Brother Donggong

Liuli

a dead ghost

I am the one who died at the beginning of the story.

I remain only in his memory.

My name is Ayla.

I was born in Gaochang City, the only daughter of my father.

Father Alshuyi has two most proud weapons, one is his army.

Twelve years ago, his army destroyed Rouran, fought against the Xiongnu in the north of the desert, crossed the Great Gobi, and aimed at Dazheng in the Central Plains, and an army of 12 approached the Silk Road.

Others say that he wants to drink horses from the Yellow River. I know that is his dream, but the meat on his plate is the Hetao Plain in the western Xinjiang of Dazheng.

It is said that the aquatic plants are fertile there, and there is no wind and sand all year round.Women can wear silk clothes and bright rouge, instead of covering their beautiful faces with heavy headscarves.

And King Gaochang's second weapon is his princess.

The princess is beautiful enough to overwhelm a country, and any man who wants to get her will become a sword in the hands of King Gaochang.The men saw each other as their enemies and hated each other.They may have been brothers, they may have been best friends, but they all betrayed each other and killed each other to get the promise of King Gochang.

In the end, the city-state was destroyed and the land was included in the territory of Gaochang. Without exception, my father Alshuyi was the final winner.In Gaochang, in the whole of Western Xinjiang, no man has ever gotten me.

In the end, my father married me to the emperor of Dazheng.

That Emperor Fenghua, who was one year older than his father, had countless beauties in the harem, and several grown sons.

It was only when I arrived at Yongjing, the capital of Dazheng, that I truly understood the dream hidden in my father's heart.The magnificent Yongjing is a paradise that Gaochang people can't even dream of.It is a fairyland piled up with countless treasures!

Compared with the dazzling carved beams and painted buildings in Yongjing, Gaochang City, known as the Pearl of the Silk Road, looks like a defeated mound with foxtails floating on it.

—That's what he said.

Thinking of him, my heart, which should have been aching like dust, didn't hurt so much. Those tragic memories seemed to be covered with a layer of moonlight, bright and clear, with a touch of tenderness.

I met him at the midnight banquet of the Dragon Boat Festival one year ago. At that time, I was 16 years old and he was.

But I know his name, but on the way from Gaochang to Yongjing.

My married lady Zhiluo gave me a book, which recorded the names, ages, backgrounds, and hobbies of all the princes and concubines of Emperor Dazheng. Some characters were even drawn with a small picture next to the text.

——Chengyi, the eldest son of the emperor, was born in Fenghua in 18 years, and his mother, Cui Meiren, was originally a laundry slave in the harem.

There is a small picture next to his text.

Ordinary appearance, a tear mole in the corner of the eye.

The female officer Zhiluo said to me, "Princess, please remember this person.

His biological mother came from a humble background, but he was the first son of Emperor Dazheng.

Someone once said that the eldest son of the emperor is not the son of the emperor.Because the emperor had been on the throne for more than ten years and had no children, the civil servants in the Dazheng court used this reason to attack the emperor and forced him to abdicate. Later, the emperor killed them all.Later, the emperor's sons were born continuously, which broke the original rumors. "

"Because his birth made the emperor's throne stable, the emperor has always loved him very much. However, due to power and political reasons, the emperor could not canonize him as the prince, but he loved him very much, so he was always allowed to study with the prince. He can even freely enter and leave the place where the emperor handles government affairs, which is the Weiyin Hall."

"He is the eldest son, but because his mother's status is too low, he cannot become the crown prince."

"A person, if he is infinitely close to a high position but can't really get it, he must have resentment."

"Princess, please remember this man, he can be used by us."

I will remember him.

The Dragon Boat Festival that year was the 14th birthday of Prince Dazheng, and the night sky was filled with fireworks, which were extremely gorgeous.

I remember his eyes, like the purest water on the Tianshan Mountains, passed through all kinds of illusory and prosperous, separated by the beautiful and enchanting dancers, the rich milk and jade liquid, the royal family and nobles who were full of people looked over...

