after tomorrow

There was silence.

Shen Yuan lowered his head, silently picked up his rice bowl again, and put each bite of rice into his mouth.

He Mingxuan just looked at him, didn't ask any more questions, and took a while to pick up his bowl and chopsticks.

Occasionally, he would put some vegetables into Shen Yuan's rice bowl, but he would not refuse, and would eat them all.Pass the lemon juice in front of him, and he drinks it too.

The two of them finished their breakfast quietly.

"Go back to bed and continue to catch up on sleep." He Mingxuan said.

Shen Yuan didn't look at him, but walked into the bedroom.He Mingxuan followed and saw that he was lying on the bed, and pulled the quilt to cover himself.

Seeing that he was really going to sleep with his eyes closed, He Mingxuan was relieved, closed the door for him, and went to clear the dining table.

Hearing the sound of closing the door, Shen Yuan's closed eyes gradually opened, staring blankly at the ceiling, staring blankly.

Why did he feel so sad when he heard He Mingxuan's reason for waiting downstairs in his dormitory in the middle of the night?

Hehe, Shen Yuan smiled silently, putting on a bitter smile.

Shen Yuan, Shen Yuan, so you are such a person who doesn't learn much.I was hurt so deeply at the beginning, but now I hear such love words, I still can't stop my heartbeat.

Maybe I acted as a substitute at most, because of Li Xun's departure.

The heart is still beating something, with a trace of pain.

……

Shen Yuan slept until three o'clock in the afternoon, probably because the exhaustion of the first night had tortured him like this, anyway, when he woke up, he felt comfortable lying back and continuing to catch up on sleep.

Simply lay down like this, lingering and not moving.The body is tired and weak, but the mind is clear.

Thinking about what he had suffered, his nose regurgitated for a while, and then he felt that there was no one more miserable than himself.

Why can't he meet good people?

When he is sincere, others ruin his sincerity, and when he is not sincere, others ruin his body.

When will he be happier...

The more I think about it, the more I am wronged, and the more I think about it, the sadder I become.Shen Yuan buried her head in the quilt and squeezed her neck hard, as if she wanted to shrink herself into a turtle. Only when she was inside that shell could she feel safe.

Under the body is a very tactile quilt, and it feels extremely soft when rubbed against the sore skin.

This is He Mingxuan's home, He Mingxuan's bed.The gentler the touch, the more it reminded him how sad and aggrieved what happened to him was.

Just like this, she silently settled all her emotions in her heart, before Shen Yuan got up and lifted the quilt to get out of bed.

The door of the bedroom opened at this time, and He Mingxuan walked in from the outside, and saw that he had sat up from the bed.

"Are you awake? Are you hungry?" Then she walked to the bed and sat down, reaching out to help him.

Shen Yuan avoided the opponent's hand calmly, and stretched out his legs to look for slippers.

"I've already prepared the meal. Now that I'm up, let's eat something." He Mingxuan said again.

"No, I'm not hungry, do I still have my clothes?"

"Your clothes are torn in many places, and you can't wear them any more, so let's wear mine for now." He Mingxuan stood up and walked to him, lowered his head and said, "You only had breakfast once, you should eat some more anyway. "

Shen Yuan took a step back: "No, I'm going back. You can lend me the suit first, and I'll return it to you later."

"Why do you want to leave again?" He Mingxuan frowned, and moved his body to the door like a conditioned reflex: "Didn't you say that you will take care of yourself before you leave?"

"When did I say yes? Besides, I'm not sick. I feel fine now."

"Your physique is weak, how can you get better soon after being tossed like that." He Mingxuan frowned fiercely when he said this.Thinking of Shen Yuan being treated like that, a tyrannical emotion surged up.

"You're not the only one who can take care of me. Ayu will take good care of me when I go back. I feel comfortable with him." Shen Yuan didn't want to go around debating any more, and just wanted to return to the place where he should be.

Apparently, this sentence was quite destructive. He Mingxuan didn't speak for a long time, and lowered his head.

Shen Yuan sighed, and went to find his mobile phone: "I'd better ask Ah Yu to bring me clothes."

"Don't go?"

He Mingxuan's deep voice came from behind, which made people's heart tremble.

Strong arms hugged Shen Yuan from behind, trapping him in front of his chest.

"I don't want others to take care of you." He Mingxuan lowered his head into Shen Yuan's neck, with a hint of helplessness in his breath: "If I can't see you now, I won't even know what I'm going to do. Direction, round."

His arms tightened tighter and tighter, as if he was really afraid that he would go away.

Shen Yuan stiffened in his arms, feeling the breath of the other party into her neck, feeling the strong arms of the other party holding her.Listening to the words, the sad tone, and the helpless hesitation with a blank face.

A minute later, He Mingxuan suddenly found that the person in his arms was sinking bit by bit.

