[Comprehensive] Die well, lie down every day

It still starts with a real and virtual dream.It is also accompanied by the hardship and pain of rebirth after death.

I can't get used to the heaviness and suffering of being covered in mud, but this time I can almost bear the feeling.It's as if I have accepted the thing of slowly drowning in it but can't die, gradually assimilated by this sludge.

But actually I can feel that I am still different in that.

It's like I don't die like ordinary people, but come back to life. Although it is absurd to come back from the dead, it happened to me, so it seems that there is nothing to panic about.When it happens, it happens naturally.That's just my thought.It's just that during this repetition, I always indulge in an unknown dream before waking up.

When I was around 20 years old, I was wandering through a strange corridor, wanting to go out, but somehow I always ended up at the origin.The scenery along the way seems to have no change, but it seems to have changed a lot, but no matter how I walk, I can't get out of this vicious circle.

"Why do you want to go around in circles?" A childish voice interjected, hindering my steps.

I turned my head to look over, and what I saw at first was a large group of black shadows, in which countless twisted patterns were indulged.But upon closer inspection, it turned out to be a child, with bright eyes only at that age, looked up at me and said, "Why do you want to go around?" Probably because I didn't give an answer before, he asked again again.

"I'm not going around in circles, I just want to go out." After looking at him carefully, I don't want to look at him again, but more than these, I don't want to look at the endless corridor.

The child's father knew who it was at a glance.

The only person I ever knew had brown hair and soft, feminine eyes.

Thinking of that gentleman made me a little irritable.

And no matter what the reality is, and what caused me to be in such a situation, in short, one thing has not changed from before to now.

The things shown in this dream are more or less related to Sawada Tsunayoshi.

Whether it's the original dream or the recent past about Mayu Sasaki, only the figure of this person is imprinted in it.

That alone doesn't make me restless, another reason for my restlessness is a thought that has been on my mind lately.Although it is only my personal guess, it is impossible to become a reality now.It's just a simple assumption...

If Sasaki Mayu did not die, then her future life would be unclear with Sawada Tsunayoshi.The same is true of this dream, just like the dead Sasaki Mayu used some obsession to cast this dream.

It was as if I heard some fetal movement again.

The throb of something that seemed to want to be born, but couldn't.

"...Hey, what is this place?" I squinted my eyes and looked at the child, feeling as if I picked up all the things I didn't care about that were discarded a long time ago.But the next moment I remembered that I actually had nothing to throw away.

The person I like, who has been relying on and wants to spend my whole life together, in the end still abandons the friendship from childhood to adulthood, overthrowing trust easily.

I seemed to hear something vaguely, but there was only a loud noise in my ears.

His heart was beating very fast, as if he was enveloped by something, not only his heart was pinched by that thing, but even his personality seemed to be destroyed and rebuilt by that thing.

"I don't know, I've been here since I was born." The child didn't have any doubts or unwillingness when he said it, and some of it was just to answer my question.

Birth.

The word seemed to cause the thing to become restless, and finally scattered and fled.

I felt my heartbeat slowly return to calm, and at the same time cursed secretly because of something I didn't know what it was.Then he squatted down and looked up at the child. "Then what about the people before you were born, the people who gave birth to you." Regardless of the appearance, this child is actually not calm like a child of this age.This alone is very unlike Sawada Tsunayoshi,——I saw Sawada Tsunayoshi in his youth through the memory of the little girl Sasaki in the previous dream, and he was so timid that he was almost the same as now.

The child tilted his head, stretched his arms, and pointed his finger at me. "Only mother."

My breath was stuck in my throat, and I couldn't get out or get in.

"Wait, you're saying it again,...Say it again clearly?" I felt that my mind was polluted by some kind of black mud just now to hear such unbelievable words.

"The person before I was born, the person who gave birth to me, is only my mother." The child bit the words very clearly, and pointed at me as before. "Just mom and me."

When these words were uttered, it seemed that there was a different kind of loneliness, but this child only took things for granted.

I just felt very sick to my stomach, and even my head hurt this time.

What is this?

I don't quite know what the flames on Sawada Tsunayoshi's forehead are. When I watched the pile of Blu-ray discs before, I took a good note of those flames.

After all, normal people are always in awe and curiosity about things with a sense of mystery, and I am the most curious among those people.

There are seven types of dead air flames, one of which is the indigo flame that has the ability to create hallucinations.

When thinking about this, two different thoughts arise in me.

One is thinking that the corridor that can never be walked out of this place may be related to this flame, and the other is... the irrelevant idea of ​​what color other people's flames should be.

I'm not interested in guessing the people around Tsunayoshi Sawada, and I don't have this curiosity myself.After all, the previous paper said that I can only be mediocre.But what about everyone else?

For example, silver hour, or Lancer.

The two feel completely different to me.I think silver is not suitable for any color of flames, but I think Lancer is suitable for any color of flames.

This is not to say who is good and who is not between them, it's just that Lancer gave me a feeling that he was born to blend in and live anywhere, while Yinshi was the kind of person who was lazy but only focused on his own. A man on his own particular axis.

I was unconsciously stunned by these things, and when I came back to my senses, I saw the child pulling my sleeve.

"What are you doing?" I asked him.

He blinked and just shook his head. "I saw a black mass." He said seriously, which startled me.

I looked back, and there was nothing behind me.But before I turned my head back, there seemed to be something hiding in the corner and grinning at me.

That's how the dream ends.

It seemed to foretell something, but it didn't explain anything clearly, and it just pushed me out of the sewage ditch again.

The first reaction when I opened my eyes was to vomit, and then I touched my neck with my hand.

Well, the head and body are still connected, the neck is not shortened or scarred.

As before, I took the noisy phone next to the bed and turned it off, accidentally checking the date before putting it back.

Friday.The so-called Good Friday.

But something is wrong.

"Hiss...headache." I covered my head and put the matter aside, only caring about the terrible pain in my head.

It is estimated that it is something like aftertaste left over from the previous incident. It would be much better if I rub it with my hands a few times, but I really don't want to think about other things.

The only thing I want to do now is lie down on the bed and sleep for a while.After making up my mind, I threw the phone aside and rolled into a ball hugging the quilt.

Before I fell asleep in a daze, I suddenly thought: Well, I seem to be a little passive and sabotage.

But soon I ignored these things and fell into a deep sleep.

The author has something to say: =J= Girls who feel that the truth at the beginning of this chapter is different from the previous ones, and then changed back in the middle, you don’t have to doubt your feelings, that’s right. [I won't say the reason] [Squatting on the ground]

PS: I really don’t want to start school

So, girls who are willing to insist on squatting with me, hello~【Wave