homecoming

"I'm here." Tang Fei stepped into the Shangxing Building and said such a sentence.

Tianxing was sitting on the futon and meditating in front of the three Tianzun statues. He didn't say a word when he heard Tang Fei's words, but just closed his eyes and straightened his back to meditate.A handsome face is solemn and solemn, and the loose Taoist robe makes him feel a little fairy-like.

"This is the 1000 taels you asked for." Tang Fei didn't care about Tianxing's reaction, and directly took out the 1000 taels from his pocket and handed it to him.

The corners of Tianxing's mouth moved indiscernibly, but he didn't open his eyes. He waited until he counted twenty in his heart before slowly opening his eyes, looked up at Tang Fei and said, "The poor man knew that Mr. Tang was coming. , so the altar has already been prepared, and you only need to burn three pillars of incense here, and then you can go to the altar with the poor Taoist to practice." After speaking, he quickly stretched out his right hand to hold the 1000 taels of silver note, and then took the silver note with extreme speed. Received into his arms.He secretly thought in his heart: Why did he know earlier? Feng Chenying informed me last night that he arranged the altar on the third floor all night!But this Tang Fei is really not easy, he earned 1000 taels in just three months!Haha, this 1000 taels is really good money!

Suppressing the inexplicable excitement in his heart, Tianxing pretended to take out three sticks of incense that were as thick as fingers and handed them to Tang Fei, and said leisurely: "Master Tang, please light these three sticks of incense and put them on the incense burner to enshrine the three heavenly gods to keep you safe." .”

Tang Fei took the three exaggeratedly large sticks of sandalwood and twitched the corners of his mouth, but he still didn't say anything. He took them and lit the burning lamp with difficulty, then put them on the incense burner, and finally gave the three sticks devoutly. The god worshiped three times.

"Okay, Mr. Tang, please follow the poor Taoist." Tian Xing took Tang Fei around to the back corridor and walked up, bypassing the second floor of alchemy and going up to the third floor.

The third floor is like a special place for worship. There is a large altar in front of the room. The altar has a finely carved base, and a gorgeous statue of a god is enshrined on the base. It seems to be higher than the three statues on the first floor. a little.The altar has been set up, and there are various pastries and fresh fruits for the sacrifices of the three animals. On the other smaller altar table, there is a stack of yellow talisman papers with red cinnabar spells on them. Next to the talisman papers is a long Peachwood sword, there are several kinds of paper money piled up next to the peachwood sword.There is also a couch-like thing placed in front of the altar.

Tianxing lit a bunch of incense, and after paying homage to the statue of Tianzun, inserted it into the incense burner.Then stand in front of the Tianzun statue with eyes closed and pray silently: Tianzun, Tianzun, this matter really has nothing to do with my half a coin. If you want to punish, go to Feng Chenying!

Tang Fei looked at the smoky altar. Because there were only two arm-thick red sacrificial candles burning, the light in the room looked dim. Not only did it not give the altar that should be sacred a holy feeling, but it felt weird.

Can Tianxing really send him back?Tang Fei thought worriedly, and began to get a little nervous.

When he was worried about being nervous, Tian Xing had already walked over and said to him: "Young master, don't be nervous, you can just follow the instructions of Pindao later, and nothing will happen." Then he directed Tang Fei to lie on the prepared bed. On the couch, a long burning lamp was placed around him, and finally an incense burner was placed on top of his head, and a soul charm pendant was placed at the foot of him.

Tianxing clapped his hands, picked up a mahogany sword with talisman paper, danced and danced beside Tang Fei for a while, still muttering words, Tang Fei didn't understand a word, but he didn't dare to move and lay on the couch, even more He didn't dare to ask Tianxing aloud for fear of disturbing his practice.

It took Tian Xingwu a full half a stick of incense before he said to Tang Fei: "Everything is ready, and Pindao will start to practice again later, Mr. Tang's consciousness will gradually disappear, but in the dream you will hear Pindao calling you At that time, my lord, don’t look back for me, just follow the white light in front of you and keep walking!”

"As long as I follow the white light, can I return to my own world? You guarantee that I will be able to return to my own body? But how can Fang Lin come out without anyone helping Fang Lin?" Tang Fei was full of doubts. I became more and more nervous, so nervous that my palms began to sweat.

