After the favorability rating was 99, I gave up the tour

"Let me tell a story to Miss Jing."

"Once upon a time there was a man who had nothing and suddenly picked up a sum of gold. He was ecstatic, thinking that he had finally obtained the favor of fate. But the gold said to him, 'You can't own me, because you are not my master.'. "

"'But what does it matter? Since I picked you up, of course you belong to me.' replied the man who had nothing, 'as long as I have you, then I can live the life I dream of, whether it is friends or Good lovers will gather around me because of this. What's more, I am a person who has nothing, and you can't persuade a person who has nothing to give up the only thing he has.'”

"Jin Jin said: 'But having me does not necessarily mean having happiness. Think about it carefully, if your friends and lovers gather around you because of me, then when they face difficulties, you must also have me Selling to help them overcome difficulties, but my share is not too much, and I cannot save two people at the same time. If you choose to save one person, you must choose to kill the other person. Can you really make such a decision? ?'”

"'But if I don't have you, can't I save myself?' cried the man who had nothing."

"Jin Jin said: 'But without me, you wouldn't be troubled, there wouldn't be anyone you need to save, and you wouldn't be 'forced' to make the decision to kill someone important to save another. So, even so, do you want to have me?'”

"Miss Jing, tell me, what choice should that person with nothing have to make?"

The cold wind came from nowhere and spread in this dark room.

This absurd story, at the moment when Osamu Dazai narrated it in a flat tone, gave off a strange atmosphere.

Sunset Jieyue quietly listened to this story.

She didn't ask who the people in the story were, what "gold" represented, and she didn't retort something like "you can use gold to get more gold, and then save two people at the same time when disaster strikes."

Because Higurashi Jieyue understood what Osamu Dazai was asking her:

——When a person possesses something that he longs for but does not belong to him, he will also face choices that he does not have to face.So, if that person knows from the very beginning that he will face a cruel choice, should he go and grab what he longs for but doesn't belong to him?

"should."

Higurashi Jieyue replied like this.

"Whether happiness is true love or money, if the first comers don't hold them tightly, then there is nothing wrong with being picked up by the latecomers. But for a person who has nothing, all he needs to think about is himself... Before others are happy, he must make himself happy; before making others laugh, he must first make himself happy. So even if it is shameful, he should own them. As for the people who need to be saved, the decision of who to save and who to kill is all It is something that needs to be considered after having it. If you have never even owned it, then it would be too ridiculous to think about such a thing.”

Osamu Dazai laughed: "But Ms. Jing still thinks it's shameful to take other people's gold for herself."

Rimu Jieyue remained silent for a while without retorting: "Yes."

"So you approve of that person's behavior, but you would never do it."

"……Yes."

Osamu Dazai smiled: "Sure enough, it's Ms. Kagami's answer..."

Higurashi Yuzuki shook his head, and continued the topic: "Then, did Mr. Dazai make such a choice?"

"Yes." Osamu Dazai nodded slowly, "I did make such a choice...so, I regret it, Miss Jing."

"I regret."

Osamu Dazai was still smiling, but when he stared at her with those gloomy iris eyes, they were like petals slowly withering under the moon: "I made the choice that I think is the most suitable for me and the most correct. , but when I got to the end, I realized that it was not as correct as I thought. And the determination I thought, when the moment of decision came, collapsed in an instant... I once wanted to leave a An important person, but later I found out that if he was forced to stay, he would be in a desperate situation of death, so I let him go... After that, he lived a good life, except that he no longer knew me. "

Sunset and Moon's breathing stagnates.

"Later, for the second time, I wanted to keep another person, but I found that if I keep her, I need her to have nothing, otherwise everything she has will kill me sooner or later, so I let her go... After that, she was fine, except she didn't love me."

"Miss Jing, to 'get' one thing means to 'lose' another thing. But 'losing' is really too painful, it hurts beyond my expectation. I thought it could be overcome, But it’s really hard for me to do it. If this is the end result of a person who has nothing but has a greedy heart, then did he not own the piece of gold that did not belong to him in the first place? If he never got it, yes Isn't it never lost, and there will be no pain?"

Osamu Dazai asked such a question.

Sunset and Moon fell silent.

The cold night wind poured into the dark room, stirring up an empty sound, like the echo of a hollow heart.

Osamu Dazai was still smiling, but Yuki Higurashi lost his smile.

Silence fell on the room.

After a long time, Higurashi Jieyue finally spoke, "Mr. Dazai, do you regret it?"

Osamu Dazai smiled: "I regret it."

"Really?" Higurashi Jieyue asked.

"Really." Dazai replied.

"Really?" Higurashi Jieyue asked for the second time.

"Really." Osamu Dazai replied for the second time.

"Really?" Higurashi Jieyue asked for the third time.

Dazai's smile disappeared.

His voice was a little cold: "If Miss Jing doesn't believe it, why do you still ask me?"

But Higurashi Jieyue showed a gentle smile at this moment.

"It's not that I don't believe Mr. Dazai, but I want to know how far Mr. Dazai has ignored his feelings."

"..."

