat came to check Nian'an's pulse, and poked silver needles into several important acupuncture points. Seeing Nian'an's forehead wrinkled, Xi Feng smiled and said, "I'm about to wake up! It looks like he's finally waking up."

Qin Zun pulled Xi Feng's sleeve, couldn't help crying, and said, "Xiao An, wake up quickly, we've been waiting for you for a long time, don't sleep anymore."

Xi Feng said: "Go back and rest, I don't know when I will wake up, Qin Xi just stay here."

Qin Xi nodded, "Yes, let's all go back." After sending everyone away, Qin Xi stayed by Nian'an's side all night, fearing that Nian'an would lose control of his emotions when he woke up, so she called Yan Qing accompanied her in the outer hall, waiting together. That night, Qin Xi was like a river with its gates opened, and the words she spoke were like rivers flowing uncleanly.

"Just open your eyes when you wake up, okay? I know I'm wrong... Yu'er said that he wants to talk to you, learn to write poems from you, and paint with you. I heard that the ink paintings drawn by Shi Mo from Nanshan are very beautiful. Do you want to try it?"

When Nian An woke up, he heard Qin Xi tell him these things. When he opened his eyes, the man with stubble and tears on his face was imprinted in his eyes. man.I don't know how long it's been since we last saw each other, it seems like it was just yesterday, but Qin Xi seems to have aged a lot, her heart screamed his name in her dream, the man who went up the mountain of swords and down the sea of ​​fire for him in the dream turned into The look in front of him is no longer high-spirited or heroic.

Qin Xi found that when Nian An opened his eyes, the tears he had finally suppressed poured out again, he was so happy that he couldn't speak, Nian An had no expression on his face, but tears flowed from the corners of his eyes continuously It was so crystal clear that it broke Qin Xi's heart.

"I'll pour water for you." As he spoke, he brought a glass of water over and helped Nian'an to drink it down. Qin Xi couldn't stop the tears in his eyes. He didn't shed them for so many nights in the past five years. After crying, I think every day that if Nian An wakes up one day, I will definitely not want to see him like this, so I have been enduring it all the time, but today, seeing Nian An who finally opened his eyes, I can no longer bear it. Can't stop.

During those countless nights, he was thinking about what to say to Nian An, how to make him forgive himself, but the longer the time, the more numb he became, the more afraid that this day would come, and that Nian An would never wake up again. , and also afraid that Nian An would wake up, tangled and complicated.He felt that he was deceiving himself and others, but finally figured it out, as long as Nian Anken forgives him, it's okay to be a cow and a horse to Nian An for the rest of his life.

Nian An didn't speak, she didn't know what she was thinking, she just turned her head away on the bed, wanted to move her body but felt uncomfortable all over, and couldn't use any strength, but Qin Xi got up from the bed, knelt by the bed, Say to Nian An word by word: "An'er, I was wrong... I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong..." Qin Xi's voice choked for a moment, tremblingly said: "Can you stop being angry with me again? , can you forgive me in the end...Forgive me just once...Just once... If I make a mess again...I, Qin Xi, don't stop you from doing anything..."

Nian'an closed his eyes, and a lot of tears flowed from his eyes, and said in a hoarse voice: "Qin Xi, you go out, I want to be quiet..."

Qin Xi interrupted: "Listen to me first. In the past five years, I know that no matter what I do, I can't make up for the pain I caused you. I want to die instead of you and suffer that kind of harm on your behalf. ,I'm not human."

Qin Xi cried badly, and said again: "But you can't torture yourself, you come to torture me, you don't torture yourself, I am sorry for you, you come to me, in the next life I will be your cow and horse, Qin Xi, but Don't fall asleep and refuse to wake up..."

"I know, you hate me, hate me to the bone, you blame me, blame me to the marrow, but you can't...you can't use yourself to torture me...I hate myself too, shameless, dirty... "

"But I really can't live without you. Now that you let me go, I dare not leave. I'm afraid that you'll faint like that again in a fit of anger. I'm afraid that your life and death will be as unpredictable as five years ago. I'm really afraid. In the past five years, I have been afraid every day, I dare not fall asleep, I am afraid that when I wake up, you have no breath, no heartbeat, I am afraid that I will really lose you just like that.” There was such a terrible Thoughts, he hoped that Nian'an would never wake up, so that he would be his Nian'an for the rest of his life.

"An'er...I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for you...I owe you what I owe you in this life, and I will use my life to pay it back. I...I'll let Yan Qing come in to accompany you."

Qin Xi was so choked up that he couldn't speak, Nian An's tears fell onto the pillow, before he could react, Qin Xi had already walked out of the inner hall and asked Yan Qing to come in.

Yan Qing heard that Nian An woke up and cried badly, squatting on the side of Nian An's couch, and said after a long time: "Master, you finally woke up."

Nian An turned his head and saw Yan Qing who hadn't seen him for a long time. Yan Qing's hair was half rolled up, and she looked much more mature, and she seemed to be able to take care of herself. Nian An smiled and said, "Why are you crying like this?" , Am I back now?"

Yan Qing bit her lip, and said: "Young master has been sleeping for five years... Now that you are awake, everything is fine. I will call Yu Yu, Zhuo Yun and sister Biqing." Saying that, Yan Qing was about to go out .

Nian An looked at the unfamiliar place and asked, "Where is this place?"

"This is Prince Qin's Mansion. Five years ago, when the young master was brought back from the frontier by the prince, he brought him here. I didn't expect to stay here for five years."

Nian An remembered that it was Qin Xi who brought him back, how could it be Qin Zun, so he asked suspiciously: "Didn't Qin Xi bring me back?" That day, there was a heavy snowstorm, and it was obviously Qin Xi who brought him back regardless of everything , Before falling asleep, I remembered what it looked like here, but I didn't know where it was.

Yan Qing said: "It's not the fourth prince, but the prince Qin Xi. After the first emperor abdicated, he gave himself the title of 'Beichun'." Yan Qing knew that Nian'an was called Nanqiu, so she said this The only thing is to hope that Nian'an can be moved.

"Beichun... When did Qin Xi step aside...why did he step down?" It seems that he has missed a lot in the past five years.

"After the young master fell asleep, the prince became depressed day by day and ignored state affairs. He stayed in this Mingxue Palace for a year, and the affairs of the court were handled by Jinghe prince. Leave everything to the prince, and stay here for five years."

"It's been five years... so it's really been five years... I didn't expect it to be five years..."

"The little prince Yu'an is already six years old. He comes to see the young master every day. He and the prince stay with the young master for an afternoon or a night. Sometimes the young prince will fall asleep here directly, and the prince will hold him and the young master. Sleeping together, the prince has never loved the little prince like that, since the son fell asleep, the prince seems to have changed, he is no longer the prince before."

"My lord won't let us do some things for you. I will squeeze and massage the young master's body every day, wipe the body for the young master, and handle the housework for the young master. I will wait by the young master's side almost every moment, waiting for the young master to wake up..."

Nian An couldn't hold back the tears that he had managed to hold back, and Nian An tremblingly said: "Yan Qing...don't say it..."

"My lord... the maidservants go and call Sister Biqing and the Fourth Prince."

Nian An said: "No, it's already so late, let them come again tomorrow morning."

"Young master, you must wake up tomorrow."

"Okay, definitely."