"Sir, don't ask too much, as long as you do it, Fang Lin's soul will automatically come back with your return! You must not focus on other things when you are poor! Otherwise, this spell will fail. of!"

"But..." Tang Fei smelled the strong sandalwood fragrance from the incense burner above his head, and his consciousness gradually became a little fuzzy, "But I..." He still has a lot of things to ask, he needs to figure it out... ....

Tianxing carefully picked up the mahogany sword and poked Tang Fei's arm, but Tang Fei didn't respond.Then he poked harder, but Tang Fei still didn't respond, and Tian Xing finally relaxed a little bit.Then he dropped the sword in his hand, reached out and grabbed the grilled chicken on the plate, and started to chew.Anyway, Tang Fei won't be able to wake up for a while after being hit by this sprite fragrance, and he will still have a nightmare for a while!

After eating the grilled chicken in his hand, Tian Xing made his hands on other sacrifices again.He yelled Tang Fei's name while eating, and when all the sacrifices had entered Tianxing's stomach and yelled Tang Fei's name thirty times, it was almost time, Tang Fei should wake up.After belching, Tianxing wiped his greasy hands casually on the dark gray Taoist robe, and then hid all the remains of the offering under the table, covering it with a long tablecloth so that they could not be seen at all!

He took the cinnabar mixed with water, touched the corner of his mouth, and wiped some on the white skirt of his chest, then grabbed the mahogany sword that he had thrown aside just now, and lay face down on the ground, pretending to be dead.

Tang Fei really lost consciousness as Tian Xing said, as if he had entered a dream, surrounded by a vast expanse of whiteness and could not see anything.Looking around blankly, he couldn't see where the exit was at all.

"Tang Fei...Tang Fei..."

Someone is calling him!Tang Fei was startled, it was Tian Xing!He started calling him!But where is the light that leads the way?He has been looking for it, but he just can't see the white light that leads the way, because this place is completely white!

"Tang Fei..." Tianxing's voice echoed all around, and Tang Fei couldn't find any objects at all.He wanted to look for Tianxing's figure, but he couldn't see anything.Gradually, Tianxing's voice made Tang Fei feel irritated, stop shouting, "Tang Fei..." Stop shouting! "Tang Fei..." Stop shouting! !Tang Fei yelled loudly, and stumbled around looking for a way out. He was trapped here, and he couldn't get out!

"Let me out!" Tang Fei yelled, "Tianxing, where are you! Take me out of here quickly! I want to go back!"

"Tang Fei...Tang Fei..." Tianxing didn't hear Tang Fei's words at all, and still called Tang Fei's name reluctantly.

"Ah! Ah! Shut up! Shut up!" Tang Fei curled up on the ground with a splitting headache. It was the same in the past. His so-called "mother" locked him in the small dark room, and then used a strong force through the small opening on the door. The flashlight shined into the light, and she kept calling his name in a eerie voice, saying that she saw him and she knew where he was hiding.It was one of his childhood nightmares and one of his worst punishments.In a small space, no matter where he hides, the strong light will follow him, no matter how much he screams and covers his ears, the voice of "Mom" will penetrate his eardrum like thunder.

"Stop screaming! Stop shining light on me! Go away! Go away!" Tang Fei yelled in pain, "I won't be afraid of you anymore! No!"

"Ah!" Tang Fei screamed and opened his eyes suddenly, cold sweat slid down his forehead onto the pillow.Panting violently, Tang Fei saw that the objects in front of him were very familiar. This is Shangxing Building...

Tang Fei sat up and looked around in horror, familiar altars, familiar buildings, here is still Huang Ye!

"Tianxing..." The spell failed, Tang Fei's eyes were empty and his face was full of despair, he searched for the Tianxing who said he could send him back, and finally found him who had passed out near the altar.

"Tianxing!" Tang Fei ran to Tianxing, and when he turned the person over to see the situation, his eyes were glaringly red, the corners of his lips, his clothes... were all blood... another intense dizziness Dazzled, Tang Fei lost consciousness again.

Tianxing turned over suddenly, and looked at Tang Fei with a strange face, what happened to him?Why did you faint again?Hasn't the effect of the medicine expired?

