behind your back

The more conscious he is, the more he must have lost his mind before thinking of coming to him.

He just took a step forward, when Yang Yiqi suddenly put his arms around his waist from behind, Xie Zhihua was startled and wanted to push him away. "You, what are you doing──"

"Since you're here, don't leave."

"I, I didn't come to look for you! I just happened to pass by that road! What's the matter with you? Do you often drag people on the road and escort them home?"

"It's not casual, it's because I've been on the sidelines for a long time."

"I don't understand what you're talking about." Xie Zhihua let him hug her helplessly, thinking that since there is no one around who he loves to hug, let him enjoy it.

"As long as you understand that I will treat you sincerely, that's enough."

"Don't you think it's disgusting? I've got goosebumps all over the floor."

"Then I'll sweep with you later—"

"Sweeping you big-headed ghost! And why wait?"

"Because I really want to kiss you right now."

"What?" Before Xie Zhihua could exclaim in surprise, a black shadow was already covering his eyes.

He and the door have always had a close relationship. He never thought that the beginning is here, and the end is also here.If he really can't think of moving in one day, the first thing he will do when he enters the door must be to replace the door first!

"Finish"

Extra

The inexplicable acquaintance and the inexplicable togetherness are Xie Zhihua's conclusions about his relationship with Yang Yiqi.So when he was persuaded successfully and nodded his agreement to live together, he also made a major decision.

"Sleeping in separate rooms? Why?" Yang Yiqi unconsciously raised his voice when he heard Xie Zhihua's proposal that only approval and no dissent were allowed.

He used to roll in the same bed when he was a friend with benefits. There is no reason for him to go backwards in democracy after becoming a lover. From the standpoint of defending human rights, he really disagrees.

"Don't you think things are going too fast between us?"

"Why? I still think it's too slow..." If Xie Zhihua hadn't run away in fright when Wu Mingjia came out halfway, they might still be standing still.

"But I don't think I know you well enough──"

"No one can really know another human being."

"You are right, so my decision is not too much, right? Let's at least settle for a while, and then proceed according to the situation?"

"Xie Zhihua, are you serious?"

"Um."

"I thought you liked me."

"I don't like it." Xie Zhihua insisted on correcting the statement, which made Yang Yiqi, who was sitting on the sofa with his arms folded, raise his eyebrows.

"Okay, whatever. Anyway, if you don't hate it, it's barely a kind of "like" for you, right? Otherwise, you can move in with your former boss's junior, right?"

"Yang Yiqi, let me hear another sentence you deliberately made fun of me, and I will move out immediately."

"If you're a man, don't be so picky about it."

"I'm sorry, but I'm naturally narrow-minded."

Seeing that Xie Zhihua lost such a temper, it was not for no reason, Yang Yiqi frowned, and hugged him on the shoulder flatteringly. "No one said you are narrow-minded, I just think this approach will not help, but if you insist, then do as you want?" Looking at the preoccupied side face, he can actually understand his worries to some extent .

Xie Zhihua is a very insecure person. Until now, he still suspects that the passion that keeps the two of them together is just a momentary passion, but he doesn't know that he has spent more than 400 days watching him like this.

"Are you really willing?" Xie Zhihua couldn't help being dubious that Yang Yiqi would compromise so quickly.

"Well, but don't make me wait too long! You know I'm impatient."

"How come? I think you are not only extremely patient, but also have a strong sense of revenge. Otherwise, how could Ming Jia find out about our matter after a year of concealment──"

"Well." Yang Yiqi was confused and just pressed him down on the sofa. When he was about to kiss him, Xie Zhihua suddenly covered his mouth with his hand.

"Why? Didn't they just agree to sleep in separate rooms?" Yang Yiqi protested, taking Xie Zhihua's hand away.

"It's literally true, but it doesn't seem to make a difference to you whether you have a bed or not, so from today onwards, you can't even kiss."

"What do you mean by returning to zero?"

"Yang Yiqi, you're really smart, you can get it right." Xie Zhihua, who got cheap and behaved, smiled.

In the huge living room, only one person was kneeling on the sofa and wailing, while the other person took the opportunity to slip out from under him, and went to the kitchen to make his beloved coffee.

Xie Zhihua has actually been unemployed for quite a while after resigning from AK Lightning.

First, the savings at hand are enough for him to idle around for four or five years, and second, he also wants to take this opportunity to settle himself and make up for the self who has been too busy to lose his perception over the years.

The temperature in the Taipei Basin on a midsummer night was so high that it made people feel restless. Xie Zhihua took a can of cold beer and went to the balcony to enjoy the coolness and watch the night view. In this season, he always felt a tightness in his chest.

"Hey?"

