Plan carefully

"Why are you so twisted, kid?" I dragged Mu Yu to the room where we slept, and turned around to reassure my sister and the aggrieved aunt, "I'm talking about him, isn't it just to meet someone? What's the big deal? Don't worry!"

Enter the house and close the door.

As soon as I turned around, before I could squeak, Mu Yu pressed the door panel and sealed my mouth.

I comforted him carefully, or rather, he comforted me gently.

"Mu Yu..." I just opened my mouth, and he bit my lip, "Don't say it", his voice was low and soft like a handful of silk.

He just doesn't want me to be sad.

I admit that I don't feel good, and no one will feel good watching their lover go with someone else.But in the final analysis, we have nothing to lose if we just go to show our faces.

"I... I'm fine, and I don't care, um, I don't really care." I looked at Mu Yu and tried to express myself, "Just go, if someone looks at you, you won't lose a piece of meat... Don't talk to you Mom is fighting, and you are also uncomfortable." I have to say, I am a little angry, for Mu Yu's mother, how can she blame Mu Yu so easily and impulsively, and her words are so hurtful.You must know that I have always been reluctant to say even a few important words to him. He is so kind, sensible and motivated, never complains and never cares. What's there to be picky about?

"Mu Yu, just go and deal with it, we'll leave tomorrow." Hurry up and leave, I don't want to see the person I love like a treasure suffer this kind of grievance, but I can't help at all.

He silently took me into his arms and said after a long time, "I can't make you sad."

"I'm not sad," I was awkward at best, "It's not that you have empathized with someone else, the situation forced it, I understand. There is no guarantee that I will encounter embarrassing things someday, and you will understand that I am not in love with you." Makes me feel bad, doesn't it?"

He didn't speak, and resisted silently.

"Okay, let's go, be obedient!" I imitated how he usually pinched me and pinched his face, trying to ease the atmosphere as much as possible, but he was bored for a long time, and finally said angrily, "Anyway I only have you in my heart..."

That's it, that's enough.

Whatever it is, it's easy to say.I was mentally prepared, but the one I introduced seemed to be too aggressive.Mu Yu promised to meet at night, but he brought the girl over in the afternoon.

I watched Mu Yu obediently call that fat woman Third Aunt, and the girl who was following Third Aunt kept her head down, and occasionally secretly raised her head to glance at Mu Yu, revealing a small and delicate face.

People walked into the house, and I was the last one. The girl whispered to me, "This is still Zhou Zhengha!"

How about picking cabbage?I nodded smugly.Even from my point of view, this girl is pretty.Unlike Han Meizi's beauty, her good looks are a little gentle, the kind that can stand the daily necessities.I self-destructively thought, if I hadn't met me, it would be okay for Mu Yu to find such a wife to accompany him for the rest of his life.

The girl was busy serving tea and water to the guests, and the third aunt first chatted with the aunt for a while, and then the topic gradually turned to business.How old is the girl, what is the family doing, whether the conditions are good, what kind of people are the parents, these topics are brought up very skillfully, it not only explains the problem but does not make people embarrassing, it seems that the fat third aunt is still a professional matchmaker.It's just that Mu Yu didn't look at the girl directly from the beginning to the end, let alone start a conversation, it was all the parents who talked lively.I know he didn't pay attention to that beauty because as long as I look for an opportunity to look at him, I will find that he is also looking at me, so my heart, which is comparable to jealousy, is still inexplicably sweet.

The girl pushed his brother, and stuffed a peeled orange into his hand, Mu Yu took it and gave me half of it naturally, I saw the girl rolled her eyes helplessly, and put another orange in Mu Yu's hand, He whispered, "Go and get it to Tian Xue." Mu Yu blinked, dazed.I reminded him, "That's the little girl..." The girl named Tian Xue seemed to have noticed the whispering on our side, and looked over carefully.Mu Yu didn't move while holding the orange, her eyes drooped, expressing her displeasure.I almost looked up to the sky and sighed, big brother, you don't look like you are resisting, you are clearly shy, and you are still the type of Tegou.

But in the end, Mu Yu reluctantly took the oranges and sent them over under his sister's push and shove.Tian Xue hurriedly stood up to pick it up, her face was blushing, quite touching.The third aunt seemed to be waiting for this opportunity, pulled Mu Yu to sit between herself and the girl, turned her head and said to Mu Yu's mother, "Your children are all tall, Mu Yu is 1.8 meters tall, right?"

"Last year it was [-]." The girl snatched the white, for fear that others would call him short.

Mu Yu glanced at her, and threw a piece of orange peel, which fell onto the girl's leg, warning her that it didn't hurt or itch, and the girl smiled and said, "Zhang Lei is as tall as my brother..."