It was only after I actually saw him that I realized that those portraits and the things that the spies poked out were all fake.

He is a completely different man from the Gaochang warrior!

He didn't have any resentment or dissatisfaction.

He is as quiet as a clear river.

He looks nothing like the portrait at all!

I have never seen such a handsome man.

He is not like the prince next to the emperor's throne, that young man who is as cold and beautiful as snow, with eyes as sharp as a sword, he feels very special, it has a soft and pure feeling, like a child.It also seems to be the cloth made of the finest silk floss in Gaochang, or the clouds floating on the top of Tianshan Mountain.

His hair is very soft and a little fluffy, and when he tied the golden crown, there were two locks left on his forehead. I thought it was because he didn't want to tie it up, but it was actually because the hair was loose and he didn't want to be tied in.

He loves to laugh, his mouth is split open when he laughs, and his eyes are squinted, like a contented cat.

There are some things that no one has ever known, and neither does my father.

There are two men in this world, and I cannot seduce them.

One is my husband.

In the rumors of Gaochang, he is a weak and cowardly king.He is very timid, but he likes hunting, but he was once frightened by a fox that suddenly appeared in the hunting ground and fell off his horse. He is sitting on three thousand beauties, but dreams of making alchemy and becoming a fairy.

Like Zheng people, too much wealth, too many books, and too comfortable life wear away the wildness and make them tame like lambs.

However, when I really faced him, I realized that I was wrong, my father was wrong, and how wrong it was.

He is not a lamb.It is impossible for the lamb to have such sharp eyes and graceful demeanor.

He was a lion, maybe a dozing lion, but he was a lion.

Compared with him, my militaristic father is like a tame camel, which is still a mother.

—That's what he said too.

My husband has no interest in me, not because he is restrained, but because he has too many options.

In Dazheng's harem, the most beautiful women in the world are as worthless as sand.

Even though I am the princess of Gaochang, my beauty and fame move the Silk Road, in the eyes of my husband, I am just a hostage sent to Yongjing by my father, a hostage who can be killed or given up at any time.

The other person is him!

I know he likes me, I can tell from that look, but I found that he is so far away from me, even farther than Gaochang to Yongjing.

He also lives in Dazheng Palace, maybe because he doesn't have his own title and mansion yet, so he can't move out.He likes to see me very much. He knows that I like to eat the dishes in the palace, so he brings me the fruits from the Guasha Sulan Zhuzhou to the palace as much as possible.He knows I like to eat those things.

He said that as long as he has a good appetite and a full stomach, he will not be so homesick.

He is very close to me.

He is a man like a child.At that time, he liked to squint, crawl on the table, watch me eat expensive grapes, and then grinned.

At that time the sun was shining warmly.

I seem to have returned to my childhood.

Under the blue sky, is Gaochang City built with rammed earth.Row upon row of houses, looking out from the attic of the palace, there are mules and horses, wells, workshops, markets, temples, and people wrapped in turbans, bustling.In the distance are the beautiful snow-capped peaks of the Tianshan Mountains.

Away from the hustle and bustle, I saw a small garden outside the palace, planted with several jujube trees, under the shade of which was a five or six-year-old girl weaving a small basket with branches, and sitting beside her was a girl of the same age. The little boy, holding a test bag in his hand, is eating, and secretly kissing the little girl's cheek from time to time.

Seung-yi reminds me of those two kids.

It seems that I am the little girl weaving flower baskets, and he is a little boy eating exam bags.

I like him.

He likes me too.

We can't be together.

Because I am his father's woman.

Thinking of this, I began to feel uncomfortable again.I don't know why people feel distressed when they die.

There was a thick fog in front of me, and there was only the sound of the Santu River flowing quietly.The punters on Wangchuan's side wore black veils and held paddles in their hands, quietly and slowly ferrying.According to the legend of Dazheng, when a woman crosses the Santu River, the first man in her life will be waiting on the opposite bank to lead her ashore.

