I haven't been a hero for many years

"Wushe Wushuang, there is a task for you to complete this time." Dad stood by the window with his hands behind his back, and said in a flat tone.

Neither of us spoke, we waited quietly for the next step.

"The black and white twins who have disappeared for many years have reappeared in the Jianghu. I hope you can bring me their heads." Father said.

"Yes!" My brother and I replied holding hands.

"Guan Jiu will tell you their clues, go down." Dad waved his hand.

"Yes!" We backed away respectfully.The communication between father and us is always business affairs, he has never cared for us like he did with Baili Wuqian, and asked us how we are.Only when you complete the task, you can get his smiling face and appreciation.Mother said: "Father is training you, you must work hard, as long as you do your job well, Father will definitely approve of you."

We don't believe what mother says, everything we do is for mother.Because now, I am already very disappointed in my father.The longer I get in touch with him, the more I understand how ruthless he is.He didn't see us as his children at all.And I later learned that he didn't let us kill people purely to promote justice, but was mixed with other money transactions.

"Wushuang, you stay here." Father said suddenly.My brother glanced at me and walked out in silence.After my brother went out, my father's face suddenly eased, which made me a little flattered.

"Wushuang, have you been working hard recently?" He asked suddenly.

"It's not hard." I replied flattered, wondering why he suddenly cared about me.

"I heard that you have gotten very close to Gong Yaozhi recently?" Father asked.

I was startled, Gong Yaozhi and I were indeed together often since we confessed our love to each other that day, but of course, I still concealed the fact that I am not a woman.I had such a great time during this time, I didn't expect to be asked about it by my father.I quickly said: "Gong Yaoshang helped me last time, we are friends..."

"I'm afraid it's not as simple as being a friend?" Dad laughed.

I'm a little uneasy.

"You don't need to be nervous, I'm just asking." Dad laughed, looking me up and down, I was uncomfortable being watched by him, and I had a bad feeling in my heart.

"My daughter of Baili Wuya is not suitable for everyone. Gong Yaozhi is the next owner of the Valley of the Miraculous Doctors. The Valley of the Miraculous Doctors has a high status and has always enjoyed a high reputation in the martial arts. Marriage is really good." He muttered to himself.

"Father?" My heart sank suddenly.

"Go down." He waved his hand, indicating that there is no need to say any more, so I had no choice but to back out.

The sky is clear, but my heart is very cloudy.

"Wushuang, what do you think this is?" I was walking when Gong Yaozhi suddenly jumped out, holding a green plant in his hand.

I came back to my senses and forced a smile, "What is it?"

He laughed and said, "Didn't you say that the Valley of Divine Medicine is full of medicinal herbs last time? This is camellia. I decided to plant camellias in the Valley of Divine Medicine."

My heart warmed up, and I couldn't help but think of the last time I couldn't hold him back and followed him to the Valley of Miraculous Doctors, where he forcibly instilled various medical knowledge.When this person mentions drugs, his eyes must light up.Camellia is my favorite flower. Last time he suddenly asked, I just answered casually, but he took it to heart.

Looking at his smiling face, I suddenly feel reluctant, Gong Yaozhi, how can I let go of you like this?

I took the plant and laughed: "Gong Yaozhi, I have something to tell you."

Paper can't hold fire, sooner or later you have to know.Dad already has that plan, and he can't delay it any longer.Anyway... so much happiness has been cheated, it is enough.

"Exactly, I also have something to tell you." He also laughed.

"Gong Yaozhi, we haven't had a drink together yet, do you want to have a drink together?" I suddenly wanted to get drunk, as long as I was drunk, I would have the courage to tell the truth.Facing him like this, I was afraid that I would retreat on the spot again.

"Do you drink?" he asked.

I was a little embarrassed, "I've never drank alcohol, but there's always a first time in everything..."

"Since Wushuang's kind invitation, how can I refuse?" Gong Yaozhi said in a playful manner.

I was amused by him, and I also showed the ladylike style that I have never been used to and asked: "Young master, do you agree?"

"Of course—!" Gong Yaozhi drew a long tone.

After speaking, the two looked at each other and laughed at the same time.

The fragrance is full of jade.

two.Wing.Jade fan screen.The silk sash droops.

It was very quiet in the house.

The table is full of various dishes, and there are even fine wines.