Quickly ran downstairs to call Feng Chenying who had been waiting in the carriage. After seeing the cinnabar on his mouth that looked like blood, Feng Chenying rolled her eyes at him and said flatly: "Tang Fei is afraid of blood, he will faint when he sees blood." After finishing speaking, he went upstairs to carry Tang Fei carefully back to the carriage, confiscated the 1000 taels from Tianxing, and walked away.

Tian Xing angrily chased after the car buttocks, this is why Feng Chenying took away his hard-earned money! !

After chasing after him, he saw a familiar figure walking in the direction of Shangxing Building, he quickly stopped and ran back, and took a closer look at that person, Tianxing was full of surprise: "Brother?! You are finally back!" said After that, he jumped onto the tall man's back.

"Sigh..." The tall man glanced at the cinnabar on his face, sighed helplessly, grabbed his hand and said, "You got into trouble again? Sigh, when will you be more mature?"

"Hee~" Tianxing held his arm, not wanting to die, and said with a mischievous smile, "I will mature when you become an old man!" Then he changed into a coquettish look and said, "Brother, I Miss you so much~"

The tall man's ordinary face was full of smiles, "Alright, alright, brother misses you too, let's go back and talk if we have anything to say."

"Yeah!" Tian Xing completely forgot Feng Chenying's revenge for robbing him of 1000 taels after seeing his senior brother, and happily went back to Shangxing Building on his senior brother's back.

Feng Chenying hugged the unconscious Tang Fei, and gently pressed a kiss on his forehead.Tang Fei, you can't escape my palm.

The luxurious carriage left two clear and winding wheel marks on the thick snow. The sky was dim, and it seemed that the snow that had just stopped in the early morning would start to fall again.

When Tang Fei woke up and saw the familiar top of the bed, he laughed at himself with a smile on his lips. He called Tianxing a magic stick all day long, and he really is a magic stick...The spell failed, and he is still here. From now on, will he use someone else's body and appearance to live?But what is the difference between this and the dead?The room was lit with refreshing incense, and all the candles were lit.Tang Fei turned his head and looked at the closed doors and windows. Through the window paper, he could see that the sky outside was completely dark, and he could vaguely hear the sound of Bai Xue falling.

Was it Feng Chenying who brought him back?Tang Fei thought, there would be no one else but him.

The door was gently pushed open and closed again. Tang Fei saw Feng Chenying walking towards him with a bottle of wine.

"Are you awake?" Feng Chenying sat down beside the bed, covering Tang Fei's icy cheeks with her warm hands. "Fortunately, I didn't wait in the carriage. When I saw Tianxing, who was vomiting blood all over, stumbled out to ask for help, I realized that...it failed..."

Tang Fei stared blankly at Feng Chenying's face, his face was so numb that no emotion could be seen.

"Tang Fei," Feng Chenying caressed his hair and cheeks, and pursed his lips lightly next to his ear: "I don't want to lie to you now, I'm glad you didn't leave, Tianxing told me that the reason why the spell failed was that you did Do you know that you have no distractions, you know? You almost put Tianxing's life in it." Feng Chenying said that she didn't want to lie to Tang Fei, but every word she said was a lie.

Can't be distracted?That's right, Tang Fei remembered that he didn't follow Tianxing's words in that illusion, but remembered the things he had never dared to face when he was a child...

"Last time I was unhappy and you accompanied me to drink, this time I will accompany you." Feng Chenying opened the wine seal, and the mellow aroma of the wine immediately permeated the air.This is the "Yellow Liang Dream" in Fanghua Building, Feng Chenying asked Yan Si to send it over.

"Tang Fei, stay here, it's God's will." Feng Chenying said seductively in a hoarse voice.

"Stay?" Tang Fei looked at the wine in Feng Chenying's hand, raised the corner of his mouth and sneered, his eyes full of self-mockery. "But this place doesn't belong to me, and even this body doesn't belong to me. My only concern here is not how can I stay? Or if I commit suicide now, maybe I can return to the original world..... .”

"No, Fang Lin has completely disappeared from the first day you came here, and only Tang Fei exists in this world from now on." Feng Chenying said softly, "Let me be your concern and your bondage, and be good for me." I want to live in this world." Feng Chenying took a sip of the wine and leaned over, feeding back the wine in her mouth to Tang Fei, her eyes full of affection.

