Baiwei Ning Returns to the Sea

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"Then do you like me? Like I like you?"

When the momentum comes up, Fang Jinning will "force" Meng Hai to confess his love with such a persuasive sentence.Meng Hai just laughed most of the time, and occasionally responded, "Yes." Many times, the two of them hid in Meng Hai's room and whispered.After hugging for a long time, Fang Jinning gradually couldn't stand it any longer, and reached out to unbutton Meng Hai's collar.Meng Hai held him down and said wait.He didn't want to wait, grabbed Meng Hai's hand to untie his waistband, Meng Hai pulled it away with a puzzled face, still saying wait, wait.

"You still think I'm not a girl, don't you?" Fang Jinning already knew that Meng Hai was not like him, and had always only liked men.The night I kissed him, Meng Hai later admitted, "I don't know what to think of you."

"Look at it however you want, just treat me as me." Fang Jinning replied to him at the time.In fact, I was very confused, and I was afraid that I would still be unable to escape that wishful thinking in the end.

The room was silent for a while, Fang Jinning said: "How do you know if you don't try? Sooner or later, there must be this time." Meng Hai's desperate tone made Meng Hai laugh: "You are not old, and you are old-fashioned, just like someone who has been here."

"I once liked you." Fang Jinning defended with some grievances. He poked his head, pressed his forehead against Meng Hai's, and swore, "I will only like you from now on. I will just be with you and not anyone else."

Once Fang Jinning became sticky, he couldn't do anything else, so he often made marks on Meng Hai.On two occasions when he went to work in the field, Meng Hai sweated and took off his coat, and asked about the marks on the back of his neck and the sides of his arms.Meng Hai said: "Mosquito bites." That is to say, he, who usually spits out his mouth, is a nail.At present, the frost has been hanging for a long time, so there are still so many autumn mosquitoes.

From harvesting wheat to planting new wheat, Sichun almost made Fang Jinning "squint".Don't worry about taking a break from work, eating and meeting, as long as Meng Hai appears within his line of sight, he can't control his eyes.Meng Hai didn't notice it most of the time, and sometimes he happened to meet his eyes, and he couldn't help being moved, thinking: These are really seductive eyes. Have a good hug?

Within a few days of Lidong, the county began to publicize the new type of agricultural machinery imported from a large place, saying that it saves time and effort compared with the old ones, and can get twice the result with half the effort.The various teams waited and watched for a while, and they all planned to send people to visit and investigate first, and it would not be too late to pay for it after witnessing that it was really so powerful.The task of Mengcun fell to Meng Hai.He and the secretary of the brigade applied to bring another educated youth with him. The educated youth could write and count, so he would definitely be able to help.The poetry competition on the [-]th day of the first lunar month made the brigade secretary have a good impression of the educated youths in Mengcun, and he issued a letter of introduction without saying a word.

On the night before going out, Fang Jinning couldn't sleep, so he slipped out of the dormitory and knocked on Meng Hai's window.The lights in Meng Hai's room had already been turned off, Fang Jinning got into his bed in the dark, and sprayed hot air on his neck: "Please, brother, I can't wait until tomorrow."

"Don't make trouble, you have to get up early tomorrow." Meng Hai grabbed his hand that kept falling.He moaned like a cat with spring hair: "I feel bad... Brother, are you not feeling bad?"

"Don't make trouble, it's too late..."

"You let me touch. Touch, just touch it."

Meng Hai froze, and then he heard Fang Jinning let out a low cry, and giggled sullenly: "Why can't you bear it when you're already like this?"

Fang Jinning got tired of it, and Meng Hai broke out in sweat.Fang Jinning lingered against the sweat for a while before turning over and getting out of bed, and sighed, "I will sit until dawn tonight." He walked all the way to the educated youth dormitory with the cold wind blowing, thinking about Meng Hai's reaction Unable to hold back his laughter, he almost bumped into someone at the gate of the courtyard.