"The senior is me. 』

"I know, can you call me?" When a series of familiar numbers appeared on the phone screen, he hesitated for a few seconds to be honest, but in the end he still lost to the deep friendship that lasted ten years, and he was reluctant to let it go Parted ways.

"I thought the senior would stop answering my calls, or the first sentence would be "Hello, who is this?" or something..."

"Ming Jia, why do you say that?" Compared to his trembling, the other party's relaxed and playful tone made him laugh.

"I thought the senior was still mad at me. 』

"Why are you angry? It's been so long, and I still owe you an apology."

"I'm sorry for what? 』

"I concealed from you my relationship with Yang Yiqi."

"If it's just for this matter, that's not what I care about. 』

He didn't speak, and he didn't know what to say.

"Senior, are you and Yang Yiqi together yet?" 』

"Your news is really well-informed." His generosity made him frank. Even so, when it was confirmed by others, he still felt a little uncertain.

"It was Jiawei who told me. 』

"You two are still in touch?"

"Yes, let's just be friends... It's better to be friends, and you can talk freely without pressure..."

"Sounds good." He was still worried that he might hurt himself by leaving, but now he seems to be adjusting well, so he can feel at ease now.

"Actually, it's not very good... after all, not everyone can understand me as well as senior..."

"Ming Jia──"

"Senior, can you come back to the company?"My life is in chaos after you left, and there is no one I can trust... Even if we can only be colleagues, please, at least stay where I can see you? 』

"Feel sorry."

"Senior, are you still angry with me? 』

"No, I have long forgotten those unpleasant things, but once I leave a place, it is impossible to go back. But Ming Jia, we can still be the same as before, you can still find me, in my heart, you Always my brother."

"I don't know if I should be happy to hear my senior say that. 』

"Of course you should be happy. Do you despise my brother like this?"

"How dare I? 』

Xie Zhihua was amused, but the person on the other end of the phone was holding back a bitter smile.

"Actually, apart from asking about the current situation, I called the senior today mainly because of another matter──"

The suddenly serious tone made the smile on the corner of Xie Zhihua's mouth fade a bit. He was lying on the balcony, and the beer beside him had already been put out of ice. "Is it 'that incident'? I didn't expect the days to pass so quickly. Another year has passed in a blink of an eye."

"Why don't you turn on the lights in the living room? Are you still standing on the balcony in a daze?"

"You seem to be back late today?" He meekly enjoyed Yang Yiqi's intimacy. The thick weight on his back had a warm power, which made him want to close his eyes and feel it.

"Sorry to keep you waiting."

"I'm not waiting for you." Xie Zhihua's body reaction was more honest than his own, seeing him running away from his arms stiffly, Yang Yiqi smiled nonchalantly, picked up the beer he put on the balcony and drank will rise.

"I haven't had dinner yet! Is there anything to eat in the kitchen?"

"Yes, instant noodles."

Seeing his eyes widen instantly, as if he had spared me, Xie Zhihua suddenly showed mercy: "I still have leftovers from cooking at noon, are you interested in fried rice?"

"Which kind of fried rice?" Yang Yiqi, who followed him into the living room, swept away his tired face and answered enthusiastically. Xie Zhihua didn't understand at first, but then suddenly looked away in embarrassment.

"What kind of fried rice is it?"

"There's no more fried rice! You only have the option of instant noodles."

"Why? Don't you want fried rice?" Yang Yiqi finished the beer and threw it into the trash can with precision, looking at his inexplicably red ears in puzzlement.

"Stop frying, why don't you eat instant noodles? There are three flavors in the cabinet, see what you want to eat and get it yourself!"

"Then why don't you help me?"

"Do you think you are a master?" When he found out that he was the only one who was thinking wrong, Xie Zhihua was so ashamed that he wanted to find a hole to bury himself in, but Yang Yiqi didn't seem to intend to let him go.

"I work so hard to make money to support my family, so it's not too much for you to help me make a bowl of noodles?" Although I don't understand what he is awkward about, but because they have to go to work during the day, they usually only have time to spend together at night, so In his eyes, no matter how insignificant things are, they are full of a touch of happiness.

"I can't see where you have worked so hard..." Having said that, Xie Zhihua resigned to his fate and went into the kitchen to dig out the pots and pans to contribute to the "hardworking head of the family".

To be honest, since he moved in, Yang Yiqi almost got home after eight o'clock unless he had a social occasion. He could feel that he was very careful in managing their cohabitation life. Maybe it was too fast at the beginning to make up for the gap During the period of blankness, each other is step by step, handling each other's emotions and reactions more delicately, and even integrating into each other's living habits.

As Yang Yiqi said, no one in this world hits it off right from birth, trying to understand and learn tolerance is the biggest driving force for two strange individuals to go hand in hand.