Tang Fei's gentle breathing gradually became heavy, and his eyes no longer had the previous light and became dim.He has been completely abandoned by his world, right?Just like when he was ruthlessly abandoned by his biological father at the gate of the orphanage when he was a child, he tasted the feeling of isolation, helplessness, fear and fear again.Because he used to do things unscrupulously to help the evildoers, so he got retribution, God left him in such a strange place and let him fend for himself.He got his comeuppance again because he killed two people, and this time, God has completely given up on him, and he can't go back...

Stretching out her hand to hug Feng Chenying tightly, she deepened the kiss. The eager action made Feng Chenying instantly understand Tang Fei's meaning.The corner of her mouth raised an undetectable arc, Feng Chenying tore off Tang Fei's clothes.

When a strong and ruthless person is at his most vulnerable, it is easy to let go of his guard against a familiar person, especially when this person is in pain and despair, give him the comfort and warmth he needs most, just like Tang Fei.The failure of the spell caused Tang Fei to completely collapse. Feng Chenying appeared at the most desperate moment, hugging him and comforting him.So Tang Fei easily let go of his guard against Feng Chenying, and it was only natural for him to let Feng Chenying take advantage of it.But Tang Fei, who is helpless and confused, needs to immerse himself in the most primitive desires and forget everything.He needs to use physical pain and the warmth of another person to prove that he is alive and that he has not been abandoned by this world.

At this time and this place, he was willing to lie under Feng Chenying's body and accept the pain and bliss Feng Chenying gave him.

———————————— I am the dividing line of the river crab ————————————

His lips and tongue were intertwined fiercely, and there was a strong aroma of wine between his teeth. Tang Fei didn't know if he was drunk, but he instinctively chased after that wild taste.He actively extended his tongue to invite, and when the soft tongue of the other party penetrated into his own mouth, he sucked it violently, preventing him from having any chance to escape.

Feng Chenying passively kissed Tang Fei's tongue, his tongue was numb and tingling because of Tang Fei's chaotic sucking and biting, crystal saliva overflowed the mouths of both parties.The phoenix eyes narrowed slightly, flashing a dangerous light.Clamping Tang Fei's jaw, Feng Chenying freed her tongue.Looking at Tang Fei who was out of breath, Feng Chenying licked the corner of his mouth amusedly, and said in a low and charming tone, "Why do you need to worry, Xiao Fei? It's been a long night, we have plenty of time."

Tang Fei's eyes were full of mist of lust, a little desperate, a little crazy.Seeing Feng Chenying's gesture of teasing the kitten, she suddenly turned over and pressed Feng Chenying under her body, lowered her head, kissed and bit his earlobe and said in a low voice: "Since you are not in a hurry, let me do it, and I will give it to you." You have a wonderful night." After saying that, he tore off Feng Chenying's belt, tore off his clothes with a "stab" sound, and immediately fell a moist and hot kiss, leaving a bright red mark between the slender neck and the snow-white chest .

Feng Chenying frowned, grabbed Tang Fei's hand and twisted behind him.Tang Fei went to the support point and had no choice but to lie on Feng Chenying's chest, looking up at him fiercely.

"Don't provoke me on purpose, I don't want to hurt you." Feng Chenying ignored Tang Fei's glaring, staring into his eyes and said calmly.

"Hmph." Tang Fei raised the corners of his mouth and sneered, his eyes full of sarcasm.Breaking free from Feng Chenying's clamp, Tang Fei sat straddling Feng Chenying's crotch, stretched out his hand to untie his belt, and loosened the tight belt, revealing his completely naked upper body.Stretching out his tongue to lick his index finger, Tang Fei used that index finger to slide between his lips, and then down, slowly and straight down from his lean and strong chest, reaching Feng Chenying's sexy six-pack abs. on the belly.Gently drew a circle on the lower abdomen, slightly hooked her fingertips, and pulled away Feng Chenying's white obscene pants.The obscene pants were pulled down little by little, and Feng Chenying's huge body, which was already stiff, jumped out of the confinement.

Tang Fei moved back slowly with his movements, and sat on Feng Chenying's lap.The usually fierce eagle eyes were glistening at this moment, full of fatal temptation.Tang Fei's gaze has been glued to Feng Chenying's gaze. Feng Chenying did not stop Tang Fei, and let him seduce her. The desire that she could not endure following his teasing was painful at this moment, although she tried her best to keep her breathing calm. , but he knew his willpower was crumbling.His handsome face was flushed with desire, his slightly squinted phoenix eyes raised slightly, outlining a danger signal, and the tip of his red tongue licked his thin lips, showing a sexy posture.