Gong Yaozhi and I sat opposite each other, pouring wine for each other.

"...Drink!" After three glasses of wine, I was already staggering.

"Wushuang, you're drunk." Gong Yaozhi pushed away my hand holding the flagon and said.

"I'm not drunk!" I slapped the table proudly, and said with alcohol.

"Hey... I didn't expect you to drink so badly, but you only drank three glasses." Gong Yaozhi had to come over to support me who was staggering.

But I am not drunk.The body is shaky, but the mind is clear.I really want to get drunk, but I just don't get drunk.

How can I speak when I am not drunk?I picked up the jug and poured it into my glass, "If you don't drink, I will!"

"Wushuang..." He pulled me back, but I had already drank it with my head raised.After this glass of wine, I think I am really drunk, my head is so dizzy, and the world is spinning.With a slap, I lay down on the ground, my eyes dimly looking at Gong Yaozhi's face that was sometimes blurred and sometimes clear.

I can't say it!

I closed my eyes as if to escape, and pretended to be asleep.

"Wushuang? Wushuang?" Gong Yaozhi pushed me, but I didn't move.

He sighed, stood up, went to the table and poured himself a glass of wine and drank it down.Then, he sat down at the table thinking about something, and after a long time, he softly uttered a name: "Wu'she..."

Maybe I was drunk, I seemed to hear him calling my brother's name.

Why did he call me brother?

I thought vaguely, my body was lazy and I didn't want to move.

The air was filled with the mellow aroma of wine, and Gong Yao drank one cup after another, as if struggling to make a decision.

After a long time, I heard his slight and disorderly footsteps approaching, it seemed that he was also drunk.He squatted beside me, and a smoky smell of alcohol rushed over.

"Wushuang, I want to say sorry to you." He poured himself a glass of wine and walked to squat down in front of me, his clear voice floated in the air, "There is a story that is very uncomfortable to hold in my heart. You said, but you can't find the right time."

I still didn't open my eyes, and my body lay quietly.He didn't wait for me to answer, and started to speak slowly...

"Once upon a time, there was an apprentice who was very good. He devoted himself to learning medical skills and wanted to repay his teacher wholeheartedly. He followed his master all over the world and used his medical skills to save people. He inherited the mantle of his teacher and repaid his teacher. The apprentice always thought so Yes. Until one day, he met a person..."

Hearing the soft sound of running water above, it was Gong Yaozhi who was pouring wine for himself.He seemed very drunk, and a few drops fell on me.He gulped it down and went on to say...

"That person is very special, taciturn, arrogant as if he is not a person of this world, as if no one or anything can get into his eyes, even if he saves people, his eyes are indifferent, even with a bit of hatred. I have never seen such a thing The apprentice of someone special suddenly had a strong urge to know this person, what he was thinking, what life was like."

"The master told the apprentice not to set foot in the martial arts world, but in order to see him again, the apprentice resolutely came to this quarrelsome rivers and lakes to learn about the man's deeds and news. When he came back to his senses, he found that he was unable to extricate himself .”

Gong Yaozhi stopped suddenly, I quietly opened my eyes, and saw Gong Yaozhi's face was full of confusion and annoyance.He is still young, with a childish face, and looks like a child who has encountered a problem.He thought for a while, then frowned again and said, "So he asked others why he cared so much about a person. They all said that you fell in love with that person."

Gong Yaozhi's voice sank, his naive and childish face disappeared without a trace, and he became gloomy, "I don't know what love is. But no matter what, it's wrong to care about a man so much. If the mentor knows his apprentice He actually likes a man, what would he think? The apprentice was very worried, and couldn't sleep or eat because of it, so the apprentice thought, it would be fine if that person was a woman, but this is impossible. So the apprentice began to think about it again, if It would be nice to have a woman like him in this world. If there is such a person in this world, then he will definitely marry her as his wife and love her for the rest of his life."

Gong Yaozhi spoke quietly, and I listened quietly.He frowned, seemed to think of something, and smiled.

"I didn't expect that he really had a younger sister. His younger sister is a very nice woman who looks almost exactly like him. The apprentice then approached his sister with selfishness, and his sister gradually fell in love with the apprentice..."

Gong Yaozhi smiled wryly, "But the more he is with his sister, the apprentice feels more and more guilty, and feels more and more wrong. After all..." He drank another cup and said with a sigh: "It's not the same personal."

