[HP] Snake

Lying on my back on my own bed that I haven't seen for a long time, in the small space isolated by the dark thick bed curtain, it was pitch black and very quiet.

Both physically and mentally, they were extremely tired, and they didn't even bother to move a finger, but they didn't feel sleepy at all.

Those scenes of the past came out of the cracks, as if they were afraid that I would forget, and they were firmly inserted into my mind.

To be honest, due to Salazar's careful care, my childhood memories are very vague, and now I can barely recall some episodes of being locked in a dark and narrow closet and starving.

The Dursleys are my only surviving blood relatives. I have been with them day and night for nine years. For them, I have had expectations, disappointments, love, and hatred.

However, all of this gradually disappeared after I accepted Salazar as my father.

Salazar is the first person in my life who really puts me in the palm of his hand and loves me.

And this kind of pampering is exactly what I could never ask for.

I have also been confused about the relationship between me and him. It can even be said that I have been tempted by him.

After all, his kindness to me came too quickly, without warning or reason, making it impossible not to suspect his motives.

The sudden happiness made people feel extremely anxious. In the first period of time, I was even ready to pay the price, and even ready to be abandoned again at any time.

However, nothing that I expected happened.Salazar's attitude towards me has always been the same, and with his sincerity, he eliminated all my trembling little by little.

The unprecedented sweetness and happiness made me completely unable to control my thoughts.

More than once, I've stared salivating at the warm smile on his lips, and then, trying to kiss it, I've turned my head and kissed him on the cheek, pretending it was just father-son intimacy.

Maybe he knows my thoughts.

Countless times, just when I was about to speak, he averted his eyes and changed the subject with the perfect excuse.

This not-so-secret taboo made me gradually lose my mind.

However, what really made me let go was after being haunted by that shameful experience for the first time.

That was the first time I felt so clearly how dirty I was.

Even though he still doesn't understand that kind of thing very well, he can vaguely understand that he who has gone through those experiences is not worthy of the excellent and almost perfect Salazar.

Heh, from the way he gave me to cure my heart disease, I can tell that he doesn't care about me at all.

That night, he drank tea quietly by the bed, as if he was watching a play, which I will never forget for the rest of my life.

The sudden strong sense of grievance suddenly overwhelmed my self-righteous persistence.

During that time, I even lingered among all kinds of men, trying to numb my feelings in this way.

Salazar saw all this, but said nothing.

Then Godric appeared.

For the first time, I found that Salazar also has the kind of hot eyes that can burn people.

For the first time, I found that Salazar would also drop etiquette and make vicious sarcasm.

For the first time, I found that Salazar would also look angry and even act impulsively.

For the first time, I found that Salazar simply couldn't accommodate anyone other than him.

Although, when the three of us got along, I had been desperately trying to hit Godric in various ways, but I knew that I was far, far behind him.

I, and even Salazar, often satirize Godric, call him reckless, impulsive, self-righteous, call him an idiot, a stupid lion.

However, we all know that these are not facts.

Godric is a true hero, with noble birth, elegant demeanor, handsome appearance, cheerful personality, brave and very confident, and his own strength is one of the most powerful in the magic world.

In the relationship between the three, if Salazar is a strict rather than loving father, then Godric is always caring for our mother with a tolerant attitude.

Of course, if he heard me say that, he would be so angry.

However, I liked seeing him pissed off, just as I liked seeing Salazar watching our mess with a warm smile.

I always knew what a weak guy I was.

Escaped again and again, even at the expense of Salazar's wishes, and devoted himself to all kinds of difficult research and exploration, so that he could avoid those uncontrollable sour pains.

By the time you really realize that you let go, it's already too late.

The matter of Salazar and Godric came too suddenly, and the bone-chilling despair drove me into madness.

In the two years after I returned to the millennium, I gradually sorted out my feelings.

Too timid to find out what was going on with them, powerlessly deluding myself that they were not dead, that they were still somewhere, alive and well.

Until, meeting Severus.

Until, back to Hogwarts.

The desire without warning made me gradually understand the guidance of Merlin that Salazar mentioned at the beginning. Just like Salazar's precious love to me, my feelings for Severus are completely beyond words.

This strange emotion, mixed with the despair of losing Salazar and the others, almost completely crushed me.

Like a drowning man clutching at the last straw, I approached Severus almost shamelessly, with an inescapable confession, a sneaky kiss, a scheming seduction, and even, the madness that concealed everything night.

At first, my mind was not pure.

My confession, my kiss, and my seduction all carry some meaning that cannot be expressed in words.

While feeling disgusted and contemptuous of my despicable behavior, I couldn't control myself at all, and made even worse despicable things.

Those mutations in my body, I even thought that this was Merlin's punishment for me, and I even expected death that might appear.

Severus and I are really very similar, the sufferings of childhood, the appearance and disappearance of sunshine in life, and even the kind of self-contempt that is almost sad.

When I learned that we were soul mates, I felt that all this was really a cruel joke played by Merlin.

Joy, almost ecstasy, perfectly concealed the trace of panic in my heart.

Using all kinds of excuses, even slandering his biological mother, he tried his best not to think about Severus' extremely forbearing, but also extremely miserable love.

However, how could I, who had impure thoughts towards him, and who did such despicable things to him, be worthy of the perfect love given by that man.

No matter how much I try to deceive myself, it has come to this day, and my concealment has finally reached its limit.

Let go of that despicable self and wait for the trial of your lover...

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Mr. Slytherin, what the hell are you doing? !It seemed that his deep growl at that time could be heard again in his ears, and he seemed to be able to feel the temperature of him who was close to his fingers at that time.

Professor Snape, I seem to like you.

So let me come a little closer, okay?

What the hell do you think you're doing? !Do you think you are the savior of the wizarding world, do you think you are a Slytherin who travels through time and space, and your humble Potions professor is about to fall at your feet, kiss your robe cape, and accept your teasing and humiliation? !Anger made his originally pale face rosy, and made his pitch-black eyes surprisingly bright. All of these made me addicted, and I didn't want to let go at all.

No, Professor, Professor Snape, you misunderstood!I'm telling the truth, this is not a tease, let alone a humiliation, I really like you!

My dear, this is the arrangement of fate, unless I die, otherwise, you don't want to get rid of me.

you shut up!

No!Professor, I've been thinking about it for days!Ever since I first saw you in Madam Malkin's robe shop, I've been so weird that it's hard to take my eyes off you!Later, when we met for the second time, I actually told you that kind of secret, you know what it meant to let go of your guard thousands of years ago!And that day... In short, as long as I see you approaching you, as long as I hear your voice, I feel comfortable all over. Isn't this like what is it? !Professor, I—

Honey, I like you so much, I like you so much, so don't think about leaving me.

Shut up!No!you--

Darling, don't run away from me anymore, I have nothing left, just be mine obediently, just like your lips that are now clinging to mine.

Darling, I love you so much...

Honey, stop thinking about that woman...

Darling, stop paying for that woman...

Darling, don't let yourself sink into that despair again...

You still have me……

I can give you all my potion ingredients, I can teach you all my potion knowledge, I can let you live as you want...

So, please don't leave me, even if it's just for the potion.

Jealousy, I'm jealous of everything close to you, the woman who enters your heart, even the potion that can be with you day and night...

So, even my dirty body, please don't leave.

I, really, only you...