behind your back

When Yang Yiqi opened the door of the house, he suddenly hesitated, because it was the first time he came out of that bar, but only one person came home.

When he entered the door, he saw Xie Zhihua's clothes left on the sofa, he picked them up without thinking and wanted to throw them into the laundry basket, but when the things left his hands, he couldn't help hesitating, would Xie Zhihua still come?After the confession from his junior who looked like his old lover, didn't he show any signs of being moved?

He has always been ignorant of Xie Zhihua's secrets, and he thinks that this spiritual mentor is quite handy. After all, many things are always full of hazy beauty before they are exposed. He can speak freely without any scruples, but he has no courage to face reality. .

But now someone has punctured this layer of paper. If Xie Zhihua still feels nostalgic for his old love, maybe he will fall into Wu Mingjia's arms because of this... This result is actually not bad, the lovesickness he has been suspending for many years has finally blossomed In the end, he should be happy for him from the bottom of his heart, but why, he didn't want to imagine the picture of them embracing and sleeping.

He has hugged this person for more than a year, and he believes that he is definitely the person who understands him best in the world.If they are really together, maybe he should take the time to tell Wu Mingjia and Xie Zhihua that not only does he have the urge to wake up but also likes to drink black coffee on an empty stomach, and he can't eat spicy food at all, so he should remember to be more considerate when serving him.

When the two of them are alone, it's best to know that Xie Zhihua not only has a bad temper but also has a very stubborn head, and also has a quirk of duplicity, so a person like him who is full of shortcomings is actually not suitable as a long-term partner.

What's more, what Wu Mingjia loves is only the side he can see. He didn't know that Xie Zhihua would cry when he was dreaming. It was so serious that he had to turn over and hug her in his arms to pat him to comfort him to calm down slowly.Although he never knew the true face of the nightmare, he couldn't stop worrying about this autistic ghost who was tortured by the nightmare.

Yang Yiqi turned and left the bathroom, turned around and took a garbage bag and threw the clothes that had been thrown into the laundry basket into it.Perhaps it was taken for granted because he was so kind to him. If he let go first, would the kite in his hand never return or would it slowly float back into his palm?

Or, there has never been a so-called kite.

He pouted the corner of his mouth as if he was bored with his thoughts and thought it was ridiculous, he bent down to pack the garbage bag, lifted it to an inconspicuous corner and put it down, then turned and left.

When Xie Zhihua stepped out of the taxi, the figure guarding the door of the apartment immediately made his drunkenness subside by three points. "What are you doing here?"

"Why are you so drunk, senior?"

Xie Zhihua ignored him and took out the key to unlock it, and when he closed the door, Wu Mingjia squeezed in quickly and closed the door for him.

"Can I go up and sit for a while?"

"Can't."

"Senior..."

"I remember that I asked for leave today." Xie Zhihua blocked the stairs and prevented him from taking another step. Wu Mingjia smiled helplessly. Is this what happened to the person who offended him?What an honest speech.

"It's off-duty time now, can't the junior want to visit the senior?"

"Do you still think of me as a senior?"

"I……"

Seeing him lower his head as if blaming himself, Xie Zhihua couldn't help feeling annoyed at his outspokenness. Actually, what's wrong with liking him?Isn't he also involuntarily falling in love with his elder brother?But is his attitude as bad as his?He and him are not the same at all, as a human being, we really should leave more leeway.

"If you want to come up, you can leave after drinking tea, okay?"

"OK, OK!" Wu Mingjia was so happy that he looked like a parolee, and followed him into the house step by step.

To be honest, when Xie Zhihua asked for leave in the afternoon, he followed Wuxin to go to work. After all, the atmosphere in the office was so tense and he couldn't finish it well. According to his understanding of him, it is not impossible to throw his resignation and leave in a fit of anger.

Anyway, at least he doesn't have to carry this secret anymore, even if Xie Zhihua doesn't accept him in the short term, he can always impress him with a little more effort, it's just——

Did he run off to drink to soothe his worries after work?

After calling his mobile phone along the way but failing to connect, he simply waited and ran downstairs to his house. Unexpectedly, he waited until 12:30, causing him to not even eat dinner.

Xie Zhihua brought two cups of hot tea from the kitchen to the living room, and put a handful of things on the table. He hung on the sofa as if he was tired and paralyzed. Wu Mingjia sat aside, deliberately waiting for the opportunity to speak.

"Senior..."

