let loose

After the quarrel, it was the first time they met face to face again after two days. Song Mian was nervous and guilty at the same time. His palms were sweating a little. He silently rubbed his pants on his pants and lowered his head, not daring to look at Jiang Zhou.

The arc of his movements was so small that it wasn't obvious, but Jiang Zhou still noticed it.

Jiang Zhou glanced at the movement of his hands, his eyes paused for a moment, and then quickly moved away.He resisted the faint itch in his throat, and moved his lips: "What are you going to do?"

"Brother...don't be like this." Jiang Zhou's tone of speech was not fluctuating, with alienation in the plain, Song Mian's expression was hurt, and he pleaded slightly: "It's been two days, haven't you forgiven me... I know it was my fault to find the shooter, and it was a big mistake to lie to you, I know it all, and I will change it in the future."

As he spoke, he looked at Jiang Zhou's face carefully, and slowly pulled Jiang Zhou's sleeve with his right hand fingers. After pulling, he shook his mouth and made a coquettish expression: "Can you forgive me?"

Jiang Zhou didn't make a sound, or take specific actions to stop Song Mian's obviously flattering behavior. He just kept silent, with his lips tightly pressed together.

The air conditioner in the bus was blowing warm air, and the curtains were rolled up and floated out of the window frame. Outside the bus window was the bustle of the campus area, the chirping noise of students mixed with the hustle and bustle of the downtown.

It was eerily quiet in the car.

Jiang Zhou was silent for too long, and Song Mian changed from being nervous and guilty to more tormenting fear and anxiety.

He had to shake Jiang Zhou's clothes again to attract the other's attention: "Brother?"

Another familiar routine.When I made a mistake, I just pretended to be good and begged for mercy, and said what I should do diligently, but I didn't think carefully about the point of the mistake, let alone whether I really need to change it.

I don't know how much of the sincerity on his face is due to knowing his mistakes and repentance, and how much is purely for showing favor.

If Jiang Zhou had hoped that Song Mian might have figured it out when he came here, then at this moment, there was only endless disappointment in his heart, and the disappointment was so bitter and painful in his throat.

Jiang Zhou finally looked at Song Mian's face and asked him, "How do you plan to change?"

Song Mian's heart skipped a beat, and he took the lead to avoid his eyes, and turned around among the empty seats. He thought for a while, like a primary school student making a promise, and said, "I will listen to you from now on, take care of yourself." Listen to lectures, do homework by yourself, and memorize books carefully.”

Jiang Zhou shook his head after hearing this: "You still don't understand." He said, "Song Mian, I liked your innocence very much before, and I was willing to watch this precious innocence, but now I just feel sad."

"You don't study for me. You don't need to look at my face to judge whether your grades are good or bad and whether you do something right or wrong. You don't need to say sorry to me. It's unnecessary. After all, before you are worthy of anyone, You have to forgive yourself first."

Listening to this, Song Mian felt that his face was very hot. Being educated by the person he likes by analyzing his shortcomings, he said anxiously: "But I'm so poor at school... I want to go further with you, you didn't talk Follow me, I do it voluntarily."

"Then what are you taking with me?"

Jiang Zhou sighed lightly and slowly, he suddenly felt very tired, the kind of exhaustion that he could not escape physically and mentally.

"Is it based on your passive and arrogant attitude towards textbooks?"

"Parents are an excuse for you to close yourself, a certain star is an excuse for you to love basketball, what about me? Which excuse am I? I am with you, is there an excuse? It doesn't matter whether it is good or bad."

"no no……"

Song Mian was choked and had no words to refute.

When the two of them were together, he was always the one talking and Jiang Zhou listened, but now that Jiang Zhou was the one talking, he couldn't catch a word and could only shake his head dully.The corners of his eyes turned red with anxiety, and the hand holding his clothes flinched back, flustered like a naughty child who was being scolded and at a loss what to do.

"You called me here on purpose, are you afraid or running away from someone, my dad?" Jiang Zhou looked down at Song Mian's fingers that were intertwined because of nervousness, but he didn't intend to let him go. : "Because of the close relationship between me and you, you are guilty."

"And your guilty conscience is because you are not confident, you think you are not worthy of me, so you don't even have the courage to admit this feeling. Song Mian, you are really cowardly."

"I didn't..." Song Mian tried to explain, but couldn't utter a complete sentence.

Jiang Zhou's words were harsh, but he was surprised to find that it was true. He was really afraid. He didn't dare to face Jiang Zhou's father. He abducted his son.

Jiang Zhou is obviously so good.

"There won't be only one situation like this." Jiang Zhou said: "In the future, there will only be more and more, and the cycle will repeat. My family, your family, these are the situations that our relationship must face."

"The college entrance examination is one year away. There are many practical problems that cannot be escaped, such as the school to apply for, the major you choose, your future work direction, and the relationship between me and you. Do you understand?"

"Forever. It's just a moment to say it. It's light and weightless, but you won't find it until you really want to realize it. It's very difficult." Jiang Zhou's voice is very steady, but it feels sad for no reason in his ears : "It's too heavy, but anyone with narrower shoulders and less confidence will be crushed."

"Brother..." Song Mian slumped her shoulders, her eye circles suddenly turned red, and her heart suddenly felt uneasy.He really never thought of this before, he has always been a fan of seizing the day and night.

