code zero zero zero zero

After a long day of greed and joy, after satisfying the physical and psychological desires, what remains is deep loneliness.Lei Gang sent him to the door, watched him get into the car with his own eyes, and then turned back, but he got out of the car after driving 1000 meters away, and walked back slowly with a cigarette in his hand.

Really lonely, reluctant, as if it wasn't him, behind those drunken lantern riddles, brilliant life, guarding a person, enduring countless days and nights looking forward to a carnival, and then returning to loneliness again.

He walked around the courtyard wall of the compound, then stood under the big tree outside the building where Lei Gang could be seen, and smoked two cigarettes in solitude, until he smoked the third one. Laughing dumbfounded, I don't quite know what the purpose of my idiot-like behavior is?

No one wants to stay with his lover forever, but he understands what kind of situation he is in. This decision has been firmly established at the very beginning, and he repeatedly reminds himself not to waver, because this is the best way. , must be the best.

With a long heart, he would regret it occasionally, and would think of snatching Lei Gang to his side no matter what, and would not let him go anywhere, but what about after that?

Lei Gang, who left the army, meant that his last retreat was restrained. Most importantly, if the people in the bureau caught the veins that must not be touched by outsiders, then he really had no room to resist.

It's not that he blames the bureau for being worried about him. After all, he has so much power and leverage in his hands. Anyone and any organization would have to restrict him, so rational approval represents emotional suffering, struggle, and hope is the greatest. Gain breathing space for yourself as much as possible.

Only Lei Gang can't be touched by them, absolutely, must!

Consolidating his mentality again, after erecting a solid wall outside his soft heart, Zhang Zhang put one hand in his trouser bag, squeezed a cigarette, stepped on the dark tree shadow, and walked back unsteadily.

For him, Zhang Zhang, or Zhang Sishao, any confusion and hesitation are fatal. Finding the key points quickly and accurately, and destroying them ferociously is the principle of his life-saving.

Quickly sorted out his emotions, when passing by the gate of the compound, Zhang Zhang thought for a while, took out his phone and called Lei Gang again, calling him out to have a barbecue with him.

At the roadside stall, I watched Lei Gang who changed into casual clothes drinking beer in silence, his brows and eyes were deep and handsome under the moonlight, his arms were strong and powerful, the texture lines hidden in his clothes, and the feel of his skin was so satisfying, and he went forward It took only a moment to embrace this body, and it was the ultimate carnival and enjoyment... Thinking of this, Zhang Zhang tilted his head and smiled.

That's right, why do you have to lose yourself in the current environment?See you whenever you want, do whatever you want, we've met each other, and we're still bitterly separated, is it necessary?There are many places to live in this world other than dormitories. If he is happy, he can open a five-star hotel and live in a presidential suite for a few months, as long as he is happy.

Lei Gang looked up at him, his eyes fell on the boiled peanuts on the plate, he grabbed a few and handed them to Zhang Zhang, but he raised his eyebrows in Zhang Zhang's inexplicable gaze, and simply pulled the peanuts out of the rice kernels, and held them in his hands. He grabbed a handful and handed it over again.

Zhang Zhang took the peanuts, stuffed them into his mouth one by one, and poured himself another glass of wine, "I won't go back tonight."

"?" Lei Gang looked up at him.

Zhang Zhang pursed his lips and smiled without explaining. He just changed his mouth and said, "I have been on vacation for a long time, almost 4 years, probably more than a month, and I have a lot of free time, so try to slow down the pace of life as much as possible. Sleeping on the bed every day."

Lei Gang's eyes were filled with distress, and there were little stars shining in his dark pupils. He nodded, "Where do you want to go?"

"Yunnan."

Lei Gang raised his eyebrows.

"Go and see the father-in-law and mother-in-law, um... or the father-in-law and mother-in-law."

"..." Lei Gang was stunned, pondered for a moment, and said with a slight frown, "They're not ready yet."

"I will never be ready in this life. I have to take this step. Don't worry, I will find a way. Of course, I will never hurt them. It's just that in some situations, such as this situation, I must feel uncomfortable."

"..."

"Yaobao is very cute. They will like it. Uncle Cheng has already taught him to call him grandpa and grandma. The old man likes to hear that."

