post-zombie era

Gu He held the business card that Xiao Ce gave him. It looked like a private business card. It didn't have any fancy design. It was just a paper with the dark pattern of his family crest printed on it, and his name and private name were written on it. Phone, nothing else, very simple and elegant.

Gu He looked at it, hesitating whether to throw it away, because if Guan Jin found out if he took it home, he would definitely be questioned by Guan Jin, and there might be another quarrel.

Thinking of Guan Jin's sensitivity and narrow-mindedness recently, Gu He really had the feeling that he didn't want to go back. He would always face all kinds of questions from Guan Jin when he went back. Thinking of this, he felt powerless and bored.

Regarding this situation, Gu He felt that it was already a very uncomfortable thing.

Of course, he also understands that there is also his own fault in this, that he did not love Guan Jin well, which made him have no confidence and sense of security in himself, but he has no way to forcefully change his mind.

Gu He walked forward step by step in the darkening university campus. In fact, he could call the driver to pick him up, but he didn't. He just walked quietly, looking at the young students The lovers walked hand in hand, seeing the sweet and happy smiles on their faces, Gu He had a deep feeling that he was no longer young, and this feeling made him very interested in marriage and love. conflict and fear.

He is no longer young. If he does not talk about love or marriage, he can indulge in research all his life. This is the most secure way of life for him; He is no longer young, he doesn't care about marriage, but Guan Jin wants it, he always wants to get married, he always has to stumble through life, it seems that he has to endure, because there is no way to separate from Guan Jin when he and Guan Jin reach this point; Thinking of Xiao Ce again, he knew that his feelings for him were unusual, he knew that he fell in love with him inexplicably, but he never thought about being with him, not only did he know that love and being together Life is not the same thing, even if you have love, you may not be able to live together, and he feels that the more you love someone, the less you can live calmly in front of him. He is afraid that all kinds of small contradictions in life will make love deteriorate .

After thinking a lot, Gu He felt that he still had only one way to go, which was to go home and be with Guan Jin.He even had to give up the research he was passionate about and willing to devote his life to because of his concern.

Gu He looked at the business card, and finally had to tear it off. I don't know what kind of paper this business card is made of. It is very tough. Gu He accidentally cut his finger, and the blood gushed out instantly. came out, but he didn't care, tore the business card into several pieces, and threw them into several trash bins passing by, and then he came to pay attention to the wound on his finger, and covered the wound on his finger, he had a feeling that it was not a wound It hurts, but the feeling that the eyes are hurting, because the tears are pouring out uncontrollably.

He controlled himself as much as possible, and only after he returned to normal did he go to the place he had agreed with the bodyguard driver. The driver saw him coming, so he quickly came and bowed, and opened the door to invite him into the car.

Gu He sat in the car clutching his fingers, feeling a deep sense of desolation in his heart, and there was no expression on his face, just sitting there a little numbly.

After sitting for a while, the wound on his finger was covered so that it stopped bleeding, but a lot of blood smeared on both his hands. Gu He took out a handkerchief to wipe off the blood, but because some of it had dried up, Can't be wiped off.

Gu He looked at the blood in a daze. Before he fell in love with Xiao Ce, he never knew that love was so uncomfortable. The lightness and happiness when he talked to Xiao Ce just now clearly lingered in his mind and heart, but the heavier feeling has already disappeared. came up.

When Gu He returned home, Guan Jin, who had already eaten his meal, was watching a movie in the audio-visual room. Guan Jin was busy, so there were very few people watching movies like this. After Gu He went to treat the injury on his finger, he took a bath again. After changing into home clothes, I went to make a pot of black tea and took it into the audio-visual room.

The audio-visual room was very dark, only the big screen on the entire wall was illuminated. Gu He paused at the door, and saw clearly that Guan Jin was sitting on the low and wide sofa. He walked over and stood halfway beside him. He knelt down and put the tray on the low table next to him.

