zombie log

Sometimes, people will selectively forget some things.

Such as those most painful memories.

Bei Xinmiao shook her head lightly.He was neither the 13-year-old nor the eight-year-old.He was 11 years old when his father died.

All mood is gone.Bei Xinmiao slowly stood up from the table.Tang Guan looked at him in surprise. "Where are you going?"

There was a strong wind blowing outside, and it seemed to blow all the houses away.Bei Xinmiao put the hoodie on her head, turned up the collar of her coat, and walked across the street.Tang Guan chased out from behind, shivering from the cold after being blown by the wind, he wrapped his school uniform tightly around him and ran to Bei Xinmiao's side and walked side by side with him. "Where are you going?"

They crossed the street and came to another residential building.Bei Xinmiao looked at Xutai.The clothes drying on the slow platform were swept away by the wind, and some people exclaimed and picked them up everywhere.

"Why are we here?" Tang Guan asked.Bei Xinmiao didn't answer, he walked slowly and stepped up the stairs leading to the slow platform step by step with great heaviness.

"Are you uncomfortable?" Tang Guan asked suspiciously as he followed behind him.

In front of a door on the third floor, there is still a couplet posted during the Spring Festival last year. "There are hundreds of blessings in Heshun, and the word Ping'an is worth a thousand gold." The horizontal comment is "family harmony and everything prospers."

Bei Xinmiao stood in front of the door for a while without knocking.Tang Guan looked at his face suspiciously.The door suddenly opened, and a woman rushed out, "I'll go pick up the sheets, you rest..."

Seeing Bei Xinmiao in front of the door, the woman froze there. "You're here..." A smile appeared on her face, "Mom, go pick up the sheets first." The woman ran into the wind.The bed sheet hanging on the railing of the slow terrace had been blown away by the wind, and was hanging on a drainpipe upstairs, but the woman couldn't reach it with her feet, so she went back to look for the bamboo pole.

A voice came from inside the door, "Does my wife need my help?"

"Come on, you don't need you to do this kind of work." Taking the bamboo pole and running out, the woman froze in front of the door again, and Bei Xinmiao stood in front of her with the bed sheet she picked up.Tang Guan was next to him and beat off the dust on the corner of the bed sheet.

"Yeah, Mom forgot that you have grown taller. I'm always away from home, so I forgot that I can command you." The woman took the bed sheet and put the bamboo pole aside.

"Is anyone here?" Perhaps hearing a woman's voice, a fat and old man came out of the room.

"It's my younger brother who came to see you."

"Which little brother?"

Unknowingly, two hundred coins were added to the woman's hand, and she stuffed it into the man's hand, "Look at how sensible the child is, and honor you."

The man smiled happily. I don't know if it was because he saw Bei Xinmiao coming, or because of his 'filial piety'. "I haven't heard from you for ten years, so I finally figured it out and became sensible. Parents are parents, and strictly speaking, it's for your own good... I won't come home for ten years, and I won't consider your mother and my feelings, huh? I thought it was useless for you to go to college? Back then, I was too used to..."

"Go into the house." The woman said with a smile, but looked at the man.

"I won't say these things for you, can you say them out?" the man said, "I'm not willing to discipline my children strictly. I have said a long time ago that you should be strict from an early age so that they can develop the habit of being filial to you. , otherwise, when I grow up, I will be a white-eyed wolf. Look at my little sister, I have asked her to wash clothes and cook by herself since I was eight years old, and now I can marry so well, take care of others and wink... Forget it, big brother, He never came back, and I couldn't control him at all when my little brother was young..."

"My little brother is not in good health. He has been sick since he was a child. Have you forgotten?" the woman said softly.

"The more you are in poor health, the more you need to exercise! Can you still be sick all the time? How about it? If you don't let him work hard, he doesn't know how to be filial. If he doesn't come back for ten years, he has become the worst child. Fortunately, now it seems that I have grown up and sensible..."

"Who are you?!"

