I thought I was a vampire, my boyfriend said no

32.

"When I was adopted by my father, I was just one month old. Because of congenital cerebral palsy and heart disease, I was abandoned in the snow by my biological parents. It was the eve of the Chinese New Year. My adoptive father passed by a garbage dump buried in heavy snow and heard the baby crying. He said that my crying was very weak at that time, and it seemed that I would not live long..." Time paused, and after thinking about it, he continued, "He is an old vampire, and he has been with vampires all his life. Fighting instinctively, I hadn’t eaten for three days and three nights when I was picked up..."

Mao Xiaoluo opened her mouth in a daze when she heard this.

"He said he wanted to take me home to eat, anyway, I am a child with cerebral palsy, no one wants me, and I won't live long in the future." There was no sadness on Shi Shi's face, as if he was telling someone else's story, seeing Mao Xiaoluo With a smile on his face, he comforted, "Don't be so sad, it's nothing, I have almost no memory of what happened before I was eight years old, let alone when I was still in my swaddling baby just after the full moon."

Mao Xiaoluo sighed and shook his head, motioning for him to continue talking.

"But after he took me home, he didn't eat it, but raised it. Later, he joked with me that he would slaughter me after I was fattened up. In fact, he treated me very well. Because of my status as a vampire, it is inconvenient to hire a nanny at home. Feed, feed, drink, shit, pee, he does almost everything by himself, you know, taking care of children with cerebral palsy is a very boring and highly repetitive job, and incontinence is common, he said, I will give him weaning The blood plan has provided a lot of help, and I can only smell the stinky smell of excrement and urine in my nose every day, and I don’t even remember what human blood smells like.” Time has a smile on his face, showing a look of reminiscence, “ He would push me out to bask in the sun when the sun was shining, and he would wear a cloak to hide in the shadows. He said, anyway, the lifespan of a vampire is infinite, so if you can’t keep me, let me die innocently in the sun. Yes." He paused here for a long time, took a breath before continuing, "I didn't expect this day to come very early. When I was eight years old, I almost passed away because of a heart attack. It was at that time that my father turned me into a Vampire, he told me later that he regretted his impulsiveness at that time. Sometimes I also think about this question, should I live like this, or should I stand in the sun and die like he said. "

Mao Xiaoluo tightened her grip on the chopsticks, and whispered, "Don't think like that..."

Time heard it, held his hand across the table, patted it lightly, and said, "Don't be afraid, am I living a good life?"

Mao Xiaoluo dropped his chopsticks and grabbed his hand instead, as if he wanted to hold on to him for the rest of his life.

"What happened later? Why did your father leave?"

"One morning, it disappeared in the sun." Time said in a very soft voice, "He told me a long time ago that he wanted to feel the warmth of the sun on his body again..."

Mao Xiaoluo didn't answer for a long time after listening, and asked for a while, "Why doesn't he indulge himself once? Even once, no one will know."

"Some people live to embarrass themselves, and some people live to embarrass others." The smile on Shi Shi's face was a bit bitter, "When he was young, he was engaged in biological research. The first batch of children who studied abroad in the Qing Dynasty returned from their studies. I got interstitial pneumonia on the ship, and the disease has not been cured until now, let alone at that time. When I was first embraced, I still wanted to serve the country. I suffered a lot and suffered a lot, but my strength of character has never been strong. To be obliterated, he said, cannibalism is something that animals can only do, he is a human being, he does not want to be a ghost..."

33.

Mao Xiaoluo was frightened by the loneliness of living towards death when Shi Shi recalled his late father.

He sat at the dining table in a daze for a long time, looked at the time, then at the hands they held together, and said for a while, "Time, I may not be able to fully understand your pain, but if you need warmth, the sun doesn't If there is a way for you, I can give it to you.”

"When my mother first entered the prison, I also thought about why people should live. Later, when I moved to my grandma's house, my relationship with her was not harmonious. Trouble, I also thought about death... But I still want to wait and see, wait and see if there is anyone or something worth living in this world..." He looked up at him, "Aren't I just waiting now? Someone It is said that the meaning of life is not in others, but in oneself, but..." He smiled with a little embarrassment, "It may be a little sour to say it..."

Time followed his smile and asked, "How sour?"

"It was only when you appeared that I realized that life had meaning." Mao Xiaoluo lowered her eyes and finished speaking with red ears.

Time's eyelashes trembled a few times, to cover up the surging emotion in his heart, he smiled and tightened the hand that was held with Mao Xiaoluo.