"Yuanyuan?" He Mingxuan called him worriedly.

Didn't get any response.

"Yuanyuan?!" Feeling something was wrong, He Mingxuan immediately hugged the limp person in his arms.

Shen Yuan's face was pale, his brows were tightly wrinkled, and his hands were tightly clutching his chest.

"What's the matter, Yuanyuan? Does your heart hurt?!"

"Hmm..." A muffled sound that could no longer be held back came out, and Shen Yuan's whole body fell rapidly.

He Mingxuan was so anxious that he immediately carried him into the bedroom, and then ran to the study to look for medicines for his heart.

At first he was worried about Shen Yuan, so he got some medicine from the doctor, but later Shen Yuan refused to take it, so he kept it here, never thought it would be useful in an emergency.

Find the first aid pills from a pile of medicines, then quickly fetch a glass of water and rush into the bedroom.

"Hurry up and take the medicine, hurry up!" Helping the person who was paralyzed on the bed and groaning because of the dull pain, he wanted to feed him the medicine, but found that the other person was close to unconsciousness and could not take the medicine at all.

He Mingxuan felt his heart clenched tightly following his painful groans. Without hesitation, he stuffed the medicine into Shen Yuan's mouth, then took a sip of water and pressed it against Shen Yuan's mouth. go up.

After forcing the other party to swallow the water and medicine under pressure, He Mingxuan let him go.

Please don't worry, don't worry...

Thinking silently, He Mingxuan hugged Shen Yuan tightly in his arms, and kept stroking the back of his head with his hands.

It wasn't until he took out his mobile phone with one free hand and started calling 120 that he realized that his hand was shaking unbearably.

This feeling of fear was the same as when he first found out that Shen Yuan had a heart attack, even more scared than then.Afraid of what might happen to him, afraid that he would be in too much pain, afraid of losing him.

Shen Yuan woke up very quickly, the effect of that kind of heart emergency medicine is always so good that there is nothing to say.

When he woke up, he felt like he was imprisoned, and then he realized that this feeling came from the man who hugged him tightly.

"Well, He Mingxuan, can you let me go?"

He Mingxuan suddenly raised his head, but did not let go of his hands: "Yuanyuan, are you awake?"

Shen Yuan wanted to laugh, what was that expression on the other side?As if lost and found.

"Please, I'm not dead, why are you so nervous?"

No matter how I speak, I feel that I have no strength at all. Oh, by the way, I seem to have fallen ill just now.

He Mingxuan suddenly buried his head in Shen Yuan's shoulders, his hands were even tighter than before.

"Fortunately you're okay..."

"He Ming──"

"You don't know how scared I am, you don't know... stop scaring me..."

Shen Yuan stopped talking and stayed quietly in his arms.

Before he passed out, his heart throbbed again and again, which is why he fell ill later.As long as he stays by He Mingxuan's side, he will lose control of his heart, and the situation just now will happen.

I just don't know if He Mingxuan is aware of this.

The ambulance came, and Shen Yuan felt a headache when he saw those medical staff.

"Go and deal with them. Anyway, I won't get in an ambulance, let alone go to the hospital."

He Mingxuan originally wanted to persuade Shen Yuan to go to the hospital for a checkup, but the other party insisted on ignoring what he said, so he had no choice but to apologize to the medical staff who had a bad face.

The false alarm passed like this, He Mingxuan thought in his heart that he must find a time to check Shen Yuan.

Seeing that Shen Yuan was obviously weaker than before he fell into a coma, He Mingxuan walked over and took his hand: "Come here and eat something."

Exhaling a breath, Shen Yuan nodded, feeling that she didn't have the strength to argue any more.

The dishes put on the table are still exquisite, and it can even be seen how hard the cooks are.

Eat one bite at a time, what you eat is delicious food, but what you feel in your heart is bitterness and sourness.

"Is the dish not to your taste?"

It wasn't until He Mingxuan asked that Shen Yuan realized that he kept letting go of the food he was picking up with chopsticks, and he was stunned for so long.

Putting that mouthful of food into his mouth, and then went to pick up the rice in the bowl, Shen Yuan just continued to eat, and didn't want to go back to He Mingxuan.

He Mingxuan silently watched him eat, and stopped eating his own.He knew that Shen Yuan must feel awkward in many places, he knew that he was uncomfortable and unhappy, but he still wanted to take care of him.

Finally, Shen Yuan stuffed the whole bowl of rice into his stomach under the gaze of the other party.

As if he finally had a reason to look up and look back at that gaze, Shen Yuan raised his head and said in a flat tone: "I have a question, I want to ask you."

"You said."

"Why did Li Xun leave? Did you break up?"

He Mingxuan looked at him for a while, but remained silent.