"It's you! I said people are scary in the middle of the night!" Hu Zheng's face with a cigarette in his mouth was particularly serious.Fang Jin would rather bother him, and said: "I was shocked too."

"Why didn't you go to bed in the middle of the night?"

"Go to the latrine. Why are you not allowed to go?"

"Huh! But how do you get back from the latrine?"

"I just want to blow some air, and the smell of your stinky feet will be all over the room when I go back home."

"Hey, Fang Jinning, why did I recruit you?" Hu Zheng threw the cigarette butt that was only as big as a fingernail on the ground, blocking Fang Jinning's way.Fang Jinning pushed him away impatiently: "I told you, I think your feet smell bad." For the culprit who disturbed his good mood all night, it's no wonder Fang Jinning can give him a good face.

This night Fang Jinning stayed up until almost dawn before falling asleep.The next day, he and Meng Hai embarked on what he secretly called a "honeymoon" in his heart.After a hard day, Meng Hai took him to a guest house at night.

"pain……"

"Forget it."

"no……"

"Then bear with it."

Fang Jinning put his arms around Meng Hai's neck and kept humming in his ear.Meng Hai almost bored him: "Why are you a cat? Just tickle people's mouths."

"Is it itchy?"

Meng Hai didn't speak anymore, just like when he went to work, he worked hard.After resting, Fang Jinning lay on the pillow and read Meng Hai's letter of introduction on the bedside table. The more he looked at it, the more beautiful he felt, and he muttered, "It looks like a letter of introduction from a couple."

"Say anything with one mouth." Meng Hai laughed at him, smoking a cigarette.He turned his face to the side, shaved a glance unwillingly, and then arched into the person's arms in the next second.

"It's burning you." Meng Hai hurriedly put the cigarette stick aside.Fang Jinning rubbed against him for a while, and asked while rubbing: "Is it a couple? Is it a couple? Are you doing it or not?"

"Be honest." Meng Hai put his arms around him forcefully, "It will still hurt you if you move."

"I am willing to suffer."

Another cloud and rain.Afterwards, Fang Jinning gasped and said, "Ever since you taught me how to use the sledge, I've always dreamed of you hugging me."

"Cuddling like this too?"

"It's not as good as this."

When the first snow fell, Fang Jinning and Meng Hai had an argument over whether they would be able to return home during the Spring Festival this year.It is said that there are still two months before the Chinese New Year, so it is not possible to make up your mind now, it was Fang Jinning who received a letter from his family and talked about it with Meng Hai, and Meng Hai only mentioned it.

"I want to celebrate the New Year with you." Fang Jinning said, "Last year doesn't count. I didn't eat dumplings in the same pot last year."

"When can't I eat dumplings? Your parents have missed you for more than a year."

"You don't want to celebrate New Year with me?"

"Why do you mean that?" Meng Hai sighed as if he couldn't make sense to him, "When you talk about it, you will be stubborn."

Fang Jinning remained silent, and after a while leaned over to push Meng Hai.Meng Hai raised his eyelids towards him.He touched the matches on the table and lit a pot of cigarettes for Meng Hai, and said, "Can't I find time to go back after the Chinese New Year? I'm not busy after the Chinese New Year, so I can ask for a few days off... Or you don't plan to criticize me." Fake?"

"It's all approved for leave, why don't you go back during the Chinese New Year?"

"Are you going to chase me?"

"Can you delay going back for the rest of your life?"

Fang Jinning understood.This is what Meng Hai really wants to say.The gap between them has never been gender, it is that they do not belong to a place from the root.

"Brother, don't tell me to go. Please, don't say such things. If I don't leave, just say so when I come..."

Meng Hai didn't say anything, just smoked his cigarette.Fang Jinning wasn't sure if he understood his anxiety.Fang Jinning himself didn't fully understand, he only knew that he didn't want to be separated from Meng Hai for a moment.After not seeing Meng Hai for a day, his heart felt empty and panicked.It turns out that being too happy can also make people afraid.

