Colonel

Brian didn't tell Fang Chi everything, he just said simply: "My name was Ren before, and I was a junior soldier used as an experiment. Reina is Abel's sister, and Abel and I are in the same Research Base."

His tone was so flat, as if he was talking about a very ordinary thing.However, Fang Chi still read the most painful memory in Brian's heart in those empty blue eyes.

As a small soldier for experiments?What kind of pain and tribulation would that go through?Why did it change from Ryan to Brian, why didn't anyone find out that they were alone, why didn't Reina know her brother's friends?

The answer is too simple, so simple that Fang Chi easily guessed what happened that year.The border guard war is no secret in Renesens, and the names of those who provoked war criminals are still being reviled by the world.However, Fang Chi knew that these people were just scapegoats, an excuse for Renesens to reasonably provoke a war, and they were just one-time weapons.

Why did Brian, who survived like this, join this army that he hated so much?Why did Reina, who was supposed to know nothing, become an important figure in a terrorist organization?There were too many questions, but Fang Chi didn't ask them. He just sat quietly beside Brian, and kept sitting like that until the steaming tea gradually became cold, until the sun was setting and the room without lights was pitch black. .Only then did he see clearly that Brian's eyes were glowing with a strange blue light in the dark night.

"May I know what Ryan looks like?" Fang Chi said slowly, he was suddenly very interested in the young man who survived such a cruel experiment, even though he knew that the man was the same as Brian in front of him, but He just wanted to meet.

"Do you think I'll take photos of criminals with me?" Brian's expression could not be seen in the dark night, but his voice was cold.

"But you'll tell me you're a street rat that everyone shouts and beats."

Brian was silent, he didn't know why he told Fang Chi this thing that would ruin him, he just wanted this person to know suddenly.He didn't even explain what happened back then, because he knew Fang Chi would be able to guess the truth back then.

This is a very strange feeling. Brian just trusts this person and wants him to know what kind of person he is and what kind of past he has experienced.

He waited for Fang Chi to ask questions, and was ready to explain everything that happened that year clearly, but Fang Chi didn't ask, he just wanted to know the appearance of the young Ryan, but only this matter Brian didn't want to talk about it, because Ryan is ugly.

If there is anything to be happy about in the subject's career that year, it is this one.He changed from an obscure ugly duckling to a man who was as handsome as a god in the eyes of everyone.When he took a closer look at his new face nine years ago, he had been dazzled by the sun-blond hair. Now Brian is very satisfied with his looks that can fascinate half the women of the country.

As for the ugly duckling in the past, Brian scoffed.

In such a quiet night, Fang Chi saw Brian's uncomfortable expression through his excellent night vision ability, and he smiled relievedly. Sure enough, such an arrogant person can accept his miserable past, but I can't accept very ordinary looks.Fang Chi even thought that if he had the chance, he would definitely go to the orphanage where Ryan grew up. There might be photos there that would allow him to take a look with his own eyes at the said naive, shy, and inferior Ryan, because these adjectives None of them were needed for Brian, so he was eager to meet and laugh at the Colonel's puberty.

"Tell me such an important thing, are you afraid that I will threaten you?"

"Do you know?"

Brian was obviously asking Fang Chi, but his tone clearly said, "You don't know how."

"Aren't you afraid that I'm a Chinese spy?"

"I hope you are."

"Disappointing you, I'm not."

"No, I'm not disappointed, on the contrary, I'm very happy."

"I know."

The incomprehensible conversation warmed up the somewhat cold winter night. Brian stretched out his hand and stroked Fang Chi's face in the dark. He never realized that this person's face was so resolute, yet So thin, he wanted a full kiss.

In fact, he really did this. This time, Fang Chi didn't push him away, letting Brian's slightly pityful kiss be printed on his forehead, the corners of his eyes, his cheeks and his somewhat cold lips.

For the first time, he discovered that kissing could speed up the heartbeat to such an extent, as if the heart was going to jump out of the mouth, beating very powerfully.

The same feeling happened to Brian. He grabbed Fang Chi's hand, put it on his heart, and said in a slightly hoarse voice, "My heart beats very fast."

This time Fang Chi did not hide anything, but said in a very pleasant tone: "Me too."

Although both of them felt a little hot, Brian didn't continue. He put his arms around Fang Chi's waist and asked softly, "Do you know what I want to do?"

In this case, this is a bit too ambiguous.But Fang Chi heard what Brian meant, and he turned his head slightly to see Brian's expression clearly in the dark: "So, what do you want to do to this country and the entire military?"

He was supposed to be the person who hated the military the most, but he rejoined the army after being reborn without hesitation. What was going on in Brian's mind?Fang Chi could only guess that his purpose was not just revenge.

Brian rested his head on Fang Chi's shoulder, as if he couldn't continue speaking without doing this: "I thought about killing everyone and letting the high-ranking military officials know the pain and suffering we have gone through. However, during the border defense battle, I was rescued by border residents after being unconscious for many days, because of them, I was able to survive."

"They didn't know that I was the fuse that caused this war. They thought I was a survivor of the war. On the way to escape, even though it was difficult, they never left me as a wounded burden."

"Then I thought about the original purpose of joining the army. I just wanted to protect these people, and I just didn't want anyone to grow up in an orphanage. At that moment, I suppressed my hatred, no matter how shameless and despicable the military department of this country is. , they can’t just die like this. Because if the top military officials are assassinated like this, Renesens will be divided by the surrounding countries. At that time, how many people will die in the war? People without a country will live What kind of life?"