When it comes to Zhang Lei, the girl who just got engaged immediately became the center of the topic.

When Mu Yu and Tian Xue were embarrassed and had nothing to say, Mu Yu's cell phone rang and sent a text message.Mu Yu took it out to take a look, and said to me who tried to hide my presence and ate oranges silently, "Yang Xiaofei asked me when I would go back."

"Oh."

"tomorrow."

"En." I should be vague.

This kind of blind date scene is a torment for me, but I still have to watch it. Although it is a torment, at least it is more reassuring.I try to act like a purely entertaining person, and I don't want people to pay attention to me at all.

A small voice drifted over from Mu Yu's side, "Your mobile phone chain is very pretty."

According to the reputation, my name badge is hanging under Mu Yu's mobile phone, dangling in the orange sunlight, translucent and luminous texture, moist like a drop of water.

Mu Yu looked at the girl, then at me, smiled faintly, pointed at me and said, "He gave it to me."

I couldn't help but rubbed my forehead, and sighed again in my heart, Han Muyu, you must have done it on purpose, what are you doing with such a pretty smile, to seduce a little girl?

Sure enough, Tian Xue was confused by that guy, she probably thought that smile was encouragement, so she reached out to Mu Yu's mobile phone chain.Mu Yu put the phone back into her pocket shamelessly before her hand touched it, and walked back to me and sat down as if nothing had happened.

The little girl smiled, a little embarrassed but not angry, she quietly peeled the orange that Mu Yu gave her.

In the end, the gossip was almost done, and I thought it would be all right, but the third aunt solemnly suggested, "Let the young people talk about it by themselves, we are a bunch of people, and the two children are too embarrassed to speak, or we Change places..."

Then I was invited out of the room together with my aunt and sister for some unknown reason, only Mu Yu and Tian Xue were left in the room, and the third aunt closed the door very graciously after she came out.

I wonder, is it over?What about this one?

It was already dark and the temperature was very low. The wind rolled the withered and yellow leaves and rolled past my feet. I walked along the main road in the village and trembled.In fact, I regret it a bit. I was so irritable just now that I couldn’t stay any longer. The third aunt insisted on introducing one to me. I didn't take it, and now I feel so cold, but I don't want to go back.

The two small shops in the village are on this street, which is the strongest evidence for me to judge that this is the main road.A simple shed was erected at the entrance of the larger shop, and a light bulb was hung from the roof, dimly illuminating the various cargo boxes piled high on the ground.

I thought back to the excuse I told my sister when I came out just now. It seemed that I wanted to buy something, but I forgot what I bought.But as soon as I entered the door, I knew what I needed now. Yes, the grandpas and aunts chatting inside reminded me: smoke, I need smoke.

I'm not addicted to smoking, I smoke very little, but in order to be social, I smoke some of the time.He has never smoked in front of Mu Yu, he does not smoke, it is impossible for him to have the habit of burning money.One time, brother Gao handed me a Chinese root, I thought it was not a waste of smoking, but when I went back and hugged Mu Yu, I was noticed as soon as I put my mouth to his lips, he didn't say no, just said that it felt like a joint joint A fire was set in my son's wheat field.I figured it might be because I didn't like it, and I haven't touched it since then.

I have been struggling with a bunch of problems for a long time, and these problems make me feel like I have a splitting headache: I have a blind date today, I can't let the Han family quarrel, I can't make things difficult for Mu Yu... What about getting married tomorrow?If Mu Yu is unwilling, her mother will use more drastic means?What about mortal threats?What if one day my mother makes trouble with me like this?She has a heart attack!

I think it's crazy to think about it.

The uneasy restlessness in my heart makes me miss the forced relaxation and absent-minded calm when the smoke chokes into the lungs and trachea.

The boss said that the best cigarette in the store is Hongtashan, and I said yes, let's have a pack.The boss is very nice, seeing that I didn't light up, he even gave me a lighter.

There is not much space in the store, there is a small square table in front of the counter, two old men are playing chess, and three aunts next to them are making something. Mu Yu told me that when there is no work in the field, the women in the village I like to do some manual work to earn money.The chess player was very quiet, but the three women chatted enthusiastically.

The room is very warm, and I decided to stay here for a while with only a thin sweater on.

I lit a cigarette, walked behind the chess players, and made a posture of watching the chess without saying a word.

I haven't seen any tricks in chess, but the content of the chats of the aunts next to me caught my attention, about Han Meizi.There is no other entertainment in the village, and people just rely on the parents and the west to grind their mouths.

"...No one's engagement can match the grandeur of the old Han's daughter..."

"That is, who can compare with the Zhang family!"

"Now, the old Han's daughter-in-law is proud. I also went to the Zhang family's banquet. I heard that when Zhang Lei married Chen Xi from their family, she would live with her daughter in the city."