On New Year's Day, the stage that had not been used for many years in the village was set up again.A theater troupe came to perform, expressing condolences to the advanced brigade that has won the pennant of awards and pennants in the water conservancy competition for three consecutive years.The small square is more lively than the New Year, and the village is quiet.The door of the brigade warehouse was latched from the inside.

"Why are you so wild? Who did you learn from?" Fang Jinning couldn't help scratching Meng Hai as soon as he felt comfortable.Meng Hai put his hands on top of his head, put his nose to nose, and pretended to scare him: "If you make more money, you will be tied up."

"Are you tied?"

"Are you excited?"

"You can't bear it."

Meng Hai got up in disbelief, and he conjured a rope out of nowhere, and Fang Jinning was tied up by him before he could react.The air instantly evaporated.As if they were about to drown in each other, they were so excited that no one noticed the movement in the courtyard until there was a violent knock on the door.

"Open the door! Hanging curtains in broad daylight, what a good thing to do! How about some broken shoes?"

"Who's inside! Open the door!"

"If you don't open the door, it will be smashed!"

Fang Jinning was obviously stunned and froze, unable to react.The first thing Meng Hai did when he came back to his senses was to pull the quilt over Fang Jinning.It's too late for the rest.Just as his feet touched the ground, the glass of the door shattered with a bang, and a hand reached in to pull out the latch.Immediately afterwards, a group of people swarmed into the house.

No one expected that there would be two men on the bed.Everyone was stunned, and no one said anything for a long time.After a while, someone said in an embarrassing tone: put on your clothes before talking.Immediately there was a voice to refute: "Catch rapes into pairs! How can you catch rapes and make pairs with clothes on?! Besides, didn't you see one tied up? It's not yet clear what kind of incident this is! Don't destroy the scene! Dispatch the brigade The secretary is calling!"

This voice is Hu Zheng.Fang Jinning heard it first, but he didn't even have the energy to look up and stare, all he could do was bury his face in the quilt.Meng Hai could feel him shaking through the quilt.After all, a child in his late teens was terrified.

The brigade secretary rushed over after hearing the news, his face was harder than usual, and he heard the first sentence when he entered the room: "It's all gone! It's all gone! Let's gather around to watch the show?! Is it good? When is it? ? Do you want work points? Give me all to work in the fields!"

People backed out of the house and courtyard step by step.

The result of the interrogation was beyond everyone's expectations, including Fang Jinning.Meng Hai admitted that he was the one who forced Fang Jining to act like a hooligan.

"No!" Fang Jinning desperately shook his head beside him.

Meng Hai repeated affirmatively: "Yes."

"No! Secretary He, listen to me, it's not what he said!"

"I tied him up, you all watched."

Secretary He looked at Meng Hai, then at Fang Jinning, and finally decided: the two should separate and try again.At this moment, it was clear that Meng Hai, who was eight years older than Fang Jinning, was not an empty boss. He took all the faults on himself, and explained clearly from the motive of the crime to the process of the crime, saying that Fang Jinning did not dare to identify him because he was afraid of retaliation in the future.He once frightened Fang Jining, threatening that as long as Fang Jining was dishonest and uncooperative, he had plenty of ways to make Fang Jining never get out of Meng Village.

After being locked up for a week, Fang Jinning was released.The first sentence he spoke, he asked, "Where's Captain Meng? Why haven't you seen him?"

"Why do you still want to see him?" The man guarding him was full of astonishment, "Are you sick in the brain? Besides, he is not the captain! You can't see him anymore! He has already been taken away!"

After that day, as long as the team didn't work, Fang Jinning would stand by the door of the brigade secretary's office, explaining over and over again that things were not like that, you arrested the wrong person, and Meng Hai didn't bully me.At first, the secretary only heard him say a few words, but after a long time, he became impatient and yelled at him: "You still don't think you have embarrassed our brigade enough?!"

