zombie log

A warm embrace is a luxury.

Not everyone is eligible to bear it.

Bei Xinmiao felt that she was like an ugly clown.He has absolutely no right to feel sorry for himself.He never felt that he was a selfish person, but everything he did so far was extremely selfish.

Since returning to City A.He didn't keep people away because of his darkness, on the contrary, he tried his best to get from them what he couldn't bear at all.

Until he finally killed someone.

But he wanted to be selfish one last time.

"I'm sorry." He said to Xiao Zhengnan.

Xiao Zhengnan looked puzzled. "Apologize for what?"

……

Some people walk past you and have no effect; others make your life meaningful.

Bei Xinmiao just wanted to tell Xiao Zhengnan the truth in the last hour.In the hope that he will not forget him completely in his long life.

"My life is one great mystery," he began. "One of the mysteries is that you saw me as a dead person. I didn't suffer from any strange disease. But if it was really just a strange disease, it would be great..."

Xiao Zhengnan laughed, obviously he still took it as a joke, but seeing Bei Xinmiao's serious expression, he grabbed his wrist to feel his pulse.Then he smiled and said, "The dead still have heartbeats?" Immediately, he frowned again. "...Your heartbeat is so weak. I'll call the genius doctor."

"Don't go." Bei Xinmiao held him back. "Don't leave me alone...I don't want to be alone this time..."

Even if it's selfish.He can no longer take care of it.Only one hour, the last hour.Death will come again.He had thought he would never have to go through the most horrific process ever again.He really didn't have the courage to face it alone.

He felt something strange on his face, touched it, and he was crying.

Tang Guan jumped off the hospital bed and came to them barefoot. "Ms. Xiao. He looks very wrong. You stay with him, and I'll call the genius doctor!"

Bei Xinmiao was carried into the ward by Xiao Zhengnan and placed on a bed by the window.Bei Xinmiao grabbed Xiao Zhengnan's clothes without letting go for a moment.He really wanted him to hug him, but he didn't know why.

"Did I disappoint you?" He looked at Xiao Zhengnan.

Xiao Zhengnan remained silent.Touched his forehead. "You are so hot for the first time....Why do you say you are dead?"

There is no way to talk about it.Bei Xinmiao just felt that she had nothing to say.He wants to tell him all.But it cannot be expressed in words.

Where should he begin?from his birth?

From the death of the father?

From his loneliness and encounters?

From Chi Yang?

Since he left City A?

From what he thought he was running towards a new life to the final disillusionment?

Or from his death ten years ago?

"My life is a great mystery." He had to repeat this sentence over and over again. "It seems that I just live in the desert. There is nothing eternal except for flying sand and rocks. I lost everything I loved. Then I died." He looked up at Xiao Zhengnan. "I know I'll lose you too. This is the law of my life. But, I want you...to give me another hour. Just one hour...don't leave me."

His short life was replayed before his eyes.The sky turns from blue to black.The clouds rushed away like waves.

He could not tell his life to another person.No matter how much he wants to be known.Loneliness, or the only thing he could ever have.

"I really want to give you a good time. Use the state of being alive." He leaned on Xiao Zhengnan.It doesn't matter if the guy still wants to hug him or not.

"He even said that he was dead." Xiao Zhengnan sighed. "Could it be that you, like Tang Guan, are crazy?" Suddenly noticing something weird in Bei Xinmiao's collar, she quietly opened Bei Xinmiao's coat, and immediately widened her eyes. "Why... why are you covered in gauze all over your body!" He stood up from the bed and opened all Bei Xinmiao's clothes.Even his trousers fell to his knees, and what appeared in front of his eyes seemed to be a mummy.

Bei Xinmiao let him stare.He tried to explain it to him. "I didn't know I had so many wounds on my body. I only felt it when I was resurrected..."

Xiao Zhengnan bent to open the bandage wrapped around Bei Xinmiao's hand, and saw a small wound that had swollen underneath, a red mark as thin as a hair. "Do you have wounds like this all over your body? What's going on? Are you hurting yourself?"

Bei Xinmiao tried to explain: "It's caused by time..."

Xiao Zhengnan's roar interrupted him: "Stop saying such inexplicable words! Tell me, have you gone crazy?!" He paced around the ward angrily, pulling off his tie to ease his excitement. "I had a very important meeting today. And here I am with you two crazy people! Maybe I'm crazy too! Doing these nonsense things! If you're not going to talk to me normally, I'm leaving now!"

Bei Xinmiao looked at him silently.After a while he said, "Do you really want to hear the truth?"

"Of course. If you..."

"But what I said is true..."

Xiao Zhengnan turned around and left.

"Okay, okay. I'm telling the truth." Bei Xinmiao immediately compromised.He made up the reason. "I had a car accident a day ago. I was sent to this hospital, and the doctor bandaged me like this. I came here to find you when I woke up..."

Although it is a lie, it is easier to believe.Xiao Zhengnan turned around and glared at him. "A car accident? Such a serious matter! You can still make those jokes just now... Forget it, you have always been eccentric. Where did you crash?" He walked back to the bed.

"...It's just these skin wounds. I escaped from under the car by rolling and crawling. So...it's all wounds all over my body."

"What a fate." Xiao Zhengnan examined him carefully. "How did the car accident happen?"

"Because he was in a hurry to see you. He ran into a red light." Chi Yang walked into the ward at some point.Xiao Zhengnan turned his head and looked at him in surprise.

