Capgras delusional syndrome

As soon as Ding Chengfeng left, two hooligans came over and tightened the rope that tied Yang Shaojun's hands behind him, put a dog chain on his feet, and tied the other end to a thick pillar. The length of the dog chain was about one hour. meters or so.Only then did Yang Shaojun realize that Su Qian's feet were tied to dog chains, and he couldn't help being angry for no reason, but he insisted on gritting his teeth and swallowing it.

Those people tied up Yang Shaojun, and with Ding Chengfeng's instructions, they didn't make things difficult for him anymore, turned around and walked out.When passing by Su Qian, he didn't forget to kick him.Su Qian suppressed a muffled snort, and tried harder to shrink his body.

Yang Shaojun's breath was stagnant, and he thought with a distorted expression: These guys are waiting for me. If one day they fall into my hands, I will show you what torture is to extract a confession!

After a while, several gangsters walked away, and they didn't go very far. At the other end of the abandoned factory, they made beds, set up tables, and set up a simple venue. This is probably their temporary base camp in Shanghai.Yang Shaojun moved calmly to a place with a wider view, looking past the messy shelters in the factory, he could see a lot of boxes over there, wondering if it was their smuggled goods, maybe the smuggled arms were also there here.He narrowed his eyes and thought: If this is really the case, it will save a lot of trouble once it is taken away.

One person noticed that Yang Shaojun was staring at them, and immediately stepped forward with his eyes wide open, waving the steel pipe in his hand and yelling. Yang Shaojun showed a timid look, and quickly moved to the side of the pillar.

After a while, some people went out, leaving a few people drinking and talking there, not paying attention to Yang Shaojun and Su Qian, so Yang Shaojun slowly moved towards Su Qian.

Su Qian has been very quiet all this time, except for the sentence of being brave to Ding Chengfeng, he has never said a word. He huddled quietly in the corner by himself, with his back against the wall, his knees bent, and his crumpled sweater was covered with dust. .He was originally wearing a jacket, but after he was taken away by the gangsters, the gangsters saw that the material of his clothes was good and warm, so they took them away. His sweater was relatively thin, so he was lucky enough to be kept.He leaned there in such a state of embarrassment, with his eyes closed and his lips slightly pursed, but his innate temperament made him look very disharmonious with this environment, like a pearl falling into the ashes of plants and trees. Still bright.

Yang Shaojun moved closer, but he didn't dare to approach completely.He was used to communicating with Su Qian through a thick blindfold, and now he suddenly saw those eyes that he hadn't seen for a long time, as if the masked man had taken off his mask, which made him feel a little uncomfortable.

During the period when Su Qian was blindfolded, due to various reasons, he kept trying to weaken his sense of existence, wishing to melt himself into the dust of this world, so as not to be watched or watched by others.However, after the blindfold was removed, Yang Shaojun suddenly felt a long-lost sense of existence and oppression, so that every pore of him opened up, which was extremely refreshing.

He laughed at himself and thought: Is this considered cheap?

He cautiously called his name in a low voice: "Su Qian...?"

Su Qian turned his head slightly, his eyelashes began to tremble again, and it took several seconds before he responded, "Yes."

This answer really made Yang Shaojun feel mixed feelings, and he couldn't tell what it was like.He didn't see joy, anxiety, or annoyance, just like ordinary friends meeting each other and saying hello, so calm.

Yang Shaojun couldn't help being a little depressed, smacked his lips, wanted to smoke, but could only bear it.He said, "Your eyes..."

Su Qian didn't answer, and shook his head after a long time.

Yang Shaojun was completely depressed.He originally envisioned that the scene of the two meeting should be very touching. Su Qian would cry uncontrollably, or scream in despair, and then he could be a gentle and powerful backer, comforting and giving Su Qian confidence.But looking at it now, except for the moment when Ding Chengfeng was still there, Su Qian was so calm that it was abnormal, but his own heart was still beating very fast now.

