Mindful

After a night of hangover and feeling dizzy, he didn't wake up until after taking a shower. Liang Cheng threw away the dirty clothes and sheets together, the same as when he left last time.

There was an empty space in the suitcase, and he took out an exquisite gift box from the closet, glanced at Qiao Yuanlin's closed door, and then filled that space.

After everything was tidied up, Liang Cheng watered the prickly pear for the last time. It was still early, so he went downstairs lightly, only to hear trivial beating sounds from the kitchen.

Wang Ruizhi's hands were full of glutinous rice flour, and he got up before dawn to make a fuss. He probed and said, "Xiao Liang, I've cooked breakfast, your favorite milk glutinous rice balls."

Liang Cheng put his luggage in the entrance, walked to the door of the kitchen, and asked in a disguised manner, "How do you know that I like to eat?"

Wang Ruizhi is quite self-aware about cooking skills. The last time Liang Cheng finished eating and went upstairs, it was Qiao Yuanlin who quietly told her that Liang Cheng should like it very much.

She asked why, and Qiao Yuanlin said that Liang Cheng ate fast and didn't care about the taste at all, but chewed the glutinous rice balls carefully, and was distracted, and didn't get any extra points for him halfway.

Milk was simmering in the soup pot. Wang Ruizhi put the glutinous rice balls in and said, "I asked him why he observed so carefully. He said that you are a benefactor. If he wants to repay you, he must first understand you."

Liang Cheng pondered for a while, then replied: "He has repaid enough."

As soon as the words were finished, there was the sound of flip flops on the stairs. Qiao Yuanlin was wearing a light yellow T-shirt with a small piece of graffiti on his chest, jeans showing his thin ankles, and he was full of youth.

There was a sense of relief on that fair face, and he came down to find something to do: "Grandma, won't you call me for dinner?"

Wang Ruizhi observed his grandson's condition and said, "I thought you weren't getting up."

"Just kidding, I've read two chapters of the book." Qiao Yuanlin sat down at the dining table, with one leg bent on the chair, "I have to do my homework, and I will go to the cram school in two days."

Wang Ruizhi didn't notice anything, turned off the fire, and took out two bowls of glutinous rice balls.Holding a bowl in one hand, Liang Cheng walked to the dining table, and put the first bowl with milk skin in front of Qiao Yuanlin.

Qiao Yuanlin raised his head and smiled: "Are you enough, I will share you two."

Liang Cheng said, enough is enough.He stirred the milk with a spoon, and the mellow milky fragrance filled the air. Looking at the side of the table through the milky white heat, Qiao Yuanlin took a bite of the glutinous rice balls, it was too hot, and he pouted comically.

He met Liang Cheng's gaze and asked, "Has the alcohol gone?"

Liang Cheng: "Yes."

"Don't get drunk again in the future." Qiao Yuanlin said, "I carried you upstairs last night, so don't make me grow taller."

Liang Cheng said: "It's true or not, I have no impression."

Qiao Yuanlin sneered, obviously deceiving.Wang Ruizhi scolded him for pediatrics, turned his head and said, "Xiao Liang, I heard that you are going to Beijing, what are your plans?"

Liang Cheng held the bowl half a circle, and replied: "Let's take a step and see."

Five or six glutinous rice balls were eaten in less than a quarter of an hour. Qiao Yuan stood in the entrance wearing sneakers, his helmet was thrown away, and only his helmet was left on the hook.

Liang Cheng exchanged the door keys and handed them to him holding the blue safety knot.

The dead buckle was so tight that he once said that he would never untie it again. Qiao Yuanlin took it away from Liang Cheng's hand and said, "If you like it, stay here."

Liang Cheng replied: "Okay."

Qiao Yuanlin came to a sudden realization, and laughed at himself after Qingming. He took off the buckle and the safety knot, and walked behind Liang Cheng: "I'll put it in the backpack for you."

After zipping up, he went out first: "Brother, I'll take a taxi for you."

Liang Cheng didn't have time to open his mouth, the usually slow person had already walked out of the door.He took his leave at this point, Wang Ruizhi sent him down the steps, and suddenly let out a sigh.

From the confrontation at the corner of the stairs, to not returning all night, to quitting the rent and moving out, the old lady never questioned a word.Living in the same building, Liang Cheng guessed that she probably understood what happened.