He is dumb.

The secretary closed the door, and poured out all the things that should be said and should not be said: "You think you can go to the half of the prison for him if you admit that you are voluntary? Don't be stupid! You are voluntary, you The nature of the two is even worse, and the influence is even worse! You are voluntary, and all the favors he has done for you, and all the rewards you have subsidized, are all because you have cooperated with him in abusing his power and stealing himself. Do you understand?! There is such a big A ridiculous stain hangs there, the advanced brigade is still advanced!..."

Fang Jinning didn't listen to the second half of the sentence, he only heard the word "prison".Meng Hai was sentenced to ten years in prison.He couldn't save anything, not even a chance to see Meng Hai.He collapsed.All hope is gone.Meng Hai took away all his hopes.

The gossip in the village never stopped.The way Ye Shanshan looked at him also changed.Fang Jinning was no longer interested in knowing what everyone was talking about behind his back.Anyway, after that day, he seemed to have no clothes on in the village.People looked inquiringly at his legs, on his back, and on top of his head.He knew what they were looking at, but he wanted to see the difference between him and other men, so that the upright and reliable Captain Meng would be a hooligan even if he gave up ten years of freedom.The villagers really don't understand.They do not believe that the "victim" is innocent.

"You must have taken off your pants in front of Meng Hai, right?"

"What's the use of taking off your pants? Has he grown into a woman?"

"Then who knows? I guess it's different from us."

Fang Jinning finally understood what it means to drown a person with saliva.A week before the Spring Festival, the secretary of the brigade came to him and told him that there was a job opportunity and he happened to be transferred back to the city, which was regarded as comfort to the victim.He froze for a moment before realizing that the victim was referring to himself.He said he would not leave, he would wait for Meng Hai.

"Your parents have informed you that they will pick you up in two days."

Fang's father and mother felt sorry for their son, since they brought Fang Jining back to the city, they never asked anything, for fear of aggravating his psychological shadow.His reticence seemed irritated to his parents.But in fact, he just missed Meng Hai too much, and memories became the most familiar part of his life.

"Why do I always feel that once I leave, I won't be able to come back?" He joked with Meng Hai on New Year's Day.That day he promised Meng Hai to go home before the year, and come back in the second year of junior high school.Meng Hai advised him to stay for a few more days, and he pestered Meng Hai and said, "When I think that I won't see you for a few days, I panic." "What are you panicking about? Can I still run away?" Hug me." The two got tired of going to bed while talking.

Now recalling this scene, Fang Jinning twitched his mouth violently: I call you Crow's Mouth!Call you Crow's Mouth!After smoking, I fell into the quilt and cried again.

Every half a month, he used all the two rest days he saved to go to Meng Village, looking for news about Meng Hai from the brigade secretary and the Meng family.He must know where Meng Hai was imprisoned.Six months later, he got an address.After traveling for three and a half days, he finally made it to the backcountry.The guard said, "It's not relatives who are not allowed to see." He stopped him outside the gate.He begged and tortured, and when he made an offering in front of people, he almost knelt down, it was useless.

Wiping away his tears, he left Meng Hai all the letters he had written in the past six months, as well as the clothes and food he brought to Meng Hai, as well as a photo of himself.After waiting for a month, he received a reply from Meng Hai.Meng Hai asked him: Ten years, can you wait?

I will wait all my life.He said.

Meng Hai's reply letter is the only motivation for Fang Jinning to survive.However, the reply to the letter became slower and slower, and the content gradually changed to Meng Hai saying: Don't wait, it's not worth it.Four and a half years later, Fang Jinning could no longer wait for letters, and all the letters he sent were returned.He immediately asked for leave to revisit the old place.As a result, people said that Meng Hai was transferred away and is no longer here.