He took a look with his head and saw that the gangsters didn't pay attention to them, so he moved closer to Su Qian until he reached the shoulder-to-shoulder distance, but he hesitated to touch him, feeling that he should be more cautious.He wanted to shake Su Qian's hand and tell him that it's okay and don't worry that everything will be fine, but unfortunately their hands were tied behind his back; he wanted to give Su Qian a hug, but unfortunately he couldn't even stand up; after hesitating again and again, he slowly He leaned over, pressed his forehead against Su Qian's, and dawdled gently: "Don't worry, you will be saved."

When the two got together, Yang Shaojun only felt that Su Qian's face was extremely cold, and probably because he was still running a fever, that's why he felt that the other party was cold.

Su Qian froze for a moment when he touched her, but she didn't flinch. After getting used to it, she increased the strength on her forehead and pressed against Yang Shaojun's forehead.On the contrary, Yang Shaojun was taken aback and almost leaned back to avoid it, but quickly moved forward again.Their foreheads were pressed tightly together, giving each other strength and warmth in this cold, damp and dark corner of the old factory.

After a while, Yang Shaojun changed direction and leaned against the wall side by side with him: "What's wrong with your eyes? Are you injured?"

Su Qian shook his head, his voice was hoarse: "I don't want to open it."

Yang Shaojun was slightly taken aback, and suddenly had a bad premonition in his heart: "...for...why?"

Su Qian sighed inaudibly, tilted his head back, pressed his head against the cold iron wall, and said in a low voice: "You don't understand this feeling... If you open your eyes, you will see that the whole world is fake , that is..." That means there is really no hope at all.Even if I was imprisoned here, even if I was beaten by gangsters, even if it was dark, and even if it was freezing cold... I didn't lose hope.I want to keep some hope for myself, to live and accept the future, good or bad.

Yang Shaojun froze, then slowly relaxed, his lips parted a few times, but he didn't know what to say.

Su Qian smiled: "You know my situation, right?"

Yang Shaojun nodded very seriously, remembering that Su Qian couldn't see, he suppressed a "hmm" from his throat.

Su Qian said, "What's the situation, please tell me."

Yang Shaojun turned his head and stared at his side face: "Will you believe me?"

Su Qian smiled: "I've thought about this question for a long time. When I was lying in the room alone, I thought about it all night long. I thought about all the mysterious and suspenseful things. I thought maybe I was dead. Or maybe everyone around me is dead and all I see are puppets. There are many times when I want to take off the blindfold and see what's going on. I want to figure out what's wrong with the world, or something wrong with me what is the problem……"

Footsteps gradually sounded, and a gangster over there walked towards the two of them.Su Qian fell silent, and Yang Shaojun moved a little further away, pretending to close his eyes and rest his mind.The gangster came over to inspect and saw that the two of them got together, probably two bereaved dogs huddling together and crying to each other, so they sneered ironically, turned and left again.

Yang Shaojun moved over again, touching his ears and temples.

Su Qian went on to say: "Actually, I know that you will put something in my eyes while I am asleep. You say it is a medicine for eye diseases, but you only apply it once every ten days and a half months. It will be very uncomfortable, and the vision will be more blurred. I know you guys did it on purpose. When I was with Xiaoji, once he was naughty and took off my blindfold. He said he wanted me to open my eyes and look at him. He was worried. What happened to my eyes. I hesitated for a long time that day, but I still didn't open it and put the blindfold on myself."

After a pause, he asked, "Can you tell me, what's the reason? What's wrong with me?"

Yang Shaojun sighed, the restlessness in his body made him feel uncomfortable all over, and he urgently needed a cigarette to relieve himself at this moment.He swallowed a few mouthfuls of saliva hard, making the base of his tongue numb, and finally felt better: "Capgras delusional disorder."

Su Qian frowned in confusion.

"The doctor said that there is something wrong with your optic nerve. You can't transmit the correct emotions from what you see. You can't feel familiar when you see familiar people. But other than vision, there is no problem with other functions."

