my fingertips for marriage

An Ye lost the bottle and slept soundly, he didn't even know when people came or went.

This time he didn't dream, and when he woke up, his mind was empty.

In the middle of the night, he slowly opened his eyes and looked to the side in shock. After Qiao Sheng's hair came into view, he relaxed a little.

Looking down, the man was sleeping soundly on the side of his hospital bed.In the same posture as before, one hand was holding onto his clothes, and the other was used as a pillow.

An Ye thought, just lie down like this for the rest of his life, don't leave the hospital, and he doesn't want to be discharged either.

In the situation he was in yesterday, he said that he liked Qiao Sheng, but the man still responded with the words "I know".

But what happened to Qiao Sheng's farewell phone call?

He remembered Qiao Sheng saying that if he wants to say goodbye to the person he likes, the person he likes refers to him, right?

He still remembered that Qiao Sheng said that he couldn't walk anymore...then why did he go?

An Ye hammered his heart, put one hand on Qiao Sheng's hair, and gently rubbed it, "Brother." He asked, "Which sentence are you telling the truth? Which sentence are you trying to fool me?"

When he was struggling, A Dong walked into the ward.

An Ye immediately made a 'shh' gesture to him, and asked him in a low voice, "What's wrong?"

"Boss." A Dong lowered his voice, "Madam and Brother Sheng have met."

An Ye was startled, "When?"

"While you were fast asleep."

"Is there a mess?"

A Dong shook his head, "The two of them didn't make a fuss, and their expressions were quite calm. Madam seems to know that Brother Sheng is here, and Brother Sheng also knows that he will meet her."

"Is it very calm?" An Ye couldn't believe it.

"Yes. Also, Madam told Brother Sheng that he must leave immediately after you recover."

"What did Brother Sheng say?"

A Dong blinked, "No... didn't say anything, just said 'yes'."

An Ye slowly closed his eyes, "Understood, you can go out."

When A Dong left the room, An Ye fell into deep thought. He was thinking about what would happen next, what would happen after he recovered from his illness.He had to let Qiao Sheng stay, but going to the hospital was not an option. If Qiao Sheng wanted to leave, he would really disappear one day.

But how to keep him?

Said that he likes him, said that he will give him a jungle mansion, said that he will die if he leaves...

But none of them could leave him.

An Ye was a little flustered at the moment.

"What are you thinking?" Qiao Sheng's voice came from the side.

An Ye looked at him, he had sat up and stared at his face for a while.

"I'm thinking about my brother." An Ye said honestly, "I'm thinking about how I can keep you when my condition improves."

Qiao Sheng didn't want to stimulate him, so he squeezed his hand to mobilize his blood, "Don't think about it, just lie on the hospital bed and have a good rest, and don't think about it."

"I feel much more energetic and want to go down and run a couple of laps."

"That's not going to work. Rest if the doctor tells you to rest. You must be obedient."

"Brother is afraid that something will happen to me, isn't it?" An Ye looked at Qiao Sheng for a moment, and smiled at the corner of his mouth, "That's great, it shows that we still have feelings for each other."

Qiao Sheng loosened his muscles and bones, and said casually: "I'm afraid that something will happen to you. If you don't know, forget it, I will definitely not be able to bear your death in front of me." He stared at An Ye's hand, and continued: "You said Speaking of you, you are like an old fritter when dealing with group affairs, how can you be so childish when dealing with emotional matters?"

An Ye wanted to speak, but Qiao Sheng blocked his mouth with his fingers, and shook his head at him, "Listen to me, listen to me."

An Ye nodded, and Qiao Sheng let him go.

Qiao Sheng gently kissed the back of An Ye's hand, held it in his palm and looked at it for a long time, "When you were young, my mother said that I would never let go of your hand. How could I understand these things back then? Maybe I thought you were funny, so I did it. Later, as you got bigger and bigger, I wanted to hold on to you more and not let go. When I understood things like feelings, I felt that I was going to be finished, and I would run away for the rest of my life. I can't get out of An Ye's palm."

He smiled, "In the third year of high school, I was very angry about what happened at home, but I don't blame you. After all, there is a wrong and a debt. You have nothing to do with these things. I planned to give up the exam, but my mother insisted Wanted me to go to college. I just endured the pain and went to school and took the exam like nothing happened. I saw you smile at me, and my heart ached like hell."

"Later, I told my mother that I couldn't see you anymore, and my heart ached. Either I died or I ran away, so this matter can be resolved." Qiao Sheng sneered, "My mother is not willing to let me die , and ran away together with me. She was diagnosed with leukemia in those days, but she didn’t tell me, until I chose a good university, and I didn’t know when she developed the disease.”