"But……"

Zhang Zhang leaned forward, picked out a peanut from the palm of his hand and threw it into his mouth frivolously, and said with a smile, "I have children, for the sake of children, they won't care too much, besides, This time Yaobao came, you don’t know what the troubles are like, you should solve the marriage problem first, otherwise it’s not good for you to talk about style issues.”

"Zhang Zhang..." Lei Gang felt helpless, "A military officer needs to apply for marriage."

"Then why don't you apply?" After Zhang Zhang finished speaking, he laughed when he saw Lei Gang's helpless expression, "By the way, there are no women."

"..."

"Wait a minute." Zhang Zhang took out his mobile phone and dialed a call, and said as soon as he got connected, "Lei Gang is getting married, yes, you know, this time can't be delayed, within three days, yes, It is necessary, Uncle Cheng...haha, I have been disturbing your sleep, what a dream."

Lei Gang frowned slightly, probably able to understand Zhang Zhang's approach, a woman's disguised identity is not difficult for the National Security Bureau, but what about women?Where do women go?He understood that it was absolutely impossible for Zhang Zhang to allow him to meet and marry other women, and he didn't even take a look at Yao Bao's biological mother, which almost prevented him from having a good impression of any woman within the possible range.

This kind of behavior is a bit domineering and coercive, but to him, it's nothing more than that, even a little sweet. He has been in the army for so many years, and he has always been calm, and his feelings will always be dealt with at the end. When his first blind date got married, he must respect and cherish each other and even fall in love with him, but everything changed after meeting Zhang Zhang, and only then did he realize that feelings can be like this, so strong, so persistent, and so confused.

So, he thought, he was happy that Zhang Zhang cared about him, and even his compulsive possessiveness made him happy, but other women couldn't. This was his only requirement when dealing with Zhang Zhang's affairs. He absolutely opposes taking a woman home and asking her parents to agree.

After hanging up the phone, Zhang Zhang squinted at Lei Gang, his smiling eyes were blurry, but filled with great pleasure, he said, "As long as Uncle Cheng let go, all this is not difficult, it seems that the medicine treasure is also considered a treasure." The credit is indispensable, it inspired all the tenderness in the old man's heart, by the way, you may not know it? Uncle Cheng looks easy to talk, but in fact he is like a clam shell. It is very difficult to let him let go, otherwise the under hand Dozens of people are not fuel-efficient lamps, if he can’t control it, he will have messed up.” After speaking, Zhang Zhang picked up a peanut and handed it to Lei Gang, motioned for it, and watched Lei Gang finish pulling it with a smile. After handing it back, he continued, "If someone with my personality hadn't been eaten to death by Uncle Cheng, to be honest, I don't know what would happen now."

Lei Gang raised his eyebrows. From his point of view, Zhang Zhang ate Cheng Bing to death, right?

"Ha, don't look at me like that, I understand what you mean." Zhang Zhang shrugged, "The four words are mutually restrictive. For so many years, since my father passed away, he has been taking care of me. If you say he is my relative and elder It's not surprising, just because of this kind of affection, I always have to leave him a way out in everything I do, this is his ability to tie me with emotion and let me throw a mouse."

"You know it all? Do you think..."

"No, I need these things, love, family affection, I also need it, at least it can be seen that he is sincere to me, after all, he can't control the general direction, as long as this is enough."

"Don't you have brothers and sisters?"

"Here." Zhang Zhang patted his chest, "Just remember, the less my current situation has to be involved with them, the better."

"You..." Lei Gang felt distressed when he heard it, but he didn't know what to say. His family was deliberately isolated from his life. He obviously had some, but he could only get affection from strangers. He thought, he has known each other all his life. Among the people in the world, there has never been one who has had a harder life than Zhang Zhang.

But Zhang Zhang laughed meaninglessly, "Don't think too much, occasionally emotional instability may be self-defeating, but it doesn't mean I don't like the current situation, power, money, career, and family affection, I have it all. What else is there to be dissatisfied with?"

Lei Gang looked deeply at Zhang Zhang, but couldn't see what he wanted to see from those eyes that seemed to be good at concealing emotions, and finally he could only sigh and stopped talking.

