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Sometimes, some things, some decisions, some feelings, really exist for no reason.

Zhang Zhang still remembers how hard it was for the first four months, as if he lost interest in everything around him, the picture in front of him turned into black and white, and the expressions of the people coming and going were monotonous, as if they were in Watching the early silent films, you have to read the subtitles to understand these people and what these things are trying to express.

Looking at the blue sky and white clouds in front of him now, Zhang Zhang thought...

Perhaps, this is the sea and the sky to take a step back.

Perhaps, this is the satisfaction of getting what you want.

The longing still exists, but it is like warm water flowing from the mouth to the stomach, warming the pores and making people feel comfortable.

Xiang Shuo said that this is sustenance, and people will find their goals when they have sustenance, and then they will continue to move forward.

Zhang Zhang thinks it is, but he is a little annoyed by his emotional changes. This is not an excuse. Although he has experienced a lot in a short period of time, these ups and downs will appear in the end. It is true that his heart is not strong enough, so he is called The inexplicable emotions took me all the way to the detour.

Thinking about it now, Zhang Zhang is a little scared. Others don’t know, but he himself knows what the end of that detour is, betrayal and depravity. Because he was betrayed, he wanted to betray, and because he was hurt, he wanted revenge. The desire to breed is still bound by a frame when you lose your sanity, so you can turn back.

In the letter to Lei Gang, Zhang Zhang vaguely mentioned his situation at the time, and Lei Gang's reply contained such a passage——

Maybe just like what you said, the shackles of belief are terrifyingly weak, but one thing you cannot deny is that no one or anything can destroy your sense of mission, because it has become your instinct.

[Marx once said: "As a definite person, a realistic person, you have regulations, missions, and tasks. It doesn't matter whether you are aware of this. This task is due to your needs and out of its connection with the existing world.”]

When you didn't understand 'it', you have already learned 'it', because your current life has been completely constructed by the sense of mission, 'it' has created you now, if you want to give up 'it' ', then it is tantamount to giving up on yourself.

And people never give up on themselves.

……

This long passage made Zhang Zhang feel a little funny, but he was inexplicably deeply touched. Perhaps as Lei Gang wrote, if you want to learn to betray, you really can only learn to give up yourself first.

As for giving up on himself, Zhang Zhang has to admit that he doesn't have that much perseverance. After all, giving up on himself is far more difficult than making himself happy.

After an arms deal was over, Zhang Zhang returned to the Philippines, and Xiang Shuo handed him a document with a B-ultrasound photo under the document. He picked up the photo and looked at Xiang Shuo with raised eyebrows.

Xiang Shuo narrowed his eyes and said, "Your son, I want to be a godfather."

"How many months is this?"

"It took more than three months for the operation to be performed. This child is only two months old. I said you didn't ask why, so you won't forget?"

Zhang Zhang twitched the corner of his mouth, well, now that he has a child, his father really doesn't care.

Xiang Shuo poked his head over to look, squinting his eyes, "I just saw a black hole, can you understand it?"

"..." Zhang Zhang was silent, he couldn't understand this thing, "Why did you send this?"

"I heard that Section Chief Cheng called to send it over, and he asked me if I would like to send a copy to Lei Gang."

Zhang Zhang was stunned for a moment, yes, what about this child, if Lei Gang knew, he couldn't strangle himself to death?What did you think when you first did this?Oh, by the way, it's an explanation to Lei Gang's family.

"What's the child's name? Have you ever thought about it? Is it Lei Gang after your surname? I think it's Lei Gang's surname? Lei what?"

"Lei Zhenzi." Zhang Zhang answered absently.

'puff! Xiang Shuo laughed.

Zhang Zhang reacted, "No, what about the name Lei Zhen?"

"Not good." Xiang Shuo shook his head, "Now the child makes jokes from the name. By then, the word 'zi' will not be removed. The child must hug you and make trouble. Why don't you call it Lei Zhang? Anyway, it's the two of you. .”

Zhang Zhang shook his head, "It's still early, I'll give Lei Gang a break first."

