Mindful

Liang Cheng refused to leave the single ward if he could keep one person to accompany him. As night fell, he sent Qiao Wenyuan and He Jie home.

Qiao Yuanlin lay down for too long, after a simple wash, he went to the nursing station to get an evening newspaper, and stood in front of the window sill to write the crossword puzzle on the newspaper.Liang Cheng came in, wearing a white coat, holding two comic magazines about robbing Dr. Hu.

Qiao Yuanlin grinned, "I'm bored."

Liang Cheng stopped by the mobile table at the end of the bed and said, "Come here and lie down, and cover yourself with the quilt."

Qiao Yuanlin obeyed, grabbed the magazine and opened it half lying down.The phone rang, and Liang Cheng took out a reply message, it was Ying Xiaoqiong, asking them what time they would arrive at Seafood Club.

He completely forgot about it, and walked to another escort bed while typing.

Qiao Yuanlin called him: "Brother, don't go."

Liang Cheng returned to the hospital bed and sat down aggressively, picked up his mobile phone, and said, "What's the matter, do you still want to share the same bed here?"

Parents were not there, Qiao Yuanlin closed the cartoon, and acted like a baby with seriousness mixed in: "How about the test results? Tell me, I'm not a child anymore."

It should be according to the rules, but after treating so many patients, Liang Cheng looked forward and backward for the first time, and said: "After the meeting in Litian, I will tell you the treatment plan."

"I want to know now." Qiao Yuanlin turned cold, "If you don't tell me, I will default to death."

Liang Cheng frowned: "What nonsense are you talking about?"

After a moment of confrontation, Liang Cheng took out the three-day-old stethoscope from the pocket of his white coat, untied the knot, and said, "You have a double-chambered right ventricle, and you have other heart abnormalities. The symptoms were controllable before, but this The disease will worsen over time."

Qiao Yuanlin understood these things himself, and asked, "Has my situation become serious?"

Liang Cheng was familiar with all the test values, and replied: "The systolic pressure in the hyperbaric cavity has reached [-], and the average pressure has also exceeded the normal value. I showed the X-rays to Uncle Qiao, and he said that the pulmonary vascular texture is rarer than your last physical examination." Some."

Qiao Yuanlin showed the same expression as in high school biology class, and said worriedly: "Can you explain it in a more simple and understandable way?"

Liang Cheng stroked the corner of his mouth and said, "There's nothing to talk about. You developed mild cyanosis this morning and fell into a coma due to lack of oxygen in the car. Are you not vigilant enough?"

No wonder Qiao Yuanlin didn't notice when he hurried back, "I thought I was tired."

"You are indeed too tired, both physically and mentally." Liang Chengdao, "Your career and recent events are too heavy for you."

Qiao Yuanlin knew that he had frightened Liang Cheng, if there were signs before departure, the other party would have been terrified along the way.He took the initiative to unbutton the hospital gown, exposed his chest, and asked, "Do you want to listen?"

Liang Cheng put on the earhooks, and put the auscultation tips on without getting any heat. Qiao Yuanlin shuddered from the ice. He looked very much like a child queuing up for vaccinations. He was worried, afraid that he would say something bad again.

After listening, Liang Cheng said: "Okay, lie down."

"Is this the end?" Qiao Yuanlin was dissatisfied when he didn't say anything, "I want to hear it too."

Liang Cheng gave him the earhook, moved the auscultation head to the left edge of the sternum, and said, "Did you hear the rough murmur? It's a systolic tremor." He then listened to the aortic valve area, "The heart sound has weakened."

Qiao Yuanlin asked blankly, "Is there?"

The last time the auscultation was on New Year's Eve, Liang Cheng said: "It's more common, it's more... ugly than the last time I was in Beijing."

"You're the one who sounds bad." Qiao Yuanlin argued forcefully, "I think it's okay. The call of the phoenix from Kunshan jade is like listening to fairy music."

Liang Chengsheng made a sound. He fastened Qiao Yuanlin's button, laid it down on the pillow, and said, "Go to sleep. I'll have an MRI and angiography in the morning."

Qiao Yuanlin complained, "Why do you do it again?"

Liang Chengfu kissed him on the forehead: "Don't argue, you'll be cured soon in Xiaofenghuang, I'll wait to hear your call."