Higurashi Jieyue said: "Mr. Dazai, the pain of losing after getting it is something that people who have never 'got' can never imagine; so people who have never 'got' can never imagine 'getting' "Happiness. So, for you, Mr. Dazai, is the ignorant self happier, or the self when you 'get it'?"

Osamu Dazai looked at her quietly: "Of course you are happy when you 'get'. But so what?" His voice was low, "The pain when you 'lose' will not be affected by the happiness you once had in memory. If it is relieved, it will be made more sad."

"'If you can avoid the violent ecstasy, then you won't be struck by grief'." Higurashi Yutsuki said, "So Mr. Dazai thinks the same way?"

Dazai didn't answer.

Higurashi Jieyue sighed slightly, stepped forward, and hugged him gently.

This is the first time she has been so close to this frightening but thin and pitiful leader in this office that symbolizes the head of the port mafia, and it is also the first time she has taken the initiative to embrace a non-blood relationship male "sex".

"Miss Mirror..." Osamu Dazai accepted the hug calmly, but his voice was muffled, "Are you trying to comfort me?"

comfort?

Yes, of course it is consolation.

Although based on the relationship between the two of them, even if they are friends, quotation marks must be attached, and the attributive "strange" must be added, so this hug seems very inappropriate... But there is really no other way.

Because at this moment, this seemingly inaccessible leader is really pitiful.

Like a stray cat lying in a corner with nowhere to go in a rainstorm.He was obviously bruised, but he still pretended to be indifferent, neither escaping from this natural disaster, nor asking for help from others, nor even making a sound to show weakness, as if he was thinking "Hold on, hold on a little longer , all this pain will pass away"... But in the end, he made a small, unwilling and aggrieved voice in a quiet corner:

"It really hurts."

He said so, and then fell into the ears of her who happened to pass by.

So Ri Mu Jieyue felt pity for him from the bottom of her heart, and impulsively wanted to comfort him.And hugging—hugging is the fastest and most direct way to give people warmth and hope.

So even if it wasn't appropriate, Higurashi Jieyue wanted to hug him.

"Mr. Dazai." Higurashi Yuyue tried his best to comfort this poor stray cat-like man with a steady tone, "Pain and happiness always go together, and happiness gained is always equal to pain lost. But Mr. Dazai, please Don’t pay too much attention to the pain of loss, because just as you must lose after you get it, you will definitely get it after you lose it! Mr. Dazai, you have to believe that you who have lost twice will definitely usher in the happiness you really want of!"

"Does Miss Jing really think so?" Osamu Dazai's voice seemed a little pitiful at this moment.

Higurashi Jieyue firmly said: "Yes, of course!"

"but……"

"No but!" Higurashi Yuzuki interrupted his words willfully for the first time, "Mr. Dazai, please live well, the happiness you want will definitely wait for you in the future, for sure!"

live on...

Dazai was silent for a while.

"Does Miss Jing want me to live?"

"Of course!"

"But it's going to be painful."

"I know, but be brave."

If you want to obtain happiness, how can you stay in place timidly?

"But if..."

"Oh, don't always say 'but' and 'but' and 'if you say'!" Sunset and Moon almost went crazy.She took two steps back, held the coward's hand like a "worried" mother, and persuaded earnestly: "Mr. Dazai, you should also have a little expectation! Whether it is for the future or the world , please look forward to them a little bit in your heart, be a little braver, okay? Please, please!"

Higurashi Yuzuki shook Dazai Osamu's hand, a rare coquettish response to others.

However, due to the rusty movements and too much shame, her face turned red embarrassingly before she finished the act of coquettishness.

Osamu Dazai looked at her expressionlessly and covered the lower half of his face with his other hand.

"...Are you laughing at me?!" Higurashi Jieyue was about to explode, and asked fiercely.

Osamu Dazai calmly replied: "No."

"Hmph!" Ri Mu Jieyue was furious, even if this guy didn't dare to give an affirmative answer: she was so ashamed because of him!If he dares to say it's funny, she'll beat the guy until he loses his memory!

Hum ╭(╯^╰)╮

The sun sets and the moon ends, and the expression is not angry.

Osamu Dazai was thoughtful: "However, I affirmed another thing just now."

"what?"

Osamu Dazai stared at her quietly, his expression at this moment could be called gentle.

Sun Mu Jieyue was a little absent-minded in these iris-colored pupils.

"That is... Ms. Kagami is indeed a very gentle person." Osamu Dazai said, "Although I think 'cute' is more suitable for Ms. Kagami than gentleness. So—"

Osamu Dazai leaned forward slightly, gently picked up the strands of hair hanging around her ears with cool fingers, and smiled in his eyes, "Miss Jing, you are really a very cute person."

The deep voice, which was always moody and indistinguishable, lost its pretense and coldness at this moment.

He paused and emphasized again: "Really, very cute."

He praised her sincerely, with a rare tenderness, like an epiphyllum that bloomed unexpectedly at night, and became more beautiful and astonishing because of the fleetingness.

Rimu Jieyue stared blankly at him, his mind went blank.

And when she finally regained her senses, a flushed and disbelieving expression appeared on her face at the same time.