"So I gave up my revenge and I chose to continue to serve this country. Only this time, I won't be as stupid as before."

"Innocence, conscience, dignity, I gave up all these things, because if you want to become a high-ranking official, you don't need these things. Now I am the same as the officer who sent us to the enemy's barracks, You can use your own subordinates unconsciously, and you can treat living people as abandoned children."

This was the first and last time in Brian's life that the other party expressed his heart. His fingers holding his palm were so cold, as if they were dead.At this moment, Fang Chi realized how much of the best things in life Brian had given up in order to get to where he is today. An upright and kind-hearted young man, in order to achieve his goal, let go of all the feelings in his heart and forced himself to go Working with others, forcing himself to regard human life as worthless, he forced himself to bury himself deeply in the mud.

But Brian, have you really done it?Why develop that perverted training method, isn't it just to increase the survival rate of soldiers on the battlefield by even [-]%?Why do you force yourself not to treat soldiers as human beings? Isn't it because you are afraid that when you see their names appearing on the list of dead soldiers in the future, you will not be able to bear the severe pain?Why keep your head high and wait for others to look up, isn't it just to prevent others from seeing your weakness?

Out of the mud but not stained, clean ripples but not demon.But how can you be spotless in the mud, where is there such a noble person.Brian is not noble, he made himself dirty, with bloody hands, but Fang Chi felt that Brian, who was so full of dust, was cleaner than those so-called gentlemen who claimed to be kind and did not associate with others. Too much, too much to be beautiful.

For the first time, Fang Chi felt that Brian was beautiful, not because of his handsome appearance after drastic changes, but because of the strong, brave, and firm belief that still existed in his bones. Ryan's boy.

"If one day you really become an admiral, become a president, and hold great power, what do you really want to do?" In fact, Fang Chi already knew the answer, but he still asked, he wanted to hear Bu Ryan said it himself.

"I'm going to change the military system. The lower ranks shouldn't be treated that way, and Renesens doesn't need this method to become powerful."

What a simple goal, and what a difficult dream to realize, maybe he can't achieve it in his whole life, but he still chooses such a road full of thorns, even if he is stabbed and scarred, he will not turn back.

"Do you know who the leader of Avenger is?" Fang Chi suddenly changed the subject, and changed to discussing such an unpleasant matter.

Brian's eyes flickered, and he understood Fang Chi's intentions: "Well, there were two or three suspects at first, but since Reina appeared, it could only be him."

"Being able to find out what happened back then, with excellent leadership and combat capabilities, and being able to escape from such a base to find Reina, it shouldn't be possible for him to be the same subject as you, right?"

Sure enough, he guessed it again, Brian was suddenly relieved, and the emotions affected by Lena eased. He nodded in the dark: "Well, it's a deserter. In the No. [-] experimental base, with Abel The officer with the best relationship, Warrant Officer Kewell. After the outbreak of the Border Guard War, he detonated the heavy metal weapon being developed in the base, and defected after committing a felony. He should have taken Lena away as soon as he left the base, and absorbed the opponents Those who have grievances in the military are preparing for the establishment of an organization."

Fang Chi sighed softly, the same starting point, the same encounter, but they chose different paths.Maybe revenge is really happy, and you can really vent your inner anger, but doing so is just venting anger, and it doesn't make any sense.

"How does it feel to use an old friend as a springboard for superiors?"

"It's not good, it may not be successful, and I'm not a good person." Brian said a little self-deprecatingly, he had always ridiculed others, and this was the first time he spoke of himself in such a tone.

Do you hate yourself?Fang Chi's eyes flickered, and he said softly to Brian, "Did you know that both the sky and the sea are blue, the broadest color in the world."

Brian froze for a moment, was this comforting him?He was actually comforted?Does he need comfort from others?But he was very happy, the haze in his heart was swept away, and hearty laughter echoed in the dark room: "Hahaha! If you say it this way, the universe is black, and black is the widest color in the world."

Fang Chi blinked his black eyes. Is this... a compliment?I really can't hear any sincerity.

Brian gently unbuttoned Fang Chi's clothes, feeling that his body was gradually exposed to the air, his palms touched the warm body, and his lips were printed on the broad chest.

"I dragged you into the water."

"Really? I just happen to be free."

Fang Chi didn't say "I'll be with you" or "I'll help you", he just jokingly said "I just happen to be free", but Brian could hear the deep meaning in the joking words. The hidden meaning, this person, will always be with him.From now on, he was no longer the only one who was trapped in the mud.

Brian's hand suddenly reached into Fang Chi's black hair, he suddenly wanted to stroke the black hair like the night sky, and suddenly wanted to take a look at those deep pupils.

He has always known that this oriental man has his own pain, wears his own mask, and is a person with a dual personality.

He also knew that this person was black.Whether it is the seemingly gentle but ruthless indifferent Hei in front of people, or the irritable and wild Hei deep in his heart, they are the true face of this person.

However, it is this kind of blackness that truly tolerates his strange blue, and completely accepts the filth and darkness in his heart.

Suddenly, I really want to hug him, I really want to kiss him, and use this way to express the unspeakable touch.

In this silent night, two lonely people embrace tightly to dispel the chill of deep winter.

If winter comes, can spring be far behind?