It's not the same person after all...

"The apprentice is with his younger sister. Sometimes he feels guilty and always wants to tell the truth, but he dare not say it. His sister is also special. The apprentice is very happy with her, and his sister is also very happy. If It’s not bad to live like this for the rest of your life.”

I was a little dazed.

He lowered his head to look at me, and asked in a low voice: "Wu Shuang, tell me, should the apprentice be with his sister?"

Should they be together?I had a little trouble turning my head.

"If the story ends with his sister and apprentice together, the apprentice will definitely treat her very well, and the masters of the two families will be very happy if the miracle doctor valley and the famous sword villa get married. So everyone is happy, and everyone is living a very happy life Okay. Do you think this ending is good?" Gong Yaozhi suddenly asked me in a low voice.I smelled a huge smell of wine, and he drank another glass of wine, glass after glass, telling stories while drinking, I don’t know how many glasses he drank.

"Are you okay?" He drank another drink and asked drunkenly, then lay down on the side and did not move.

I opened my eyes, looked at the roof above for a moment, then slowly closed them, and fell into a deep sleep.

Thinking of the first time he saw me in men's clothing, I heard him say, "That's great..."

Thinking of the hug that day, neither of them saw the other's expression, I heard him say: "I'm sorry..."

Thinking about it now, it feels like a sudden realization.

In the haze, I went back to that day, my conversation with him:

"You will regret this……"

"I won't regret it...as long as you don't regret it..."

Blinking, staring at the roof above.

I have no regrets...

I'm really drunk.

I had a dream. In the dream, I went back to the day when I was poisoned and fell at the gate. Suddenly someone found me, and they shouted in surprise: "Baili Wushe has been poisoned! Baili Wushe has been poisoned!"

Gong Yao rushed out anxiously, seeing me lying on the ground with a pale face, he quickly helped me up and said: "Wu An, you will be fine, with me here, you will be fine..."

I passed out that day and didn't hear who he was calling.It would be great if I listened.

When we woke up the next day, Gong Yaozhi and I looked at each other shyly, an ambiguous and embarrassing atmosphere flowed in the air.

"It seems that Wushuang really doesn't know how to drink." Gong Yaozhi laughed.

"I will definitely not drink next time." I said silently.

"Get up, let's go to the flower market to look at the flowers and see what else to plant." Gong Yaozhi smiled gently.

"No, I have something to do." I shook my head.

"What on earth are you all busy with? I can't see you all the time. Especially your brother, who is basically invisible."

I sat up from the ground and pushed him, "Of course my brother is going to fight for justice."

"how about you?"

"I'm from Mingjian Villa, so of course I went to fight for justice." I said.

"It's just right, I have nothing to do, so I'll help you." Gong Yaozhi said.

I thought for a while, then clapped my hands and said, "Ah, it seems that recently that black and white pair came out to harm the Jianghu again. There are two of them, and we also happen to be two, exactly two pairs of two."

"I support any decision made by Wushuang." Gong Yao's eyes were doting.

"That's it." I said with a smile.

That's it, everything stays the same.But I know something is different.As soon as I turned around, I couldn't keep a smile on my face.

Back at Mingjian Villa, I sat alone in the room in a daze.When Zhao Xueyi came to look for me, I realized that it was night again.

"Sister Wushuang, why don't you light the lamp?" Zhao Xueyi picked up the torch, and just about to light the candle on the table, I flicked my fingers slightly, and flicked out the candle that had just been lit.

"Sister Wushuang?"

"Don't light the fire." My voice was cold.

Zhao Xueyi sighed, she didn't seem to notice my abnormality, walked to sit opposite me, and said: "Sister Wushuang...you...were with him last night?"

I couldn't see her face clearly in the dark, and I sat unresponsive.

"I finally understand that what he really likes is you, no matter what I do, he will never like me." Zhao Xueyi seemed to be suppressing something, her voice was heard in the dark like a leaf in the wind Trembling, "But feelings are something that cannot be accomplished with hard work."