Tang Guan said excitedly, he was very surprised why Bei Xinmiao didn't say a word, "You sound like a parent, I think you are just a stepfather at most. If it was your own, you would be willing to discipline it strictly!"

The man stared at Tang Guan: "Which onion are you!"

"I'm his younger brother, his real family!"

"what?!"

The woman hurriedly dissuaded, "Don't be angry, the child is not sensible yet. My little brother apologized to Dad."

Bei Xinmiao hadn't looked at the man all this time, and now he was focusing on the woman: "Where are the elder brother and younger sister now?"

"Apologize to Dad!"

"Where are they!" Bei Xinmiao raised her voice.

The woman looked shocked, as if Bei Xinmiao had said something rebellious. "Brother...is the deputy magistrate of Mingling County. My younger sister is married..."

Bei Xinmiao turned around and left.Tang Guan hurriedly followed him.The woman caught up with Bei Xinmiao on the platform, tears streaming down her face. "If I had known that you didn't like this family, I wouldn't have remarried... But what if there was only my mother..."

The woman was crying miserably, Tang Guan couldn't stand it, and couldn't help supporting her.

The woman is still trying to persuade. "As long as I apologize to my father, the family will be harmonious."

Bei Xinmiao slowly turned her head to look at her: "Mom, I didn't say anything." Why apologize.

Women cry harder. "You were so stubborn when you were 11!"

"Just as long as you feel happy." Bei Xinmiao slowly took out two hundred-yuan bills from her pocket, "It's hard work and you still have to pretend that I gave him the money. These are for you."

Ten minutes later, Bei Xinmiao and Tang Guan boarded the bus to Mingling County.

"Your mother is really sympathetic." Tang Guan said. "I mean, seeing her cry like that..."

Bei Xinmiao remained silent.His deepest impression of his mother is her fragility and that very pitiful face crying.His whole teenage years were soaked in his mother's tears.

An hour and a half later, they arrived at the government office of Mingling County.It was easy to inquire about the well-known deputy county magistrate Bei.

Bei Xinmiao didn't rush to bother her, she inquired about her brother's home address, and wanted to wait until night to go to his home.

The rest of the time, he and Tang Guan spent in an Internet cafe in Mingling County.

"How long has it been since you and your brother?" Tang Guan asked suddenly.

"……Can not remember."

"Has it been ten years?" Tang Guan seems to have discovered that Bei Xinmiao's life is always related to the word 'ten years'.

"...he went to boarding school in middle school and went to college."

"That is to say, after your father passed away, he moved out of the house and entered the school until independence?"

……

The older brother is tall and elegant.I heard that someone who claimed to be his younger brother was looking for him.Then go back early.

When Bei Xinmiao arrived at his house, his brother had already prepared meals and was waiting.

"Come to see me suddenly, do you have anything to ask me?" The elder brother got straight to the point, without even saying any polite words, nor did he express any doubt or concern about his younger brother's current appearance and situation.

"Nothing." Bei Xinmiao sat on the other side of the dining table, not even moving her chopsticks, but Tang Guan picked up the chicken leg and gnawed on it without notice. "I want to ask my brother what do you remember about Dad's death?"

"Why mention this. Don't you still miss Dad? I never saw you go to visit Dad's grave. Every year, it's just me and my little sister."

"Little sister married?"

"I just got married. I eloped with a itinerant merchant at the age of 16. I have children, so what if I don't get married? Are you only now interested?"

Bei Xinmiao's face instantly became like a porcelain that was about to crack: "Have you become a mother yet... But did your elder brother care about her again?"

"I never stayed in that house at all! When my younger sister eloped, I was studying for a graduate student in Beijing. But what about you?"

"I had already gone to college at that time... We all left her alone in that house! No, at least I didn't leave her until I had to leave, but you, big brother, didn't care about it from the beginning!"

The brother didn't speak any more.Can look very angry.After a while he asked, "Where are you now and what do you do?"

Bei Xinmiao didn't answer, but asked softly, "Where is my little sister's home now?"