Rebirth reminder

The husband tea had only been in the cup for a while, and it was already quite cold. Chu Yan put one hand on the wall of the cup, rubbed the rim of the cup with his fingertips, and said after a long time, "Okay, it's the same shop as yesterday, see you soon." "After speaking, he didn't wait for the other party's response, and hung up directly.

At one o'clock in the afternoon, Chu Yan came late. When he arrived, Meng Xu had already sat down for a while. Chu Yan didn't show any courtesy to him. He pulled the chair and sat down, "Let's order first, I'm hungry."

"Yeah." Meng Xu handed the a la carte menu to Chu Yan, "Then take a look first, if there is anything you want to eat."

Chu Yan is also really a very straightforward person. After taking the order, he ordered four dishes and one soup, and then he asked Mengxu, "Do you want to order two more?"

Meng Xu smiled and shook his head, "No need, we can't finish eating just these."

"Well, let's do this first!" Passing the menu to the waiter at the table, Chu Yan leaned back in the chair, met Meng Xu's eyes, and said very calmly, "I think you asked me out, you must There is something to say."

Mengxu was still the same as before, but today he was more restrained. When he woke up, he was flustered when he learned that Chu Yan knew the truth. After some persuasion from Chu Fei, he managed to calm down.He thought, since the paper on the window has been pierced, he might as well be more generous and spread the word out!

"First of all, I want to apologize to you. I'm sorry, Yan. I've lied to you for so long. You must be very angry with me."

Chu Yan looked at Mengxu calmly, his expression was too cold, and after a long time, he sighed softly, "I won't be angry with you, I owe you what you have suffered for me, maybe I can't figure it out for the rest of my life."

"I don't need you to pay me back anything!" Mengxu's voice suddenly rose, and then said with a deep breath: "A Yan, the reason why I and your elder brother hide it from you is because I don't want you to feel that you owe me all the time." .”

Chu Yan lowered his head and raised the corners of his lips slightly, "So, let me think that you are dead, long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, right? This is a good idea you came up with?" He said he was not angry, but in his heart he was still annoying.

"I'm sorry." Meng Xu took a deep breath and said calmly, "I asked you out today because I just think we need to make things clear between us, Yan, I hope you can understand that you really didn't owe me something."

"I owe you." As he said that, Chu Yan suddenly raised his head and cast his eyes straight on Mengxu's pupils, "I owe you after all, even if I write off everything before as you said, it's an old debt." The new account is difficult."

"Huh?" Meng Xu was taken aback for a moment, not understanding the meaning of Chu Yan's words at all.

But Chu Yan didn't go around with him, and continued bluntly: "I still remember you said that you liked me, but I didn't accept it back then, but today, after you have done so many things for me, I still want to blame you .”

Mengxu didn't expect Chu Yan to tell him these things, and he didn't know how to answer for a moment.The atmosphere suddenly became stiff, and the dishes they ordered were served one by one, but the two of them just looked at each other in silence, and neither of them moved their chopsticks first.

Chu Yan didn't pick up the chopsticks until all the dishes were served, "Let's eat."

Mengxu didn't say anything, but he put a piece of boiled fish fillet in Chu Yan's bowl. After all these years, he still remembered that Chu Yan liked to eat this.

And just as he was doing this, Chu Yan suddenly said again, "Do you think I'm cruel, telling you this personally is like asking you to cut off the root of love with your own hands."

Mengxu's hand trembled, and the fish fillet fell into Chu Yan's bowl. He retracted his chopsticks in a little panic, bowed his head and remained silent.

Chu Yan did not pick up the piece of fish in his bowl, but stared at Mengxu opposite with burning eyes, "Axu, what I'm going to say next is the result of my whole night's thinking, I'm sorry My final decision is still to hurt you." After speaking, he paused, and then said again: "Between kindness and love, I choose the latter, the man named Chi Wei you saw yesterday, I love him."

(ToBeContinued)

[2011-10-2419:21:41染°]

The author has something to say: After all, a decision has to be made. It is not the husband who procrastinates in everything. Even if Chu Yan betrays Mengxu, at least he has made his own decision and has the courage to bear the consequences.

Don't question Chu Yan's love anymore. It actually takes a lot of courage and deep love for a righteous man to let go of his responsibilities.

ps: reading text and leaving a message is a virtue, puff~

Choice

Chu Yan didn't sleep well last night. He tossed and turned in bed all night, feeling very uneasy. In the middle of the night, his brother called him. He answered the call, but hung up again without saying a word.