Qiao Yuanlin's pale face suddenly turned red, and he wanted to go five kilometers away, covered himself with a quilt and said, "Li has long been calling for the inpatient department."

The first night of admission to the hospital was not too long, and it was dawn after Liang Cheng was tossed and turned a few times.After saying hello to the nursing station, he went back to the office of the cardiac surgery for a meeting.

Colleagues knew that Qiao Yuanlin was his younger brother and had deep feelings for him, so they offered comfort one after another.

Liang Cheng took it calmly, once he resumed his role as a doctor, he would settle down all his emotions.He didn't tell anyone that his arms were shaking when he carried Qiao Yuanlin out of the car yesterday, and at that moment he lost the courage to hold a scalpel.

At the end of the meeting, Liang Cheng took the checklist and went to the inpatient building, where he met He Jie in the elevator.

He carried a large bag of laundry and hair products, and asked, "Uncle Qiao's hospital is busy, come over in the morning, and I'll tell him about the treatment arrangements."

He Jie replied: "He said he had something to do, so he sent me home last night and left."

The elevator door opened, Liang Cheng didn't ask any questions among the passing strangers, and walked outside the ward with He Jie, the door was open, and the nurse who came to deliver the medicine stood alone at the head of the bed.

The bed was empty, Liang Cheng asked, "Where did the patient go?"

The nurse said: "He felt bored after waking up, and said he would go to the outpatient building to see you."

Liang Cheng didn't see Qiao Yuanlin at all when he came from the outpatient clinic. Patients were not allowed to wander around. The little ancestor probably took him as a pass and said, "How long has he been out?"

The nurse said: "I went early in the morning, this is the third trip I have come here."

Liang Cheng asked He Jie to wait in the ward, in case Qiao Yuanlin came back and no one was there.He rushed out the door, wandered around, and found the number of the monitoring room on his mobile phone.

Going down to the first floor, he guessed that Qiao Yuanlin would probably avoid crowded places and walk towards the side door, feeling that it was the convalescent garden of the hospital.

The phone rang, and Liang Cheng answered, "Hello?"

He Jie said inwardly, "It turns out that Yuan Linzai left a note and it blew to the ground. He should be in the garden."

It was a sunny day after the snow, the snow and ice in the garden were half-thawed, and the lake was shimmering with sparkling light. Qiao Yuanlin was sitting on the bench in a big down jacket, so peaceful that he couldn't bear to disturb him.

Liang Cheng stopped far away, he thought, Qiao Yuanlin was waiting for someone.

The sun was getting brighter and brighter, Qiao Yuanlin's skin was so white and thin under the light, with purple bloodshot eyes.His hands and feet were not warm, and the numbness spread from his extremities, as if a few chains were locked to prevent him from moving.

I don't know how long it took, and finally, a familiar car gradually approached from the main road.

Qiao Wenyuan was full of tiredness, and drove to the neighboring city overnight. He didn't care about reason and rules, and picked Wang Ruizhi himself.

Opening the rear door, the old lady came down anxiously, shaking slightly, and saw the figure of the good-looking grandson Lingding at a glance.Her heart was about to break, she held back her steps, turned her head and scolded: "Go and see your child!"

The door on the other side was pushed open, and Lin Chengbi got out of the car.

The three generations who used to be a family reunited after many years, but they each suffered.The light in Lin Chengbi's eyes disappeared, and he walked towards the lake with a lonely expression.

Qiao Yuanlin nodded and drooped his eyelashes. Hearing the sound of undistinguished footsteps, he let go of his crossed fingers little by little when the toes of a pair of shoes stopped in his field of vision.

Lin Chengbi sat down next to him, and the moment she received Qiao Wenyuan's call, she couldn't take any chances anymore.

In the middle of the night, Qiao Wenyuan came across the city to find him, but he didn't dare to blame him, instead he begged earnestly.It was the first time in her life that she saw Qiao Wenyuan like that, it was like a slap in the face, making her ashamed and uneasy.

Wang Ruizhi also knew that her mother, who had always been proud of her, questioned her, screamed at her, and told her all the things that Qiao Yuanlin and Liang Cheng had experienced together. She wanted to kneel down and put pressure on her, begging her to give her grandson a way out.