She took a deep breath and said, "It's great, now there is no light, and I can't see anything. You don't need to see my crying face. Sister Wushuang, don't worry, I will always remember that agreement. In fact, that agreement was made by me. I said it myself, because you are my good sister and the person who loves me the most in the villa. At that time, I actually knew that Gong Yaozhi would like you. He looked at you very intently, no matter you are No matter what you look like, you look at you very seriously, and that kind of eyes can never be transferred to me." Speaking of the end, the suppressed sobs sounded in the darkness, and she spoke very slowly, saying every sentence. Seriously, "So I told myself, even if he likes sister Wushuang, you can't be jealous, she is the best sister, we will be forever... good sisters forever..."

I listened quietly, still no response.

"Wushuang, are you going to kill Black and White Shuangsha alone?" My brother frowned with doubts on his face.

"No, Gong Yaozhi will also go together." I shook my head, a little depressed.

"He knows about us?"

I stared at him and shook my head again, "No."

"Gong Yaozhi's skill is not weak, you two can handle it. That's just right, I'm going to Xuehua Palace too." The elder brother nodded slightly, picked up the knife and left.I watched his back silently for a while, then turned and left.

The Buddha once said, mustard seeds.A flower and a leaf are different.Ordinary people can't see the way of heaven with their naked eyes, so they drift with the tide in the world of mortals, drunk, dreaming and dying.Sometimes I wonder, should I pursue the truth persistently?Just like now, if Gong Yaozhi doesn't know that I'm not a woman, if I don't know that Gong Yaozhi never loved me, then everything will be fine.As he said, all are happy.

Everyone's happy, okay?

It's good to be an ignorant sometimes.

The reason why I asked Gong Yaozhi to kill Black and White Shuangsha together was just to make it clear during the journey, but in the end, I didn't say anything, and neither did he.

The elimination of black and white double evil went smoothly, two against two, both sides were beaten to the ground.Now it is to see who stands up first, and whoever stands up first and gives the opponent a fatal move, then that side will win.

Sometimes I am confused, whether Gong Yaozhi likes me or not, he says he doesn't, but he treats me really well, so good that I think he likes me.For example, now that Heisha stood up, Gong Yaozhi also stood up with all his strength.Both staggered and fought desperately for each other to protect the person lying motionless on the ground.

I have been hesitating whether to break the illusion of peace and happiness and tear off their respective masks.I can't imagine Gong Yaozhi's expression when he knows that I'm not a woman. What if his response is to explode, scold or humiliate?I must not be able to bear it.I can't bear his hurt to me, and I can't bear his despair of knowing the truth.He wanted a woman who looked like this so much.

Heisha walked towards this step by step, Gong Yaozhi stared at him closely, his lips were tightly pursed.

I always wondered that I didn't tell Gong Yaozhi the truth, I always wondered that I didn't tell him the truth when he passed out beside me that day.Because I can't believe his sleeping face is real.I was afraid that he was pretending to be asleep just like me.Do we no longer trust each other?

Heisha's footsteps were heavy, he clutched his chest, and slowly raised the three-thorn fork in his hand.And Gong Yaozhi also raised his hand, holding the jade flute that can play beautiful notes.

Our encounter, acquaintance, and love all originated from an exquisite layout. In this exquisite love, we deceived each other, and we were worried about each other's deception.I have been worried about my own deception, but I didn't expect the other party to be the same.It's really unclear who is sorry for whom.I remembered the first time I saw Gong Yaozhi, he was blowing the jade flute by the bamboo forest, the sound of the flute was light but elegant, but full of emotions, as if he had unspeakable worries and endless worries continuously.I was attracted by the sound of the flute.Thinking about it now, his mood at that time was also very complicated.

Heisha had already walked in front of Gong Yaozhi, I opened my eyes and remained motionless.

But apart from the pain caused by the truth, I feel very happy.It was I who promised to be with him myself, and if I didn't fall in love, none of this would have happened.He is really good to me, one hundred and ten thousand times better than those of my relatives, no one can refuse such kindness.

When Heisha raised his thorn to stab Gong Yaozhi, I who had been accumulating strength suddenly jumped up from the ground and stabbed Heisha with a knife.That knife gathered all my remaining strength, and my mind went blank at that moment. Many thoughts were stripped from my mind, gathered in my hand, and passed to the blade.Love and hate are both like knives, extremely hurtful.

Blood spurted out.

The author has something to say: I can't sleep, I code silently... I don't know if anyone will read it...

Maybe I will post again later, and run naked after posting, forcing myself to type...