"Fortunately, there was a bone marrow match that suited her very quickly. I gave the other party all the inheritance left by my father and begged him to save my mother. After the other party agreed, I chose to go to Pingzhou to study. A secondary school that is free for me, and I brought my mother to live there."

An Ye was a little excited, he wanted to sit up, but was pushed down by Qiao Sheng.He rubbed An Ye's hair, with tears in his eyes, but he smiled at him: "Listen obediently, I'll only tell you this once."

An Ye nodded, and reached out to wipe the corners of his eyes.

Qiao Sheng continued: "My mother was in poor health after the operation, so I worked part-time to help her earn medical expenses, earn rent, and earn living expenses. Those days were the days I least want to recall. I was very tired. I opened my eyes every day. I just thought I might as well die from exhaustion. But looking at my mother's figure, I was reluctant to let her be alone in this world, and I knew that a lady like her would die without me."

"Afterwards, I got used to this kind of life and saved money." Qiao Sheng shook his head, "My mother may be getting old, and she suddenly became sentimental. She said she wanted to die in the same place as my father, and she wanted to go back to the gentry. I came to the city and passed away quietly. I had a lot of resistance at the time, I didn’t want to come back, I didn’t want to see you and your family, but I wanted my mother to be happy, so I came back with her.”

"Brother." An Ye grabbed Qiao Sheng's hand, "Brother, why don't you let me help you? Didn't you say you don't blame me? Then I can help you live."

Qiao Sheng looked at him indifferently, "Because you are An Yuecheng's son, I don't want you to help me."

"I..." An Ye's heart stopped for a second, "Brother, I..."

Qiao Sheng rubbed his hair, "Xiaoye, it's all over. I originally brought the hatred for your father to you, but I found that I couldn't hate you the first time I saw you. I can't even hate you if I hate myself."

"Xiaoye." Qiao Sheng stared at the person in front of him, "It's time to mature. There are some things you have to see clearly. There is a difference between being in love with each other and being able to be together."

"I do not want......"

"Xiaoye, if this happened to you, what would you do? Would you still be with me and face my parents who are living well?"

An Ye was dumbfounded, he had never thought of this before.Yeah, what would he... what would he have done if things were different?

"So." Qiao Sheng tapped his finger on An Ye's cheek as he did when he coaxed An Ye when he was a child, "You can't always be a child, you have to think about our affairs with an adult's thinking. You want Me, if you want me to sleep with you, I can do it, but together, you have to understand it yourself."

An Ye pushed his hand away, "If I fucking want to sleep with someone, I can't find anyone. Don't you understand why I'm looking for you?"

"Of course I understand that you want to marry me and be with me for the rest of your life. But everyone except you knows it's impossible." Qiao Sheng pointed to the door, "Just now, I met your mother. She We all know that it is impossible for us to be together again, so she doesn't even drive me away, because she knows that I will leave by myself."

An Ye covered his ears, "I don't want to hear it."

"Xiaoye, don't let me tell you the same thing every time, okay? You are so smart, why are you so confused about this matter..."

"You fucking shut up, I don't want to hear any more."

Seeing that he was getting emotional, An Ye immediately closed his mouth. He gently pulled his arm back and put him under the quilt.Pushed him aside again, and lay down with him.

"Go to sleep, Xiaoye." He said softly, "If you fall asleep, you won't feel uncomfortable."

An Ye buried his face in his arms, his body trembling involuntarily.

Qiao Sheng knew that he was crying. This man had never cried in front of him in these years.Because he always said: How can I cry in front of my daughter-in-law, I want to be strong and protect my daughter-in-law.

However, An Ye cried today, and Qiao Sheng knew that he wanted to cry a long time ago, and today he couldn't bear it anymore.

Staring at the lights in the ward, Qiao Sheng didn't feel sleepy at all.He hugged the trembling person in his arms, thinking about the oath he made before: I won't let Xiaoye feel sad because of me.

How naive it was to say those things before.

He thought that the things that would make Xiaoye sad were just those things about the love between his son and his daughter. He would not be promiscuous outside, let Xiaoye rest assured of him, and would not let Xiaoye be sad because of these things.But he never thought that the things he was worried about were the simplest future, so simple that he never thought that there would be such a thing as "revenge of killing his father".

He kissed An Ye's forehead lightly, but felt that it wasn't enough, so he lifted his chin and kissed his trembling lips.He wiped the tears from his face and unbuttoned his clothes without warning.

"Xiao Ye. I want you once too." He whispered in An Ye's ear.

An Ye looked at him in surprise, thought for a while, and pulled him onto his body.