Long night streamer

Ever since he fell in love with Zhou Langye, Bai Hui had a vague premonition that Zhou Langye would be the kind of person who could come and go freely, and he might have to wait for a long time before hearing any response.

The one who is tempted first always falls faster, and is more likely to blindly follow the inner impulse.Bai Hui doesn't know if his unrequited love looks stubborn and stupid, but he has never flinched, and he can always feel the changes in Zhou Langye from the details of getting along, becoming gentler or more patient, So be encouraged.

But when he heard Zhou Langye say "don't be so nice to others in the future", the silent and severe pain still surged up, and it went out hard in Bai Hui's heart.He couldn't pretend nothing happened, he just wanted to escape at this moment.

He pushed Zhou Langye's hand away and tried to walk away, but Zhou Langye held him back.

Bai Hui didn't control himself well, and at the same time he broke free, a drop of tear fell vertically on the back of Zhou Langye's hand.

Both of them stayed in place.

Bai Hui wiped his face with his hand, and interrupted Zhou Langye before he could speak, saying, "I'm fine."

Zhou Langye probably didn't expect him to cry, so he was a little at a loss, "Bai Hui, what I meant just now..."

However, Bai Hui interrupted him again, pretending to be meaningless, "I know, seniors don't like relationships without a sense of propriety. I should order takeaway or tell Aunt Qin to go to work early instead of asking for leave to cook porridge for you at home. Wait for me A little more mature, and I'll handle it better, just like you."

He frowned, and the faster he spoke later, there was an unconcealable grievance in his expression.

Zhou Langye had already started to regret it, before he could figure out how to coax him, Bai Hui wiped off his hand and walked out of the kitchen quickly.

Zhou Langye stood alone for a while, seeing Bai Hui's stubborn and helpless appearance.He turned around and poured out a bowl of porridge for himself, blew on the cooling air, tasted it, put the bowl down again, and decided to apologize.

Bai Hui had already packed his schoolbag and was about to go out, but Zhou Langye stopped him in the corridor.

"My fever hasn't gone away..." Zhou Langye's tone sounded awkwardly resigned, "Didn't you ask for a day off, just stay at home with me."

The tails of Bai Hui's eyes were slightly astringent, and he took half a step back to distance himself from him, "Aunt Qin will be here in the afternoon, you can eat porridge before going to bed." As he spoke, he raised his eyes to look at Zhou Langye, "I'm going out now You can still catch up with the last class at school."——It was a tone that obviously wanted to be angry, but couldn't attack Zhou Langye.

There was a moment of stalemate between the two.Bai Hui tugged at the belt, showing no intention of giving in.

"When I woke up this morning, I regretted what I did to you last night..." Zhou Langye sighed. I should have desire for you, let alone accept your feelings at this time."

Bai Hui was stunned, Zhou Langye turned his head away, coughed shortly, and said, "Bai Hui, when people meet, you may have to pay attention to the timing. You saw me at the 16th birthday party This time when I meet again after returning to China, it is not a very good time. What I said just now is not so much to remind you, but to remind myself..."

Zhou Langye turned away again, frowning to resist the urge to cough.Bai Hui saw his discomfort, and the resentment in his heart disappeared. He reached out and patted his back, and said, "Senior, I won't go to school anymore, let's talk at another time."

Zhou Langye shook his head, and when he spoke again, his voice was low and hoarse, "My mother committed suicide by swallowing a gun. The scene was very tragic. I took two courses of psychological treatment, and then I slowly got rid of the shadow of her suicide." .

——It has been almost a year since Gu Chan passed away, this is the first time Zhou Langye mentioned his mother's death to others.

"After I returned to Vancouver four years ago, I also thought about living outside without restraint. But with the matter of my mother, there is no way to let it go. The Zhou family has deep roots here, and I can fight them alone. There may not be a chance of winning." He looked at Bai Hui with a calm expression, but there was an imperceptible tenderness in his eyes, "If you miss in the end, if you follow me, maybe you will be implicated."

Bai Hui had heard some rumors and imagined various possibilities of Zhou Langye's return to China, knowing that his relationship with his biological father and the whole family was not as harmonious as it appeared on the surface.But I was still very surprised to hear him tell the origin of it.

He was still digesting the information in his mind, and he had already said, "I'm not afraid, you don't have to worry about me."

Zhou Langye squinted a lazy smile, not wanting to break Bai Hui's innocence, but just asked him, "Are you still going to school? If you want to go, I'll call the driver for you."

Bai Hui put down the schoolbag in his hand and said, "I'm not going."

Zhou Langye was also exhausted, he was not used to talking so much about himself.Now that the person has been coaxed, he felt relieved, thinking about the bowl of porridge, so he turned and walked inside.

Bai Hui followed him, walked a few steps, and suddenly hugged him from behind.

Zhou Langye didn't seem surprised by this hug.Bai Hui hugged him very tightly, didn't speak at first, just folded his arms sullenly, and leaned on his back.Zhou Langye let him hug him, a few thoughts flashed in his mind for no reason, but they disappeared quickly before he could think about it.

