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Decadent, withered petals.

The wound of youth, beauty is also a dark purple sore.

Perhaps Tang Guan was not really drunk, otherwise why would he not forget the knot in his heart.

Not wanting to hear more stupid words from Tang Guan, Bei Xinmiao pulled him off the sofa and put him in the bathroom.When he turned around, he saw Xiao Zhengnan looking at him with strange eyes.

"What happened to him?" Xiao Zhengnan asked teasingly. "Why are you so drunk?"

Bei Xinmiao didn't answer, instead she went to watch a soap opera in front of the TV.

"It can't be that he is jealous." Xiao Zhengnan looked at Bei Xinmiao with interest.

"Do you think it's ridiculous?" Bei Xinmiao said bluntly.

"Of course not." Xiao Zhengnan straightened his face, "I have already seen that your relationship is extraordinary. But why are you so eager to separate from him now? You can be free and easy, but he must be an inexperienced child .”

"You are the one who can be free and easy!" Bei Xinmiao couldn't help ridiculing, and her voice became stiff. "You are the one who is the most flexible and the one who knows how to have fun."

Xiao Zhengnan was stunned for a moment, and slowly raised one corner of his mouth: "Where did I provoke you?"

"Am I right?"

"So you're dissatisfied with me? Or do you like to watch others go crazy for you? You can't expect me to cry for your attention like a teenager."

"You are such a calm and extraordinary person, even when you were a teenager, you didn't lose your sense of proportion."

"Oh, didn't you think it was out of proportion to do those things to you back then?" Xiao Zhengnan jokingly said, looking at the bathroom door, Tang Guan was still talking to himself inside, but his voice became softer a lot of. "This little guy, is he really jealous? He wants to monopolize you." He smiled and raised Bei Xinmiao's chin, "It seems that it's hard to have both. You can choose one of us tonight."

Bei Xinmiao knocked off his hand.Standing up and facing the window, he looked deep in thought.

"I haven't seen you for two days. You two are so weird. What happened?" Xiao Zhengnan said, "I have asked for the third time. If you still don't want to answer, I have no choice but to...don't ask."

There was silence for a while, the soap opera on TV was at its peak, and a couple of heroes and heroines were crying to death for some reason.

"Actually, I... am powerless, and I don't have the ability to take care of him." Bei Xinmiao said this abruptly, and turned around from the window slowly.

Xiao Zhengnan didn't seem to hear it, he stared at the TV screen seriously and said, "How can this kind of bloody TV series be so popular?"

Bei Xinmiao looked at Xiao Zhengnan seriously. "Maybe you can't be like us, maybe you don't need that kind of company, at least now you have the ability to let yourself be in the bustling, how do you know the taste of loneliness?"

Xiao Zhengnan answered after a while. "Aren't you with me now?"

Bei Xinmiao hesitated to speak for a while, and said that sentence hesitantly: "Take care of him for me,...is that okay?"

Xiao Zhengnan was still watching TV seriously, and when Bei Xinmiao wanted to say something again, he said, "Stop talking. You should know that human feelings are not gifts that can be given casually. What he needs is you. "

"I know...you can't give it away casually, let alone throw it away casually. Then...just...come with me...to take care of it, okay?"

Xiao Zhengnan turned his head and glanced at Bei Xinmiao with a strange look, but did not respond.

Bei Xinmiao smiled. "I know what you're thinking, you think I'm crazy."

Xiao Zhengnan knew what the so-called "taking care together" was that night.Having made up her mind, Bei Xinmiao went into the bathroom and pulled Tang Guan out.Before pulling him out, he was washed and stripped naked and pushed onto the bed.Although Tang Guan was drunk, he knew something was wrong, so he wrapped himself in a sheet and stared at Bei Xinmiao on the bed.

"Are you going to insult me?"

Bei Xinmiao said unceremoniously: "When you hold those disgusting nude parties, do you also make this expression as if you still know shame?"

Tang Guan widened his eyes in surprise, "How do you know?" He seemed to become more sober, and muttered, "The paparazzi are really scary." Then he laughed, "You know me, it was just a prank. I just like to reveal the true colors of those people. No one can pretend to be anything in front of me." His mood seemed to improve a lot in an instant, he was keenly aware of the subtle changes in the atmosphere in the room, and his face blushed involuntarily stand up.

On the contrary, Xiao Zhengnan looked dumb, and he looked at Bei Xinmiao in surprise.But in the end he didn't say anything.

All night, Tang Guan hugged Bei Xinmiao and fell asleep.Bei Xinmiao deliberately put him between herself and Xiao Zhengnan.Tang Guan fell asleep amidst the excitement and tension.Xiao Zhengnan didn't respond, he just sat there watching TV.All night the military news was on the television.

……

Maybe this is really a crazy decision.It also seems to be contrary to common sense.

At dawn, Bei Xinmiao quietly got up to leave, and his two partners fell asleep involuntarily under the inertia of human physiology.He pulled Tang Guan's arm from his neck, and gently pushed the sleeping guy to Xiao Zhengnan's side.Then leave them.

This is an absurd approach.He himself felt so.

But if this is the case, maybe his worrying heart can be let go.Will it?The people he couldn't let go of, and the ones he couldn't cherish, he didn't want to leave them with tearing pain in the end.

And how can he make up his mind, take his long-dead body, and throw himself into the black forest and the answer to the mystery he has been waiting for all his life without any hesitation.That should be his world.

For life, he had given up.But found that there was no way to give up.

He wanted to be free from life, but found that death could not free him.

In the end, when everything was revealed, it became a painless and invisible mass of sand, scattered with the wind, and disappeared without a trace. Instead, it was the end he most yearned for.

Chi Yang is waiting for him on the hillside.As if knowing that he would pass here at dawn.

Bei Xinmiao noticed that the long light gray shirt that Chi Yang was wearing today had black lace laces. That guy stood there carefully stroking the laces with his fingers, making them neat and tidy.

"Don't agree to Xifu's request." Chi Yang murmured when Bei Xinmiao approached. "That person just seemed benevolent."

"I don't know what you're talking about." Bei Xinmiao stood facing the dark jade mountain.

"I know what kind of heart you are. Like me, you want to blend into the crowd, and you are nostalgic for the living world. We are the one that should be united. Then we can..."

"What ability do I have! It's worth fighting for." Bei Xinmiao interrupted him. "A person who has not discovered his own advantages and strengths yet is so indecisive, unable to love his relatives and friends, a useless person who cannot bring them any benefit except pain, even I hate myself so much, you want me to What's the use of it!"

"What you don't know is..." Chi Yang whispered, "your pain."

"what?"

"The pain of deep despair...it's beautiful in your eyes. I can see how your heart is breaking, and only good things are worthy of being 'broken'." Chi Yang pointed to the forest behind him , "Those dead people who have long forgotten the meaning of life, how can they be compared with you. You represent beauty. This is the hope in my eyes."