After eating the barbecue, Zhang Zhang took Lei Gang to the bar to hang out until after 2 o'clock, and then really dragged him to the hotel. Lei Gang was silent all the way and let Zhang Zhang arrange. Although he didn't express much, but It can also be clearly seen that he is in a happy mood. Sometimes when the surrounding environment is suitable, Lei Gang will always turn his head to look at Zhang Zhang, his eyes are deep and gazing, revealing the emotions that cannot be concealed.

Zhang Zhang likes Lei Gang like this, very much, the introverted and ambiguous one makes his heart flutter, but because of various environmental constraints, he can't get what he wants, which adds to the excitement.

So, that night he was very enthusiastic, beyond the enthusiasm of most of the time they spent together. He would beg Lei Gang to enter him, twist his legs tightly around his strong waist, and obsessively feel the passionate pursuit from the other party. Strength, let yourself be completely controlled by the other party in the ocean of desire, so excited.

But no matter how crazy the night was, when the sun rose, Lei Gang still got up on time to tidy himself up, kissed him on the lips, and left.

The army vacation needs to be applied for in advance, the procedure is complicated, he understands it, so he slept peacefully in bed for half a day, went back in the afternoon to play around with the medicine treasure, and confirmed with Cheng Bing what he said last night, In the evening, after having dinner with Lei Gang, they returned to their temporary love nest again, continuing that crazy behavior.

In fact, Zhang Zhang is a person who is naturally suitable for a corrupt life. From the initial family environment to the later work environment, sex is definitely an embellishment and a necessity for him in life. Even when he was young, he firmly believed in a principle that he could fall in love with A person can get married, but acting out in social situations is a necessity for his career. He doesn't have to guard his lover like a jade, he just needs to leave his deepest feelings to the other party.

But Lei Gang can't, he knows that although Lei Gang only said it once, it is enough to show that he cares about it. After all, Lei Gang is not a person who likes to talk too much. If he understood, then Lei Gang would definitely endure it, but Lei Gang said that when he clearly understood where Lei Gang's bottom line was, Lei Gang made a request to him.

Therefore, he must be patient and restrained. He dare not touch Lei Gang's bottom line. After all, it is the request of the only person he cares about in this life. When he can restrain himself, he must maintain it to the best. In this way, he is qualified to ask for it. The complete Lei Gang, the complete, unblemished love, the pure heart.

Life is just a transaction, with a clearly marked price. In his opinion, this is true, and so is the reality. The kind of saints and fathers who sing that love is free and dedicated, but they have never really experienced the twists and turns of life, they only know the blindness of innocence That's all.

What do you get in exchange for free dedication?Greedy, capricious, and ignorant of cherishing.

Such a pessimistic setting is the final conclusion he reached after experiencing the baptism of reality.

Four days later, Zhang Zhang handed Lei Gang an ID card, and Lei Gang raised his eyebrows in surprise looking at the photo and name on it.

The photo is of an unknown woman, with long hair, ordinary looks and even a little rustic, but the name is Zhang Zhang, the date of birth, and the place of household registration are all Zhang Zhang's real addresses, except for the gender column, which is female.

Lei Gang's hand holding the ID card was tightly squeezed, and he even suffocated slightly.

"Dead." Zhang Zhang said, "The woman in the photo is dead. Uncle Cheng can only do this. After getting married, the National Security Bureau will issue a death certificate for this person in two years. By then You just need to report to the army."

"..." Lei Gang looked at the ID card and the name on the name bar, his Adam's apple slipped, and he even trembled slightly.

Zhang Zhang couldn't help but pull back his ID card, took a closer look, and said with a smile, "No way, at least my name must be on your spouse column, otherwise it wouldn't take so long."

"Zhang Zhang..." Lei Gang looked up at him, his eyes were bloodshot at some point, "Is he really going to die? Death certificate?"

"what?"

"I don't know..." Lei Gang lowered his head dejectedly, and raised his hands to hug the top of his head, "I don't know, it's unlucky, really, unlucky."

"Ha." Zhang Zhang was speechless, "I'm still alive, and I'll always be alive."

Lei Gang shook his head hoarsely, and said in pain, "No, I don't even dare to think about what you are doing now, I am very scared, I am really afraid that there will be a day when I..." Lei Gang raised his head resolutely , the crimson eyes hit Zhang Zhang's eyes, and he said depressedly, "I'll go to your place, I can do it, my skills have not degraded over the years, and I still have the qualification to stand by your side, whether it is danger or death , at least let me face it with you."