let loose

Looking at the pot of steaming thick soup, Song Mian lost her appetite.

What Sister Su said before, that Shu Yan hasn't cooked for several years is actually inaccurate.Shu Yan cooks every time she goes home, but the frequency is small, and the taste is good.

But Song Mian was stymied in her heart, and it was uncomfortable to sit, and she always felt uncomfortable in doing anything.

"Come on, let's try it." Sister Su had scooped up a bowl for him on her own, and started chatting on the topic: "Aren't you a sophomore in liberal arts? Your mother said you chose liberal arts. How do you feel? This semester Have you made significant progress in your studies?"

"Ah."

Song Mian couldn't be bothered to talk to others, and snorted sadly.

"Are you still angry with your mother?" Sister Su blew on the hot soup, staring at Song Mian, "What about the little boy, you are so stingy, your mother is sad, please be more polite later, these two Zhou cried several times, and I feel distressed when I look at it."

"Then what about me." Song Mian's expression remained firm, and she simply let go, "Who saw me when I was crying? Did anyone come to comfort me? I live in such a big empty house alone. , no one talks to me, no one cares what kind of life I am leading, am I not pitiful?"

"Doudou!" Sister Su reprimanded and put down the spoon.

"Don't call me Doudou." Song Mian stared straight at her.

"Mianmian, be more obedient." Sister Su's tone softened quickly, and her address changed, "How do you know that your mother doesn't care about you? Which mother in the world would not love her child?"

"Hmph." Song Mian snorted.

"Calm down, listen to me," Sister Su scooped up another bowl of soup, put it aside to let it cool, and said, "Your mother debuted late, but her fate is good. She became popular when she first debuted. She won the award. At that time, many opponents were jealous of her, and several companies even joined forces to slander and spread rumors several times. At that time, the Internet was not as developed as it is now, and people with conditions had televisions in their homes. How did entertainment news report it? Believe it or not, how badly your mother was hacked back then, I have seen it again and again. But she just became famous and you were there."

Song Mian glanced at her out of the corner of her eyes when she heard this, she didn't say anything, but she was listening.

"She was married in secret at first, but after the marriage was exposed, she was silent for half a year. When she was the most hacked, she thought about taking a break. But she persisted. She didn't expose your existence, not because she didn't love you. You, but because I love you too much." Sister Su said, "The unspoken rules in the entertainment industry are terrible, you don't know how bad people's hearts can be. She chose not to expose it to protect you. You have grown up now Yes, I think you should be clear. Over the years, the controversy surrounding your mother has never been less than every year, right? How much pressure the second generation of stars have to bear, your mother protects you well, you can't feel it. But You can imagine the kind of flashing lights when you go out, the paparazzi go around everywhere, and your life from childhood to adulthood is ruined, right?"

It is conceivable, but it is still very wronged.Song Mian's heart was shaken for a moment, he bit his lower lip, and began to wonder if he really didn't know what to do.

"What did you tell him that?"

Shu Yan didn't know when she went downstairs, and she just appeared at the door of the restaurant without making a sound. She was wearing a long cotton and linen nightdress, her hair was straightened and draped over her shoulders.

"There are things that should be said or said," Sister Su smiled, "You will be bored for the rest of your life, and the child will never know."

"That's just making excuses." Shu Yan frowned.The skin condition of the female star without makeup was still excellent, her two delicate eyebrows were wrinkled together, she moved her body, walked slowly to Song Mian and stopped.

Song Mian raised her head to look at her, pursed her lips tightly, and said nothing.

Shu Yan took the initiative to speak, she pulled a chair and sat down beside Song Mian, and said softly, "Doudou, do you hate mom?"

Song Mian's eyes tightened instantly, but she still didn't want to speak, and just shook her head.

"It's my mother's fault." Shu Yan stretched out her hand to hold Song Mian's clenched hand. The mother and son had the same fair complexion, but the boy's was bigger and the mother's was smaller.

"Mom came from the countryside, and your grandparents died early. I was really poor when I was a child. So when I grew up and went to the city, I only wanted to make money. I always thought that career is the foundation of a person. In the entertainment industry, There are many people who hope that I will fall down. My mother has no backing in the circle, and everything is desperately relying on the tenacity to fight. When I was pregnant with you, I was the most popular, so I chose my career over you and my career. It was my fault, I apologize to you, but mother will never stop loving you, I love you more than anyone else."

Shu Yan was a little choked up, her eyes were red, "Doudou, you are the baby born after ten months of pregnancy, you are the flesh cut from my body, how could I not love you?"

Song Mian closed her eyes, a tear slipped out of her eyes, silently.

This may be the case for everyone. When you encounter grievances outside, you can be strong and unyielding, showing fearlessness and firmness. But in front of the closest people, a simple sentence or two can move your heart and make your tears flow.It has nothing to do with gender, let alone personality, just because it touched that point.

Especially, in front of my mother, all the grievances are the real grievances. Even the pain of a soft mosquito bite is unbearable. It is different from being in front of a lover. It is relaxed and moving.

That is probably family affection.It is blood thicker than water, connected with bone and blood.

"Then you are busy with your career, and me, you and Dad don't care about me, what should I do?"

It's not that he doesn't understand Shu Yan's suffering, just like Jiang Zhou said, he can look at this issue from Shu Yan's perspective.But he is unwilling to stand, he is not the holy father, and the growth environment that was missing in the first 17 years is destined to be irreparable in this life.

"I'm sorry Doudou." Shu Yan also began to cry, "I'm afraid of you too. Over the past ten years, I have played various roles and experienced the lives of various people, but I have not been a good one. Mom. It’s the first time I have my own child, and I’m a mother for the first time. I’m afraid I won’t be able to take care of you, so I escaped. After my grandparents passed away, I took you home. I couldn’t find a way to get along with you. I don't know what you like, what you hate, what kind of character you have grown up, and I don't even know that you can't even drink milk..."

"It's my fault."

The lights in the dining room are long crystal chandeliers, and the light bulb hanging at the bottom is the brightest. When the switch is turned on, the white light will be bright and bright.

The light cast on the dining table cast a black shadow to the side under the barrier of the casserole.Shu Yan's face was hidden under the long hair, and a shadow was cast on the nose, and Song Mian looked at each other.

Sensing the change in the atmosphere in the room, Sister Su put down the bowl and got up, and the sound of the slippers kicking spread to the surroundings of the ground through the floor tiles.

After a few seconds, the door of the restaurant was gently closed.

"Take care of me more in the future." Song Mian finally took a step back, "I don't need a lot, but I can't have none. I also need a sense of belonging."

After all, when you are young, you are not as greedy as an adult. Occasional care is enough.

"it is good."

Shu Yan smiled indistinctly, and raised her hand to rub his head.

That's it, everyone take a step back from each other.Song Mian does not agree with Shu Yan's explanation, and does not forgive easily.But he is willing to give the other party a chance.

It is the first time for everyone to come to the world, to get acquainted together as people, to understand things, some at a fast pace, and some at a slow pace.Being a mother for the first time and being a child for the first time, there must be many shortcomings. Mutual incomprehension and ideas that do not agree with each other require communication and tolerance.

People are stupid.As long as you keep walking, as long as you are moving forward, there will always be progress.