Gold Class Fighter

From the depths of his throat, Fang Yu let out a hoarse and unbearable call...

Yang Lei lost all his thoughts and was hugged in Fang Yu's arms, his mind went blank.

He didn't move, Fang Yu's hot breath was in his ears.

Fang Yu's breath surrounds him, the cheeks that are close to him, the burning temperature, and the pulsation of two people...

In this bathroom, they used to be hostile and fought against each other; in this cubicle, they once hugged each other closely because of the short separation, and their passion was unstoppable... These vague memories, with the passage of time, freeze in what they don't want to remember. The place where it started, but at this moment, it flooded into Yang Lei's mind...

Fang Yu tightened his arms.He was very strong, as if he wanted to embed Yang Lei into his body...Yang Lei didn't move, he heard his own heartbeat, and Fang Yu's too, in each other's chest, the rhythm was out of order...

Fang Yu moved slowly.Fang Yu rubbed Yang Lei's neck, Yang Lei felt the scorching breath on his neck, and then, something fell on his neck, beside his ears, the hot and humid touch, accompanied by deep and depressed breathing, along the path of his chin Lines, sucking his face, with untouchable care, with emotion out of control due to alcohol, depressed...

That touch suddenly burned Yang Lei...

"...!"

Yang Lei pushed Fang Yu away.

Fang Yu took several steps back before standing still.

"...What are you doing?"

Yang Lei looked at Fang Yu and asked.

"..."

Fang Yu's drunken eyes became a little sober.

"What do you mean?"

Yang Lei asked.

Fang Yu wiped his face vigorously.

"……sorry……"

Fang Yu's voice sank.

"……I am drunk……"

"Don't fucking fool me!!"

Yang Lei yelled violently!

His eyes were red, and he stared at Fang Yu tightly. His chest heaved violently, unable to suppress the surging emotions in his chest, and there was pain and unbearable anguish in his eyes!

He has been holding back, holding back, from Fangyu lying alone on the bed in the darkness of the room on the eighth floor on the night of the New Year's Eve, from Fangyu taking out the hot water wrapped in his coat with his hands that were purple with cold. Cai, from Fang Yu's drunk appearance that night, Fang Yu's expression when the group of people coaxed him and Fang Mei...

He has been holding back in his heart, forcing himself to endure and suppress it, but now he can no longer restrain it, hitting his heart like a wave, making him so suffocated that he can't breathe!

"... want to see me now, call me? Where have you been these three years?... At the beginning, you said that we were wrong! Okay, I'll let you go...I'll let you go! But what are you doing now? Go and stay in that room alone! Drank yourself like this!... What do you make me think?...Fang Yu, what the hell are you doing? What do you think of me??..."

These words that weighed on Yang Lei's heart like a stone and blocked him like a stone, these words that made him feel heartbroken, he is not a fool, he looked at Fang Yu's eyes, saw Fang Yu's silence, looked at Fang Yu's expressions and actions, could he still Don't understand? ?But the more he understood, the more he couldn't bear it, and the more he felt the burning oppression and pain.

What the hell is that?What the hell is this? ?

"...don't make me think you still have feelings for me!"

Yang Lei broke out these words with difficulty, his voice changed its pitch...

Listening to Yang Lei's questioning, Fang Yu's heart suddenly ached...

There were footsteps outside, someone came to the bathroom and opened the door.

Yang Lei turned around and walked out.He didn't go back to the private room, walked straight out of the hotel gate, and rushed into the green park outside the hotel.The icy wind brushed against his face, and he wanted to let the cold air outside calm his mind.

The sound of footsteps chased after him, and Fang Yu stretched out his hand and pulled him hard.

"...I don't want to do anything!...I just want to see you!..."

Fang Yu was in so much pain that he couldn't suppress it...

"Why did I give up in the first place!"

Yang Lei threw him away, shouting from the depths of his throat, looking at Fang Yu with blurred eyes.

"...It's for you to live well!!... But look at what you look like now?!..."

On the night of New Year's Eve, he saw Fang Yu alone in the empty room on the eighth floor, without the lights and air conditioner turned on, and without a warm meal in the cold and dark house, how did he feel? ?How did Yang Lei feel when he saw Fang Yu's hand that was frozen and purple when he came back from getting vegetables, and Fang Yu's cropped cut, dark black clothes, and lonely figure as if he had just come out of a prison? ?

Yang Lei kept telling himself that he had calmed down.From the time Fang Yu came back, from the time he saw Fang Yu in the taxi on the snowy ground, Yang Lei told himself that, he thought so, and he did the same.No one can keep a passion forever, the tempering of reality and time can make any unforgettable feelings pass, Yang Lei thought he had done it, he must do it.But a person can't lie to himself, only he knows what he feels in his heart, some things can be passed, but some things don't exist if you don't touch them!

He had already made up his mind to maintain this calmness and become buddies with Fang Yu in the future, but looking at Fang Yu like this, all of Yang Lei's peace was shattered.His heart was clenched together, watching Fang Yu drunk himself cup by cup, Fang Yu's pale face and red eyes, Yang Lei's heart ached like a blunt knife, and he couldn't even breathe. Seeing the pain, the pain was unbearable for him! !