He admitted that he had feelings for Bai Hui, especially after he had a high fever last night, that feeling was extremely strong, if his brain hadn't burned out, he might have taken Bai Hui directly.But he also knows who he is. For one thing, his mind is not on feelings. Bai Hui is more like a decompression artifact that he keeps by his side—accompany him to drink and watch movies late at night, wait for the door for him, and stay quietly. Beside him, occasionally chatting about the life of the drama school, in short, both movement and stillness are suitable.

Furthermore, even if Zhou Langye didn't bear any painful and tortuous life experience, he didn't think he was a good love partner.He didn't have the opportunity to grow up in a healthy family, lacked long-term love and sense of responsibility, and lived a life of being drunk today.With him, Bai Hui could enjoy the excitement and fall in love, but in the end, he couldn't count on Zhou Langye to promise him, or stay together for a long time.

Zhou Langye probably still has a conscience, so he never broke through that bottom line with Bai Hui, and wanted to leave a way out for his little friend.

But that tear from Bai Hui just now made him a little dazed.

For the first time, he felt a sense of indebtedness, feeling that he was too scumbag.

So he made a heart-to-heart exchange with Bai Hui once. This may be the first time he has made a heart-to-heart exchange with someone since he was an adult.Telling the truth about his mother's death, vaguely mentioning his purpose of returning to China, and showing his unwillingness to get involved with Bai Hui, it sounded a bit sincere, and he almost believed it himself.

"Senior, I didn't know that Aunt Gu left like this, I shouldn't ask you to mention this..."

Bai Hui became the Bai Hui that Zhou Langye was familiar with. Just now Zhou Langye told him "don't be too nice to others", but he seemed to have completely forgotten it, and then said something like "in the future, don't treat things too well." Bored in my heart", or "I will accompany you next time you visit Aunt Gu's grave".

It's strange, Zhou Langye also has trustworthy friends, such as Shen Zhuo, such as overseas classmates.They have all comforted him, and only a few words were spoken during drinking parties.But when the same words came out of Bai Hui's mouth, there was a special magical power, as if it could really appease Zhou Langye.

Regarding Gu Chan's suicide, Zhou Langye's feelings have always been complicated.One year before Gu Chan's death, her mental state was already very unstable. Zhou Langye had been stabbed twice by her, and there are still stitched scars on his arms.Gu Chan probably transferred all her hatred for Zhou Ze to Zhou Langye, often forcing him to kneel down to her.

Zhou Langye had nothing to say, he and Gu Chan were once a mother and son with deep affection, so he knelt down to Gu Chan countless times in that year.The longest time, he knelt at the door of Gu Chan's bedroom for nearly two hours until Gu Chan fell asleep. When he got up, his knees seemed to have been rubbed back and forth by sandpaper, and he couldn't stand firmly on his feet.

Repeatedly enduring the hurt and torment from his mother may have made him a little bit psychologically prepared to accept the last and worst outcome.In a sense, Gu Chan was finally freed from Zhou Ze's imprisonment, and she left all the years of hatred to Zhou Langye.

Zhou Langye didn't know what was going on with him today, why he had so many associations because of Bai Hui.He turned to face Bai Hui, and inadvertently smelled a faint fragrance.

Then I remembered the bottle of Diptyque I bought, and asked, "Did you use the perfume I gave you?"

Bai Hui gave an ambiguous "hmm" and didn't answer directly.

Zhou Langye moved closer, even though his sense of smell was not sensitive enough, he still felt that the smell matched Bai Hui very well, "Why did you suddenly think of using this bottle?"

"I just took it..." Bai Hui's eyes dodged a little.

Zhou Langye had a better understanding and said with a smile, "Every time I make you angry, do you just use perfume to make up for it?"

——He judged from Bai Hui's expression that he had guessed right.

Bai Hui would not lie to Zhou Langye, so he reluctantly admitted, "Senior, you know how to read minds."

This Bai Hui's unique way of forgiving made Zhou Langye's heart soften, and he said in a hoarse voice, "I will make you less angry in the future, okay?"

Bai Hui was stunned, and Zhou Langye pressed his hot forehead lightly against one side of his face, "Since I can't keep a distance from you, then I'll get closer. Don't hold back when you're wronged, tell me, I will change it."

Zhou Langye just took a shower, wearing a clean long-sleeved T-shirt and slacks, exuding a light soapy scent.This was not the breath that Bai Hui often smelled from him, but at this moment, Bai Hui felt that he had seen another side of Zhou Langye's soul.

Even after many years, many things happened between Bai Hui and Zhou Langye.However, Bai Hui always remembered Zhou Langye's confession that was not a confession to him that day.

He thought, it's true that Zhou Langye's inner struggle all the time, it's true to cherish himself, and it's true that he is connected with each other.

Because from this day on, Zhou Langye really treated him a lot better.

The author says: