bereavement

At four o'clock in the morning, after finishing the work, Jiang Yanyu drove Xie Qin to a place. The car stopped on the side of the road. Xie Qin looked at the familiar road and street lights in front of him, feeling a little emotional for a while.

It has been 12 years, so many things have happened, separated and reunited countless times, now I go back to the starting point and take a look, there is an indescribable sense of strangeness.

Twelve years ago, when Xie Qin lay down in the middle of the road, he certainly never thought that he would be entangled with Jiang Yanyu until now.

Obviously he was the one who touched others, but put himself in it.

Xie Qin sat down on the side of the road, Jiang Yanyu threw him a bottle of beer, sat next to him with another bottle in his hand, lit a cigarette, opened his thin lips slightly, and exhaled a cloud of white mist.

Xie Qin smelled the smoke, his throat was tickled, he put his face close to Jiang Yanyu, stared at the cigarette between his fingers, and raised his chin at him.

Jiang Yanyu put the cigarette to Xie Qin's mouth, and fed him a puff.

"Tomorrow Jiang Wei will finally take over the company," Jiang Yanyu looked at him, "Which city do you want to go to, I will take you there."

Xie Qin frowned: "Are you going out of the house?"

"Ah."

Jiang Yanyu has worked so hard for so many years, and in the end, he lost none of his family property and company.He is the eldest son, these things should belong to him, but since he wants to be with a man, he can't continue the incense of the Jiang family, so he can only give away the land he has conquered, so that Jiang Wei will finally inherit the family business and carry on the family line .

"I can afford you." Jiang Yanyu added, thinking that Xie Qin was worried about this.

Xie Qin didn't speak, and thought for a while in silence, then said: "Go abroad, you can get a marriage certificate abroad."

"It is also very tolerant of homosexuality."

"Nobody knows us."

"Able to hold hands on the street during the day."

"I'll kiss you in public, who would know that you are actually my fucking father."

Jiang Yanyu bowed his head, chuckled lightly, and said, "Okay."

Xie Qin raised his face and drank half a bottle of beer in one go. He wiped his mouth, and his tone suddenly sank: "It doesn't matter if I lose again. If you get tired of it, just say it and don't think about me."

"why."

"You are not that important to me anymore," Xie Qin said indifferently: "I used to treat you as my life, if you leave, I will die, but now I treat you as an object, if I don't like it, I kick it, anyone can replace you. "

Jiang Yanyu's heart ached instantly.

That last sentence was like a knife piercing my heart.

"What's so sad?" Xie Qin looked at the quiet Jiang Yanyu and raised his eyebrows: "You are here with me, the chance of not liking you is basically zero."

Jiang Yanyu gave a muffled hum.

This is the truth. Xie Qin has changed at least ten people around him in the past six months. They have all kinds of personalities, and none of them are bad-looking, but he is not interested in them. Thinking about it carefully, the only thing he has been thinking about in the past 24 years of his life is There was no one else except Jiang Yanyu.

"What do you like about me?" Xie Qin asked, he had always been curious about why Jiang Yanyu liked him, and chose him as a mentally ill man full of vices.

Jiang Yanyu was silent for a while: "Character."

In fact, Xie Qin's character is envied by many people, including Jiang Yanyu.Unrestrained and casual to the extreme, do whatever you want, not afraid of death, no worries and weaknesses, live in this world, but don't have to abide by the rules of this world, dissociate from normal people, but get what normal people dream of freedom of.

Jiang Yanyu is a person who lives under the rules. Before the age of 23, he was as free as Xie Qin, but after he really stepped into the society, the overwhelming pressure, responsibility, and obligation bound his hands and feet like shackles.

He no longer has the unrestrained and frivolous youth, only his tired body and shoulders full of heavy responsibilities are left. The words "do whatever you want" have completely left him. Most people are squeezed by life every day.

"I picked you up because of your face," Jiang Yanyu said frankly, "After getting along for a long time, I recognized you as a person."

"I don't want you to be like me, whose personality has been worn down by life and lives like a machine." Jiang Yanyu looked into Xie Qin's eyes and said, "I want you to replace me and be free forever."

"So I'm willing to back you up. As long as you are free, I will bear the consequences and the responsibilities."

"You are free, so I am free."

After Xie Qin listened carefully, he smiled, "Is this called spiritual sustenance? You are so tall, I always thought you took me as a bed partner."

"Isn't it good to be with me?" Jiang Yanyu bowed his head and lit a cigarette, "I will make up for the family affection you missed when you were young, and I will give you your future love. I can give you everything you want by myself. .”

"Being with me is equal to getting the whole world."

"Isn't this world treating you badly? Choose me."

"I treat you well, I will be your world."

After a while, Xie Qin hummed and said, "I asked you for candy on your birthday, remember?"

"Which one do you want to eat?"

Xie Qin stared at Jiang Yanyu, and said vaguely: "Stick out your tongue, don't ask."

Jiang Yan wants to do so.

Xie Qin hugged his waist, leaned over to kiss him, and bit the tip of his protruding tongue.

"This kind."

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