Tang Fei's hands were still teasing the exposed desire, his body slowly lay down, and then, under Feng Chenying's surprised eyes, he stretched out the tip of his red and tender tongue, gently licking from the root to the top.

Putting a kiss on Lust's head, Tang Fei licked the corner of his mouth and smiled charmingly: "Your, it's huge."

Feng Chenying was out of breath for a while, stretched out her hand to pull Tang Fei up and pushed him down.Feng Chenying gnawed on Tang Fei's collarbone and the red tassel on his chest unsteadily, while growling vaguely: "You asked for this!"

The trousers were torn open, and Feng Chenying pinched and pinched the two upturned and firm tender flesh with both hands, without showing any sympathy.The swelling in his crotch pushed directly into Tang Fei's crotch, ready to move in that pink forbidden area.

Tang Fei frowned in pain because of that rough action, but bit his lower lip tightly to prevent himself from exhaling in pain, snorting heavily and let out a muffled groan occasionally.

Feng Chenying bit Tang Fei's left breast, squeezed the bright red breast with the tip of her tongue, and when the red pearl stood up again, she kissed and bit it with her teeth until she tasted the smell of blood, and then made another one in the same way. .The lower body is not idle either, the swollen and hard desire keeps hitting the tight and secluded place that has not been opened up for foreplay, as if it wants to just break in so hard.

Tang Fei finally couldn't help but opened his mouth and let out a painful moan, Feng Chenying raised her head at this moment and kissed his mouth.

After the long and fiery kiss, Feng Chenying let go of her ravaged lips, licked away the bitten blood from the corners of her lips, Feng Chenying looked at Tang Fei who had lost his mind and said in a hoarse voice: "I still think you really don't hurt Woolen cloth."

Tang Fei panted heavily, raised his right hand to his eyes, and said hoarsely, "Come in..."

With deep eyes, Feng Chenying kissed Tang Fei again, and said, "As you wish." After finishing speaking, she stretched out her hand to reach between Tang Fei's buttocks, and just as she touched the forbidden area, Tang Fei grabbed him.

"Come in directly." Tang Fei's hand was still in front of his eyes, Feng Chenying couldn't see the emotion in his eyes.

"I'm not raping you." Feng Chenying's voice was a bit cold.

Tang Fei moved his hand and suddenly opened his eyes, pushed Feng Chenying down violently, and sat astride him, holding the huge desire to his buttocks, and said in a hoarse voice, "Just treat it as me raping you." After finishing speaking, he closed his eyes and sat down facing the desire.

"Ah—" The painful cry stopped, and Tang Fei bit his lower lip tightly to prevent himself from making any sound.Feng Chenying's desire had just entered a head, and Tang Fei already felt the pain, and a hot current gushed out from his buttocks.

"Are you looking for death?!" Feng Chenying, who was unprepared and retired, hurriedly stabilized Tang Fei, stopped his self-mutilation, and said with a livid face: "Forget it today, I don't want to be in this situation. I'll get you!" He didn't know what was wrong with him, but seeing Tang Fei's almost desperate sacrifice, his heart softened and he couldn't bear it anymore!Hasn't he been looking forward to today?

Tang Fei leaned weakly on Feng Chenying's shoulder, his hands softly wrapped around Feng Chenying's back, and his voice was hollow: "Let me hurt, let me forget everything in pain, I just want to know that I am still alive, I am Tang Fei , not Fang Lin..."

"You..." Feng Chenying hugged Tang Fei, her mood was complicated, and there was still a hint of unnoticeable heartache.Lie down with Tang Fei in her arms, Feng Chenying stopped being rude just now, gently kissed him on the lips, and said softly: "You are Tang Fei, not Fang Lin. If you want to hurt, I will make you hurt. But not in this way. I don't want to hurt you, leave it to me, and I will let you feel wonderful happiness in the pain."

Feng Chenying withdrew from Tang Fei's body, where he was already injured.While Feng Chenying kissed Tang Fei tenderly, she stretched out a hand to open up his body.With the lubrication of this blood, Feng Chenying easily entered one finger, and then gradually increased until the three fingers merged.