He stopped, waiting for Wang Ruizhi's instructions before leaving.

"Having been together for half a year is not considered a deep fate. Thank you for your big and small help." Wang Ruizhi said, "The last time I left, I favored him and did not keep you. This time I will not favor him. I wish you a smooth journey."

Liang Cheng nodded and said, "Take care."

Wang Ruizhi said again: "Yuan Lin is very grudge-bearing. He was scolded in the first grade, and he still doesn't forget about graduating from elementary school. He refuses to write blessings in his classmates. He also remembers other people's favors. The boss who eats tea eggs will choose a big one for him. He never changed his place again, and he would go to buy it even if he moved house and made a detour."

Liang Cheng could imagine it, and couldn't help curling the corners of his mouth.

Wang Ruizhi said: "You saved him, and he missed it for three years. You have tasted everything that made him happy and sad. Now that you leave, he will miss you for the rest of his life."

A person who has heart disease and was born with countless regrets, would it be difficult for him to be relieved?

With veins bulging on the back of his hand, Liang Cheng gripped the suitcase tightly and said, "He will give up."

A taxi was parked at the entrance of the alley, the trunk was opened, the driver took Liang Cheng's luggage and put it away, before getting into the car, a small figure ran after him.

Xiao Le was sweating profusely, and hugged Liang Cheng's thigh, crying: "Brother Liang Cheng, are you leaving?"

"En." Liang Cheng was still indifferent.

"Why? I don't want you to go!" Xiao Le cried loudly, tears rolled down half of his face, "Do you think I'm stupid... I'll study hard..."

Qiao Yuanlin knelt down and pulled Xiao Le away, couldn't bear it, coaxed: "You still have brother Xiao Qiao, don't cry for a man, there is always a banquet in the world."

Xiao Le shook his head: "I don't understand..." He turned around and hugged Qiao Yuanlin for help, "Brother Xiao Qiao, tell Brother Liang Cheng not to leave."

Qiao Yuanlin said, "I can't do that."

Xiao Le cried and asked: "Why, don't you want him to stay?"

Qiao Yuanlin lowered his eyes for a moment, then raised his eyes and answered with a clear smile: "If brother Liang Cheng lives better in other places, I will bless him."

Liang Cheng got into the carriage shortly, and Qiao Yuanlin followed.He said no need to send it off, Qiao Yuanlin put on the earphones and ignored it, the car started, and the scratched and mottled utility poles became a narrow line in the rearview mirror.

The atmosphere was stifling, the driver took the initiative to find something to talk about, whether to go on a trip, and when the resort island in Linghai was completed, more people would come to Pinghai to play.

It was summer vacation, and the passenger flow at the train station was already considerable. Liang Cheng got off the train to collect the tickets, and when he turned around, he saw Qiao Yuanlin following behind to take out his ID card.

While queuing at the self-service machine, Qiao Yuanlin went to the artificial window to buy a platform ticket, hiding it for fear that Liang Cheng would chase him away, but Liang Cheng didn't say anything.

The waiting room was crowded, and it took a long time to find two empty seats. Liang Cheng sat down and looked at the check-in time on the screen.

Qiao Yuanlin was bored playing with his mobile phone, and received a WeChat message from Tian Yu: Yuan Shen, I was blocked by Assistant Teacher Liang, please help me to ask why?

Duan Sicun had just received the notice, and also came: Qiao Yuanlin, do you know about Liang Cheng's resignation?what happened?

He was slightly stunned, and clicked on the list of members of the class group. Liang Cheng had quit, and everyone had probably been deleted.He clicked on Liang Cheng's profile picture again, feeling dazed as he poked at the input box.

"Brother." He asked, "Did you delete me?"

Liang Cheng said, "Yes."

Qiao Yuanlin turned off the phone: "What should I do if I want to contact you in the future?"

Liang Cheng replied without any fluctuation: "There is no need for that."

Qiao Yuanlin smiled, turned his head and stared at a row of specialty shops, he got up and walked over, bought some snacks in a hurry, tied them to the handle of the suitcase, and said, "Eat on the road."

Liang Cheng stood up and said, "The phone number has also been deleted."