"Where did you go?"

"Can that tell you? Who are you? Is there a formality? No, don't make trouble, just go."

When I went to Meng's house again, the house was empty.Fang Jinning learned that Meng's mother passed away a few years ago, and the elder brother's family moved to live in the county with the engineering team.What about the younger son?Also left, don't know where to go.These years, the Meng family has been both a laughing stock and a taint in the village. It doesn't matter if people chew their tongues after dinner, and they don't really care.At this time, Fang Jinning found that the educated youth spot was empty, and all his former partners returned to the city one after another.Seeing him wandering around the village, people asked him: Why are you still looking for Meng Hai?Ten years of prison still not relieved hatred?

It took Fang Jinning a lot of effort to find the eldest brother of the Meng family.Brother Meng saw that he looked like a ghost, and blocked the door with hands and feet.Fang Jinning forced his arm into the crack of the door.

"Please tell me, where is Meng Hai?"

"We have severed ties with him long ago! You shouldn't be looking for us if you look for anyone!"

"Please do me a favor. Tell me, I won't bother you any more. For the sake of my filial piety for Meng Hai every month..."

"You sent the money?" Brother Meng slapped his hands, and Fang Jinning squeezed into the room.As if he couldn't bear the subsidy his family had taken for so many years, Brother Meng calmed down: "I really don't know, I haven't contacted for how many years."

"Think about it, please..."

"Hey, don't kneel!" Brother Meng confused him, and the sister-in-law rushed over to push Fang Jinning: "It's useless to kowtow! I said, how can there be such a kind person! There is no rumor in the village. Wrong! You are not a good person! Hurry up! The children will come back from school later! You are shameless, we still want to be human! Let people live! You can find them if you move away! Go! Go! go!"

When Fang Jinning woke up from the excitement and went to ask Brother Meng to find out the address of the eldest sister, it was already half a month later.Brother Meng's family is gone.He and Meng Hai completely lost contact.

☆, 【five】

"How many eggs are there?"

"How much?"

"Do you have two catties?"

"Two catties and two taels, knock three, if you want to count the two catties, I will give you."

"Isn't this taking advantage?"

"No one wants these three alone."

——It was the spring of [-].Fang Jinning rode a bicycle to deliver letters between the buildings as usual.A male voice with a suburban accent brushed past his ears.He glanced back, and saw the back of a tall man who was busy working beside the tricycle: his clothes were washed white, he was wearing a pair of black cloth shoes with bare feet, and his hair was shaved to less than an inch.

Is that him?

Fang Jinning was taken aback, and quickly squeezed the brake.Jumping out of the car, a resident waiting for a letter in the next building stopped him.After digging out the letter and signing it properly, the man and the tricycle disappeared.The next day, Fang Jinning changed into normal clothes, came to this area by bicycle again, put the car in the parking place, and started to wander around.As a result, I wandered around all day, but that person didn't show up.

Ten years, how much is enough for a person to change?He didn't even know if the man was alive or not.It's just a back view... But even if it's just a dream, please ask God to let him have a few more days.

Fang Jinning began to pay attention to tricycles and people riding bicycles.Half a month later, I finally let him meet again.Can't go wrong.

"Meng Hai." He called.I don't know which trembled more violently, my voice or my heart.

The person being called visibly froze for a moment, turned his head to meet Fang Jinning's gaze, and immediately turned back.After a distance of about ten meters, when Fang Jinning ran over, the other party had already kicked up the tricycle.

"Meng Hai!"

The tricycle escaped faster.

"Meng Hai!...Brother!...You really don't want me anymore?"

The tricycle stopped, but the people on it still didn't look back.Fang Jinning walked a few steps and stopped moving forward, just staring at that back.The two of them got up and down and froze for several minutes. Meng Hai got off the car seat and gave Fang Jinning a sideways look: "I'm not telling you to forget me."

