control violence

Until the end of the college entrance examination, Zhou Yi never met Chen Duo again.

Chen Duo didn't try to hide from him, and when he was extremely busy, he really couldn't see anyone, but Zhou Yi was avoiding meeting him.

Zhou Yi admitted that he was actually in a bad mood that night, because he never let go of Han Zhao's words. He knew that Qi Minshu's matter was Chen Duo's bottom line, so he absolutely couldn't ask, but the aggrieved fire in his heart burned more and more. Wang, he was a little eager to prove his position in Chen Duo's heart, to see how much he could be pampered, as if the more Chen Duo let him go, the more important he was to Chen Duo.

But what Zhou Yi didn't expect was that he suddenly found that Chen Duo was not paranoid, but liked, so he forbears.

When Chen Duo finally confessed, Zhou Yi felt even heavier.

Because Chen Duo finished his college entrance examination and was about to leave here.

A series of procedures, such as pre-approval for applying for the police academy, political examination and physical examination, etc., made Chen Duo too busy to have any time alone with him, and Chen Duo had to go to Nanjing in advance to rent a house near the university to find a job and arrange life. It was time to say goodbye The day is tomorrow.

What Zhou Yi couldn't stand the most was waiting for the time to separate, so he stayed in the Internet cafe until the early hours of the morning, avoiding it deliberately and not facing it.

When he opened the door and walked into the dormitory in the middle of the night, the first thing he noticed was not the sound of running water in the toilet, but the empty beds.

His top bunk had only one plank left.

Zhou Yi had a sore nose inexplicably, sat on the bed and smoked a cigarette without saying a word.

Chen Duo came out from the toilet after washing his face, looked at him, and called Zhou Ge.

"What time will we go?" Zhou Yi pretended to be choked by the smoke, tilted his head and coughed, but in fact he was covering up his trembling voice.

Chen Duo's Adam's apple rolled: "Six o'clock tomorrow morning."

"Still," Zhou Yi was a little speechless, "whether or not."

Chen Duo bowed his head, and what should have been said "No" turned into: "Next year, it depends on the situation."

Zhou Yi hummed.

"Brother Zhou," Chen Duo called this title more and more recently, "Have you ever planned to apply for a major?"

Zhou Yi was silent for a while, and said directly: "Beijing."

There's no need to be so reserved.

What you care about is not my major and university, but the city.

is the distance.

"Well," Chen Duo leaned against the wall and closed his eyes, "There will be opportunities in the future."

Zhou Yi took a sharp puff of the cigarette in his mouth, but did not speak.

What else is there, a chance, a fart chance.

Two such big cities, two people who are busy struggling for their lives, each have their own new circles and friends, how can there be a chance like this again.

"Chen Duo," Zhou Yi looked up at him, and called out again: "Chen Duo."

"I'm here."

"You," Zhou Yi tried his best to say: "Can you let me get to know you?"

"Get to know your old self."

After Zhou Yi finished speaking, he felt a little uneasy, and the look in his eyes when he looked at Chen Duo was not so firm. This is Chen Duo's bottom line. He knew it clearly, but he just wanted to ask clearly. No chance.

Chen Duo said without hesitation: "Okay."

"That guy named Qi Minshu, boy," Zhou Yi paused, "Have you two been together before?"

Chen Duo seemed to have expected that he would ask this, and said calmly: "We have confessed to each other, but we are not together."

Zhou Yi was breathless for a moment.

"He was in the same school as me in junior high school, and his performance in the senior high school entrance examination was abnormal and he could only apply for the tenth high school," Chen Duo said without any ups and downs. "At the New Year's Eve party in the first year of high school, he danced a classical dance."

"After the dance, you will be regarded as an outlier in the school, and then you will be isolated." Chen Duo paused: "And then, school violence."

Zhou Yi listened quietly, then lit a second cigarette, and he fell down.

It's because he doesn't discriminate against boys dancing this kind of dance, but he also knows very well who most of them are in the ten middle schools. They are just frogs at the bottom of the well with closed minds, and ignorant villagers who have very little tolerance for "special people".

"The things he has experienced are similar to mine. Being nicknamed, spreading rumors, being tricked and beaten, and verbally abused are all routine," Chen Duo said: "They think boys dance that kind of dance, mother, it's neither fish nor fowl. , so it was rumored that he was transgender, gay or something.”

He habitually took out his trouser pockets, wanting to smoke, but suddenly remembered that he had quit, "The biggest harm these rumors did to him was that it attracted Ma Wenshan."

Chen Duo said indifferently: "Ma Wenshan played with him for two and a half years, and he dared not tell anyone. He was afraid of being retaliated, and also afraid of being rejected by others. He couldn't afford to lose face."