When he quit back then, it wasn't for today's result!

"...I went to Guangdong to look for you. You didn't see me, and you didn't want to make me feel uncomfortable in person. I don't blame you!... You asked them to give me a letter, and your letter said that you only figured it out in those four years, we two You should go the normal way, you say you have someone in your heart and want to have a family to live a normal life!... I accept all of these!"

Three years ago, when he went to Guangdong to find Fang Yu, he only saw Yingzi and those two veteran friends, and only saw the letter Fang Yu left for him.After Yang Lei read every word, it doesn't make much sense whether he sees Fang Yu or not.

"In the past three years, I have kept telling myself that you are doing well, better than being with me! ... What I can't give you, others can give you! Only in this way can I give myself a reason not to hurt you anymore! ...But you are like this now, so what was it at the beginning? ... What's the point of letting you go?!"

Fang Yu's life is not good, his brows and eyes are not bright and happy, looking at Fang Yu in front of him, Yang Lei feels that he has completely lost meaning in the past few years, he feels distressed, heartbroken, if it is today's result, then he What is giving up, what is it? ?

"……sorry……"

Fang Yu's voice was extremely hoarse...

"Do I want to hear sorry?!"

Yang Lei was in pain.

"I want you!"

"...I'm fine!"

Fang Yu said suddenly, Fang Yu's expression was blurred in the darkness...

"Very good?! Are you fucking good like this?!"

Three years later, Yang Lei is no longer a young man who feeds on feelings. He understands that there are too many things in life, not just feelings, and too many ways to love, not just having each other.Now he only hopes that the one he loves can live a good and happy life, live a bright and open life under the sun, and be surrounded by love and blessings. He only hopes that in a few decades, they will all enter their lives. At the final stage, you can still say to each other without hesitation: One word, my life, you take it.

"...We can't go back anymore! Fang Yu!..."

Yang Lei said, word by word...

"...If you choose the way, go back and walk to the end!...Don't let me look down on you!..."

Standing in the freezing cold air of a winter night, Fang Yu looked like a statue...

"What's the matter, you?"

Fang Mei came out.Seeing that Yang Lei and Fang Yu didn't come back for a long time, she was worried and went out to find someone.

Yang Lei wiped his face vigorously and turned his body away.

"...he drank too much. You call a taxi and take him back."

Yang Lei said, turned and left.

"Yang Lei!"

Fang Mei called him, but Yang Lei strode away without turning his head...

Although Fang Mei didn't hear what they were talking about, she guessed about it.

At the wine table, she could see everything.Fang Mei looked at Fang Yu standing in the darkness, Fang Mei wanted to say something, but she didn't know how to say it.

Yang Lei told her not to let Fang Yu know that she knew about the two of them, for fear that Fang Yu would feel uncomfortable.

Looking at Fang Yu, Fang Mei could only sigh.Fang Yu must be responsible to a woman and a family.Even if Yang Lei still has old feelings, what can he do?Even if Fang Yu really separated from that woman and only came back to look for Yang Lei, that would be too boring, even Fang Mei would find it boring.

"……Let's go back."

Fang Yu said to Fang Mei.In the cold night wind, Fang Yu had already sobered up.

"Where do you live now? I'll call a car for you."

Seeing Fang Yu's expression, Fang Mei felt inexplicably uncomfortable.

"I am fine."

Fang Yu paused and looked at Fang Mei.

"I may not be able to come to the wedding. Bless you."

"……thanks."

Fang Mei was also sad.

Fang Yu raised his hand, stopped a car, and opened the door.

He didn't go in, just stood there, silent for a moment, then turned around.

"Be nice to him."

Fang Yu said, lowered his head, and closed the car door...

Yang Lei went back to the house on the eighth floor and locked himself there all night to smoke.

Yang Lei thought he was mature, but when he met Fang Yu, he knew that he had no progress at all.He was still the same as in the past, when he encountered Fang Yu, he couldn't calm down and wake up at all, his mind went blank and he lost the ability to think.

He didn't know whether to tell Fang Yu those words, or force him to tell himself.

If time could be turned back, he would like to go back to the bright billiards room, when that young man in a white shirt slapped a brick on his forehead. The choices they have made have to face the responsibilities, they can talk about love freely, and they can do whatever they want without any scruples...

If there is this time, they have to choose again, choose a truly correct path, instead of paying the price, but bringing harm to the person they love the most...

Yang Lei didn't want Fang Yu to regret the path he chose.If you regret it, you will suffer. This kind of pain will be buried deep in Fang Yu's heart and fermented, and it will deeply torture Fang Yu.Yang Lei knew what it was like, he had regretted it before, he had deeply regretted that seven years ago he chose to leave Fangyu and went to the military academy, he did not always guard Fangyu's side, he even He regretted persuading Fang Yu to turn himself in, which caused them to be separated all these years. He had thought countless times that if he had taken Fang Yu to go far away, even if he had to hide for the rest of his life and could not live in the sun, It's far more enjoyable and worthwhile than it is now...