"Why did you forget? You teach me." Fang Jinning walked over and looked at him carefully.People in their forties are no longer as high-spirited as they were ten years ago.

"Don't look at it, it's nothing to see." Meng Hai turned his face away, as if he felt that his appearance was too embarrassing.

"Then look at me." Fang Jinning turned to the other side with his turned away face.

Meng Hai turned back again: "Why do you still love to stare at people like before?"

"Do you remember what I was like?"

"Why don't you remember?"

"Then why are you running?"

"........."

"Where do you live?" Fang Jinning asked.

"........."

"say."

"Ask what you're doing, what can you do if you know."

"What do you think?" Fang Jinning quickly climbed onto the tricycle and squeezed into a pile with several sacks of grain, "If you don't tell me, I will follow you all the time."

"What are you doing sitting here? Rubbing off all the dust."

"Don't drag me. Don't even think about leaving me behind!" Fang Jinning shook off his outstretched hand, his eye circles were red with anxiety and fear, "I don't see you again, where can I find you?"—— If he gains it and loses it again, he will really die.Out of the corner of his eye, Meng Hai froze for more than half a minute, took out a notebook from his pocket, wrote a line and handed it over, saying, "I live with my sister and my brother-in-law, at the western suburbs of the city."

"I didn't see you a few days ago."

"Not every day."

"How many days?"

"uncertain."

"Just rely on this to eat?"

"You can't live in someone else's house for nothing."

Fang Jinning hesitated again and again, but still asked, "When did you come out?"

"The beginning of the year."

After a while of silence, Fang Jinning got out of the car and turned over a few half-empty sacks.Meng Hai asked him, "What are you looking for?" He didn't say a word, he took out the car chain from the bottom of a sack, and spread it out in front of Meng Hai with his palms up: "Keys." Now Meng Hai couldn't run even if he wanted to.Every time Fang Jinning entered a building to deliver a letter, he locked the tricycle and held the key in his hand.

After returning to the post office at five o'clock, Fang Jinning led Meng Hai to his residence, and asked him on the way, "Where do you live when you don't go back?"

"It can't be dealt with overnight."

When he took out the key to open the door, Fang Jinning said, "This is my grandfather's house. He passed away the year before last, and now I live in it."

He made tea and fetched water, and threw a hot towel for Meng Hai to wipe his face.When Meng Hai was wiping his face, he wrapped his arms around Meng Hai's waist, "Brother, brother." He yelled endlessly.The gestures and tone are so intimate that there has never been a ten-year gap between them.But in fact, before today, he was still thinking: Even if he couldn't find Meng Hai for the rest of his life, he wouldn't be with anyone, and he would spend the rest of his life with memories.He didn't expect to meet Meng Hai again.

Meng Hai's heart was also pounding. In the past, Fang Jinning was attracted to him by this point: Don't take any gossip seriously, you can tell who is in his heart at a glance.Meng Hai raised his arms to hug him, but for some reason he couldn't do it.Fang Jinning gradually felt the hesitation, and said, "What's wrong with you? You don't want to be with me anymore?"

"...Let's not talk about this first."

"Why didn't you say it? What are you afraid of?" Fang Jinning frowned twice, then raised it abruptly, "Do you... have a family?"

"Nothing."

"what is that?"

"We... can't do it."

"Why not?"

"No."

"I say it will work!"

"Don't be stubborn," Meng Hai didn't look at him at first, "I'd better find a girl who is willing to live with you and marry her back..."

"I don't!" Fang Jinning interrupted him angrily, calmed down for a while, and then changed his tone, back to Fang Jinning ten years ago, when they were so sweet that they could say anything: "I just want to you marry me..."

Meng Hai's heart felt like it was scratched by a cat again, it was so itchy that he didn't even have the strength to move.He doesn't want to marry Fang Jinning?he thinks.He has been thinking about it for ten years in his heart, and if he doesn't think about it, he can't survive those days without freedom.But he really survived, but he no longer missed this person.To him, Fang Jinning was more like a dream in his youth.When it's over, it's over. At most, you can put people in your heart and think about it for a while.From the moment we separated ten years ago, he and he were no longer people from the same world.