At night, Zhang Zhang wrote a letter to Lei Gang, and said a lot. At the end, Zhang Zhang asked, if you have a child, what name do you plan to name?

In Lei Gang's reply letter, he deliberately ignored this inquiry and didn't mention it at all. Zhang Zhang probably knew what Lei Gang was thinking, and probably knew that the two of them were destined to have no children if they were together.

Zhang Zhang pressed the matter down, and will talk about it later when we meet.

Lei Gang has been in a strange mood here, ever since Zhang Zhang asked him what name he would name the child, he has been in constant anxiety.

He can understand Zhang Zhang's working environment, but it doesn't mean he likes it. It was okay at first, but now that they are together, he feels a little nervous when he thinks about it.

Now, this question is like a thorn in his heart.

He remembered that Zhang Zhang said before that he may have many sons outside, so he doesn't want to bring one back now, does he?

This kind of association is simply chilling.

He had to admit that he didn't like the fact that there was something between Zhang Zhang and himself, especially when it was born in the body of a woman he didn't know. The strong sense of disobedience made him uncomfortable.

He had tried hard to think about it and tried to understand it. After all, Zhang Zhang's working environment was very complicated and dangerous. This kind of people always hoped to keep their own blood, and even he himself hadn't thought about it.

But, now that he has accepted being with a man and a future without offspring, can he stop making trouble?The two of them got their jobs in order, and then they thought of a way to live together, start a family, and live in a house with two people. This idea was enough for him.

When Lei Gang was called out by Lin Feng, he was still thinking about this matter. The two looked at each other in the corridor, feeling a little inexplicably, and they were quite emaciated.

Lin Feng got his wish and Zhu Zi moved to the same dormitory. The two of them lived a good life, but as the date of leaving the team got closer and closer, Ji Zhu Karma seemed to have taken dynamite, holding back, touching Just bomb, the blame is that Zhu Zi never got angry with Lin Feng, others bombed indiscriminately. Falcon is impetuous.

That's right, the old one is about to retire, who can stand the relationship built up in the past three years?Those who changed jobs, those who were transferred, those who were discharged from the army, and those who were discharged from the army. In the early stage, there were still correspondences. After a long time, and the more things experienced, it may gradually fade away, and finally there is no news.

Ordinary soldiers stayed together for two years, and when they separated, a man eight feet tall could cry like that, let alone them, no one would be willing to part with it!

The new peregrine falcons are assembled downstairs, ready to go, the instructor is still the same instructor, and the way of tossing people becomes more and more ruthless each time. Although all the recruits have lost weight within two months, their eyes are newly stained with sharpness. Sharpness, when looking at people, is like eagerly looking forward to the first time to leave the nest to hunt.

When Lei Gang and Lin Feng walked over, they saluted the instructor. The instructor nodded in return, his tough face remained the same, and he led him out while shouting slogans.

When he arrived at Tan Guohua's place, Tan Guohua was drinking tea, and the first thing he said when he saw them was his plans for the future.

Lin Feng smiled and said, "I might study further and go to the staff department."

"What about you?" Tan Guohua looked at Lei Gang.

Lei Gang pondered for a while, "Can I stay with Peregrine? Or stay with Falcon."

Lin Feng was a little surprised, he didn't expect that Lei Gang would really go this way, but after thinking about it, Lei Gang's character is indeed like this.

Tan Guohua tapped his fingers on the table and frowned.

Lei Gang froze for a moment, what does this expression mean?

After a moment of silence, Tan Guohua said, "The National Security Bureau has been looking for someone for me for a long time. In fact... I have been thinking about where it would be better for you to go."

Lei Gang fell silent, waiting for Tan Guohua to continue.

On the contrary, Lin Feng probably understood what Tan Guohua meant. If Lei Gang was treated so well in the army, Tan Guohua would obviously not let him go. Emboldened is not enough.

This is reality, there is no way, now is a peaceful age, people like Lei Gang who were born in an ordinary family, no matter how capable they are, without a backer, at most they can be a colonel, and they have to be able to do things and be a man to catch up with the good times After all, there is no war, it is very difficult for Lei Gang and Zhu Zi to get ahead.