This kind of regret wraps him tightly like thorny vines. Reason can force him to mature, but emotion makes him suffer.He didn't want to see Fang Yu bear such moral and responsibility, but endure such suffering emotionally.In Fang Yu's heart, the responsibility is heavier than the sky. Fang Yu is such a person, but the more he is like this, the more he hurts himself!

The pain, grievances, and hurts that have been simmering in his heart for the past few years rushed to his mind, but the appearance of Fang Yu in front of him made his heart ache even more!

Yang Lei knew in his heart that he was angry with Fang Yu, but he was even more angry with himself!

At the beginning, he told himself that it was good for Fang Yu, but is Fang Yu really good?In the past three years, Fang Yu has not heard from him. Yang Lei always thought that Fang Yu was deliberately avoiding him. He kept telling himself that Fang Yu would live better than being by his side.He kept forcing himself not to disturb his life, not to ask where he was and what he was doing.But in the past three years, what did Fang Yu go through and why did he become like this? He has never learned about the real situation, and now he has even more doubts!

Looking at Fang Yu's current state, Yang Lei's heartache, remorse, self-blame, all his pain, all the complicated emotions that he didn't know how to express, burst out like a ball of fire in the intense alcohol rush, burning himself , Also burned the house.

Yang Lei was smoking alone.He smoked for a long time in the smoke and took out his mobile phone.

"Yang Lei, you brat, what's the matter so late?"

The loud voices of political cadres came through the microphone.

"Old Lu, I have a question. After the annual value is over, I want to take a long vacation. The longer the better, please help me to see how many days I can take."

"Ask for leave just after the new year? Why, marriage leave?"

Lao Lu knew that Yang Lei was going to get married.

"No. Go south."

Yang Lei extinguished the cigarette butt and said...

The next day, Yang Lei called Fang Yu.

The piece of paper with the room number given to him by the orderly, Yang Lei kept it on the desk without touching it, but he remembered the number.

"...Yesterday, I was too serious, so don't take it to heart."

Yang Lei fell silent into the microphone and said.

"You know, I get confused when I'm in a hurry. I didn't mean to run on you. It's too much."

Yang Lei said.

"I know."

Fang Yu said.Fang Yu's phone is very noisy.

"Where are you?"

Yang Lei asked.

"At a friend's place. Do him a favor."

Fang Yu lives with a friend in Jianghai.

Yang Lei held up his mobile phone and walked to the balcony.He looked at the high-rise buildings outside, and Jiang Hai had changed from the past.

"I haven't asked you how you have lived in the past few years. I know you don't want to mention it, and if you want to mention it, you won't hold back. If you really don't want to talk about it, I won't ask you too much, but there is one sentence, don't You can carry it alone. You can't carry it, and you can't carry it..."

Yang Lei said, controlling the voice...

Fang Yu was on the phone and didn't answer...

"What's your plan?"

Yang Lei guessed that Fang Yu was leaving.

"Go back and find some connections and do some business."

Fang Yu paused and answered.

Yang Lei was also silent for a moment.

"If you really want to do business, come back to Jianghai."

Yang Lei said.

"Don't worry about me, I can tell the difference between the two."

"Business needs manpower. Here, there are many people who can help you. Don't bother to fight outside. When you come back, I will support you. Outside, no one really helps you."

Yang Lei brushed off the long cigarette butt.

"There was something last night, I didn't have time to talk about it. I have a friend who set up a company to manage and find a partner. I have restrictions in the army, but it didn't work out. I know about the company and the project is good. If you go back I don't have any better ideas for the time being, why don't you just stay and have a look, if it works, join a partner and buy a stock..."

Lei Yang said...

Yang Lei said he was helping his friend, but Fang Yu knew it in his heart.

When Fang Yu returned to Jianghai this time, he came back quietly, and he didn't see any old brothers.

He lives in a remote place now, and lived with a friend in the past.This friend is not from the original path, and has no intersection with that circle.After Fang Yu arrived in Jianghai, he lived with him, which was far away from the urban area. Except for the two days when he helped drive the rental at night, Fang Yu rarely showed up in the urban area.

But now, the news of Fang Yu's return quickly spread throughout Jiang Hai.

Guo Zinian saw Fang Yu on the evening of his thirtieth night, and he said after returning home that there are circles in the world, and any news spreads quickly, and it is difficult for this kind of news to spread slowly.Fang Yu had many brothers back then, and there were also many younger brothers. Although some of them, like Erhei, had reinvented themselves and walked the right path, doing well, there were still many people who were still at the bottom and were not doing well.These little bastards on the road, they have no diplomas and no way out, they rely on their elder brother to be on the mountain, but now the world has changed, the elder brother is not used to be next to him, but to make a confession, and it is common to be in a situation like Guo Zi.These people recalled how glorious it was to be with Luo Jiu Fangyu in the past, and they had long hoped that someone who would be loyal and righteous would lead them to make a name for themselves again, but now that they heard that Fang Yu was back, they couldn't sit still.

As for Fang Yu's brothers, none of them had heard of Fang Yu in the past few years, and they were shocked when they heard that Fang Yu had returned.

"Brother Yu!!"

As soon as Fang Yu left his residence, he was hugged fiercely.