Gold Class Fighter

"Don't think that you are a bastard and you don't take your own life!"

Yang Lei looked at Fang Yu in surprise.

After Fang Yu broke out with this sentence, he fell silent again.He smoked another cigarette, without saying a word, staring at the ground, Yang Lei didn't know what he was thinking.

After a long time, Fang Yu spoke.

"When Dumb left, I told myself that I never want to see my brother disappear in front of me again in this life."

Fang Yu's gaze focused on an unknown point.

"Today in the hospital, I thought I was going to go through it all over again."

Fang Yu's voice seemed to come from far away.

Yang Lei looked at him silently.

But Fang Yu stopped talking and was lost in thought. The cigarette butt in his hand became very long and fell to the floor. Fang Yu didn't respond either.

"...I don't want to do it again."

Fang Yu didn't know whether to tell Yang Lei or himself.

"I'll get some more soup."

Fang Yu put out his cigarette, stood up, and walked into the kitchen.

Fang Yu stopped after taking two steps, and Yang Lei hugged him from behind.

"I'm different from Dumb."

Yang Lei said.

"He's gone, but I'm here. If you think highly of me, I'll live in front of you for Dumb's sake, until you get tired of seeing him."

For Yang Lei, these words are a heartfelt confession.

He knew that Fang Yu regarded him as a brother, a brother like Duan Hu.Fang Yu was afraid of seeing his brother disappear in front of his eyes again, just like the big tiger back then.

But to him, Fang Yu is no longer a brother.

Yang Lei didn't even think about why he took a few steps up and hugged Fang Yu, he had already hugged him.When he saw Fang Yu's lonely back turning around, he felt sore and uncomfortable.

He won't let him go through the pain of losing his brother again.That kind of experience, once is enough.

"Why take his share, Dumb has been gone for more than three years, and now I worry about you!"

Fang Yu said.Dahu is his brother, and Yang Lei is also his brother, but Dahu is Dahu, Yang Lei is Yang Lei, these two people are not the same at all.

He wanted Yang Lei to know that he didn't worry about him because he thought of Dahu.He was really scared today. When he saw the horrific motorcycle and the blood on the ground, Fang Yu felt a sense of fear that he hadn't felt in many years.Outside that operating room door, his mind went blank.The time his cousin Chuanzi was stabbed seriously and his life was hanging by a thread, he was still able to deal with it calmly. On the day Duhu was shot, he was also mentally prepared. He had never experienced such a moment of complete blankness.

"Good people don't live long, but evils last for thousands of years. I am not a good person, but a evil, so don't worry, I have a long life."

Yang Lei said, still hugging Fang Yu.

"Damn, you also know it's a disaster!" Fang Yu was amused, turned around and said with a smile.

Yang Lei likes to cling to people, hugging and kissing people, Fang Yu has already understood it, and he is a little numb.He thought maybe Yang Lei was just used to this and let him hold her.

"You are just like me a few years ago, reckless and troublesome. I'm really afraid that something will happen to you. "

In Fang Yu's eyes, Yang Lei is often childish.Fang Yu said heartily.

"do not worry."

Yang Lei only said three words.

Yang Lei told Fang Yu that the matter of going to other places was over, and he would not leave.He told Fang Yu that he wanted to stay at night.

"I don't want to go back, and no one cares about me when I go back." Yang Lei said.

Yang Lei seldom mentioned his home to Fang Yu, and when he mentioned it occasionally, his tone was disgusted.Fang Yu felt that Yang Lei didn't like that family very much.

"Stay, who won't let you live!" Fang Yu moved out the quilt to Yang Lei. Fang Yu was really happy to hear that Yang Lei would not go out of town.

The two lay on the same bed, and after this incident, the weird embarrassment before was also forgotten.But after chatting for a while, Yang Lei remembered what happened last night.

The same place, the same bed, something happened after all.

"...Fang Yu, let me ask you something."

"You ask."

"...Did you really feel bad that night?" Yang Lei went all out.He has been stuck in his heart for a long time.

"..." Fang Yu knew what he was asking, so he didn't say anything.

"...I feel pretty good." Yang Lei said.

"Okay." Fang Yu didn't want to mention this.

Yang Lei turned over and stood up, looking at Fang Yu.

"Tell the truth, is it comfortable or irritating?" He wanted Fang Yu to tell the truth.

"...It's not that fun!" Fang Yu frowned.