Mao Xiaoluo continued: "If I can see you every morning, then every day is worth looking forward to."

"Little Luo..."

"Ok?"

"Come here, let me taste whether your mouth is sweet."

Mao Xiaoluo was a little ashamed by what he said, but she still stood up and walked over, boldly holding Time's face, and kissed him lightly on the forehead, then hugged him, letting his head rest on her On his chest, gently stroking his hair, comforting him with his limited strength: "From now on, you will not be alone in your life."

Chang Minghai didn't stay at the consultation center every day. Mao Xiaoluo didn't see him when he arrived this morning. When Zhang Zijing came out to greet him, his posture was a little stiff. Mao Xiaoluo noticed it and asked, "Doctor Zhang, are you okay today?" Comfortable?"

Zhang Zijing shook his head with his usual expression, and didn't want to talk to him about it, but said, "I heard from time, you already know about him being a vampire?"

Mao Xiaoluo nodded, and asked after a while: "You already knew?"

"In college." Zhang Zijing asked, "Can you still recall the expression on his face when you saw him sucking blood?"

"He's not sucking blood." Mao Xiaoluo corrected him, "He's drinking a blood bag, and it's cow blood, not human blood. He didn't expect me to follow him. He was so frightened that he dropped the blood bag , flowed all over the place."

"..." Zhang Zijing was stunned for a moment, and with a slight smile on his face, he asked, "He was terrified, what about you? Aren't you scared?"

"Scared, I was also scared." Mao Xiaoluo's expression was a little terrified, "The main reason is that I didn't expect him to be a vampire. I always thought that these things were made up in novels."

Zhang Zijing paused for some reason, and asked, "Are you still with him, aren't you afraid that he will hurt you?"

"He won't hurt me." Mao Xiaoluo's answer was straightforward and sincere, "He braved the sun every morning to send me to see a doctor. He would rather hurt himself than me."

Zhang Zijing was silent for a long time before continuing: "He was very worried that you would get worse because of this, and I was also very worried at first."

Mao Xiaoluo shook his head with a smile, and said, "I know, because he is so kind." After speaking, he realized that Zhang Zijing had been left behind, and hurriedly added, "You are also very good, you are a very responsible doctor."

Zhang Zijing smiled and said: "It's best if you are not affected. I am very happy to see your current state. In addition, I want to repeat the two suggestions I gave you before. First, try to follow Others communicate, and second, try to ask your mother about the past."

When Mao Xiaoluo came out of the consulting room, he saw Chang Minghai. Chang Minghai had several new wounds on his face, as if he had been scratched by some sharp object, from his temple to his jaw. Although it was not fatal, it looked serious.Time is chatting with him: "...how dare you give him a drink in that situation?"

"I forgot." Chang Minghai's tone was a little helpless.

Shi Shi looked up and saw Mao Xiaoluo coming out, bid farewell to the two people in the consulting room, and dragged him away.The two got on the bike, and Mao Xiaoluo asked, "Mr. Chang, why is his face full of injuries? I don't think Dr. Zhang is quite right today, he doesn't seem very comfortable."

Time said: "Senior brother is a werewolf. On the night of the full moon yesterday, Chang Minghai forgot. Not only did he not prepare, but he was given a glass of red wine for dinner, and he was scratched when he went to bed at night."

"Ah?" The amount of information was a bit large, and Mao Xiaoluo was a little bit down all of a sudden, "Doctor Zhang is a werewolf?"

"Well, but like me, he is a werewolf who doesn't kill. He has stolen two raw chickens at most. Their werewolves have to transform every night when the moon is full. Not only will their strength become infinite that night, but their bloodthirsty desire It will also multiply, and before meeting Chang Minghai, he tied himself to the wall with an iron chain."

"He...he looks so weak." Mao Xiaoluo said, "The two of them stand together, and I feel that Mr. Chang should be a werewolf."

Shi Shi laughed and said, "There are werewolves who are slightly smaller." But after speaking, he couldn't help laughing again, probably mocking Zhang Zijing's physique.

"But I feel that Dr. Zhang should be very happy with Mr. Chang. His attitude towards Mr. Chang is much more casual than that of other people. Although he doesn't mention it to me many times, the expression on his face is very gentle every time." Mao Xiaoluo analyzed it for a while, and then said, "He still asked me today..."

"Ask you what?"

"Ask me if I'm afraid of being hurt after knowing your identity as a vampire."

"Are you afraid?"