When Xie Zhihua came out wearing an apron and carrying a pot of hot and fragrant pottery, Yang Yiqi sat at the dining table, really looking forward to it but afraid of being hurt.After all, since living together, he has experienced many cooking disasters. This person is quite good at ordering people around. Once the positions are reversed, the service quality is really not ordinary.

"What are you giving me?"

"Jambal Soup."

"I thought I only had instant noodles..."

"Then do you want to eat?"

"Eat—why not eat?"

Xie Zhihua couldn't help but give him a white look when he saw him eat it with peace of mind after taking a sip.Are the things he cooks so terrible?

"By the way, let me tell you first, I'm going out the day after tomorrow."

"where to."

"To see a friend."

"Oh?"

"I'm going to see Ming Jia's brother, the day after tomorrow is his death day." His honesty won Yang Yiqi's praise, he put down his spoon to rest his chin, took out his mobile phone and quickly checked his calendar.

"I'm free the day after tomorrow, why don't I go with you?"

"Eh?"

"It's okay if you want to go alone, I can do it."

"Well……"

"What's wrong?"

"Won't you mind?"

"What do you mind? You didn't come from me to steal your love. What's more, the deceased is already dead, so what's the point of going to see him and say hello?"

"Yang Yiqi, be careful that you will suffer retribution if you disrespect the dead." At first, he was a little moved, but the other party's indecency quickly diluted the atmosphere.

"It's not enough to be disrespectful. It's true that I will ask him to give him a lot of shade." Yang Yiqi imitated him, resting her chin and pursing her lips slightly, her seemingly frivolous gaze locked on the target who lacked self-knowledge in front of her.

"Shade what?"

"The fortune of the country is prosperous, and the weather is good!"

"Do you think he is Dajia Mazu?"

Beneath that cynical smiling face lies a tenderness that even the person involved has not been aware of. This journey may have been bumpy and bumpy, but for Yang Yiqi, it is a journey worth remembering. At least Xie Zhihua is no longer in front of him. As depressing as ever.

He gradually knows how to share, know how to own, and how to take a step forward──

So, how can you teach him not to guard the life of a person whom he loves so carefully and makes people feel distressed?

The reason for getting up early is to avoid the Wu family. Even though he has made an appointment with Wu Mingjia, he will always feel a little sad when he sees another living face on the day of his brother's death.

"Do you give him a white platycodon every year?"

"Yes, I will continue to send flowers in the future. Every year on this day, I will present the bouquet myself."

"You really think I'm a saint."

"Huh? Are you jealous?"

"Yes."

"Come on, it's not the first day I know you, so ghosts will believe you."

"Brother, thank goodness you are on my side."

Seeing Yang Yiqi bent down and talking seriously to the photo on the urn, Xie Zhihua punched him angrily and amusingly. "Hey! Respect the dead, please?"

"Sure enough, he is a real brother. He was carved out of the same mold as your former boss' junior." Yang Yiqi looked at the person in the photo carefully unmoved, thinking that if this person was still alive, he might not Met Xie Zhihua at GayBar, and got entangled with his fate, right?

"Even Xie Li, an outsider, thinks so, it's no wonder the senior is still unwilling to accept me──" The voice suddenly came from behind, making the two of them turn their heads at the same time, and Yang Yiqi noticed a flash of guilt on Xie Zhihua's face .

"Ming Jia? Uh, long time no see..."

"Yeah, long time no see, no... I almost missed it." Wu Mingjia's eyes fell on Xie Zhihua's face lightly, the slight temperature lingered over the long years of concern, and that smiling face contrasted with the cold one on the ashes urn. The photos immediately make people feel like yesterday is not today.

He understood that even though the expressions between the brows were similar, the body was loaded with a different soul.

"How to say?"

"I thought the senior still didn't want to see me."

"No, I just..."

"Just what?"

"I thought you would come with uncle and aunt..." It wasn't Wu Mingjia that he wanted to avoid, but the unabated enthusiasm of Wu's father and mother, which always made him breathless, especially in Wu Mingjia's place. After his elder brother passed away, they treated him as their own, unaware that he had evil thoughts about their eldest son.

"Senior, in fact, my parents miss you very much..."

"I know, but I don't have the face to see them."

"why?"

"What why?" He turned his head to meet Yang Yiqi's puzzled gaze.

"What's the reason why you don't want to see them?" He doesn't know the relationship between Xie Zhihua and the Wu family, but he can feel that he loves and fears this family.

"I think it's because of my brother?"

Yang Yiqi frowned after hearing this, "He died of illness, and you didn't kill him, why are you feeling guilty?"