"Huh?" Xie Zhihua pulled off his loose tie and squinted at him. Wu Mingjia took a sip of tea and felt that the slightly drunk Xie Zhihua was less reserved than usual, and his eyes were a little mad, as if he would be angry if he said a wrong sentence. It was like being blasted out of the door immediately.

"I've reflected on what happened this morning, let's... start over again?"

"What's the meaning?"

"It means that senior can forget what I said, and we can continue to get along as before."

"Why did you suddenly figure it out again?" Xie Zhihua unbuttoned his neckline, perhaps because the smell of alcohol was walking and he felt very upset. He actually didn't hate Wu Mingjia because he said he liked him, he just Because it happened so suddenly, he didn't think about how to deal with it. After all, Wu Mingjia was an innocent victim in his perception, but now that he was willing to give him this step, he was naturally relieved.

"I just don't want to scare the senior..." He raised the corner of his mouth, although it still seemed a bit far-fetched, he tried to convince himself as much as possible. "What's more, we cooperate so well at work. I'm thinking... Even if we can't sublimate into another relationship with the senior, it's good to continue to be good friends and partners... Does the senior agree with me?"

"Ming Jia is actually—" You don't need to be so complacent...Xie Zhihua wanted to say this, but he was afraid of hurting him, so he changed his words: "Actually, you are just worrying about it. The treatment from AK is so good, I won't It's easy to change jobs...and as you said, we are good friends and good partners, and I am personally very reluctant to lose my comrades in arms."

"Really? Do you really think so, Senpai?"

"Um...um..." Seeing him smile, Xie Zhihua smiled back. It would be great if this farce could end peacefully. The only thing he can do to face his lover's younger brother is probably to give him family care Bar?As long as he sticks to the boundaries, he believes that they will get along well in the future.

"But what if someone pays a lot of money? Will the senior leave AK?"

"Poach corners with a lot of money? Poach me? Who has such insight?"

"What if that person is Yang Yiqi? Will the senior think about it?" Wu Mingjia's eyes were so serious that he didn't seem to be joking, Xie Zhihua forced a dry smile, and started to drink tea as if nothing had happened, trying to cover up a certain part of his guilt.

"Why did you mention him suddenly?"

"Senior is actually very close to Xieli Yang, right? I just saw you get off his car this morning..."

The sip of tea in his mouth almost scalded him to death, Xie Zhihua swallowed it painfully, but Wu Mingjia continued: "But since the senior insists that you are just ordinary customers and manufacturers, I won't ask any more questions, I decide Believe in the senior—"

"About this... I'm sorry, I just don't want you to misunderstand, I didn't mean to lie to you this morning."

"It's okay, didn't I say that I would believe the senior? From now on, no matter what the senior says, I will believe it, and there will be no more doubts or suspicions between us..."

"Mingjia..." Xie Zhihua would rather Wu Mingjia scold him than accept his biased kindness. He is not sure what he saw, but in order to make a lie he must tell an even bigger lie, even if the current test makes him Enron passed, so what's next?Wouldn't there be extra problems?Can he really keep his relationship with Yang Yiqi secret?

Maybe he should find an opportunity to hand over the business in his hands, so that at least there will be no confusion between public and private, but before he can speak, Wu Mingjia went to the balcony to talk on the phone because his mobile phone rang, and he saw him through the glass She frowned slightly, thinking that to make him show such an impatient expression, Gu Jiawei is probably the only person recently, right?

When thinking of her, many old events inevitably flashed through Xie Zhihua's mind.After "he" died, Gu Jiawei used to be his spiritual support, but what he gave was not as good as she expected, and he could only express regret for this missed fate.

When he learned that she was Wu Mingjia's fiancée, he couldn't help but be concerned about the time they met. Before she found out about his relationship with Wu Mingjia, did she know that the person who made him regret his whole life was her fiancé's brother?No... probably not...

After Wu Mingjia returned from talking on the phone, he found that Xie Zhihua had already fallen asleep in a corner of the sofa. He lightly picked up the coat next to him and covered him up, staring at his sleeping face absently.

Even though he wanted to touch him so much in his heart, but in order not to destroy the peace and harmony he had so hard to get before him, he resisted the urge.

In order to get the complete him, he is willing to put aside his self-esteem and wait humblely. He believes that sincerity is as good as gold and stones, as long as he is not too aggressive, he will open his heart to him one day and fall into his arms willingly.

Ever since Yang Yiqi left him at the bar, there was no contact between them.

