Feng Xue

"What natal family? It's clearly her husband's family!" Jia Sheng was the first to jump out and say.

At this moment, several people were in Jia Sheng's car, Chu Xue was also pulled up by Jia Sheng, she was not in Feng Yan's car, and Jia Sheng's car also had Qin Lu, Qi Jun, Liang Fei, Rong Yi, and Ji There were seven people in Shi Yi, and they asked Chu Xue for questioning. The main purpose was to see Chu Xue's future plans and whether it was possible to go back. To be honest, since everyone has been found, frequent walking is necessary, but long distances are tiring after all. People, and such a large group of people, not to mention Chu Xue's hard work entertaining, Jia Sheng who rushed around like this would also take a lot of time to organize.

"Let me think about it again." Chu Xue didn't say anything to death, he was hesitant, and it was precisely because of these friends who were there, but he was always reluctant, and he didn't know why he was awkward.

"I said, Axue, tell me the truth, is it because of your mother that you don't want to go back?" Jia Sheng still couldn't help asking.

Chu Xue was silent for a while, then shook her head and smiled wryly, "I don't know, probably, I don't want to be found by her, but maybe she never found me."

"Maybe she also went to other cities." Jia Sheng said after a while.

Chu Xue didn't say anything. He realized that he was indeed avoiding this matter. If there was anything that made him saddest and hit him the hardest, it was the fact that his mother abandoned him and his father left. Of course it was a blow to him, but no one can avoid birth, old age, sickness and death. However, being abandoned like this made him unbearable, as if money was more important than his son, and family was even more dispensable. This choice just confirmed For many years, his mother was obsessed with mahjong, so the death of his father made Chu Xue even more sad.

As for Feng Yan, most of Chu Xue's sadness came from regret, but she was also glad that Feng Yan didn't see him in such a mess. He was still a face-saving character at that time. In terms of being able to help Feng Yan, once he can't protect himself, then it may be useless to show kindness again. Because he has no confidence in himself, he thinks about Feng Yan quite badly, and feels that Feng Yan Yan only agreed to date for the sake of repaying his favor. The foundation of everything is so weak that he has always been uneasy and at a loss for his relationship. Thinking about it now, without that incident back then, he and Feng Yan would not have lasted long. It is bound to still be separated, and such a separation will only be worse, I am afraid that even the slightest goodwill that may exist will be wiped out completely.

"I'm not saying that she is your mother after all, but this has become a knot in your heart. It's better to let her come to your door. It's not always a way to escape blindly." It was Qin Lu who said this, and he had to say I am also quite touched by this, because Xiao Jiu was also abandoned by his mother. The difference is that Xiao Jiu's mother has no relationship with him, so it makes no difference to him whether he leaves, and Xiao Jiu is still young. Chu Xue will not feel like this.

"I'll think about it again. Don't rush me." Chu Xue knew that she couldn't bear to say that she wouldn't go back, especially when facing this group of people. As Qin Lu said, he had a knot in his heart, but He didn't even want to go back and wait for the unsurprising result, as if he still had expectations for his mother, not going back was escaping, going back seemed to be looking forward to, anyway it made him uncomfortable.

"Don't urge, don't urge, we've been waiting for five years anyway, let's see how many more years you have to toss." Ji Shiyi said with a smile.

"Don't keep talking about me, I'm pretty good, tell me about you, what's going on with Xiaojiu? How can there be so many mothers in the world who have given birth to children but can cruelly abandon them?" In any case, Chu Xue was still optimistic. Yes, even so, he still feels that there are more mothers who love their children in the world, and fewer mothers who throw them away.

The child is four years old, so Qin Lu talked about his affairs quite calmly at the moment, even when he said it, it felt as if a long time had passed.

Like Chu Xue, Qin Lu likes boys, but unfortunately the boy he likes is straight. Qin Lu doesn't expect too much, and always gets along with him as a teammate. I like it, because that boy is very carefree in this regard, and he is very casual with girls, but sometimes it doesn't make sense to like someone, probably because of the boy's loyalty and heroism that made Qin Lu naturally attracted to that boy, their basketball The team is very famous, and the boy he likes is like a savior, who can make people outside the basketball team crazy, and he is in the team, and he is really encouraged and motivated in every basketball game , He hides his favorite heart very deeply, except for the game, he will never express his enthusiasm, so that he seems to be outside the basketball team, but he has excellent skills, and the team will not celebrate every time Forget about him, he would rather be forgotten by the team members, because this way he doesn't have to watch the boy he likes put his arms around other girls and talk intimately with him.

Qin Lu had no intention of breaking the status quo, he wanted to at least leave a good impression on the boys, for example, "a good passer among the teammates of the same school team", this is enough, no more he thinks it is unnecessary, the melon that is twisted is not sweet , besides whether people give you twists or not, Qin Lu is not without confidence in himself. If he is heterosexual and likes a girl, then he will definitely pursue her. Going further, even if he is gay, he likes The boy on the Internet is the same as him, he will not be silent, but the other party is the most obvious heterosexual, he asked himself that he does not have such confidence to change the sexual orientation of others, so he did not say a word, waiting for this period of secret love Slowly, Qin Lu is very confident about this matter. He has always believed in the life creed of "people need to restrain themselves, otherwise they are not human".