What is more unbearable than refuting and denying is Xie Zhihua's silence. Without thinking about it, Wu Mingjia suddenly stretched out his hand and hugged him into his arms. Before he could struggle, he said earnestly:

"Senior, this is to hug you instead of my brother... I think if my brother is still alive, he will definitely want to see you happy. If you continue to torture yourself with his death, you will let him go badly." Are you at ease?"

Xie Zhihua was stunned and said nothing, just closed his eyes and shed tears.

Wu Mingjia let go of him and gave him a smile. Seeing that his tears were still falling, he wanted to erase them for him but felt that he was not qualified. "In the past ten years, the senior has always been alone, but today, I saw the senior brought Yang Xieli together to pay homage to my brother. To be honest, I was surprised... The senior seems to have made a choice for himself, so whether it is me Brother is still me, I don’t want to admit defeat.”

"Mingjia..."

"Senior, I wish you happiness." Wu Mingjia smiled and distanced himself from him, smiling against the light, as if overlapping figures appeared, and personally blessed him.

"Why were you pretending to be dumb just now?" Xie Zhihua was the first to break the silence when the two came out of the Spirit Bone Pagoda.

"Wu Mingjia has said everything that needs to be said, so I naturally have nothing to add."

"Why do I feel that you seem a little proud?"

Yang Yiqi didn't say a word, and the smile stranded on the corner of his mouth was meaningful, Xie Zhihua glanced at him, as if he was relieved.

"Anyway, thank you for today."

"What can I thank you for?"

"Thank you for your generosity, for tolerating everything about me──"

"Don't look at me like this, I'm actually very petty."

"Um?"

"Losing to someone you've never met, I don't know what attracts you to him. Anyway──"

"Anyway what?"

"Anyway, I'm the one who's by your side now. Even if you lose, it's not too bad. It would be a pity if you let me look at your back again."

Yang Yiqi stood on the spot and stretched out his hand towards him. Seeing that Xie Zhihua's first reaction was to look around, he couldn't help laughing and scolded: "Don't look at the fact that there is no one, who would come to the Spirit Bone Pagoda early in the morning for sightseeing?"

"Aren't we human?" Xie Zhihua muttered, but still put his hand on Yang Yiqi's palm and let him squeeze it gently.

"By the way, I also have a question for you."

"what is the problem?"

"Should we continue to sleep in separate rooms after we get home?"

"What do you think?" Xie Zhihua didn't comment, just smiled.

There is actually a distance from the building to the parking lot, but when he set foot on the return journey, he no longer felt that the road was always long and difficult, because he knew that he was no longer alone.

"Finish"

postscript

The article I started in October, I didn't expect that I was seriously delayed again. It seems that the goal of challenging a book in three months should still be far away from me. (sigh)

Let’s talk about the birth of this book first. In fact, I was driving home from the company one night, listening to Zhang Zhicheng’s "Secret Love" in a crowded car. At that time, I really felt that this song The lyrics are superbly written, the kind of weakness and cowardice that want to see but dare not watch, want to love but dare not love, so that those who are aware of the relationship can't help laughing and crying together──This is originally "back "I'm looking at you", but because I wrote the first version of the schoolboy as a little psychopathic, the plot was out of control. In order to avoid causing too many troubles for the schoolmates, the schoolmate should not be a psychopath for the time being, even though I always wanted to Write about a character twisted underage. :P

The title of "Behind You" is a reference to Sodagreen's "Behind You". The plot may have nothing to do with the original song, but I have always liked Aomine's lyrics, so I just applied it directly.

In fact, "carrying you" has double meanings, whether it is said once or four times, it will work. The three people in the book are each carrying their own secrets, especially Xie Zhihua. He also tortured two other men who loved him.

I do not deny that I personally prefer Yang Yiqi. Although Yang Yiqi is a bit wicked, he is a very tolerant person.At first, he was driven by curiosity to get close to Xie Zhihua, but the closer he got, the more pitiful or even cute he felt that this person was. Maybe his life didn't need Xie Zhihua to add color, but Xie Zhihua's life did. It can't be turned around by him, probably because of this narcissism that made him resolutely stir into this muddy water, no matter how long they can walk hand in hand, at least it won't be a broken ending. Definitely a smile.

Closer to home, this book is completely different from the online version. Fortunately, I only posted half of it and then stopped. Otherwise, I really don’t know how to face the old rain and new knowledge after chasing this article. In short, I would like to thank my baby, If there is no baby's vicious spur day and night, I am afraid that this book will not be able to successfully mark the word "end". Although the hard work is painful, as long as the harvest is sweet, this is enough. (laugh)

Well, the next book will fill in the old holes and return to the costume dramas I love, so stay tuned!