Rebirth is waiting for you to torture me

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"Xiao Xun..." He was taken aback, turning his head to look behind him.

"Don't hate me, Qiubai, I didn't intend to lie to you," Xiao Xun's voice was a little frustrated, his chin resting on the shoulder of the person in his arms, and he said with some self-loathing: "I just don't know how to tell you ..."

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Being raped by a man, something that made him vomit, was naturally unacceptable at first.

When he was found by his father and carried back from the heavy rain, he thought desperately in his heart: Die, just die like this, he doesn't want this kind of body defiled and destroyed by men——

die—

As long as you die, you are clean——

If only I could die like this...

Xiao Xun...why are you still alive...

you--

Why... didn't—die—! !

At that time, the heart and soul were dead, and there was no thought of living at all.

Only despair surrounded him tightly.

It was his father who noticed his thoughts, stopped, stood in the rain, and said coldly in a voice that seemed to come from outer space: "I want to die after being bitten by a mad dog. I don't remember my life. Such a worthless son."

"..." was coldly despised by the father who had always been the target, the man who gave birth to him but never made him feel affection.

"Yue Yun..." Hearing that name, he felt humiliated, his heart was filled with only hatred, but his body couldn't help shaking with fear. In the heavy rain, his father tightly held his hand, and said in a calm and terrifying voice: " I'll keep it for you, if you want to get revenge, work hard to become stronger, and after you become stronger, go find him yourself, you can kill him or cut him up, he is yours."

first……--

It was the first time in my life that I felt...

turn out to be--

Father's arms are so warm...

turn out to be--

Father is so tall.

It’s just that he couldn’t respond, because his heart and body were severely injured, and he was used to being strong alone. He endured it until his father finished the medicine for him, and after taking Qiubai out, he let himself cry loudly to express the hatred and unwillingness in his heart.

If only I worked harder in the past eight years, the thoughts that arose countless times at that time disappeared.

He made up his mind to cry dry his tears and never looked back. Since regretting is useless, just like what his father said, he will work hard to become stronger from tomorrow until one day he will repay this shame with his own hands!

but--

I thought so, but at that time he was injured too badly, his whole body was wrapped up like a mummy, he was a useless person, unable to do anything, everything depended on the help of his father and Qiu Bai.

As for the sound—

At first it was because he hated his broken voice because of that kind of thing, the injured throat kept him stuck in his throat, even if he died, he didn't want Qiu Bai to hear his ugly voice, so he didn't speak.

later……

Later, without knowing it, I fell in love with Qiu Bai's care. I liked seeing him nervous for me, watching him circle around me, listening to him call my name openly and silently, and liking that he would sleep every day as soon as he got home. The feeling of hugging him under his quilt...

"Xiao Xun, say something..."

At first, he couldn't speak because his voice was damaged, then he didn't want to speak, and then... Slowly, slowly, from that day on, when he heard this request whispered in his ear, he became guilty.

Even if Xiao Jingliu didn't expose him, the time had come for him to continue pretending.

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In the clean and warm bedroom, the tall boy hugged the shorter boy and said humbly, "Qiubai, I'm sorry."

Han Qiubai pushed Xiao Xun away unnaturally, came out of his arms, looked at him face to face and said, "It's okay, you don't have to say sorry to me, I used to..." He looked at the young man with some questioning eyes, and smiled He smiled and said, "Anyway, it doesn't matter. You are really injured and can't move, and you don't want to talk, right? You don't count as lying to me. Xiao Xun, it's good that you can talk. I'm really happy for you."

Xiao Xun moved his fingers hanging by his side, and he stared straight at the bright smile on the face of the man in front of him, until he saw Han Qiubai's smile becoming uncomfortable.

"Xiao Xun, what's wrong with you?" Han Qiubai couldn't understand Xiao Xun's eyes.

"...You, do you like him?" Xiao Xun's eyes flashed a dark light.

"Xiao Xun..." Han Qiubai's face changed slightly.

"Do you like men?" Xiao Xun asked again.

"I..." Han Qiubai didn't know how to answer, Xiao Xun's question caught him off guard.

"Why do you like him?" Xiao Xun approached him step by step, and Han Qiubai could only open the distance between him and Xiao Xun by sitting down. How old and not a good person, why do you like him?...You like him, you might as well like me."