Su Qian nodded lightly: "Why... did I do this?"

Yang Shaojun said: "Someone has tampered with your diet. It's a long story, and it won't be too late to talk about it when we go out. What I want to know now is, why do you believe me?" Su Qian's emotions were so obvious at first. Excited, looking at him with strong hatred in his eyes, he pointed a knife at him once or twice, almost killing him.After seeing his sister and brother, he drove onto the road so excitedly, and finally hit a tree and suffered serious injuries.What kind of psychological struggle did Su Qian go through these days, to be able to ask himself calmly like now—what's wrong with him?

Su Qian chuckled, with a bitter smile: "It's difficult. It took me a long time to try to guess that something is wrong with me, not something wrong with the world."

Yang Shaojun thought, indeed, with Su Qian's usual conceit, how difficult it is to accept this matter.Even if it is not Su Qian, an ordinary person, one day he will see the whole world is fake, which is a major event that can subvert the worldview and values. If he does not have a strong heart, it is not impossible to be forced to collapse completely.

Su Qian said: "You told me in the hospital that day, feel with your heart instead of seeing with your eyes. I know, you are Yang Shaojun, but I can't accept it, I can't believe it. The part where you took me out of the hospital Road, every step I take, I want to shake off your hand thousands of times, but I still go out with you. Since then, I have been thinking every day, whether it is true or not..." He said more and more The slower it is, the later it becomes intermittent, the breathing becomes heavier and heavier, and every word is hard to bite.

"Really...or is it fake...Eldest Sister, Second Sister, Xiaowei, Xiaoyi, Little Boy...Lao Meng, and you...if it's all fake," he stopped, only the old factory building What remained were the distant conversations of the gangsters and the staggered and heavy breathing of the two of them.

"If everything is false, then there is no one I can trust." Then, in this world, I am really the only one left.

Isolated by the whole world, imagining that everyone is showing terrible mocking smiles behind his back, pointing at him, trying to take everything from him, and every move is to harm him.The person he was closest to, the person he loved the most, and the person who never left to accompany him, all disappeared overnight, replaced by a bunch of bandits, and even the air was screaming in his ears, "die, your life There is no hope, your world is all vain, it is impossible for you to return to those people, hand over everything you have, and die!" - such hard work, one day is enough to exhaust all his strength, he But he persisted for a week, and was so tired that he almost vomited blood.He had a hard time those few days, but only because he was Su Qian, he gritted his teeth and endured it by himself, without asking the cause and effect, or telling anyone.

If Yang Shaojun hadn't broken into the hospital that day and told him in his ear, "I'm here to save you", then Su Qian had already planned to give up, give up fighting the world, and hand over everything he had, unwillingly. reduced to ashes.But that day, someone came, hugged him with a warm embrace, told him not to be afraid, he would save him, and asked him to feel the world with his heart.He is grateful for that.

Now, he is willing to try to believe, not for others, but only for himself.Give yourself a little hope, if you don't do this, then the world will leave him with endless despair.

Yang Shaojun didn't say anything, leaned over and pressed his hot lips to his cold eyelids, feeling a little wet there.

Every word Su Qian uttered seemed to take away the air in his lungs and suffocate him.It was extremely strenuous, but he insisted on saying it word by word, like a flood that opened the gate, and now that it has started, he can't wait for it all to flow out: "I only figured out this truth a few days ago, because I was too self-righteous, I thought I had a lot, so people wanted to kill me, plot my property, and set up such a situation. Then, I suddenly realized that I don’t have much wealth. People can’t take much away, but I, It's not worth it for them to do this, to ingratiate themselves, and to care about me under a false name."

Yang Shaojun hated the ropes that bound his hands so much, he wished he could burn them to powder, and then hug the person in front of him into his arms.He tremblingly said: "No, Su Qian, you have nothing less, and much more than others. But these things, no one can take them away, they are yours, and they will always be yours."