Summer in Hagawa

Half a month before school started, Ye Chuan ushered in his first birthday since his rebirth.

Over the past few years, his life has focused on another person, and he is almost used to putting the need of Li's whereabouts first in everything.The idea of ​​wanting to do something for himself felt new and foreign to him.When he ordered the cake, he was still thinking: In fact, he doesn’t like matcha cake at all. Compared with the slightly bitter taste, he prefers the sweet fruit flavor: cherry, orange or kiwi.No matter which one is good, as long as it is pure and single fruit flavor.

He still can't accept that there are several kinds of fruits mixed together on the cake at the same time.

In the end, he chose the orange cake that both he and Shao Kai liked.Shao Kai felt that ordering a [-]-inch cake was a bit wasteful for only two people celebrating their birthday together, but Ye Chuan insisted on ordering this size and he had to go with him.After all, the birthday star has the most say on the day of his birthday.

Shao Kai originally thought that Ye Chuan might go back to Ye's house on his birthday.It was only later that I found out that Ye Ningde had taken Ye Shizheng on a business trip, and Qiao Min went back to her natal home to drink the full moon wine for her relatives' children. She would not be able to return to N City until September.Ye Chuan booked the restaurant early, and he was the only guest invited.At first, Shao Kai wanted to call a few classmates to come over and have fun, but later he felt that Ye Chuan and his classmates were not far or close, and if he invited them over rashly, maybe everyone would not be able to have a good time.Simply just the two of them, drinking and chatting, sounds good too.

The two of them went to pick up the cake on their way home from get off work, and then took a taxi directly to the Huaihai Road Sichuan restaurant that they had booked earlier in the morning.When the food and wine were served, Ye Chuan looked at the table full of red, red and green, and suddenly felt an indescribable emotion in his heart.

When he was with Li Xingzong, Li Xingzong also celebrated his birthday several times for him.The way he showed his favor was to take Ye Chuan to a French restaurant for a feast.Ye Chuan doesn't like steak, and his stomach always feels uncomfortable after eating half-rare beef.But Li Xingxing likes western food, and he took it for granted that everyone around him likes it as much as him, and never noticed that Ye Chuan's favorite is actually Sichuan food.Of course, there are also gifts, all of which he sent his assistant out to buy.The assistant is not familiar with Ye Chuan, so he can only try to buy some things that can't go wrong: men's products such as ties and cufflinks.Sometimes Li was very busy with whereabouts and didn't have time to look over, so the gifts were packed and delivered to Ye Chuan directly from the shop.They are all very expensive things, every time Ye Chuan holds them in his hand, he will feel a little sad.Because that's not what he really wanted.If he had a choice, he would rather Li Xingxing stay at home and eat a bowl of boiled noodles with him.

Ye Chuan drank two glasses of beer in one go, and felt that his mood had never been so relaxed.

"This is my birthday." He threw away the wine glass and toasted Shao Kai directly with the bottle in his hand. "Xiao Kai, this is my real birthday, a birthday I really celebrated for myself."

At first Shao Kai thought that he had been stimulated by something, but later he didn't feel like it. Instead, he seemed a little overjoyed.This made him a little confused.However, the birthday should be spent happily, at worst, both of them are drunk, so they call the second uncle to come and pick him up...

In such a distracted effort, Ye Chuan finished another bottle of wine.

"Eat some food, eat some food." Shao Kai hurriedly served him some food, "We agreed to drink all night, so what's the matter if you're drunk to death all of a sudden? Brother Shaw?"

Ye Chuan's constitution is naturally insensitive to alcohol.These few bottles of beer are really nothing to him.But the cold wine washed down his stomach, but it revived all the painful memories that had been suppressed in his heart.Ye Chuan could feel the unbearable hot and sour stuff surging in his chest, rising gradually along his blood vessels, as if it would turn into tears and burst out of the embankment in the next second.

But he can't cry, he knows, he can't cry since he was a child.

When his parents passed away, he didn't know how to be sad. He only knew that his world would collapse and his parents would never be able to go home.It was a kind of fear that went deep into the bone marrow. I was afraid and expected. I always felt that what others said was not true. Maybe if I blinked again, I would see my parents smiling in front of me.Others said that he was still young and didn't understand what was going on.But he knew it wasn't like this, he was just too scared, afraid that all of this was true, so scared that he shivered under the quilt all night and couldn't make himself cry.Later, grandma also left, and he guessed that grandma must be with his parents.

They were together, but left him alone.

There is no one in this world he can love.

It was at that time that Ye Chuan first thought of committing suicide.He also sometimes wondered if Ye Ningde hadn't picked him up from the funeral, would he have really... done something?

"Here comes your favorite dish." Shao Kai pushed the boiled fish in front of him, "Hurry up, eat a couple of bites while it's hot. It hurts my stomach just to drink."

"It's such a pain." Ye Chuan sneered, "I'm telling you, Xiao Kai. People don't kill themselves for their own sake. This sentence is absolutely true. If people don't cherish themselves and only think about others, God can't stand it... ..."

Shao Kai held down his wine bottle, stared into his eyes seriously and asked, "Tell me the truth, what happened?"

Ye Chuan raised his head and looked at him, his eyes were a little distracted.This is not a drunken look, but a kind of grief that cannot be extricated from being trapped in some emotion.

Shao Kai was sure that he definitely had something to hide from him.

"What's the matter?"

Ye Chuan subconsciously avoided his sight.

"Is there anything we brothers can't say? I know about your bedwetting when you were young."

Ye Chuan's heart warmed slightly.God didn't seem to be that mean to him.He has Shao Kai, who has been with him since he was a child, and has been with him until his death. He has never done anything to make him sad.My own life seems... not so failed.

Ye Chuan looked at Shao Kai's slightly nervous face, and a smile slowly appeared on his slightly pale face.

Shao Kai's expression loosened slightly, and his voice subconsciously softened, "What's the matter?"

Ye Chuan shook his head, he knew that this person cared about him sincerely.It's not because of his face and body, nor is it because of the relationship with the Ye family through him, even though he is as decadent as the mud on the street, even beggars don't bother to glance at him, this person still regards him as his brother.

After God closed all the doors, he kindly left him a window so that he could enjoy the brightest moonlight in the world.

His face was a little itchy, Ye Chuan stretched out his hand to touch it, his fingertips were wet, and actually...were crying.

"Chuan'er, what's the matter?" Shao Kai panicked.The two started playing together in crotch pants. He couldn't tell how many years he had known Ye Chuan, but he had never seen him cry.Even when Ye's father and Ye's mother passed away, he just crouched in the corner with a pale face, like a frightened animal, but he didn't shed a single tear.

He never knew that Ye Chuan could cry too.

Ye Chuan looked at the sparkling water on his fingertips, and suddenly understood that this thing exists not to commemorate pain, but to discover beauty.

After all the bad experiences are a thing of the past.

Those unbearable past events, unbearable injuries and pains have been refined by hell's karmic fire in the most painful way to become the nourishment for new life.

Everything has started anew.

Ye Chuan's tears fell unreservedly.The pain and grievance that had been suppressed in the bottom of my heart all came out with tears, but the feeling in my heart became more and more relaxed.

For the first time since his rebirth, Ye Chuan truly felt that his life had really started from scratch.