Firstly, he was busy at the end of the year, and secondly, Xie Zhihua also found an excuse to avoid the extremely distorted relationship between him and Yang Yiqi under the guise of being overwhelmed.

In the beginning, they made an appointment just as a bed partner when they were lonely, and never cared about each other's private life, but from the physical fit to the coincidence at work, they had to cross this line.

During this period, he tried his best to hand over KAM's business, but Wu Mingjia alone couldn't pass the test. He had full trust in himself and he was unwilling to entrust the golden hen to other subordinates. The total turnover of the cases handled is as high as [-] million U.S. dollars. KAM, who has given himself enough face, is not happy to change the business window for the second time within a year.

Since their turnover this year is 15% higher than in previous years, in order to express their gratitude to the big customers, Wu Mingjia specially asked Xie Zhihua to conduct a year-end and year-end visit in person. This time, Xie Zhihua and Yang Yiqi were separated by two Meeting for the first time in a month.

When meeting in the conference room, Xie Zhihua behaved as natural and generous as possible, and often skillfully focused on the next year's case before the eyes met.His deliberate indifference made Yang Yiqi feel childish, but because it was a business occasion, he tolerantly cooperated with his performance.

To Xie Zhihua, he was just a piece of driftwood from beginning to end. If the meaning of the driftwood's existence was lost, he could see him for two months, or maybe never see him again, but before that, he wanted to What is clear is, does he really have no nostalgia for him at all?As far as he knew him, he didn't think that Xie Zhihua would sleep with someone he didn't feel for and lasted for a year.

When the conversation was halfway through, Yang Yiqi had to go back to the office for a Con-call due to an emergency call, leaving Alex behind to continue the follow-up discussion.

Xie Zhihua breathed a sigh of relief when Yang Yiqi left. After all, they broke up at the bar that day. After that, he thought about looking for him, thinking that as long as they pretended nothing happened, they would be able to live for desire like before, but Gradually he found that he was tired. Once the mask he took off had to be put on again, he could no longer pretend to be perfect. He didn't know how contradictory a person could go, but he knew that he wanted someone to accompany him, but I can't be brave enough to beg for emotional commitment.I thought Yang Yiqi would take the opportunity to fix himself or embarrass him, but he didn't expect him to let him go so easily. Could it be that before he made up his mind to draw a line with him, he would have already judged himself out of the game? ?

Sure enough, Yang Yiqi never came back after leaving. He felt lost but also believed that he was to blame. He and Wu Mingjia and his party planned to leave after packing up their things.

"that whoever--"

"Huh?" Xie Zhihua, who left the group and ran to the bathroom to relieve himself, thought that some acquaintance called him, but when he looked back, he found that it was Yang Yiqi. Suddenly he didn't know what to answer, so he simply kept silent.

"Are you leaving?" Yang Yiqi walked side by side with him, and forced him to the corner stairwell without any trace. He looked around, worried that someone from the company would look for him.

"We're almost done talking, aren't you busy? Still have time to run out?"

"It's rare for you to come, no matter how busy you are, you have to spare time... How about you make up an excuse with the people in your company to stay longer, so we can have dinner together later?"

"Isn't that good?" Yang Yiqi's habitual intimacy made Xie Zhihua take a step back, why does this person always ignore their disputes?Is he the only one who has pimples every time after the cold war?

"What's wrong? It's almost time to get off work, don't you have to go back to the company to work overtime?"

"No, but—"

"But what?"

"Hmm..." The closer he gets to him, the more he avoids his eyes. He is always at a disadvantage in front of him, probably because he has done too many bad things and he is holding him back.

"Why don't you go on?"

"I really have to go, Ming Jia and the others are still waiting for me—"

"What does it matter if they wait? Did they wait as long as I did?"

"Ugh!" Xie Zhihua raised his head in astonishment, but Yang Yiqi turned his face away, and his tone was a bit uncomfortable.

"I'm sorry for leaving you behind that night. To be honest, I was really in a bad mood at the time... How did you go with your boss's junior? What about your decision?"

"Don't talk about this today, let me go first?"

Yang Yiqi seized him and pushed his hand away, as if he would never give him another chance to escape. "You are so indecisive, no matter how strong you are, you will get hurt sooner or later. How much patience do you think a person can have?"

"How would I know? Let me go!"

"I won't let go."

"Yang Yiqi—"

"Once I decide to hold it, I won't let it go."

Xie Zhihua looked at him clasping his hand and was speechless for a moment. Although he was happy to know the other party's intentions, he didn't think he was qualified to accept another relationship until he sorted out his mood.He leaned against the wall and turned his face away, enduring Yang Yiqi's stubborn gaze but he couldn't respond for a long time.