But what if that person is still alive?

He was my first man and only one.

This is what I forced.

At that time, I had no achievements in the harem, and everyone forgot about me, but my father suddenly sent a letter.He said that this winter is very sad, he has had enough, and he will enter the Silk Road in the spring of next year.

Gaochang and Dazheng have been fighting on and off for seven years, and the people of Zheng are fighting and defending, which is extremely annoying.

Dazheng resisted the Xiongnu in the north, defended the East China Sea and closed the country, and some pirates and vassal states in the south coast. The cost of the war was too high, so for Gaochang, they would appease them if they could, and make peace with each other if they could. If these gentle policies don’t work ,...

At that time, we didn't know what would happen if we crossed the limit of their tenderness?

What the father wants is the war deployment map of the entire western border.

At that time, I only knew that General Dazheng who guarded the western border was called Pei Tan, and that Pei's family was relatives of Prince Wen Zhan of the Eastern Palace.

I can't get what my father wants.

I'm just a concubine in the harem, I can't get out of the harem, and I can never get close to the Hall of Weiyin.

The female official Zhiluo told me, "Princess, you can go to His Royal Highness, he has been in the Weiyin Palace, he must know everything!"

I know he knows everything.

Now, the battle between Gaochang and Dazheng is tense, although I can still see Chengyi often and eat the fruits he sent, but I can see some gloom in his eyes.

He must know everything!

I know, I don't know, what my father wants me to know, what my father doesn't want me to know... In this way, he knows everything.

But he never said a word.

That day, he came again, and I asked him, "Can you help me?"

……

He seemed a little surprised. I grabbed him and begged him hard, but he just held my hand tightly, shaking his head resolutely with difficulty.

"Ayla, I'm sorry."

"I love you,……"

"But I don't love Gaochang."

I was rejected by him, and I was completely hopeless.

I'm like an ant hiding under the boulder. Without his help, the people in the harem would lift up the boulder and crush me to pieces.It is impossible for me to get any news that my father wants.

I was terrified.

But he said, "If you want, I will send you out of the palace."

Chengyi, why don't you understand?

Although the world is very wide, there is no place for me to stay!

If my father dies, Gaochang is destroyed, and my younger brother Mo Que's whereabouts are unknown, then it is worthless for me to live alone in this world.

I was born as a princess of Gaochang, and I will be a princess of Gaochang when I die.

I can never be just an ordinary woman Ayla!

That day, I was waiting for him, and I wanted to tell him one last time, if he still rejected me, I would tell my husband about the things between us.

Cheng Yi didn't come, it was Prince Wen Zhan who came.

He said, "You said there was an affair between you and my elder brother? Has he ever touched you?"

There was an ambiguous smile on his lips.

"no."

"What kind of ambiguity is this? Do you flirt with each other? Give fruit to each other? Or is it a love affair? Princess, you don't know much about Da Zheng, and you don't know Da Zheng's court either."

"Don't say my brother didn't touch you, even if he touched you and you weren't pregnant with his child, nothing happened between you!"

I was intimidated by him.

I know Cheng Yi loves him very much, every time he mentions Wen Zhan, his squinting eyes are full of brilliance.

but……

The prince is only 14 years old, younger than my brother Mo Que.

But he was a young lion with the teeth of a viper.

"Prince, what do you mean?"

Wen Zhan said to me, "Princess, I'm here to help you."

He produced a small bottle, carved from fine emeralds, with a golden cap.

He said, "Brother Dahuang drinks this, and you will get your wish. If you are very lucky, maybe you will have his children. Then you can really blackmail him."

I'm very surprised, because I don't understand what he wants to do at all?

"What do you want to do?"

The young prince was in a trance.

I thought he would not answer me, but he said, "Some people say that I need to kill him, but... I think it is enough for me to have a handle on him..."

"Oh, and, no matter what my elder brother thinks in the end, father will never give you something so important in Xijiang, but I can negotiate another condition with you."