"Are you so surprised to see your old classmates?" Chi Yang said with a smile. "I was the one who took him to the hospital, and I happened to be there when he was in a car accident."

"How did you come together..." Xiao Zhengnan said.

"Bei Xinmiao went to me and told me something." Chi Yang said slowly. "Oh, Squad Leader Xiao, can you take a step and say a few words."

Xiao Zhengnan stood up from the bed.Bei Xinmiao hurriedly stopped him: "Don't go, don't listen to his nonsense, don't believe what he says!"

Chi Yang sighed and said, "the doctor said he broke his brain. Uh You should come out and say it. "

Regardless of Bei Xinmiao's objection, Xiao Zhengnan followed Chi Yang to the corridor.Bei Xinmiao wanted to stop them, but fell to the ground when she got out of bed. He was already very weak, and when he looked at the time on his phone, there were only four or ten minutes left.Death would come soon, and his body would no longer obey him.

Xiao Zhengnan came back soon.Close and lock the door to the ward.He walked quickly to the bed and picked Bei Xinmiao up from the ground. "Why don't you tell me the truth?" His attitude changed from before.Be more considerate.

"What?" Bei Xinmiao guessed what Chi Yang would tell him.

"Your business, and why you came to me. Why don't you want to tell me yourself?"

"What's the matter with me?" Bei Xinmiao asked. "What did he tell me?!"

Xiao Zhengnan stared at him seriously, opened his mouth once, as if he was about to say something, but swallowed it back. "Okay. The doctor said that if your heart function was affected in the car accident and slowed down, it must be revived immediately. This will effectively stimulate you..."

Before he could finish speaking, Bei Xinmiao interrupted him excitedly: "That monster told you this? Don't listen to him! Don't believe him!"

"So is what he said false? He said that the doctor's opinion is that within an hour, you should do strenuous exercise to make your heart beat faster. Keep it beating fast for an hour, and you will be able to recover."

Bei Xinmiao couldn't help but froze. "He was talking about... sports?"

"Yes. No matter what kind of exercise, as long as it can make your heart beat at a high speed within an hour." Xiao Zhengnan said with a smile.He pulled Bei Xinmiao to sit up, but Bei Xinmiao leaned into his arms like a ball of cotton. "Seeing how weak you are now, how can you exercise? And the time requirement of one hour is too tight. I immediately thought of another way." Xiao Zhengnan looked at him and smiled, his eyes gradually becoming provocative.

Bei Xinmiao shook her head: "No, don't you think so? He knows you would think so!"

Xiao Zhengnan didn't believe his words: "Does he know about us? You wouldn't tell him. He hoped that I could take you out for a run, but I think there is always a more effective and faster way than running... baby , you look so sexy with bandages on. And only the key parts are exposed...Is it really not intentional?"

"No..." Before Bei Xinmiao could object, Xiao Zhengnan pressed him on the bed and kissed him.

When the burning kiss covered his cold and numb lips.But he twitched a bit, this time the kiss was no longer just the single touch he felt when he was a zombie.He had a throbbing as if electrified, as if sparks shot out in an instant.

"I'm passionate about you." Xiao Zhengnan said while kissing, I don't know if he is really full of desire at this time, or just to ignite Bei Xinmiao. "I'm madly infatuated with you. Take the initiative, okay? I want you to take the initiative, baby, and say you need me, right now."

Xiao Zhengnan has this kind of magical power.It can make people feel excited immediately.Bei Xinmiao felt that her aching chest began to be filled with heat.The fire brought by the kiss first ignited in his chest, and the place where Xiao Zhengnan's gentle hand touched also seemed to ignite sparks.Is this an illusion?Bei Xinmiao opened her eyes wide in surprise. "I need you." He said involuntarily.

Xiao Zhengnan immediately ended the passionate kiss, turned over and got on the bed.He unbuttoned his coat and hung it on the head of the bed.

Bei Xinmiao looked at him excitedly: "...I want to know...why do you like me?"

Xiao Zhengnan jumped forward and stuffed his tongue into his mouth to tease the tip of his tongue.While answering vaguely, "I don't like it." Amidst Bei Xinmiao's doubts, she said passionately. "Because this is not liking anymore, oh! You have made me fall in love with you a little bit. Work harder and make me really fall in love with you, okay?"

"Say these nasty things..." Bei Xinmiao couldn't laugh or cry, but his heart could no longer refuse, the heat spread through his heart to his limbs, and he raised his relaxed arms to hug Xiao Zhengnan. "It's really amazing!" He sighed involuntarily, the pain was almost covered up by the rush of heat. "But...I..." He thought he should refuse.

But the wonderful taste revived the desire to live again, and it became stronger than ever.He didn't want to think about Huang Mao's appearance again. "Xiao Zhengnan...will you forgive me..."

Xiao Zhengnan didn't say the following words, and suddenly stopped all actions.

"What's wrong?" Bei Xinmiao asked suspiciously.

"You're breathing. No, I mean...I could hardly hear you breathing before."

Bei Xinmiao interrupted him suddenly, and said even more excitedly: "Yes, it's gasping for excitement! I'm panting! Are you trying to say that I've never been like this before? You haven't heard my breathing. But now I can breathe loudly!"

This is really a ridiculous dialogue.But it is true.Xiao Zhengnan nodded gently. "So, you really looked like a dead person before." He thought for a while, and showed a weird smile. "Maybe this car accident has cured your original illness... Next, let's see what's different from before." He stroked Bei Xinmiao's body provocatively with his fingers, The bandage on her body slid down towards Bei Xinmiao's abdomen...