Lin Feng looked at Lei Gang's side face and wanted to check his expression. In fact... he confirmed that he could help. Lei Gang's resume is very beautiful. He is now a lieutenant. He will definitely be promoted to captain before he retires from Peregrine , and then work in the army for three years at the company level. Before the age of 30, you can definitely be promoted to the deputy battalion and get the rank of major. Later, you can find a way to get Lei Gang and Zhuzi to go to further studies together. Before you retire, you can get the rank of colonel. None, but... is Lei Gang really willing?

He didn't believe that the National Security Bureau was so active and important this time. Zhang Sishao had never made trouble behind him. Compared with climbing up step by step in the army, how many people could escape if they had a good job and lived with their lover? Over this temptation?

Here Tan Guohua thought for a while and said, "I remember you once told me that you wanted to stay in Falcon, but... now the quota is full, it is really difficult to handle, the personnel transfer order given by the general logistics is to go to Chongqing The 13th Division of the 37th Group Army reported to the [-]th Division, but, look, the National Security Bureau was looking for general logistics a month ago, and the attitude was never positive. The transfer order has not been issued, but I hope you can choose yourself. of?"

After finishing speaking, Tan Guohua gave Lin Feng a wink, and Lin Feng suddenly realized why this old fox called him. It turned out that he had already taken a fancy to the relationship behind him, and he was counting on him to ask Lei Gang to stay in the army.But can this matter really be spoken?Tan Tou'er didn't know, but he knew what was waiting for Lei Gang over there.

"What kind of unit is the 37th Division?" Lei Gang asked, his fists on his knees clenched.

"There is an armored regiment and an infantry regiment. We will see which company we go to."

"Can I... think about it?" Lei Gang said with difficulty.

Tan Guohua gave Lin Feng another wink. Lin Feng lowered his head and looked aside. He just wanted to say one more thing, you don't want to look at me anymore. You would rather demolish a temple than destroy a family. Can I say that?

Tan Guohua was a little annoyed by Lin Feng's attitude. This was all about putting down his old face and begging for his soldiers. He thought it was a certainty, but why did it come to an end? What kind of trouble did Lin Feng make?

Lei Gang stood up, the chair scraped harshly on the floor, and said in a deep voice, "I'll give you an answer this afternoon."

"Half a day is enough?"

Lei Gang nodded.

"Would you like to come to my place for lunch?"

Lei Gang pursed his lips. He knew that Tan Guohua still wanted to persuade him, but he still had to think carefully about some things, "Can I make a phone call?"

"For the family?" Tan Guohua nodded, "Okay, this matter should be discussed with the family, go, I will notify the communication team."

Lei Gang saluted and walked out the door.

Lin Feng glanced left and right, smiled mischievously, and was about to get up.

Tan Guohua said calmly, "You stay."

Lin Feng squeezed out a bitter face, and sat back again.

Tan Guohua went around and closed the door, and stared at Lin Feng, "Okay, you, it is said that comrades-in-arms are brothers, and comrades-in-arms are deeply affectionate. Why didn't Lei Gang say that when he blocked the bullet for you? Ah? Can't you come back now? "

Lin Feng smiled embarrassingly, "What skills do I have? I'm just a soldier now."

"Soldier, soldier! I've never worried about you among this group of people! As far as your family's situation is concerned, just open your mouth, and all your brothers will be settled!"

"That's my dad..."

Tan Guohua was obviously very angry, he slapped the table directly, and there was a crisp 'pop', "I don't want your help now, when you get ahead, you still miss the old relationship, and if you pay attention to it, this matter will be resolved , Is it so difficult for me to make a promise from you?"

Lin Feng clenched his lower lip, feeling inexplicably blocked. In fact, it wasn't Tan Touer who said something to help his brothers. When it came to these things, he would be able to do anything about it. The problem was that Lei Gang's situation was not good enough. It's the same, but how can he explain it? He can't explain it!

Tan Guohua's chest heaved violently and stared at people, seeing that Lin Feng really couldn't force a word, he waved his hands and pushed people out impatiently.

In the group of soldiers he led, he really didn't worry much.