"Xie Zhihua, come to me? I don't sympathize with you, nor do I want you to treat me as a substitute. I just want to be with you because I like it. Do you feel the same way about me?"

Seeing his eyes widen in astonishment, Yang Yiqi slowly lowered his head.

He wants to kiss him, he really wants to kiss him, the more helpless he is, the more he can't just ignore him, he doesn't want to sit on the sidelines anymore, especially in the face of such a dull human race, how long will he have to wait? What year and month will it take for him to discover his feelings for him?

However, at the moment when the lips were about to fold together, a gloomy voice suddenly sounded from behind.

"What are you doing!"

Xie Zhihua subconsciously pushed Yang Yiqi away, but saw Wu Mingjia standing at the entrance of the security door with a complicated expression.

"Ming Jia?"

"It turns out that senior and Yang Xieli have 'that kind of relationship'?"

"No, let me explain—"

"I've seen it with my own eyes, what else can I explain?" Wu Mingjia didn't even look at him, his heart was already filled with anger.

"I didn't know until today that the senior's orders came in this way. It seems that I was too naive, and I was so stupid that I would believe your nonsense-are you not familiar with it? I am not familiar with it so brazenly in public Make out? Don't take everyone for a fool!"

"Wu Mingjia, no matter what relationship I have with your senior, you shouldn't deny his hard work at work and take back what you just said."

"Even those involved have denied it, you, an outsider, why rush to stand out? What's more, this is a matter between me and him, and it's not your turn to intervene!"

"I saw his affairs from beginning to end, how could he be an outsider?" Yang Yiqi stood up and blocked Xie Zhihua, but unexpectedly, this move angered Wu Mingjia. He rushed forward to punch him, but was stopped in time hand.

"Ming Jia! If you have something to say, don't move your hands!"

"What do you want me to say? I have nothing to say!" Wu Mingjia grabbed Xie Zhihua without saying a word and wanted to leave, but was stopped by Yang Yiqi.Xie Zhihua was worried that if this dragging on would cause unnecessary commotion, she shook her head and asked him to leave it alone.

"Is that your answer?"

"Yang Yiqi, I—"

"What else is there to say? Isn't the result obvious? Senpai, let's go!"

"I'm sorry..." Xie Zhihua followed Wu Mingjia away after dropping these words.

It's not that Yang Yiqi didn't want to keep him, it's just that the sorry sentence made him swallow all the retention back into his throat.Looking at the back of the two people leaving, he was helpless except helpless.

His tenderness and passion used to be the charm that attracted him, but now it is also the weapon that stabs him.

He wants to have Xie Zhihua, but before he gives up his previous relationship, he must respect him and wait patiently for him... But after today's incident, this expectation may not come one day, he Maybe he will be lost forever.

"Ming Jia—"

"Shut up! I don't want to hear it now!" After pushing Xie Zhihua into the taxi, Wu Mingjia asked the driver to drive away as soon as possible with a sullen face, and then called the other subordinates who were still waiting in the parking lot to let them continue the next visit.

He should have guessed his relationship with Yang Yiqi long ago!How could he not have noticed that the interaction between the two of them was so raw and unnatural in front of him?

Wu Mingjia was speechless all the way, and Xie Zhihua looked at his indifferent side face with trepidation. He had never seen him lose his mind like this. He must be really angry, right?Angry at himself for hiding it for so long, angry at his trust sinking into the sea.

Half an hour later, they arrived at Wu Mingjia's residence. Xie Zhihua looked at him puzzled, but saw that he got out of the car first without saying a word, so he had no choice but to get out of the car.

"Come upstairs, let's talk."

"Ming Jia—"

"I said go upstairs!"

He sat on the sofa and waited for half an hour before he saw Wu Mingjia coming out of the kitchen with two cups of tea. When he put the teacups on the table, Xie Zhihua said at the same time:

"I'm sorry to keep this from you... But don't worry, I won't cause trouble to you or the company. I will go through the resignation procedures tomorrow..."

"why?"

"what why?"

"Didn't the senior say he only likes my brother's? Why did you let Yang Yiqi kiss you?"

Xie Zhihua didn't refute, in fact, he didn't know where to start. He never forgot his brother, but he couldn't deny his relationship with Yang Yiqi either. "sorry……"

"Why are you apologizing? Are you apologizing to me for my brother? Or are you apologizing for rejecting me because you actually like someone else?"

