camouflage amnesia

He Mu's chest heaved violently, his breathing was intermittent, and teardrops slipped out of his eyes one after another.

The secret hidden in my heart still ran out disobediently.

Whenever she thinks of these things, she will be extremely tormented. While feeling guilty, she also wants Mu Qingran to love her more, so that she won't be so scared when she is near and far away.

This kind of torture was many times more painful than the five years when he didn't see Mu Qingran.

My sister should know how despicable she really is by now, and she will definitely hate her very much.

He Mu lowered his head, not having the courage to look at Mu Qingran's expression.

Mu Qingran's heart seemed to be wrapped in a vine, and she was strangled so hard that she couldn't breathe.

She had vented anger about the death of her parents, but in fact, He Mu was just a child who didn't know anything.

It was this child who accompanied her through those long and dark days.

If she is wrong, then she is right.

It was she who didn't keep her heart, fell in love with this child, and gave her hope again and again.

But it hurt her again and again.

Mu Qingran stretched out her arms to embrace He Mu, stroking her head with her palms, and all she could do was feel sorry for her, "It wasn't your fault, I know it."

He Mu's heart was hit hard.

It seems that the scene is not the same as imagined.

But Mu Qingran's reaction made her feel even more miserable.

"Isn't it my fault?" He Mu repeated, shaking his head, "It's my fault, it's my fault to survive, I'm not qualified to ask you to be nice to me, it's wrong! I remember it but I still dare not say it , It’s even more wrong than wrong!”

Mu Qingran hugged He Mu even tighter, "You don't want me to know, so I just pretend not to know, but I don't know what else to do other than feel distressed."

She had guessed that He Mu's attitude had changed drastically since he came back that night.

He Mu's unintentional look of fear and caution let her know how ridiculous her previous thoughts were.

Seeing He Mu in pain will only make her more painful.

He Mu was not relieved by this sentence, but felt even more sad, "I thought the disguise was good, do you look like you are looking at a fool?"

Mu Qingran stroked He Mu's back and said softly, "You know I don't think so."

"How could I not be wrong? If I am not wrong, then why did you treat me so much before? Why did you always ignore me, why did you leave without saying a word, why do you remind me of you and always wake up crying from your dreams ..."

He Mu knew that what she was saying now was not what she really thought in her heart, but she still couldn't control it. The grievances accumulated over the years had already weighed her down.

She had to find excuses desperately so that she wouldn't feel so embarrassed.

But the most difficult thing was that she was thinking about Mu Qingran so much that she was going crazy.

When they met each other, they had to pretend that they didn't care at all, that they could live well without her.

Obviously not good at all.

Eating alone, shopping alone, watching movies alone, alone...what's so good?

The bad thing is not that there is only one person, but that there is no one named Mu Qingran next to him.

Mu Qingran patted He Mu on the back as if coaxing a child, she knew that He Mu just needed to vent.

If she follows such emotions, she will only fall into the mud.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I know I'm not qualified to blame you, I'm sorry..."

He Mu was constantly torn apart by the two forces, and his voice was torn apart.

Having said that, it didn't turn out that bad, and should have been happy.

But how to be happy?

He Mu was greedy for the last bit of warmth, and buried his face in his sister's neck, trying hard to remember this smell.

I don't know how long it has passed, He Mu gently pushed Mu Qingran away, "It's late, go to sleep."

She is no longer the ignorant child she used to be. She believes that Mu Qingran likes her, but to what extent and when can she like her?

Even if Mu Qingran said it wasn't her fault, she would still feel guilty.

The future is so long, maybe Mu Qingran doesn't hate her right now, what about the future?

After the enthusiasm faded, not only Mu Qingran, but she also felt wronged.

The humbleness of the past will pop up from time to time, tearing her nerves.

One day, they will think that it is not worth the effort to maintain such a relationship.

Some things, the moment of stopping, is the most beautiful moment.

Nobody ever said anything about it anyway.

There's nothing wrong with ending it there.

In this way, no one can use her to manipulate Mu Qingran.

It's time for her to let Mu Qingran go.

Mu Qingran knows what to say now, but there will be more moments like this in the future, so what should I do.

Should she selfishly pull He Mu into another world? She couldn't figure out the answer right now.

Silence surrounded the two of them.

Finally, He Mu spoke first: "The rent is due after the next year, and I will move out of your house when I go back."

I said one month at the beginning, but I didn't expect that it was really only one month.

He Mu lifted his feet and walked towards the room, but his speed was not fast.

People are so contradictory. They clearly want to end it, end it, but they still can't help but look forward to it.

Even just once, can my sister see through her inconsistency and take her hand.

Footsteps sounded behind him.

Mu Qingran stepped forward quickly, grabbed He Mu's wrist, and dragged him into the bedroom.

He Mu was thrown onto the bed, his hands and legs were imprisoned, unable to move.

"Since you know that you signed the sponsorship agreement with me, you should also remember that the contract period has not yet expired, and you haven't given me enough benefits." Mu Qingran turned over, swapped the positions of the two, and handed over the initiative to He Mu, "at least , not enough pleasure."

After finishing speaking, he quietly looked at the person on top of him.

For a long time, He Mu didn't move, only the tears broke the embankment again, and big ones fell out.

After pleasure?

Return to the original point?

Like two or three months ago, when we met, we only pursued short-term pleasure.

She can't do it anymore.

Tears hit Mu Qingran's face one by one.

Feeling the warmth on her face, Mu Qingran didn't give He Mu any time to think, and hugged her neck and kissed her.

From rejection to intoxication.

He Mu's defeat to Yu Nian, it's the last time, and it will be a full stop for them.

If it's the last time, shouldn't you use all your strength and use all the moves that you will no longer have the chance to try.

The author has something to say: I still can't hold back and Mimi makes a short update, how come there is no sugar when sending out knives?I am a sweet writer.

感谢在2021-02-0822:21:59~2021-02-0901:22:32期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: I have knocked out 1 mine;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 1 bottle of Qin Tang;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!