[Black Basket] Star Trail

Kanzawa Norie, who was sitting on the bed, lowered her eyes.

Mental illness and physical illness are different.If you have a fever, you can do what you need to do with willpower alone. As long as you have enough motivation and determination, you can conquer physical discomfort in many cases.But mental illness is different, it does not have paroxysms like migraines, what you have to face is a 24-hour breakdown, no matter how beautiful and lovely things you see, you will not be happy about them, like a tree rotted from the inside , even though it looks healthy on the outside, in fact, it has been eroded to the point where there is nothing left.

If psychotherapy is to be started, the movement and movement brought about will inevitably be inferior to Kanzawa Jizheng.

Girls know this.The two choices given to her by the black-haired youth were nothing more than asking her if she wanted to take the initiative.In fact, even if she chooses neither, sooner or later Kanzawa Jizheng will still notice something is wrong, and will still ask, and then get the most hurtful answer from her mouth-it is nothing more than a matter of time.

She is clearly clear.

"I'll go and talk to him myself," said the girl in home clothes.

Kanzawa Norie stared directly at the black-haired young man who was just a few feet away, his gaze was fragile yet firm. "There's no need to bother anyone else. It's all my fault, and I'll fix it."

Kanazawa Yukio sighed. "I'm not forcing you to..."

"I know," she said, "I didn't harbor resentment, or feel that my brother didn't understand my situation. It's just that I've chosen the wrong path once. At first, I didn't want anyone to worry about it. Later, I had to use another lie to support the original situation. My lies. Now that I think about it, my original intention has become a heavy burden on my shoulders, and I didn’t go to the point of ‘not letting anyone worry’.”

The shoulders of the black-haired young man relaxed, and he could hear the girl's sincerity.

"That's good." He stood up, because of his tall stature, he slightly covered the light in the room, standing upright like a tree that shaded her.The young man thought for a while before saying the next sentence.

"I'm here for everything."

Although she readily agreed, Kanzawa Norie had no idea how to actually do it.

Once Kanzawa Kisho found out about this—knowing about it from her—it was inevitable to have a falling out with her.The relationship that had slowly returned to normal since the grade skipping was about to be destroyed by her again.

How did this matter come to this point?

I can't remember it at all.

That's what a lie is.Leading you farther and farther from your original intention until you can no longer see it, and then you find that the path under your feet has violated your original intention.Kanzawa Jihui wanted to protect Kanzawa Jizheng, but in the end it was herself who hurt him the most.The girl looked at the phone on the table, thought about it, and turned it on.

"Akashi-kun... are you free?"

"Um"

"Sure enough, I still want to talk to Akashi-kun. I'm going to start psychotherapy this weekend."

There was no reply from that end.Kanzawa Norie stood in front of the desk holding the phone, and the other party was someone who "go away and say something if you have something to do", no matter how urgent it is, he wouldn't just leave without saying a word.Just thinking about it, the phone rang.

"Caller: Akashi Seijuro"

Kanzawa Norie pressed the answer button, and the clear and soft voice of the red-haired boy rang in her ears. The girl felt her breathing was suffocating, and her waist and eyes were a little numb. She blinked her eyes and tried to calm herself down.

"Yeah... that would be great."

There was a smile in Akashi Seijuro's voice, which was a bit strange for him recently, Kanzawa Norie could imagine that the expression of the boy with different eyes at this time must be a faint smile.The girl went to the door to make sure the door was closed, and then she lay down on the bed, not forgetting to raise her injured leg a bit.

"Yeah." The girl looked at the ceiling, "I'm going this weekend. And... there's no right time to talk about it anyway, so maybe I'll talk to Ji Zheng later."

Akashi Seijuro was taken aback, and subconsciously raised his eyes to glance at the sketch on the wall.

"Sure enough, I can't get over it. This kind of thing." Kanzawa Jihui's tone was a bit self-deprecating, and his fingers slowly brushed the end of his eyebrows. Heart walked to her bedside and arched her, as if he wanted to Tell her to keep playing with it.The girl touched the golden retriever's head with her backhand. There are more important things to do now. "That's why I just want to report it to Akashi-kun. Please don't be surprised if you hear Ji Zheng talking about it."

Akashi Seijuro was silent for a moment.

He knew very well what this matter meant to the girl.If she hadn't really made up her mind, she wouldn't have rashly told Kanzawa Jizheng about this matter. Doing so would be a desperate move.The return is almost zero, but the risk is huge. It is definitely a predictable loss-making business.It is impossible for any normal person to make an uneconomical deal. There is only one reason for a girl to do such a thankless thing.

──I want to face myself who made mistakes in the past.

