Happy Little Days in Another World

My name is Lin Hao, I am a man, and I also like men.

I once talked to a friend, his name is Xiao Zihan.We've been together for seven years.I am 24 years old this year, and we have been together since we were 17 years old. In the end, we still can't stand the vicissitudes of time.

Xiao Zihan said: Lin Hao, what you love the most is yourself, and you are a cold-blooded person in your bones.

I think he should be right, because, without him, I live more freely.

I'm a foodie and I love passing place after place.Pay attention to passing by, I let me think from beginning to end that I am just a passerby, together with my life, I am a passerby in this world, coming and going in a hurry, just like any place or city I have been to.

After being separated from Xiao Zihan, I would occasionally think of him in the dead of night.But I found that he only had a vague impression in my memory.Rather than talking about impressions, it would be more appropriate to say a word. "Lin Hao, what you love the most is yourself, you are a cold-blooded person in your bones."

Seven years together, this is my last memory of Xiao Zihan.I thought, I'm really a cold-blooded person.Xiao Zihan was right.

Life is changeable, no one knows what will happen to you tomorrow...

I never thought that I would meet someone, lose my heart, and my whole life.Although, in the end, I still can't be with him for the rest of my life...

His name is Lan Jing, the man who walked into my heart and soul thoroughly, perhaps, he should be called a beast.I love this man very much, the degree is beyond my imagination and cannot be described in words, to put it in a cliché.I love him more than myself.

Actually, I don't believe in love.Xiao Zihan is right, I am a cold-blooded person, I don't care about this world, and my life is with it.

I didn't feel much about the inexplicable time travel. For me, it was just a trip to a special place.

I've always thought this way, until I picked up a little monster... everything started to change silently.

I never thought that I would undergo earth-shaking changes because of one person, gentle and caring, careful and tender.Just as I never knew that I had the potential to be an old mother, and I still enjoyed it so much.

I began to believe in fate, the bizarre time travel was for me to meet Lan Jing, the bizarre experiences and dangers were for me to fall in love with Lan Jing.I was thinking that after years of wandering and traveling, I was probably waiting for this miracle, maybe I was waiting for the blue mirror, waiting for a predestined origin, although, in the end, the predestined relationship disappeared.

The moment I knew I was going to die, I got it.In fact, the blood in my bones is hot, but only the right person can arouse my boiling.I think this should be true love.

At the same time, I was thinking.Did I do some heinous tragedies in my previous life to make God play tricks on me like this?

At the happiest time, I met death.

I once read a sentence in a book, it was very sensational, and I was very dismissive at the time.Now thinking about it, I suddenly want to cry.

It is an impulse that cannot stop tears, and it will make you feel pale and powerless like never before.

Because of you, I am afraid of death.

What a simple sentence, directly cuts to the hearts of the people, like a knife hurts like a fire, makes you miserable.

What a coincidence, just nine words, no more, no less, forever... It's not the same death.

The most painful thing is that I am so desperate, but I still can't cry, not only that, I also have to get along with the person I love the most, with cold eyes and relative indifference, I can't let Lan Jing see any flaws.I can't bear him, I love him, I am so afraid of death, that kind of fear makes me painful and helpless, more despair... I will never see Lan Jing again, the Lan Jing I love so deeply mirror.

We agreed that we would live together into the vicissitudes of life and become the old monster everyone feared.Why, suddenly everything is gone?

I was thinking, is it because we are too happy to cause God's jealousy, if possible, I am willing to give up my health in exchange for staying with Lan Jingyi forever.

But it’s useless, no matter what I say or ask, my soul is still aging rapidly day by day, and then I thought, I don’t want to stay together forever, can I just have 100 years?Exchange a vicissitudes of life for 100 years of growing old together.

No use, still no use.My body is getting weaker and weaker, and my spirit is getting worse day by day. I try my best not to let Lan Jing know about it.I don't want him to feel sad and hopeless. I just need to suffer slowly by myself.

If Lan Jing finds out, he will go crazy, because I have no hope of surviving.I don't want Lan Jing to do futile work, that kind of despair will be a hundred times more painful than the current despair.

I don't have much time. In this last time, I just want to look at the blue mirror well, just look at it...