"Why should I marry you?" Meng Hai said, "Why should I marry you?"

"Then I will marry you."

"........."

"Tell me?" Fang Jinning moved closer, with a teasing smile.

Meng Hai couldn't get rid of it, so hard. Bang. Bang poured cold water on him: "Can your parents agree?"

"Don't worry about them."

"Why not?"

"I'm in charge of my own affairs. They follow me in everything these years."

"You're thirty, don't be ignorant."

"Do you still know how old I am?" Fang Jinning's tone became aggrieved.Meng Hai knew that he actually wanted to say: I'll wait for you for ten years, so easy?

During the meal, Fang Jinning found that Meng Hai always turned the same side of his face to him, especially when he was talking.While washing the dishes, he deliberately stood on the other side of Meng Hai, leaned close to his ear and whispered something.Meng Hai turned his face hard and asked him, "What are you talking about?" His heart skipped a beat.

He wanted to ask Meng Hai: What happened to your ears?But he couldn't open his mouth.He put down the half-washed bowl without saying a word, and shut himself in the toilet.He didn't dare to cry his hearing-lost ear in front of Meng Hai, not only because he was afraid of provoking Meng Hai's past sufferings; he also didn't know how to face the fierce shame and self-blame.Just that rope saved him and ruined Meng Hai.How can he take the place of Meng Hai's pain, so that he can have the face to ask: "What kind of life have you been living these years?"

Almost an hour later, Fang Jinning came out of the toilet, and Meng Hai had already washed the rest of the dishes.Fang Jinning stood beside him and asked in a nasal voice, "Do you regret it?"

Meng Hai lightly shook his head.When he was young, he always heard his bedridden father ask him: "Who will look good in the future?" The Meng family lost face.After his mother passed away, except for the elder sister, the elder brother and the younger brother were all without him.He didn't know whether he should regret it or not.Even if he repented, he didn't want to forget Fang Jinning for a moment.

On the night when he and Meng Hai came back from the west of the city, Fang Jinning squeezed into Meng Hai's quilt and asked Meng Hai to hug him face to face.

"In a few days, I will tell my parents that I want to live with you."

"What?" Meng Hai froze.

"What's wrong?" Fang Jining didn't understand why he had such a big reaction.

"What's the matter?" Meng Hai pushed him away, "You don't know who I am?"

How could Fang Jinning not know that Meng Hai was a big gangster and rapist in the eyes of his parents, let alone a few years in prison, he would not be relieved if he was executed.

"Just explain it to them."

Meng Hai wanted to say that this matter could not be explained clearly, and even if it could be explained clearly, Fang Jinning's parents would not agree to their being together.Before today, he never thought that he would meet Fang Jinning again, even the moment he met, his first reaction was to run away.He didn't know whether he should squeeze into Fang Jinning's life after finally getting back on track.

But he came anyway.He thought, or just keep in touch and meet once in a while when we enter the city.But he didn't dare to think about living with Fang Jining for a long time.Even if Fang Jinning's parents were not considered, given the current situation, he might not even be able to afford his own life, so how could he support Fang Jinning.

"It's okay to just take a look once in a while..."

"What do you mean?" Fang Jinning knelt up, his facial features blurred in the dark room, "What do you mean by taking a look occasionally? What do you take me for?!"

Meng Hai didn't speak.

"What are your difficulties? Don't you just feel that you don't have a job and your life is not human enough?"

Meng Hai raised his eyes to look at him, you know what that means, why are you asking.