Regardless of Qiu Bai's pale face, he murmured his confession: "Qiu Bai, I like you..."

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——Why did you choose him? !

In my memory, Xiao Xun, who shocked many people into heaven, lost his composure, and he no longer had the cold look of the past. He shook his shoulders and yelled at him, so angry that he couldn't choose what to say:

"Yes, I am not a good person, but he is not a good person either! Didn't he do what I did to you?! Since they are all the same, why can't you forgive me?! He is so many years older than you, enough Be your father! You can choose him, why can’t you choose me?! Tell me, Han Qiubai! Why don’t you talk! You like me too, right? You love me too, right? Why? Why can’t I compare? Him?! You would rather choose him than me! Tell me!"

Han Qiubai let him shake, and when he had had enough, he looked at him coldly with empty eyes.

"I thought, you should know the reason. If you don't even know the reason, there is nothing to talk about between us. Xiao Xun, let go, he is still waiting for me up there."

"Don't let go!" Xiao Xun pushed him against the wall and kissed him.

Familiar touch, familiar taste, familiar embrace, intersecting lips, no one can tell who is hungrier than the other, people who haven't touched for a long time, the missing of the body is more real than words.

No matter how hard you say it, you can't deny the desire in your heart.

His hand pulled open his shirt and reached in, wandering over his smooth skin, stroking back and forth, lingering.

"Qiubai, you love me..." The fiery kiss, he murmured between the kisses: "You react to me, you want me like I want you..."

What he got in return was his self-deprecating chuckle after recovering from losing control: "Hehe, what can this perverted body prove? It doesn't respond to women at all now, but as long as it's a man, even if it's not you, it will respond."

"Qiubai...how could this be..." Xiao Xun looked at him in astonishment.

He raised his hand and waved his hand away, and said with cold eyes: "Xiao Xun, you are right, both of you father and son are not good people, so I will never fall in love with you."

Xiao Xun's heart was shocked, he stretched out his hand to grab him who was about to turn around and said, "Qiu Bai!"

Han Qiubai stopped, looked back at him, calmed down and said: "If I had a choice, I would choose neither you nor him. But I don't have such a choice, so I must make a choice between you and him If it is, I will choose him without hesitation. Because at least he didn't kill my only sister."

He didn't want to look at Xiao Xun's ashen face, and before leaving, he said the last two words: "Xiao Xun, do you know? I really almost fell in love with you. Thank you for killing Xixue and letting me Didn't do anything so stupid."

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Some things may be forgiven after a long time, and some things cannot be forgiven even after a long time.

Not everything can be dissolved in the name of love.

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Han Qiubai lay on his back on the bed, and used his uninjured hand to hold Xiao Xun forcefully, not daring to yell, for fear of attracting Xiao Jingliu and causing trouble.

"Xiao Xun, calm down." He lowered his voice and roared softly, "Did you make a mistake? I'm a man!"

Xiao Xun pulled his hand away, raised it to the top of his head, put the other hand beside his head, knelt on the side of his body, looked down at him and said, "I know you are a man. If you are a woman Yes, I don't have to worry about it."

Han Qiubai suddenly opened his eyes wide and looked at him.

"That lunatic is right..." Xiao Xun's eyes were dim, and he knelt on top of him and said, "Actually, what he said is right, but I have never dared to admit it... I don't know how to face you, You are my best friend, but my feelings for you are not just that of a good friend... You are so beautiful and dazzling, like a pure white fairy in the sky, you are everyone's little princess, no It's just that they like you, and I like you too. More than that."

"...Xiao Xun..."

"It's not so much that I hate what he said, it's better to say that it's just anger after being broken by humanity. I thought about crushing you, just like now, and thought about it countless times. Ever since I dreamed about you " Xiao Xun looked at Han Qiubai's increasingly pale and ugly face, lowered his head and said slowly, "In my dream, I violated you countless times like this."

"Enough, Xiao Xun, stop talking." Han Qiubai didn't want to hear any more.

"I thought I was sexually normal, but unfortunately I am not."

"You are!" Han Qiubai growled angrily: "You are not gay, Xiao Xun, you like women! You like AV, pornographic magazines, and women with big breasts! You have a lot of girlfriends! Can you be more gay than this? Is it normal? You mess