I don't know whether to say that I overestimated myself or underestimated Lan Jing.Facing my indifference and neglect, he was still able to treat each other tenderly, with a gentle voice, doting eyes, and more love than ever.

No one knows how uncomfortable my heart is, as if someone is holding a small knife and cutting my heart one by one. The pain and self-blame are about to overwhelm me. I feel that before I die, I may die. go Ape.

This is the person I love the most, what am I doing...why do I hurt him like this! ! ! !

I want to cry, I really want to cry, I really want to hug Lan Jing and tell him: I don't want to die, I don't want to be separated from him.However, in the end, I was forced to hold back. I have persisted for five days, and the remaining days are running out. I can't tell Lan Jing, I can't tell him.

At this moment, I hated my calmness and rationality to the core... I was about to die, but I was still able to think things through so thoroughly.How good would it be if you could be more self-willed?Just one point, I want to hug Blue Mirror.

How much I want to escape, escape to a place that no one knows, and wait for death slowly by myself.In this way, I can freely vent and vent the despair and pain in my heart, and cry happily...

Today, everything is a luxury.I didn't even have a chance to cry!

This is my choice, and I must stick to it till the end.

At this time, I really want to die, come quickly, everything will be liberated after death.I don't want to watch Lan Jing being hurt by me, and I don't want to be in pain every day. Should I hug or continue to be indifferent?

I cried, and at the end, I couldn't resist Lan Jing's tenderness and affection, and wept wantonly in his arms.Tears, like a flood breaking through the fragile embankment of the heart.I said to myself, for the last time.Even if I die, I want to die in Lan Jing's arms.

Crazy entanglement, I am happy with my life.But, I don't regret it, it's death anyway, I hope to die in Lan Jing's arms.This is my last wish.

I think the heavens will be the same, because now we have no happiness, only endless despair and sorrow.

If there is an afterlife, if possible, I would like to continue with Lan Jing.But, faintly, I knew that it was impossible.It is impossible for Lan Jing and I to have an afterlife.

"Mirror, I love you." The words deep in my heart have never been said out of my mouth. It's not that I don't love, nor that the love is not deep, but that love has penetrated into the life and soul. Even if there is no language, each other can know each other. The other party's mind.

After saying this, his mouth was full of bitterness and sadness.Can I catch something?I want to grab something and prove that I am so happy.It proves that I once came to this world and met a man named Lan Jing, and we fell in love with each other for a period of time.

It's like a dream, the blue mirror is a dream of mine, he suddenly appeared, broke into my heart, broke into my soul, and we were drunk together...

Those sweet and beautiful happiness, those ordinary and warm life, every little bit in the courtyard.As well as exciting and thrilling experiences, true brothers will never give up.It's all a dream...

Life is a dream, and it must be prosperous and a handful of soil.

Now I'm going to turn into dirt. The loess covers not only my body, but also the happiness and warmth in the bright spring.

"I don't regret it" At least, I have been happy.

When death was approaching, the despair and confusion of several days disappeared, and my heart became extremely calm.

"Lan Jing, I don't regret... coming to this world... meeting you."

Whether it is short like fireworks or illusory or dreamlike, at least, I have been really happy.

I remembered that familiar sentence again: Lin Hao, what you love the most is yourself, and you are a cold-blooded person in your bones.

Who said it?That sums me up so thoroughly.I think, I am really a cold-blooded person.

"I can't stay with you for the rest of my life...after dawn, forget about me..."

At that moment, I really wanted Lan Jing to forget me, although I regretted it after I finished speaking.However, it was too late to regret, I stopped breathing and became a dead person, and finally, my soul dissipated in the sky and the earth.

The smoke cleared...

At this time, the night was thick and the darkness had just fallen.

After dawn, forget about me.

Lan Jing, miss me for one night, just one night is enough.

Then, forget me.remember, forget me...

Life comes and goes in a hurry, this world is the last stop of my journey, and I have gained the meaning and existence of life.

I, Lin Hao, exist for Lan Jing, and my life blooms for him.Lan Jing, meeting you, my life is enough.

Blue mirror, blue mirror...

How can life be without shock?

Blue mirror, blue mirror...

But, I can't bear you.

Blue mirror, blue mirror...

forget me, forget me.