Face it frankly, as if you have never seen this person clearly, and examine it from the inside to the outside.

Face up to the mistakes you made in the past, make compensations that may not be perfect but try your best, know that the other party cannot not be angry, but you will not retreat because this is the right thing to do.

The ruler in Kanzawa Norie's heart has always existed.

"Ah."

Akashi Seijuro approached the sketch.There are ships moored at the pier, the railings on the shore cast shadows, and there are seagulls flying by in the sky. The composition is as realistic as a photo. Akashi can even hear the sound of the ship's whistle from afar, melodious, like a seafarer's endless story , with a trace of the wind from the other side, it still smelled fishy when it hit the face.

"Good luck."

The brown-haired girl reached out and knocked on the door opposite, with a trace of hesitation that she couldn't even comprehend.

"Come in." Kanzawa Jizheng's voice sounded.The girl pushed the door open, and the other party was sitting cross-legged on a chair.The black cat was lying in a ball on his lap, its tail swaying freely, very leisurely.

"It's you, what's the matter?"

"I have something I want to tell you." Kanazawa Norie approached him. The math homework on the table has already been done to the last one. It seems that her timing is not bad. "Because it's very long...it may take a while."

Kanzawa Ji was looking at the girl, and caught a little silence between her eyebrows and eyes. If even Kanzawa Jiyu could tell her abnormality, let alone the black-haired boy who had been facing her day and night for many years.He pointed to his own bed, and she sat on the edge of the bed, with her legs crossed and her chest crossed, her anxiety could be seen from the sitting posture.

The girl suddenly remembered that early morning.

That morning was her first day back to class, the girl said to herself in the mirror, cheers, it has been almost half a year in the blink of an eye.She went from falling to getting up again, from losing to possessing, from saying goodbye to meeting.

Kanazawa Norie took a deep breath.

During the whole process, Kanzawa Jizheng was surprisingly silent.He didn't say a word, even though the girl deliberately left a pause for him to ask questions, he still didn't say a word, and even his face didn't change.Kanzawa Norie had guessed countless reactions from him, but he didn't expect that he would not give any response.

What the girl said was only her own part of the matter, and other insiders—whether Akashi or Dr. Chino—were not included in her narration.After confirming that Norie Kanzawa had finished speaking, the black-haired boy looked away from her, and lowered his head to stroke the fur on the black cat's back. Spade squinted his eyes and looked at Norie Kanzawa, his golden eyes shining brightly.That kind of golden color is different from Akashi's eyes. The black cat's golden color is more intense and sharp, and it always gives off a sense of arrogance when looking at people.Although Kanzawa Jizheng didn't look at her, facing the gaze of the black cat, the girl turned her head to avoid its gaze.

"In that case..." Kanzawa Jizheng realized that his voice was unbelievably hoarse when he was about to speak, and quickly cleared his throat, "The incident between you and Jicheng...was actually related to your illness?"

Kanzawa Norie nodded with a straight face.

"That time a psychiatrist's business card appeared in your shoe cabinet, was it just a play?"

"No." Kanzawa Norie didn't intend to evade the responsibility that should be acknowledged, but she didn't need to wrap her upper body since it had nothing to do with her. "I knew I was sick at the time, but I don't know why there was a business card in the shoe cabinet."

Kanzawa Jizheng fell into silence again.

He could think that the discord between Himeki Ayaka and himself was related to her illness, and Kanzawa Norie was not surprised.

Although in her opinion, Ji Cheng's intentions were too obvious, but Kanzawa Norisha didn't seem to care too much - Kanzawa Norishae guessed that maybe he really didn't know that the other party was interested in him.

The reason why Kanzawa Jizheng didn't understand why the two had turned against each other was because he couldn't find the point of conflict between them.Now that he has found it, everything can be connected and made sense.

Seeing his expression, Kanzawa Norie guessed that the boy had nothing to ask, so he stood up and planned to leave, but he forgot that his right ankle was still injured, and accidentally put his own weight on it.The girl's face suddenly changed, but Kanzawa Ji was thinking about things with his head down, and didn't pay attention to this little episode.

The brown-haired girl quickly adjusted.

"You probably need a little time to be alone, so I'll go first."

Kanazawa Norie closed the door gently.The light and shadow cut her facial features carefully, casting a shadow under the high bones, casting light gray butterfly wings on the eyelashes under her eyes.After talking about the whole story, the girl felt relaxed for the first time in a long time, like the lightness after a serious illness, the comfort of regaining strength.For too long, a girl has to put on a mask and be armed with lies, so long that she has forgotten what it feels like to be her true self.Perhaps what she wants most in her heart is not to get forgiveness from Kanzawa Jizheng, but to free herself.