"We are too young, our horizons are too narrow, we have never encountered any troubles, and we don't have so many things to think about. Whenever adults say something or do something on their own initiative, we will probably just let it go. I can't find a way after struggling. So I hope your shoulders can broaden and bear this heavy eternity with me."

The cold probably got worse. Jiang Zhou felt his body shaking slightly, and his head began to hurt. The breath he exhaled was hot and burned on his skin. It was uncomfortably hot. He was too tired. Some reacted, turned around and left.

Push hard again.

It was rare for Jiang Zhou to say so many things at once, and he despised himself a bit, being selfish for a while.

Song Mian is 17 years old. She is the most carefree and carefree age, who doesn't care about any difficulties.He also wanted to keep Song Mian's lively and lovely appearance as a child, but he didn't want him to grow up forever.He hoped that he was innocent, but he didn't want him to be innocent.

……

The group first went to the hotel arranged by the school in advance to check in.Considering the next day's competition, the Xueba team needs a good environment to ensure the quality of sleep. There are about a dozen students, each of whom lives in a separate room.

The basketball team is not so particular. Double rooms and triple rooms are randomly filled until they are full.

Song Mian and Zheng Qiran live in one room.

The initiative to seek peace in the morning ended in being beaten to pieces, and his mind was twisted tightly with boredom. Since then, he has not said a word, and his face has remained dark.The other class didn't know him well, and no one wanted to be taken advantage of, so they avoided him.

At around [-] noon, a group of people clamored to go downstairs to find a restaurant to have a good meal, all the voices were pushing and shoving.This floor of the hotel seems to live with dozens of fleas, and they don't seem to be able to show their existence without making some noise.

Song Mian didn't follow, he had no appetite, so he lay down on the bed and closed his eyes to doze off after eating two biscuits.

Strange to say, he should have been sad and depressed and unable to sleep, but when the surroundings became quiet, the grievance in his heart suddenly dissipated.

He didn't deliberately think about Jiang Zhou. It took time and trouble to fall in love. A unilaterally suppressed conversation consumed his energy for the next month. Now he just wants to relax.

The game officially started at 02:30 p.m., and they deliberately arrived at the attached high school one hour earlier, firstly, to prepare in advance, and secondly, to take a stroll around the attached high school campus.

There are many green plants in the attached middle school. Most of the flowers are in full bloom in spring and summer. The flowers are of different colors and swaying. They are very beautiful. The air is full of green grass and flowers, and the mood is relaxed.

Today's weather is good, not as hot as the previous few days. The sun is hidden behind the clouds, and even the wind blowing in front of us is very gentle.

Chu Qingci walked silently with Song Mian for a while, and held back all the way, but in the end he didn't hold back: "Did the debt collector come?"

"Huh?" Song Mian turned to look at him.

"Face, Zheng Qiran's feet are not as smelly as your face." Chu Qingci pointed to his face: "Are you owed usury?"

Song Mian froze for a moment, then frowned: "Aren't you disgusting?"

"Tell me, what's the matter?" Chu Qingci let out a muffled laugh, bent down to pick up a leaf with a gap in it, and twirled it in his hand: "It's been a long time since you've seen your face turn so dark, who caused it? Are you not afraid of being beaten?"

"Get out, I'm not violent." Song Mian lowered her eyes and bit her lips lightly.

"Jiang Zhou and I had a falling out." Turning into the path and walking a little bit, Song Mian said, "I lied, and he found out, and then he got angry."

"Hmm..." I'm not surprised by Song Mian's black face and Jiang Zhou's relationship with Chu Qingci. The sudden seat change incident last Friday was enough to show the signs, but I didn't expect that it had been several days, and the two hadn't met yet. reconcile.

"I apologized twice, but each time he responded with cold words, I don't know what to do," Song Mian said.

"Jiang Zhou shouldn't be a stingy person." Chu Qingci listened quietly, walked away for a while, and thought about his words before saying, "Although I don't know what the lie you told is, I can't judge the impact it has on him. How big. But lying is wrong in the first place, I think, it must be the lie you told touched his bottom line, plus the lie itself, that's why he was so angry."

Of course, the bottom line was touched, and Song Mian's heart still hurts even when he recalled Jiang Zhou's disappointed eyes when he spoke.But he was so stupid that he didn't even know how to coax him.

"Go and apologize again." Chu Qingci said, "Tell him your thoughts, tell him seriously, calmly, what you think, your apology, your entanglement."

Song Mian didn't speak, and she could see that she was unhappy.

"Of course, if you are embarrassed to say it, then you can write it out. In short, you must say it, and cherish this opportunity." Chu Qingci raised a foot and kicked a small stone, "I heard that everyone's You will meet all kinds of people in your life. Some will become friends with you, best friends, and become a part of your life, but more are just passers-by for a short time, and you will not even remember his appearance. If in life There have been people who you regard as precious friends, you must be more tolerant and patient."

"Because it is easy to lose, and often the moment you turn around, you may never find it again."

The relationship between people is very sensitive. It is obviously just a layer of window paper, but no one is always willing to be the first to pierce that layer of paper.But what is so difficult about it?

As long as you take that step, the gains must be greater than the losses. Looking back, you will thank yourself for your bravery.

This is how people grow up under the urging of reality. Although there are times when they get bored, everyone is still living a good life, maintaining love, with hope and vision for the future. It is really courageous.