"Brother Da Huang is under control, Da Zheng and Gao Chang will never fight decisively for at least three years."

Father sneered at this news, but I know how precious this promise is to us.

Deputy Dazheng has a vast territory and a large population.

As for war, they can afford it, but we cannot.

To Rouran, to the Huns, to Da Zheng.

My father fought the war for 20 years, and now in Gaochang country, as long as a boy can hold a long wooden spear, he will be recruited into the Silk Road battlefield.

If it continues like this, within two years, Gaochang will be completely wiped out.

Many people don't understand.

My father doesn't understand, Gao Chang doesn't understand.

They dreamed of drinking horses from the Yellow River and setting their capital at Yongjing!

That night, I said to Chengyi, I am tired, I am just a woman, I don't want to be involved in endless fights, and between Gao Chang and Da Zheng, I want to give up everything and go away.

He wasn't as happy as I expected.

He was actually a little sad.

He is a man like a child.Why he still doesn't understand that the fate of life is impermanent, and it can never be satisfactory.He hopes that all the people he likes will be together, drink tea and chat, and spend the day leisurely, which is a beauty that cannot be dreamed of in dreams.

He asked me, do you want to walk with me?

I turned him down.

I just said that I don't want to have any contact with the people here.

……

Thinking of this, I am very tired.

Suddenly, a strong red color bloomed silently in front of his eyes.

That is, Bianhua.

That night, Cheng Yi was drugged by me, he had no choice, the drug destroyed all his sanity, everything we did could only succumb to desire.

It hurts, it really hurts.

When he entered, I cried out in pain.

But Chengyi hugged me.

He bit his arm with his teeth and tried to stay awake, but it was useless. The feeling of being unable to fight against desire made people desperate to the extreme.

So he gave up, he just hugged me with his hands, comforted me as much as possible, and treated me as carefully as possible.

His embrace was warm.

To be hugged by him with both hands, there will be a sad feeling of happiness.

I really want to die like this.

When I woke up, I was lying in the house, Chengyi got dressed and sat outside in the garden.The moonlight was very bright, shining in his eyes.I know his eyesight is bad and he can't see things clearly at night, so he likes bright places.

I know, he already guessed what happened.

But he didn't say anything.

He even came over and smiled at me.

Although his smile is a little sad.

He stroked my cheek with his fingers and whispered, "I'm sorry...is it hard?"

At that time, I didn't know that the great eunuch in the palace had come.

He originally wanted to come over to catch the adulterer, but he saw Chengyi sitting in the garden with her clothes on, and I was lying in the hall. Although there were no servants around, I couldn't see any ambiguity happening.

He just said, "The princess is tired, I will send her back to rest."

He was betrayed.

He was betrayed by his beloved brother and his favorite woman.

But he smiled lightly at me.

Then... and then what?

I don't know if it was God's favor or punishment, but I was actually pregnant with his child.

I want a child to threaten him, "The emperor never touched me, only you, this is your child! Only you can help me, help me, otherwise we will all die, you, me, and the child will all die !"

Pregnancy made me hysterical, crazy, and the unbearable vomiting took all my patience.I pushed him, I almost cornered him.

However, he still rejected me.

That day, I made a lot of noise and vomited until he finally finished comforting me and told me to lie down, he sat beside my bed, brushed my cheek with his fingers gently, and said seriously, "Ah I really can't promise you, Ira. I can't tell you all the news about the Hall of Microphonics."

I asked him, "Even if I go and tell your father, I'm pregnant with your child."

He nodded, "Yes."

I shouted, "Even if you are executed, even if your mother is executed, even if the Cui family is satisfied?"

He closed his eyes for a moment, but still nodded, "Yes. But, if you want to leave, I can send you away. If, you want to die... I will die with you."

I was very tired, and I turned around, "Why didn't you kill me to silence me? You will be innocent, and you can continue to be your prince."

Chengyi came over cautiously and hugged me, "I did something wrong, but I can't do another wrong thing to cover it up. And... I love you..."