Qiao Yuanlin was still pulling the corners of his mouth, his cheeks were sour, when the announcement reminding him to check the tickets sounded in the hall, he immediately said, "Let's go to line up."

It was Liang Cheng who was leaving, but Qiao Yuanlin was standing in front, and the line broke up after passing the turnstile, and he mixed with the crowd holding a ticket that only meant "send off".

Pedestrians surged on the vast platform, and Liang Cheng stopped outside the carriage, saying, "Let's go here, go home."

Qiao Yuanlin stopped in response. He thought that Liang Cheng could live a stable life by himself, but he was too naive.But his wish has not changed. He asked: "When you arrive in Beijing, will you settle down?"

Liang Cheng said: "It has nothing to do with you, don't worry about me anymore."

That's right, even the landlord is no longer the landlord, and no one will buy it when things are forced. Qiao Yuanlin was touched on the shoulder by the patrolling conductor, and took half a step back, feeling that he was far away from Liang Cheng for a moment.

Liang Cheng didn't say "goodbye", didn't say "there will be a time later", he just walked away neatly.

Huddled in the corner of the bed for the whole night, forced to smile from the moment he came downstairs; shamelessly sent to the station and waiting room, and rushed to the store because he couldn't bear it; he didn't dare to be behind in the queue, for fear that Liang Cheng would look back and see him as a mourning concubine With a true expression, afraid of tearing his clothes with his hand, he begged to speak his heart.

Don't go...he is much more worthless than Xiao Le.

Qiao Yuanlin collapsed in the crowd, panicked for a split second, and grabbed Liang Cheng's arm tightly when he was about to turn around.

"Brother," he let go of his clumsy disguise, only mourning, "will you return to Pinghai?"

Liang Chengshu raised his frowning eyebrows, painted another layer of impatience, and said, "I hate this place, and I will never come back."

Qiao Yuanlin asked: "For you, apart from unpleasant things, is there nothing worth caring about here?"

"Who do you miss?" Liang Cheng asked back, "Brother who has been in prison, teachers and classmates from No. [-] Middle School, or you? What are you still looking forward to?"

Qiao Yuanlin shook his head desperately, Liang Cheng was the kite he couldn't hold, the bird that brushed shoulders with him on the ferry, but that bit of thought grew endlessly, mixed with desire, couldn't be plucked out, couldn't be burnt out, he just wanted to keep it A little thought.

Just a little bit, the size of a button three years ago.

With all her courage and dignity, Qiao Yuanlin asked in a trembling voice, "Do you even have the slightest liking for me?"

Those eyes were filled with a thick red mist, the fundus of the eyes was like the sea, and the heart was like waves. Liang Cheng tried his best to bear it, and said in a low voice: "I'll tell you one last time, I don't like you at all."

Qiao Yuanlin let go of his hand in a daze.

Liang Cheng grabbed it with his backhand, and pulled Qiao Yuanlin into his arms, his chest collided, and he hugged him tightly.

Pedestrians came and went like a cloud of smoke, Liang Cheng pressed against Qiao Yuanlin's ear bones like a kiss or a peck, closed his eyes and said, "Do you know, I saved you and I killed you on the same day."

All thoughts disappeared in an instant, Qiao Yuanlin trembled: "What..."

Liang Cheng said like an executioner: "Qiao Yuanlin, listen up—I will never fall in love with you, because seeing you reminds me of the sins of that day."

Qiao Yuanlin froze on the platform in a hollow state. He was stricken by the truth, leaving only an immobile shell. Liang Cheng let him go and disappeared in the chaotic field of vision.

At the end of summer, he was shivering with cold, and streams of wet water flowed down his cheeks, making him look like a joke.

Liang Cheng entered the carriage and found a seat by the window, but he didn't squint outside the window.He lowered his eyes, his teeth were about to be crushed, and his thin lips were about to bleed.

The doors closed and the train started slowly.

Liang Cheng opened the outer pocket of the backpack, took out the safety knot, and found a rolled-up note stuffed in the buckle, he unfolded it, and on it was Qiao Yuanlin's neat handwriting——

Liang Cheng, you must go to the best place.

On the empty platform, just awakened from a big dream, Qiao Yuanlin murmured and waved.

"And I will forget about you completely."