Feng Chenying carefully observed Tang Fei's expression, frowning to show that he still felt pain, stretched out his other hand, and began to comfort Tang Fei's unawakened desire.His lips and tongue were still waiting on Tang Fei's body, and his hands were soothing back and forth under Tang Fei's body.It wasn't until Tang Fei's jade pillar stood upright, and the red pillar began to weep, and a transparent liquid flowed out, that Feng Chenying's mouth curled up, and he knew that Tang Fei was beginning to feel comfortable.Not in a hurry to enter, Feng Chenying still played with Tang Fei's desire with superb skills.

Tang Fei's brows were still furrowed, but instead of the pained look just now, there was a bit of lustful joy.The bitten red and swollen lips parted slightly, letting out a low moan.

Different from the coquettish groans or howls of those male favorites in the past, this purely male low-pitched moan made Feng Chenying even more excited. As long as it is a man, he likes the thrill of conquest, let alone a man like Tang Fei. A real, strong man.

Speeding up the movement of his hands, and also speeding up the three-finger thrusting at the back, Tang Fei suddenly hugged Feng Chenying's shoulders tightly, breathing more heavily.

The desire in her hand suddenly swelled even more. Feng Chenying knew that Tang Fei had reached the top, so she increased the strength of her hand, and gently pinched at the root——

"Yeah!" Tang Fei moved his waist and let out a low growl, all the white essence leaked into Feng Chenying's hands.

Tang Feijun's face was flushed, his eyes were absent-minded, and he collapsed on the bed panting rapidly.Feng Chenying wiped the cloudy white in her hand on Tang Fei's back acupoints, and continued to develop.

Tang Fei gradually regained his senses, reached out and pulled Feng Chenying down to kiss him.Feng Chenying murmured between the lips and teeth of the two: "Xiao Feier is comfortable now, then it's up to me. This time, I will make you more comfortable." After finishing speaking, before Tang Fei could react, he pulled out the With three fingers, he sent the terrifying desire that he had borne for a long time into the deep red cave.

"Hmm!" Even though Feng Chenying did the foreplay carefully for Tang Fei, the place where he was injured by his previous self-torture still brought him the pain of suffocation.

Feng Chenying only entered halfway, so she didn't dare to advance rashly, kissing Tang Fei lightly and slowly waiting for him to get through the most difficult moment of adaptation.

"Move..." Tang Fei's hoarse voice came, and Feng Chenying was like a liberated trapped animal, mercilessly submerged in, and before Tang Fei could catch his breath, he moved quickly.

The inside of the chrysanthemum hole was tighter and warmer than I imagined, as if being wrapped in warm water, it felt particularly comfortable. Coupled with Tang Fei's active cooperation, that feeling made Feng Chenying feel as if she was in a world of bliss.Hugging Tang Fei tightly, biting his ear while shaking his waist uncontrollably, and Tang Fei's subdued humming fascinated him even more than aphrodisiacs.

It's not that Feng Chenying didn't want this body. He had to have this body several times when Fang Lin was still in it. It's just that Fang Lin's uncooperative attitude made him really boring. He wanted to train him well. An accident happened, and this body changed from Fang Lin to Tang Fei.

Sure enough, Tang Fei is better...

The ecstasy of the bones eroded the two of them. Feng Chenying sat up holding Tang Fei in a position holding the moon in her arms, so that he could go into the deepest part to touch the sensitive protrusion, and it was more convenient for him to taste every part of Tang Fei's body. .

Tang Fei put his hands on Feng Chenying's shoulders, and knelt on Feng Chenying's body, constantly rising and falling with his movements.Feng Chenying said it would make him painful and happy, and he did.Being raped for the first time, Tang Fei was not as repelled as he imagined, and even felt strange pleasure when Feng Chenying's tip rubbed against the spot deep in her body.

"Hmph." Tang Fei looked up at the top of the bed and laughed at himself, his body kept shaking up and down.

His chin was pinched, and when he lowered his head, the hot liquid from his eyes also fell out. Tang Fei closed his eyes, and kissed Feng Chenying's lips proactively.

The warm liquid dripped onto Feng Chenying's face, and then slid off and disappeared.But the residual temperature made Feng Chenying's heart tremble.

The kiss was still fiery, and the intercourse of the body became more lingering and intense, but, something seemed to have changed in my heart...