When she left home, the child cried and tried to persuade her to stay, her husband was dissatisfied, and all the work had not been properly arranged.Only then did she realize that the success of chasing and immersing is actually vulnerable.

Lin Chengbi leaned on Qiao Yuanlin's thin shoulders and asked softly, "What are you looking at?"

Qiao Yuanlin said, "Black Swan."

In the lake, there are two black swans, one big and one small, swimming to the shore together. The big one is stretching out its slender neck, holding a piece of lettuce in its mouth, and the leaves are scattered, while the small one is sticking in the water and devouring it.

Lin Chengbi said, "It's Mother Swan."

"Yeah." Qiao Yuanlin's tone was flat, "I'm not in a good condition. I'm going to stay for a while. The next hair can come and see them every day."

Qiao Wenyuan was so anxious, Lin Chengbi guessed it, and she said, "Did you expect it, so you took the opportunity to punish mother?"

Qiao Yuanlin asked: "Then will you accept the punishment?"

Lin Chengbi's eyes were red and swollen, she seldom cried, and she shed more tears in the past few days than in the previous half of her life combined.She crossed Qiao Yuanlin's armpit and intertwined her arm, asking for a little intimate contact.

"I haven't been to the hospital for a long time. Kangkang is sick. I asked his father to take him there. I hate the smell of the hospital. I will think of you crying, suffering, and shouting to go home in this kind of place when you were a child."

Qiao Yuanlin said, "This is unfair to Kangkang."

"There is not so much fairness in the world." Lin Chengbi said, "Some people are born healthy, while others are suffering. Where does fairness come from?"

Qiao Yuanlin asked, "Do you regret it?"

"Why do you regret giving birth to you?" Lin Chengbi replied, "Since you were born, I have been sad and looking forward to it, but I don't regret it. I am sorry for your illness and look forward to your growth. I always wonder what kind of person you will become. What's wrong with being sick, you are my son, Lin Chengbi. "

Qiao Yuanlin believed what she said, and committed suicide: "You are too proud."

"Yes, your grandma and grandpa said so, and your father said so too. I have never tasted the feeling of failure since I was a child. I wanted to go up forever and receive praise forever, but unexpectedly I came to this step."

Qiao Yuanlin called her suddenly, without the tone of childhood: "Mom."

Lin Chengbi couldn't help weeping, and burst into tears: "I thought you wouldn't call me anymore, you are as cruel as I am, but you soften your heart again and again in order to please me."

"Let me do it once." Qiao Yuanlin watched the black swan swim away, "I won't please you this time."

His fingertips were also lavender and curled up. Lin Chengbi opened his fingers, held him, and said, "Thank you son, you didn't become like me."

Qiao Yuanlin lowered his head, leaving a USB flash drive in his loosened palm.

Lin Chengbi said: "All the scans of the documents are here, as well as some communication details from the interview on the adoption case back then, as well as my self-report."

Qiao Yuanlin clenched her hands tightly: "Have you decided?"

"I will hand over the original to the police." Lin Chengbi withdrew his hand and straightened up, "You take these, and I hope you will do the report after the exposure."

Qiao Yuanlin couldn't close his eyes, and when he opened them again, his vision became hazy for an instant.He was asking for a solution, how could he write the crime involving his mother?

He said, "I'm in the hospital."

Lin Chengbi looked up at the tall buildings of the hospital: "So you have to treat well."

"just in case--"

"Nothing happens." Lin Chengbi said resolutely, "Go back to the news center unharmed and complete this matter beautifully. You have to go up and succeed steadily. You are my son, Lin Chengbi."

She stood up: "Yuan Lin, take a look at mom."

Qiao Yuanlin kept his head cocked all the time, and slowly turned around, before he could clearly see that he was being hugged by Lin Chengbi.He was buried in the belly that had conceived him, and there was a strange peace.

Lin Chengbi stopped a mother's self-deception and told him: "Don't worry about it. It turns out that for me, no one can make up for this regret."

Qiao Yuanlin nodded in agreement.

He was let go, watching Lin Chengbi get farther and farther away from him step by step, his heart ached, as if a swan flew in and pecked a hole hard.

Lin Chengbi tucked her hair while walking, wiped her face dry, and straightened her neckline, keeping herself neat and proud.

With a distance of one or two meters, she stopped and looked at Liang Cheng.

"I'm sorry," she said, "and, please."