Shen Chen, a master of both materials, was on the lookout for the general staff of the army as soon as he came, and waited for someone to pass by after sweeping the couch.

Zheng Taiguo, the weapons research and development department also greeted him earlier, with his ability to play with explosives, he might be spoiled there.

Lin Feng didn't say anything, the road had already been paved, so he didn't worry about it.

Yang Baibai's family also has some connections, and his attitude is very clear. It is good to go back to the original army directly and have someone to cover him.

The rest of Hou Xiaolong, Jian Liang, Tong Youliang, and Lei Gang were all made by themselves. The first three had no objections, and even the transfer order was about to be issued. It was Lei Gang. After feeding this kid up, and now he wants to take advantage of the National Security Bureau for nothing, he feels uncomfortable.

Also consider! ?What to consider? ?This is to forget the roots!

It's just... As far as the conditions of the National Security Bureau are concerned, even he was moved by hearing it. In the past one year of internship, he was definitely promoted to section chief, and he was given a 120-square-meter house in Beijing, with a car, and a monthly salary of more than 4000. Count bonuses.

Oh shit!

Tan Guohua's teeth creaked, the National Security Bureau took the wrong medicine, right?

Here, Lin Feng ran fast all the way and caught up with Lei Gang, but he didn't know what to say when he came in front of him, he could only pat his shoulder and sigh.

Lei Gang glanced at him, lowered his head and continued walking.

Lin Feng walked a few steps behind, fixed his gaze on Lei Gang's slightly curved back, and frowned. Seeing this, Lei Gang was quite worried. The palm of his hand was fleshy, and the back of his hand was also fleshy. pain.

In fact, Lin Feng can quite understand Lei Gang's embarrassment. He doesn't know what conditions the National Security Bureau has imposed. Just having Zhang Sishao there is enough for Lei Gang to be reluctant, but he is used to it and loves it. , and always thought that he would work in the army for the rest of his life, no one would worry about making a choice between love and ideals.

Doesn't this include yourself?After retreating from the peregrine falcon, he and Zhuzi must have very little time together in the future, each has its own soldiers to lead, and the two men can't say who followed whose army, worry~~

Thinking of this, Lin Feng also hunched his back.

Every family has scriptures that are difficult to recite, let's solve it slowly by yourself.

Lei Gang walked to the playground and looked at the new peregrine falcons in a daze in the distance, with a lot of thoughts in his mind, but he couldn't find a clue.

Lin Feng also walked over, leaning his elbows on the iron railing and sighing.

Lei Gang looked back at him, and spoke for the first time, "His job is very dangerous."

"Huh?" Lin Feng was taken aback for a moment before he got on the number.

"And after a long time, the feelings will always fade."

Lin Feng didn't speak, but turned around and leaned against the railing. In fact, Lei Gang didn't necessarily want an answer, maybe he just wanted someone to listen.

Lei Gang continued, "Actually... it's fading, that is, the fate is over, and I can't force it, but I'm afraid that one day he will disappear suddenly, somewhere I don't know, he will disappear." Lei Gang lowered his voice. Looking at his feet, this thought haunted him like a nightmare, terrified, but powerless.

"Can't he back down?" Lin Feng asked.

"I don't know, maybe... no."

"More dangerous than us?"

"..."

"Can you help me in the past?"

"..." Lei Gang's eyes were blank. This was his most helpless place. He knew how weak he was only when he was around Zhang Zhang. What could he do in front of those militants and drug dealers?Can't do anything!In the end, Zhang Zhang still has to deal with it.Sometimes, in some circumstances, absolute force suppression may not be useful, and how much force do you have alone?

Lei Gang didn't speak, and Lin Feng fell silent.

In fact, from the bottom of his heart, Lin Feng still hopes that Lei Gang can stay in the army. After all, it is hard for him to imagine, is Lei Gang still Lei Gang who is not a soldier?

However, this is Lei Gang's own choice, and there are some things he really can't say.

Just like when facing Zhuzi, there are some things he can never say...

... Come with me, stay with me, watch the scenery in front of you together, watch the sunrise and sunset together, we will live in peace and stability...