When he opened the door, Guan Jin had already noticed him, and now he was half kneeling in front of him, but he didn't put his eyes on him, but still stared at the screen, just reached out and grabbed Gu He's hand , and brought him into his arms.

Gu He slammed into his chest awkwardly, and let him hug him. He didn't speak, but turned his head quietly to look at the screen.

He knew that Guan Jin almost only watched literary films when watching movies, and he thought that blockbuster movies that only focused on visual impact were a kind of kitsch. When the two of them were students, Gu He hardly watched movies, but Guan Jin thought he liked it. Watching commercial blockbusters, I accompanied him to watch a few shows, and later found out that he didn't like watching them, so he started to take Gu He to watch lesser-known literary films.

Gu He changed into a comfortable position in Guan Jin's arms, leaned his head on his shoulder, put an arm half around his waist, and quietly watched the movie.

There are almost no lines in the movie, and the picture of flowing water shows the plot of running water. In the quiet time and picture, sad feelings are flowing.

It was a dark picture that always made people feel like it was a cloudy day. Gu He felt uncomfortable. At first, he didn't understand what was being said in it. It was only later that he realized that it was actually a son who fell in love with him. The father, who was in great pain, was receiving psychological treatment. Many of the shaking images were fantasies he suppressed in his heart. He saw the child dreaming, dreaming of having sex with his father. Seeing this, Gu He wrinkled fiercely. Frowning, an indescribable uncomfortable feeling in his heart, he was about to stand up and leave, but was hugged tightly by Guan Jin, and Guan Jin's palm touched his waist.

Gu He didn't want Guan Jin to do that kind of thing to him because of watching this kind of movie, so he pushed him away, but Guan Jin didn't let him go, and even hugged him even tighter, with his legs clamped around him leg, pressed him over and kissed his neck...

During the whole sex process, Gu He didn't say a word, only a low, suppressed and uncomfortable moan. After that, the two of them hardly watched the plot of the movie, and the obscure background music in the movie was surrounded by sadness. In the room, Gu He felt as if his heart was immersed in the water of sorrow.

Later, when Guan Jin kissed Gu He's finger, he realized that his finger was injured, and a Band-Aid was applied. He kissed and gnawed on the back of his hand, but he pushed back without any relaxation under his body. Gu He bit hard Lower lip, turned head sideways, in the shaking sight, there was a sunny scene in the movie, but it was the morning sun shining through the window glass, shining on the son inside, on his white corpse that seemed to be dissipating It was lit.

Gu He didn't understand why Guan Jin wanted to watch such an obscure and depressing movie. Guan Jin's movements became more and more intense, causing him to groan brokenly. He pulled a pillow and pressed his face tightly, sour and astringent. The feeling made him feel unbearable, and he just wanted the sex to end quickly.

When everything calmed down, the movie would have ended long ago. Guan Jin took away the pillow Gu He was holding and threw it aside, and was locked in again and kissed his lips.

Gu He was naked, even his socks were ripped off by Guan Jin, and his fair and delicate feet, like a woman's, were held in Guan Jin's hands, Guan Jin stroked them with his fingers, and kissed them twice, Gu He Feeling embarrassing about being kissed, he wanted to take his foot away, but Guan Jin didn't let it go, and insisted on biting his instep again, which made Gu He gasp, so he let go of his foot, and put Gu He hugged his naked body into his arms.

Guan Jin pulled up his trousers and was well-dressed again. Gu He was completely naked facing him like this. He felt cold and embarrassed at the same time. He wanted to push him away to get dressed, but Guan Jin didn't let him go and even kissed him on the cheek. , whispered in his ear, "This kind of you is all mine."

Gu He looked at him in surprise, not understanding what Guan Jin meant, because it was really cold, he couldn't help but sneezed.

Guan Jin didn't hand him his clothes, but pulled a blanket to wrap him up, still just hugged him, said nothing, and wanted to watch the movie again.

Gu He had no choice but to resist, "I'm cold, I need to wear clothes."

Guan Jin said, "That's it, let me hold you for a while, tell me what happened to the injury on your finger? Who did you see today?"