"Not afraid." Mao Xiaoluo shook his head on his back and said, "But when he asked me, I felt that he was not asking me, but wanted to get another person's answer from me." Said Here he was a little annoyed, "I should have answered better then."

Shi Shi was already very moved, and asked, "How can I answer better?"

"My answer should strengthen his confidence in Mr. Chang. I should add a few more words, such as why two people who love each other are afraid of each other..."

Before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by time: "Mao Xiaoluo!"

Mao Xiaoluo was taken aback by him: "Huh? What's wrong?"

"Why are you so cute!"

34.

The apartment is always dark during the day. Since Mao Xiaoluo knew the identity of time, he specially ordered thick blackout curtains from the Internet. He seemed to have become a vampire just like time, and started a life of day and night. The two He seldom goes out, and sometimes he doesn't want to suggest going for a walk when he has time. Except for going to Zhang Zijing's psychological consultation room, they even use delivery software to buy food.

Time knows, it's not a good sign.

The projector purchased online has arrived, and because the curtains are very blackout, their home has almost turned into a small movie theater, and they can get a very pure movie-watching experience during the day.Mao Xiaoluo was wearing pajamas and nestled in the chest of time, and the two hugged and watched a movie together.They watched 23 movies in a week, with an average of more than three movies a day. Often after one movie was broadcast, Mao Xiaoluo would use the computer to find another one.

Time allowed him to let it go for a few days, until Mao Xiaoluo's school called, urging him to go back to sell his leave, and time said: "Xiao Luo, go back to work."

Mao Xiaoluo is obviously immersed in this isolated comfort zone. He has time in this nest. Even if there are several other personalities, it is harmless in his own home. When other people come out, he will have time to deal with it and will not cause any trouble. .

"Don't you want me to resign?"

Time opened the curtains and let the moonlight shine in, breaking the almost closed space. "I want you to resign because I am afraid that they will cause trouble to your work every day. It may be more helpful for you to take a vacation at home." Shi Shi lowered his head and looked at him, holding his shoulders with both hands, "But you Haven't spoken to any of them yet."

"I...I have communicated." Mao Xiaoluo didn't dare to look at the time, and lowered her eyes guiltily to look elsewhere.

"With whom?"

Mao Xiaoluo didn't answer, and he could expose him as soon as he opened his mouth. "Isn't the frequency of my personality switching decreasing these days?"

"That's because you don't welcome them, don't accept them, and forcibly suppress their appearance." Time raised his hand and turned off the projector, "Not appearing doesn't mean it doesn't exist. If things go on like this, other people will be dissatisfied. At that time, the situation may It's going to be worse than it is now."

Mao Xiaoluo bit his lip and didn't answer. After a while, he raised his brows and eyes, looked at the time and said, "Time, I'm hungry, I want to eat fried dumplings."

Shi Shi was silent for a while, agreed, then pulled him into the kitchen, and said while kneading the noodles: "Come here and help me cut the radish."

Mao Xiaoluo didn't want to stay here any longer, he was afraid that time would continue the topic just now, and he had just washed and peeled the radish, time really said: "Xiao Luo, let's go to the mall tomorrow?"

"Do you want to buy something?" Mao Xiaoluo looked down at the radish, as if she was engrossed in it, unable to give time.

"I've been bored at home for too long, and I panicked. When I was a vampire, I would go out from time to time to get some fresh air."

"What if I get exposed to the sun?" Mao Xiaoluo groaned, and the paring knife scraped off a thin layer of skin on the pad of his index finger, instantly oozing bright red blood.

Shi Shi dropped the dough and immediately searched for the medicine box in the locker in the living room. Mao Xiaoluo followed him, watching him rummage, but put his finger to Shi Shi's lips and said, "Don't waste it."

Human blood is fatal to vampires, time smelled his sweet smell, frowned and looked at him without speaking.

Knowing that he was angry, Mao Xiaoluo raised his hand to lick off a little blood on his index finger, lowered his head and dared not speak.

"Xiao Luo, I don't understand what you mean."

Mao Xiaoluo pursed her lips, trying to take the band-aid in his hand and bandage it herself, but she didn't have time, and she didn't plan to wait for his answer, so she just took a deep look at him, asked him to straighten his fingers, and carefully covered the bandage. He packed up the wound.Mao Xiaoluo stood up and wanted to go to the kitchen, Shi Shi said, "Don't move, I'll do it."