"I don't know...I just feel sorry..." Xie Zhihua covered her face and wished all this hadn't happened, but the cruel reality still happened bloody. Wu Mingjia must look down on him, right?

Now in his eyes, his loyal love for his brother may have already become a joke.

"When did the senior and Yang Yiqi have a relationship?"

"Why are you asking this?"

"Just because I'm my brother's younger brother, don't I have the right to know? Senior, how can you say you love my brother? How long have you been together?"

"Not long after you came to the company." Xie Zhihua took a few deep breaths and still gave him the answer he wanted.

"what?"

"Because when I see you, I think of 'him'... Although 'he' is still the same as ten years ago in my heart, maybe the 'he' of ten years later will be your face? At that time, I I can't help but think this way... Do you still have the memory? When you were confirmed to be the supervisor of the second sales department, I once asked to be transferred to another unit... To be honest, I was very scared when I was alone with you... I was afraid that I would go crazy I can't tell the difference between reality and fantasy... I'm afraid that I'm going crazy enough to project my feelings for "him" onto you. I'm very nervous and fall into anxiety from time to time. In order to relieve this pressure, I go to bars every night to get drunk. That's why I met Yang Yiqi—"

"So you guys have known each other since then? But you guys have lied to me until now?"

"I didn't mean to lie to you, but I don't know how to explain it to you, and I just happened to take KAM's case, so it's even more difficult to open my mouth."

"It seems that the senior and Yang Yiqi should be "very good friends", otherwise they wouldn't be so generous and merciless to give senior Shan Rang performance... If my brother knows that the senior is so capable, he should be very upset that he left too early, right?"

"Ming Jia, it's okay for you to humiliate me, but I don't allow you to say that about your brother! Your brother doesn't even know that I like him! He just regards me as a good friend—"

"But you know I like you! Why are you still hurting me so cruelly?" Wu Mingjia suddenly roared, his eyes were red and he walked in front of Xie Zhihua, as if he was about to cry.

"Senior, can you look at me? Can you look at me a little bit? I really don't care about being a stand-in..." He bent down to kiss him but was avoided by Xie Zhihua. He slumped on the sofa. I don't understand, he has already humbled himself to this point, why still can't win his favor?

Compared to his brother and Yang Yiqi, he is the one who loves him the longest, isn't he?

"Ming Jia, why don't you do this?" He was sad and Xie Zhihua was more sad than him. He never thought of hurting him, but the trick of fate seemed to push them into a dilemma.

"Then tell me what should I do? What do I have to do for a senior to like me? Does it mean that as long as I destroy this face, the senior can forget about my brother a little bit and look at me a little bit more?" Wu Mingjia seemed to lose his mind as he spoke. As soon as he saw the teacup on the table, he picked it up and threw it on the floor. Xie Zhihua saw him picking up the pieces and scratching his face, so he rushed forward to stop him .

"Are you crazy! Do you know what you are doing!"

"Anyway, this face is taboo, isn't it? As long as you destroy it, you will fall in love with me, won't you?" Wu Mingjia broke away from him and wanted to lose his appearance, Xie Zhihua was worried that he would do something stupid, so he reached out to shake it without saying a word As a result, his hands were dripping with blood, and Wu Mingjia hurriedly let go only after he found out that he was injured.

"Senior, senior, you are bleeding!"

"I'm fine... have you calmed down yet?" Xie Zhihua held the wound and swept away the debris with his foot. Wu Mingjia was no longer agitated, and only saw the blood still dripping from his fingers.

"I'll take you to the hospital—"

"Have you lost your mind? Let me warn you. Next time, if you cut me, I'll accompany you. If you don't believe me, give it a try." Xie Zhihua said angrily.Although the injured part was in severe pain, fortunately his sacrifice brought Wu Mingjia's calmness.

"I'm sorry... I'm really sorry..."

"Don't be sorry, why don't you take me to the hospital first?"

"Oh, okay, senior, be careful..." Wu Mingjia hurriedly escorted him out, only at this time did he reluctantly let go of his attachment, and returned to the upright and enthusiastic elementary school boy back then.Xie Zhihua not only had a knot in his brows, but also didn't know how to solve the problem in his heart, but what worried him more than the problem in front of him was that Wu Mingjia couldn't get the answer from him, and he didn't know if it would evolve. Become Yang Yiqi's trouble...

He didn't want their problems to spread to a third party, but it seemed unclear who the third party was at this juncture.