I cried.

He still wanted to save me from being born.

But why didn't he understand that our love was a dead end from the very beginning.

From the day I entered Yongjing, I could never go back.

Thinking about it now, I was too naive at that time.

I didn't know it at all. The day Chengyi found out that I had a child, she confessed everything to his father.And my husband, the middle-aged man who looks very quiet, just held a chess piece in his hand and said lightly, "Oh, that's it. Let Li Fang give the princess a glass of poisoned wine. Don't worry about such a trivial matter." I'm worried, come and play a game of chess with my father."

It was Chengyi who blocked the glass of poisoned wine.

At that time, Pei Tan's soldiers in Xijiang had enough food, and Gaochang was already a fish on the chopping board, but he didn't know it yet.

Then, everything just exploded.

I was arrested for adultery in the harem and questioned.

In a rage, his father swung his army eastward.

After fighting hard for four months, the battle line retreated all the way west from the Silk Road, and finally, it finally reached the city of Gaochang.

Dazheng soldiers suppressed Gaochang City, and Gaochang was destroyed 20 days later.

Chengyi told his father that he was going to take me away.From then on, the mountains were high and the water was far away, and he never returned to Yongjing.

The emperor hesitated.

He always knew that Chengyi wanted to leave Yongjing, he also knew that I had Chengyi's child, and he also knew... But the prince said, "After all, the princess is pregnant, and going on the road rashly at this time is not good for her health. But in the Forbidden Garden of the Harem Some people talk too much, otherwise we will move to the Leng Palace first, and then make a decision after the princess gives birth to Lin'er."

The emperor agreed.

Chengyi could only agree.

At that time, he didn't know how deep his heart was like the sea for his younger brother.

When I learned that I was thrown into limbo, I knew that I would never come out alive, and I would never see Chengyi again.

I died peacefully, surprisingly peacefully.

I didn't see Chengyi.

Although Zhiluo desperately ran out of the cold palace to find Chengyi after knowing what happened to me, I still didn't see Chengyi.

I have no regrets, I'm even grateful.

In any case, without letting him see my disgusting appearance, I can die in peace.

I have already left too many hysterical and ugly impressions on him, and I don't want him to see my last bloody virtue anymore.

He didn't come, maybe he didn't want to come,... maybe, his brother didn't let him come.

In fact, I have known for a long time, his younger brother's thoughts may have been known earlier than the prince himself...

That year's Dragon Boat Festival, the banquet in the Forbidden Palace, and the fireworks all over the sky were so gorgeous that they mesmerized people's eyes.

I saw that pair of gentle eyes, that child-like man, across the illusory and prosperous Taisho Palace, across the beautiful dancer, all the noble relatives looked over...

The snow water on Tianshan Mountain is as clear as ice, and the smile in her eyes seems to be the purest dream in every girl's heart.

Seung-yi!

However, I also saw that handsome boy who was as cold as a snow mountain, with eyes like flames, staring at Chengyi fieryly!

Chengyi didn't know, because at that time, he only had eyes on me!

I am dead.

He is still alive.

The boy is still alive.

I don't want to bless him!

When I was most desperate, I met the purest love.

If we didn't meet like this, if we didn't have so many national and family feuds, if there was only a pure and beautiful relationship between us...

I am a royal girl from Gaochang, he is just a royal boy from Yongjing...

If there is an afterlife, I don't want to be Cheng Yi's love anymore, I don't want to hurt him anymore, I don't want to make him feel so distressed that I am in a dilemma.

I think……

To be a nightingale, to sing a song for him when he is lonely, when he opens the window...

I think……

Become a flower that grows by his door, and when he opens the door, you can smell the clear fragrance...

I think……

Become a gust of breeze, gently blow away the dark clouds for him when his eyes cannot see the bright moon...

My feet set foot on the other side of the river, and the memories of my previous life fell behind me like the wind.

I forgot to say something to him...

I love you.