"When he was half dead, I just confessed to him, and he agreed, so I applied to the tenth high school." Chen Duo suddenly sneered, "On the day I gave a speech in the first year of high school, he asked Ma Wenshan to come and see me."

"He told Ma Wenshan: Go and see if the freshman on the stage looks very similar to me, and he is really gay."

Zhou Yi could probably guess the following series of things, and cursed a beast in his heart, the sympathy that Qi Minshu had just produced disappeared immediately.

"He had mental problems at that time, and he told me everything alone, all of it," Chen Duo exhaled, "He knelt at the door of my house in the middle of the night, kowtowed and asked if I could Go for him."

"For him to be gang-raped by Ma Wenshan, for him to endure campus violence, for him to share some mental pressure, and let him get out of the college entrance examination."

"Just because everyone says I look too much like him."

"Just because I confessed to him when he was at his worst, he wanted to ruin my life just because he liked it."

Chen Duo still asked Zhou Yi for a cigarette, and when the smell of smoke filled his throat, he regained his composure, "The video was taken when Ma Wenshan went to him for the first time, and it was always used to blackmail him. After Ma Wenshan found out what he was thinking, he thought he was dishonest, so he sent the video to the school post bar."

Chen Duo took a sip of the cigarette in his mouth, "After watching the video, the whole school was guessing whether it was me or him. When Qi Min was in a hurry, he posted a post saying it was me, and he also posted a screenshot of my confession, saying that I was gay, I was gang-raped, had AIDS, and was adopted, so I rejected my confession."

"Tsk." Chen Duo lost interest as he talked, almost feeling like he was talking about his black history.

Zhou Yi was also annoyed when he heard it. For the first time, he saw that people can be so selfish, which is sad and hateful. When they are cornered, they can really do these things.

"So he was insane and committed suicide by jumping off the building, and wasn't pushed down by Ma Wenshan?" Zhou Yi asked.

"It's also possible that I was scared out of my wits," Chen Duo said with a smile, "I stabbed Ma Wenshan with a knife because of a manic attack. He was there at the time, and after watching the whole thing, he was afraid that I would retaliate against him, so he just jumped down. gone."

"Then will you know it?" Zhou Yi looked at Chen Duo.

"No," Chen Duo's smile deepened, "I told you to take revenge on your first love and slash his face with a knife, can you handle it?"

"My first love is you."

"Yes," Chen Duo scolded grass with a smile, "great."

Zhou Yi also smiled, but his tone was extremely serious: "I'm not lying."

"I didn't take it seriously."

Zhou Yi hummed, not knowing what to say.

There was not much time left to continue talking, he took out his phone to check the time, it was already 5:[-] in the morning.

"You should go."

"Half an hour left."

"Yeah." Zhou Yi was exhausted physically and mentally at this moment. He lay on his back on the bed and covered his eyebrows with his arms, and didn't make a sound.

He really hated this atmosphere, the feeling of waiting for separation every second, it was too suffocating.

He got what he wanted tonight and suppressed the fire in his heart. Chen Duo confided in everything he had never voluntarily told others.

out told him.

But what's the use.

What stood between the two of them was not Qi Minshu at all.

It's life, it's stark reality, responsibilities, pressures, burdens, a different place.

The sense of security that Chen Duo gave him was not only when he was afraid of ghosts in the middle of the night, he didn't hang up the phone all night, Chen Duo was his only friend here, and when he left, he was alone again.

He has always liked being alone since he was a child, and he is also used to being alone, but now he is extremely afraid of loneliness and wants to escape desperately.

"Don't send me WeChat in the future, replace it with a text message, and reply quickly."

"Ah."

Chen Duo picked up the suitcase and was about to leave, "School starts early, closed military training hands in my mobile phone, I may not be able to contact you for a long time."

"Ah."

"I'll record a voice for you on the train later, and listen to it when I'm scared at night."

"Ah."

"Don't cry."

"Yeah." Zhou Yi couldn't help it anymore, "Hurry up and go."

Chen Duo didn't say anything, put on his coat and pushed open the door of the dormitory. The moment the wind blew in, he was in a trance, as if he had returned to last summer, when he and Zhou Yi had just met.

"Chen Duo," Zhou Yi shouted with a choked voice behind him, "Come here."

Chen Duo turned around and walked to his side, bent down and put his hands on his sides, looked at him and said, "Dimples?"

"Where is it?" Zhou Yi looked at his expressionless face, where there were no dimples.

"Do you think," Chen Duo's voice became a little hoarse, "can I fucking laugh now?"

"How the hell do I know where my kiss is?"

"Then don't kiss the dimple."

After Chen Duo finished speaking, he suddenly pushed him down on the bed, and kissed his lips directly.