Shen Yuan suddenly felt that the other party's silence made him feel very unhappy, and unconsciously began to sneer: "Could it be that we broke up? Aren't you two together since childhood, and love each other unswervingly? There shouldn't be any What is the reason for you to separate?"

He Mingxuan was still silent, but he didn't stay silent for too long, as if he was organizing his words.

"Before, I always believed that there were absolute things in the world. I felt that there was nothing I couldn't do. So I always believed that the love between me and Li Xun was destined by God, and nothing could change it. together."

"Two years ago, I always thought so. But when he came back to me, the more time passed, the more I felt that something was wrong with me. The feeling that as long as he is around, I will feel happy seems to be out of thin air. It's like disappearing, and even caring has become far-fetched. Whether it's hugging, kissing or going to bed, it seems to be driven by responsibility. I have never faced the fact that I have lost interest in Xun. "

"I always feel that he has been with me for so many years and has given me everything. I should take care of him for the rest of his life, love him and love him. I couldn't escape the frame I set for myself before. You know when When one gets used to a pattern, change is frightening."

Shen Yuan sneered: "Then you jumped out now? Are you not afraid?"

"Don't be afraid anymore, the fear is just because you don't see clearly." He Mingxuan said, looking into Shen Yuan's eyes: "I now believe that nothing in the world is absolute, just like I thought I would love you forever Xun, but in fact, time has already denied me. He has changed, and I have changed. I clearly know who I miss the most, who I care about the most, and who I can't let go of most of the time. .I miss him. I miss him even for a minute.”

Shen Yuan let out a deep breath, he felt his temples were buzzing, and his heart felt uncomfortable, so he retorted reflexively: "That person must not be me."

"It's you." He Mingxuan grabbed his hand and held it firmly: "When I saw you several times, I felt an urge to run to you, and every time I wanted to say to you, I miss you, Want it so so much."

The heartbeat quickened, beating again and again, Shen Yuan felt that the blood all over his body was rushing to the top of his head, and the ringing in his temples became more and more intense.

"Xun left, and I suddenly felt relieved. I don't care whether I am worthy of him or not. Yuanyuan, can you forgive me and stay by my side and don't go anywhere?"

"..."

"Yuanyuan?" He Mingxuan's heart at this moment was only infinitely uneasy, and his hand holding Shen Yuan became tighter and tighter.

"..."

"Yuanyuan, if you don't want to say it, I will, I will treat it as your acquiescence. I will not let you go."

"Aren't you the kind of person who is shameless?"

"Round round..."

Shen Yuan suddenly broke free from his hand, then stood up from the seat.As if he had regained his calm, he looked at the other party coldly: "You like to play this kind of tossing game, don't you? You hurt me like that at the beginning, but now you hurt others? Does it make you feel very angry to hurt someone like this irresponsibly?" A sense of accomplishment?"

He Mingxuan was eager to speak: "I didn't, I──"

"Stop making excuses," Shen Yuan interrupted him: "No matter how much you say, no matter how nicely you say it, the facts won't change. He Mingxuan, it's not that time has passed, it's not that you can say a few beautiful words to weaken your The hurt that was brought to me at that time. That is the pain that I will never forget in my life. The bloody lesson you taught me is never to believe in feelings easily, especially the feelings of people like you. rise."

Shen Yuan turned around and walked towards the bedroom: "Go and find your Li Xun, who would want someone like him except you."

Watching Shen Yuan walk into the bedroom, He Mingxuan was still sitting by the dining table in a daze.Those words pierced his heart sentence by sentence, and they were not harmless.

It's just that the more uncomfortable he was, the more he could feel how sad Shen Yuan was back then.

But he didn't want to say so many sorry words with words, he would rather prove himself with practical actions.

If you are dead wrong, then the explanation will only pale.What's more, where did he get the words to explain it? He was obviously a jerk back then, and he only just got the hang of it now.

While she was still full of thoughts, Shen Yuan had already taken off her pajamas and put on He Mingxuan's coat.

"Are you going?" He Mingxuan asked in a low voice with a hoarse voice.

"Well, it's too much trouble for you here. I'm more used to trouble Ah Yu. Thank you for these two days. I will wash the clothes and return them to you."

When He Mingxuan stood up, he saw the momentary defensiveness in Shen Yuan's eyes, he smiled bitterly, had he become so terrifying in his mind?

He didn't want Shen Yuan to go, but what right did he have to forcibly keep Shen Yuan regardless of Shen Yuan's wishes?

"Yuanyuan, if you don't want to stay here, then I'll send you away. I just hope you won't hide from me in the future."

Shen Yuan lowered his head and did not speak.

He Mingxuan sighed softly, lowered his head and unbuttoned Shen Yuan's neckline again: "Let's go, it will be cold in the evening, I will take you back."