After the time was over, he stuffed the medicine box back into the cabinet and put it away, stood up and went back to the kitchen. Mao Xiaoluo stood there for a long time like a child who did something wrong, a little at a loss. He knew that Time was angry, but he didn't know what to do. How can I ask his forgiveness, silently followed to the kitchen, and shouted: "Time..."

Shi Shi dropped the dough in his hand, took a deep breath, and said, "Xiao Luo, if you were joking just now, I want to tell you that it's not funny."

"I'm not joking." Mao Xiaoluo's eye circles were still red after all, and he explained to time helplessly that he had never had a similar experience since he was a child, and no one would ask him why he made mistakes, and no one taught him how to In dealing with conflicts between people, if a "mistake" is discovered on the spot, it will be scolded and insulted at least, and at worst, it will suffer from flesh and blood. If the "mistake" is not discovered on the spot, it will be a delayed punishment.The more anxious he became, the more he didn't know how to explain it. His lips opened and closed for a long while, but he couldn't say a word. His eyes became redder and redder, and he finally managed to say, "... I was wrong, I'm sorry for the time, you forgive me. Am I okay?"

Shi Shi lowered his head and looked at him, raised his hand to wipe away his tears with his thumb, and said, "Xiao Luo, don't rush to apologize, tell me, why did you want me to drink your blood just now?"

Mao Xiaoluo shook his head, he didn't dare to tell the time, his face was flushed from holding back tears, his eyes wandered, obviously unable to face the scene in front of him, and wanted to change someone else's appearance.

"Xiao Luo, don't go, look at me, I need you now, don't replace someone else." Shi Shi held his shoulder, fixed his eyes on him, and forced him to face, "Xiao Luo, don't replace someone else." come out."

Mao Xiaoluo tried his best to stay awake, and after a while, the tears that he had suppressed just now rushed down his cheeks.

Time asked: "Tell me, why did you want me to drink your blood just now?"

His lips murmured for a while, before he said in a very low voice: "...Because I want you to hug me for the first time and make me just like you."

"Why do you want to be like me?"

"...Because only in that way can I truly feel your pain, truly understand you, and truly be with you forever." He said with a wry smile, "Besides, after becoming a vampire, I might even be mentally ill. It can be cured, so you don’t have to work so hard in the future.”

"Becoming a vampire can only 'cure' physical diseases, but not psychological problems. If it really 'cured all diseases', my father would not have committed suicide. It is not a cure, it just turns from this disease to It’s just another disease. So, I don’t want to taste your blood, and I don’t want to turn you into a vampire.” Time squeezed his shoulder, motioned him to look up, and then explained to him gently in a slow voice, “ Xiao Luo, no matter what conflicts arise between the two of us in the future, no matter who is angry, don't rush to apologize first, I know you want to appease my emotions, but this kind of appeasement cannot solve the fundamental problem."

Mao Xiaoluo really looked at him at this time: "Then what should I do?"

"We should hug or kiss each other first, and then explain our reasons for doing this. If after discussion between us, it is determined that there is indeed a fault in this matter, the person who made the mistake can apologize." The shoulder slid to his earlobe, squeezed it lightly, and said, "You can kiss me now."

Mao Xiaoluo cried and leaned up to kiss him, then hugged him.

Time also raised his arms to hug him, then bowed his head and kissed his hair, and asked, "Do you remember?"

"Remember." Mao Xiaoluo buried her face in his neck and said in a muffled voice.

"Now tell me, don't you want to go to the mall?"

Mao Xiaoluo nodded on his shoulder.

"Besides because you don't want me to be in the sun, are there other reasons why you don't want to go to the mall or go out?"

He hesitated, biting his lip and still not daring to speak.

Shi Shi caressed his back and said, "Tell me, Xiao Luo."

"...I don't want to deal with strangers."

"Why don't you want to deal with strangers?"

"...I'm afraid they will know that I'm crazy."

Time froze, and a desperate conjecture suddenly appeared in his mind. After all, his identity still had an impact on Mao Xiaoluo, and it might even make him doubt his cognition of the real world.Mao Xiaoluo may not be sure of his authenticity, or may think that his identity is just his imagination, and Mao Xiaoluo probably thinks that as long as he keeps this secret in this dark space, no one can break it. ...

People have suffered misfortune for a long time, and they may be ecstatic when they encounter a little good luck, but if they get the happiness that they never dared to expect, they will probably think that everything in front of them is just a mirage, but for them, even if it is a mirage, it is better than being alone. Face the cold real world.