However, some derailment disrupted Qin Lu's rhythm. The boy's ex-girlfriend got pregnant before marriage. She fell in love with the boy and decided to give birth to the child even if she dropped out of school. This incident alarmed the adults on both sides. The boy knew that I'm sorry, but there are many factors involved in this matter, including the fact that the ex-girlfriend designed the boy during the relationship, and the teammate helped his ex-girlfriend to get the boy drunk because of jealousy of the boy. After being conceived, boys can only accept their fate.But resigning to fate does not mean that he can turn back. Although the boy broke up with his current girlfriend because of this, it is impossible for him to be attracted to such an ex-girlfriend again. In fact, he felt disgusted from the bottom of his heart. It also gradually went to extremes. He went to the hospital several times and demanded too much from the boys, forcing the boys to increase their psychological pressure. Later, the team lost frequently. The boys tried to cheer up but failed several times, so that his temper He became more and more irritable, started drinking and fighting, and finally after breaking an arm again, he rushed to the girls' ward, his eyes became uncontrollably vicious and ferocious: "I have become like this, are you satisfied? What do you want from me?" Like? If you like a trash, I will give you a trash, you say you love me, I hope you don’t regret your words!" He began to punish his ex-girlfriend with his depravity, and from that day on, The boy changed. He gave up basketball and stopped going to school. He felt that he could do whatever he wanted, and there was nothing he had to do.At this time, the ex-girlfriend found that everything deviated from what she thought, and she didn't know what to do. The child in her stomach became her burden. It was so strange to her, and it seemed that she was no longer attached. She finally realized that what she insisted on doing was irreversible.

Because the boy quit the team, Qin Lu also quit. As a bystander, Qin Lu sympathized with the boy, but he sympathized more with the child. The advantage of heterosexuality is that you can get married and have children, but when the child is designed , How pitiful it should be, he is a pawn used by mother to tie father, not the crystallization of love, homosexuals can't do this, and there is no such burden, so there is no connection between each other Become very fragile, as if there is no security.But is marriage really a guarantee?Isn't marriage sometimes a bondage?There are countless couples in this world who obviously don't love each other, but still want to be together for the sake of their children. His parents are like this, but they still divorced later, which is easier for him.

Qin Lu thought for a long time and made a decision. He went to find his ex-girlfriend and told her about his decision.

"If you want this child very much, then pretend that I didn't say anything. If not, can you give the child to me, and I will take good care of him. You are still young, and you will always have a boyfriend and get married in the future , it’s inconvenient to bring a child after all, I can guarantee that you will always be his mother, if his father is willing to accept him in the future, I am also happy to see it, now there is only one more person who loves him.”

The ex-girlfriend was very puzzled. She was not familiar with Qin Lu, so she couldn't imagine why Qin Lu proposed it, because it sounded like it would not benefit him at all.

Qin Lu didn't hide it from her. His proposal was unthinkable. If there was no clear reason, even if she didn't love the child, it would be impossible for her to just give the child to someone she didn't know well.

"I was born gay, and I won't have any children in the future. If the child is brought to me, he will not have a new mother in the future. If he is lucky, he will probably have another father. As for the reason why I am willing to love this child, You must have guessed it, because I am in love with the same person as you."

This is the beginning of Qin Jiu being accepted into his life. He originally planned to quietly wait for the love time to pass, but the appearance of this little life made him decide to take this step. In fact, he still asked his ex-girlfriend to help him keep it secret. , lied that he was her current boyfriend, he took this step, just to complete himself, and the child is too innocent, if no one wants him, he will!Besides, he didn't want to tie anyone up with a child, it was meaningless.He is just willing to take time to take care of this child, and he also wants to transfer his full love to this child.

"What about Xiaojiu's biological parents?" Chu Xue could probably understand Qin Lu's decision. If that person was Feng Yan, he would be willing to take Feng Yan's child with him, but he didn't agree with Qin Lu's decision to hide the truth. But everyone's choice is different, maybe the person Qin Lu likes is too straightforward, so that Qin Lu's decision is actually correct.

"They all left. After the child was born, Mucheng left the moment he was told that he didn't need to get married or even take care of the child. It is said that he changed a school for another year. He was still very depressed when he left, and he didn't because I'm not sure what's going to happen to him, hopefully he can get back on his feet."

Chu Xue was silent for a moment, then asked again: "Then how can Xiao Jiu have parents, don't his grandparents have any opinions on this matter?"

"Chu Yan's parents often come to see him. Mu Cheng's parents probably hate Chu Yan to death. The fact that Chu Yan planned to conceive Mu Cheng's child has always made them worry about him. They probably still think that Chu Yan did this. It killed Mucheng, so I have never had any contact with them."

"It's no wonder..."

"Actually, it's nothing. As long as I think of Mucheng being heterosexual, I don't want to develop with him, because it will be very tiring, and raising a child may really be more suitable for me. Children are very natural, and I can do whatever I say. , and at that time I wanted a sustenance, and felt that the love that could not be vented was not healthy for my body and mind. The birth of this child might be a disaster for Chu Yan and Mucheng, but to me, it was a treasure. The world is really wonderful, as if it fulfilled a heart that I couldn't ask for."

"A lot of things still depend on how you think, it's just a matter of one thought, but if Chu Yan is not so paranoid, there will be no such cute Xiaojiu." Ji Shiyi said from the side.

Xiao Jiu is really cute. Qin Lu doesn't restrict him too much. He can give him whatever he likes, but he won't spoil him. Generally speaking, Qin Lu raises Qin Jiu very well. Being naughty is inevitable. , children of this age are so energetic that they can't stop for a second, but they are also very obedient and willing to reason, which makes his naughtiness not annoying to adults. Some children are completely disobedient, and even like to sing the opposite tune. Crying and yelling and refusing to stop when you are unhappy is really annoying.