What Chu Fei said was nothing more than words of apology, and at that time, the last thing Chu Yan wanted to hear was an apology.He could understand his brother's desire to protect his younger brother at that time, but as a man, he always felt that if he couldn't even take on the most basic responsibilities, he would feel that he was a coward.

During the phone call, Chu Fei asked him, "Then are you going to go back to Axu now, or are you going to save Chi Wei?" Faced with such a question, Chu Yan was unable to give an answer for a long time, and in the end it was even more hopeless hung up the phone.

Chu Yan thought: This is probably the most useless thing he has ever done in his life.It's just that at that moment, I really didn't know what else I could do besides escape.

Afterwards, his mind was full of Chi Wei and A Xu, and he knew in his heart that this time, no matter what, he had to make a choice. He could only have one of Chi Wei and A Xu, and he could only choose between love and kindness. , You can't have your cake and eat it too, he understood this truth from the very beginning.

It's just that if he chooses Enyi, he is inhumane to Yu Chiwei, and if he chooses love, he is unrighteous to Axu. This choice is too difficult, no matter which side he ends up on, he will always hurt someone people.

All night, Chu Yan didn't close his eyes, tossing and turning, he thought of many things in the past.On the night when A Xu confessed his love to him for the first time, they were clubbing together, and the guy's unexpected sentence "A Yan, I like you" made him really startled, and then he pretended to be calm and replied: "I love you." Don't have a one-night stand with a good brother."

Meng Xu said, "I'm serious about not having one-night stands."

At that time, Chu Yan raised his wine glass and drank the wine in one gulp, probably to build up his courage with the strength of the wine, and then he said to Meng Xu: "I am also serious, we are not suitable."

The second confession was at Chu Yan's house, it was his birthday, the buddies were tossing around until very late, and they all got drunk.In the middle of the night, Mengxu hugged Chu Yan and kept kissing him. Chu Yan became sober after this disturbance, and then heard Mengxu say "I love you" indistinctly.

It happened a long time ago, and when I recall it now, it still feels like it happened yesterday.Thinking of this, Chu Yan simply sat up, crossed his legs and hugged a ball of quilt in his arms. He stared blankly at the wall in front of him, and unconsciously thought of Chi Wei.

For Chi Wei, I don't know if it can be called love at first sight. Since he was sensible, he has never chased someone so seriously.Chu Yan was originally a fun-loving person. With a good-looking face, he never lacked companions. He had been in several relationships in the past two years, but he couldn't find someone who could make him desperate. It was only when Chi Wei appeared that he truly understood that when he loved someone, he would not demand how vigorous the love should be, and he only wanted to spend a lifetime with the other person in a normal way.

That's how Chi Wei felt to him, but it's a pity that although he understood his own thoughts, he never cherished them.On the road of love, he is obviously too naive and immature, which leads to many misunderstandings. It's not that he doesn't know how to love someone, but that he has forgotten that love is like a wall, built brick by brick, To keep it, the foundation must first be firmly established, and secondly, every brick must not be crooked, so as to ensure that the wall of love will not collapse.

Chu Yan was too wrong, thinking that if Chi Wei fell in love with him, he would be able to act unscrupulously, but he didn't know that while he didn't care, the love had quietly gone away.

Thinking of this, Chu Yan's nose suddenly turned sore.He took a breath and blinked his dry eyes vigorously. Only then did he realize that he had never been strong enough.

When it was almost dawn, Chu Fei called him again, and he didn't answer it since that call. After that, there would be an average of five calls every hour. Chu Yanquan pretended he didn't hear it. For a moment, he just wanted to be alone quietly, recalling carefully how he lost his love.

……

"Are you thinking about him?" Meng Xu's words pulled Chu Yan's thoughts back abruptly. The latter smiled awkwardly, picked up the piece of fish in the bowl and put it in his mouth. The spicy taste numb the tip of his tongue. He was quiet for a while, and then replied honestly: "Well, I was thinking of him, and I made him sad again yesterday."

"Did something happen?" Mengxu was like a child, curious about many things.

And Chu Yan didn't hide anything from him. Whatever A Xu asked, he would answer, "Is he angry when he caught us being more intimate yesterday?" A little bit bitter.

"That's not angry, it's just jealous! Being jealous for you means that he cares about you!" Mengxu never thought that he could calmly appease Chu Yan so calmly. Probably after these two years, he really It is already possible to let go.

Chu Yan raised his head and glanced at Meng Xu, then smiled, "I think so, so I decided, this time, I will never let go, and I will chase him back."

Mengxu didn't immediately say