"Why don't you play like that? Don't be old-fashioned. People in foreign countries are now emphasizing sexual liberation. Do you know what sexual liberation is? It's enough to be comfortable and exciting. Although we are both men, we can also play, isn't it? Seriously, this is at most... helping each other."

Yang Lei has been thinking about this set of rhetoric for a long time. He wants to brainwash Fang Yu and let him know that it is normal for two men to behave like this.

"You've been thinking about something all day long." Fang Yu also remembered the scene of that day, with an unnatural expression.

"They're all men, don't pretend, tell me, how comfortable are you that night?"

Yang Lei told Fang Yu.

"...It's not bad." Fang Yu didn't know if Yang Lei was telling the truth, or if he was telling the truth.

From the perspective of male physiology, the stimulation brought to Fang Yu that night was strong.He admits.

"But you... don't think it's strange!" Fang Yu looked at Yang Lei.

"You feel sick?" Yang Lei felt a little heavy when he asked this question.

"...I just feel weird. I can't tell." Fang Yu's voice also sank.

Yang Lei was silent for a while, he knew that Fang Yu was different from him.Fang Yu didn't have his thoughts.Fang Yu only regards him as a brother.But he is different. On the night of his birthday, when Fang Yu played the song "Childhood" on the stage in troubled times, when he knew that he was the person playing the piano opposite the playground of the Experimental Middle School, Fang Yu When he shouted "Happy Birthday" with a smile and threw flowers into Yang Lei's arms, Yang Lei understood clearly.Like a flash of lightning illuminating his own heart, he could see clearly, clearly.

He likes Fang Yu.

Not the way you like guys, not even the way you like women.

He didn't know what kind it was.He only knows that he likes Fang Yu, he wants to hug him, kiss him, dream about things with him, and stay by Fang Yu's side forever...

"I've never done it with others, and I don't want to do it with others. Just thinking about it makes me sick." Yang Lei said in a calm voice.

"But I can just be with you. You have a different weight in my heart. I regard you as the closest person. Apart from you, I can't play with other brothers like this." Yang Lei wanted to express his true feelings.He felt aggrieved.

"If you feel disgusted, just pretend that night never happened. We will still be brothers in the future. I don't want to embarrass everyone because of this."

After Yang Lei finished speaking, he stopped talking.

He kept his eyes open, looking at the ceiling, he couldn't hear the voices of the room next to him, he could only feel his chest heaving and heaving with annoyance, frustration, and sadness.

If Fang Yu said something disgusting today, Yang Lei would get up and leave.He could bear Fang Yu not accepting him, but he couldn't bear Fang Yu belittling him and loathing him.That was worse than dying.

"Did I say disgusting?"

Fang Yu said.

Yang Lei turned his head to look at Fang Yu.

"...Okay, I can't talk to you." Fang Yu said in a contradictory tone.

Yang Lei jumped up as if he had been beaten with chicken blood.He could hear the looseness in Fang Yu's tone.

"...Are you willing to play with me?"

"Don't go too far!" Fang Yu suppressed his voice. "If it's really hot, go find Pansy!"

Yang Lei understood that Fang Yu was making concessions.He had a feeling of ecstasy.

"Okay! I really want to find Pansy!"

Yang Lei said happily.He didn't care whether it was because Fang Yu couldn't bear to make a concession, or whether Fang Yu's physical instinct as a man couldn't resist the temptation of that night's intense stimulation.No matter which one, Yang Lei knew that Fang Yu had given in.

Yang Lei found the best opportunity.He knew that Fang Yu would be soft-hearted towards him this night.

Because of the car accident, he realized that his weight in Fang Yu's heart was more important than he imagined.

In fact, for men in their twenties, it is the time when they are most irresistible to sex. The most they talk about with their brothers are dirty jokes, pornographic things, and sex. This is the same in any age.

Later facts proved that many adolescent boys had had same-sex sexual experiences, whether it was mutual masturbation or even oral sex, but most of them were not homosexuals, but men with normal sexual orientation.This can only be said to be a lustful impulse.And afterwards, at most, they felt that playing with their companions was absurd, and it was not a big deal.

Of course, back then, it was impossible to popularize this kind of thing online or find someone to share and consult, but it was definitely not a big deal. What men would do between men would always exceed the imagination of women.This is man.

Therefore, Fang Yu didn't think it was a big deal at the time.

Of course, he didn't know at the time that these things changed his life.

That's what he said, but Yang Lei didn't do anything that night. After all, unlike the stimulation of porn that night, Fang Yu didn't have that impulse, so he couldn't force it.

Yang Lei is not in a hurry, he is patient and can wait for the opportunity.