bullets and roses

The ashtray on the desk was full of cigarette butts.

The lights in the office were not turned on, and the huge room seemed extraordinarily empty.The various colors of light coming in through the floor-to-ceiling windows drove away the shadows on the ground, but it still seemed dark.Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, there is a lot of traffic, and the hustle and bustle of the city can be seen at a glance, but the house is so quiet that even a needle falling on the ground can be clearly heard.

Gu Zhubai crushed out another cigarette and threw it into the ashtray casually.

He is not addicted, but has recently had to numb himself with nicotine.

If you are not addicted, you will become addicted.

The time on the watch has reached two o'clock in the morning, and there are still people working overtime in the company.

But he was fine, he just simply didn't want to go back to that cold "home".It can no longer be called "home".

Around three o'clock, someone knocked on the door, and Gu Zhubai, who was still awake, raised his eyes, with a clear red blood in his eyes: "Come in."

A girl came in with a lot of things, and said, "Mr. Gu, we ordered supper, would you like to come..."

"no need."

The other party probably choked on the strong smell of smoke in the room, and coughed several times after speaking.

Gu Zhubai said lightly: "You guys eat, save the receipt for financial reimbursement."

"Oh, good." The girl looked at Gu Zhubai hesitantly, and said hesitantly, "Mr. Gu, we are almost done here, and we are going to get off work... When are you going to... um, get off work? Do you need us?" take you back?"

"Come back at noon tomorrow." Gu Zhubai said, "Don't worry about me."

The girl seemed to want to say something more, but seeing Gu Zhubai's expression of not wanting to say more, she shut her mouth and turned to go out.

The room returned to dead silence.

After a while, the movement outside gradually disappeared, the lights of the whole building were extinguished, and even the nightlife came to an end.

Gu Zhubai still doesn't want to go back.

There is nothing in that "home" and it is empty, which makes people unable to sleep.

Gu Zhubai flipped through his phone for a while, then opened the door of the lounge and lay down on the bed, took out two sleeping pills—after thinking about it, he thought he might not be able to fall asleep, so he took out another one, and put three into his mouth together .

"Wake up."

Gu Zhubai was woken up by someone slapping his face.

The moment he opened his eyes, the person who called him breathed a sigh of relief: "Damn, if you don't wake up again, I will call 120."

Gu Zhubai pinched the tip of his nose and didn't speak for a long time.

Lu Zhen shook him for a while before he recovered, and asked, "Aren't you going on honeymoon?"

"There is something temporarily and the plan has been cancelled." Lu Zhen rolled his eyes after speaking, obviously displeased, but he didn't say any more, but asked, "What's the matter with you?"

"What?" Gu Zhubai didn't understand Lu Zhen's meaning.

"You still ask me why." Lu Zhen said speechlessly, "If I hadn't come to you to call you, wouldn't you have passed by?"

"...What you said is too serious." Gu Zhubai didn't take his words to heart, lifted the quilt and stood up.

"I said it too seriously? It's obvious that you have a serious emotional problem." Lu Zhen also saw the entanglement between Gu Zhubai and Luo Muxiao yesterday. At that time, he was busy with his wedding and didn't take care of Gu Zhu. Bai's emotions were later forgotten. If it wasn't because of the quarrel with Li Sijin today and the temporary cancellation of the honeymoon plan, he wouldn't suddenly think of Gu Zhubai.

As a result, as soon as he came over early in the morning, he saw sleeping pills scattered all over the floor in Gu Zhubai's lounge, and Gu Zhubai was lying on the bed with a pale face—that scene was scary no matter how you looked at it.

"...the medicine bottle must have been accidentally knocked over." Gu Zhubai said lightly, "I just did it to help me sleep."

"You can't eat three just to help you sleep." Lu Zhen dragged Gu Zhubai to sit down, "You...how about I go talk to Luo Muxiao?"

"No need." Gu Zhubai said, "I will solve it myself."

"You'll take care of that." Lu Zhen was a little annoyed, "It's true that the surname is Luo, doesn't he like you very much? It's only been a while, and you're on good terms with someone else..."

Gu Zhubai felt a little funny: "Aren't you on his side?"

Lu Zhen: "..."

"I never said I was on his side." Lu Zhen said, "I'm on the side of fairness and justice."

Gu Zhubai shook his head.

"I just don't think it's an option for you to go on like this. How about I accompany you to the hospital?"

"You know what's going on with me." Gu Zhubai withdrew his gaze, and the expression on his face faded, "If seeing a doctor is useful, it wouldn't be like that at the beginning."

Lu Zhen was speechless for a moment.

He also felt that there was nothing wrong with Gu Zhubai's words.

After all, if it wasn't for Luo Muxiao, Gu Zhubai wouldn't have been able to get out of the shadows.

But now Luo Muxiao has become that shadow - the key point is that Gu Zhubai is still doing it on his own.

Lu Zhen was speechless for a moment, then said: "You did it yourself."

"I know." Gu Zhubai did not deny it, "I am trying to make up for it."

"How can this be made up for?" Lu Zhen looked at him, "Can feelings be made up for?"

Gu Zhubai stopped talking.

When Luo Muxiao woke up the next day, it was still dark.

While washing his face and brushing his teeth, he was still thinking about what happened yesterday.

In fact, he felt very uncomfortable after talking to Gu Zhubai yesterday - on the one hand, it was because he took advantage of Gong Yuyang, and on the other hand, it was undeniable that seeing Gu Zhubai's expression made him uncomfortable.

After Lu Zhen's wedding left, Luo Muxiao apologized to Gong Yuyang: "I'm sorry... just said that, I took advantage of you."

"It's okay." Gong Yuyang said that he didn't take this matter to heart, "I know what you mean, after all, you're not so stupid that you just refused me and promised me that I still believe it."

Luo Muxiao smiled embarrassingly: "But what I said before was serious."

"I know, Xiao Xiao." Gong Yuyang sighed and said, "You don't have to be so careful, I'm not that fragile."

But when Luo Muxiao thought of Gong Yuyang's expression when he said that sentence the next day, he still felt very uncomfortable.

He always felt that Gong Yuyang was holding back for his own sake - he had said all such scumbags, but Gong Yuyang still didn't say anything, and he was completely on his side.

Compared with Gu Zhubai, Gong Yuyang is undeniably a very suitable person.

They know each other well and rarely even quarrel.

It's just that he's not the one he's loved for a long time, engraved into his bones.

"Choose who you love, or choose who loves you?"

The Weibo users who follow are updated, and what they click to see is such a sentence.

Gu Zhubai's fingers stopped and stopped on the phone, and it took a long time before he typed a line——

"If it were me, I would choose the one I love."

The person he followed didn't reply.