"Can the son-in-law be willing?"

"I'm willing to do it... It's said that Zhang Lei likes their daughter very much... But I have to say, it's the right way to follow my son, and it's always not imposing in a daughter's house."

"That's right. His son works outside and sends money home all the time. He's very handsome, and he doesn't have a date yet. The whole village is trying to introduce him... I think I'll wait for my son to get married. After getting married, the old Han’s daughter-in-law still has to live with her son, no matter how good the girl’s family is, she still has a foreign surname.”

"It's not necessarily...she doesn't deal with her son..."

Hearing this, my heart tightened. Could it be that the rift between the Han family's mother and son has a long history and is well known?As the women deliberately lowered their voices, I couldn't help pricking up my ears.

"Are you talking about the time before she married Lao Han? How many years has it been? Her original partner seems to be some kind of official in the city now."

"It's been so many years and I still hold grudges! If her father hadn't forced her to marry Lao Han, she would be an official's wife now... Lao Han is also a good person, honest and responsible, but she can be an official like others In comparison, that is too far away."

"I heard that when the man left, he asked her to wait for him. I haven't heard from her for several years, she is getting old, and his drunkard father keeps urging her, so she has to be forced to marry Old Han. On the day their son was [-] years old, the man came back and left after saying 'the child is so old' and never came back."

"Yes, I also heard that she didn't take care of the child very much later. She said that she was panicked when she saw it. It was the old Han who took care of it. Later, they had a daughter from their family. Old Han's parents left long ago without grandparents. She I simply threw my son to my grandfather. Her father is a famous drunk, how can he take care of the child, and I don’t know how the child survived. I have a cousin who is from her mother’s village. Once the child was holding a piece of cake, and the cake was covered with white enzymes, and the old man was drunk and insisted that it was sesame seeds..."

"Old Han is afraid of his daughter-in-law, and the daughter-in-law is the one who decides the family. If her father hadn't died, she wouldn't have brought her son back!"

"But his son is also sensible, and he has worked hard since he was a child. Because of Lao Han's accident, he didn't pass the college entrance examination. He went out to earn money with the villagers... Usually he came back very rarely, and he probably knew his mother was unhappy. Advise him!"

"Oh, it's been so many years, I can't let go of anything! But in the first month of this year, I played cards all night. When I came home at five o'clock and passed by their door, I saw his son walking out with a suitcase. The daughter-in-law in the back was crying and pulling, and the old Han’s wife in the yard was still scolding, saying things like 'causing trouble when I go home' and 'every New Year's day can't stop'."

"Really? I think it's okay now, hasn't she been trying to find a wife for his son?"

"If this child marries a daughter-in-law, she will have a family and a career. She has fulfilled her responsibilities as a mother, and she can justifiably let go of her in the future."

"But nowadays, most of the children take their wives and forget their mothers. Look at our third child..."

I withdraw my attention as the subject slides in another direction.

He took a deep puff of the cigarette, and the heat immediately burned his fingers.

I stomped out the cigarette butt and lit another one. My hand trembled slightly, and I struck the lighter several times before it lit.

This kind of folklore is full of water, and the people who say it may not really know it.It's just that it's okay to add branches and leaves, but the outline is always roughly the same. There must be a shadow of something for them to play.But why is it so true that many theories fit perfectly with what I understand?

I always thought that Mu Yu must have had a bad life when he was a child, and it turned out that it was not just bad; I thought he didn’t want to go home to save money, but it turned out that he was out of sight and out of mind; Shadow; I thought that during the Chinese New Year he said that his mother woke up in the middle of the night and called his name because he cared about him, but it turned out to be a reproach... I thought her mother loved him after all, so it turns out that there is so much resentment for so long...

I walked out of the small shop in a trance, and the cold wind blew, and I couldn't help shrinking my neck.

The lights of the small shop couldn't illuminate very far, and when I turned a corner, the street without street lights went dark.The thick black that detours in the empty field of vision suddenly overwhelmed me, except for the red light shining stubbornly on the cigarette butt.

The smoke was so choking that I burst into tears.

My heart hurts, even my stomach hurts after drinking the cool breeze, and my stomach hurts too.

I squatted down against the wall by the side of the road, and I had to slow down.

Dead child, dead child, I read it bitterly, but I kept asking myself, how can I treat him better, so good that I can make up for all his sufferings.

I didn't notice when, a figure had approached in front of me, standing in the darkness, quiet and tall.

I stretched out my hand, and he pulled me up. In a blink of an eye, a warm coat was already draped over his shoulders.I hugged him and put my head on his neck.

His breathing was uneven, and his heart was beating wildly.

"Mu Yu."

"kindness."