"Brother, the world is different now. If you don't have a unit, you don't have a unit. As long as you are willing to endure hardships, you won't starve to death. Besides, there is me, and I will support you." Fang Jinning leaned over and explained the other half of what he was thinking about: "Or do you think you're old? You're not old at all. I don't like you like this." As he spoke, he reached out to touch Meng Hai's strong arm, then slid to the side, and then down.Touching it made Meng Hai feel angry all over, grabbed his hand violently, and threatened him in a low voice like ten years ago: "Aren't you afraid of pain again?"

"I'm not afraid of pain now." Fang Jinning put his head against his head, "I just want pain, let me see how old you are."

One day, Fang Jinning came out of the post office after get off work and was stopped by a voice.Ten years seemed like a lifetime, it took him a while to remember Ye Shanshan.When talking about this chance meeting with Meng Hai at dinner, he sighed and said: "Unexpectedly, she despised Hu Zheng at that time, and finally married him. No wonder I felt familiar with that little girl's face, she really resembled her. dad."

These two names also made Meng Hai stunned for a while, and after a while he said lightly: "That kid has a lot of eyes."

"You didn't like him when you jumped in line."

"Those who are not real will not pay."

"I'm annoying him too." Fang Jinning sneered at the face in his memory, "Ye Shanshan also said that Hu Zheng knew she would be happy to meet me. I haven't seen him for so many years. We must find a time to get together. I said to myself What are you gathering for? Reminiscing about the past? What is there to recount..."

A few days before the reunion with Meng Hai, Meng Hai once asked him: "Why didn't you go to school?" He replied: "I don't want to live in a group anymore." He really didn't want to.

When Fang Jinning came back from the educated youth spot, Fang Jinning never had any contact with any of his classmates.On the one hand, he only had Meng Hai in his mind at that time, and he couldn't hold other things at all; on the other hand, no matter what the facts were, he was always a shame in the eyes of others.What else can a clown do other than make people laugh?For so many years, Meng Hai was his only hope.Now his hope has come back, and he will never allow anyone to have a hand in this future happiness.

After washing the dishes, there was a stack of food stamps and money on the table.Fang Jinning picked it up and stuffed it into Meng Hai's pocket.Meng Hai said, "It's for you, you keep it."

Fang Jinning refused to accept it, and raised his hand to point to the writing table. Under the glass plate was full of paper notes, all of which were given to him by Meng Hai during these days. "Do you have to count these things with me? Didn't you agree to give it all to your sister and your brother-in-law?" Meng Hai remained silent.Fang Jinning's voice became bitter: "Why are you still thinking about leaving? Still don't believe that I can support you?...Why are you so willing to gouge my heart..."

He knew there were some things Meng Hai couldn't say to him, and he didn't want to put them on the table.It is impossible for ten years of isolation from the world not to leave the slightest imprint on Meng Hai.Facing this ever-changing new society, Meng Hai had no idea.

About what happened in those ten years, Fang Jinning always wanted to ask but dared not ask.No matter how you phrase it, the fact that has happened does not disappear because of a well-intentioned implicit.Why did he poke Meng Hai's heart, poking Meng Hai is also poking himself.

The next day, Fang Jinning asked for leave with the leader as soon as he entered the post office.He couldn't wait any longer, so he ran home and threw out the truth that had been stuffed in his heart for so many years.He knelt down in front of his parents as if he had no other way out: "Please let me live."

The parents were shocked and broken.It happened that the man who was willing to serve his son in prison for ten years made them unable to say any words of opposition.The first one to stand up and express her absolute support was the newly married younger sister.

"A few years ago, brother was called alive? At most he was half-dead! It's only in the past six months that I feel that brother is alive again.... No matter what others say, human relations and Wuchang will never know what it's like to be alive and die. "

Fang Jinning said: "If you don't allow him, I won't come back."

"Parents don't want it anymore?"

"Want to. But where is he, where am I."

"You think too simply, can his family tolerate you?!"

"He has no home. I am his home."

Fang Jinning silently thought about resigning and going to sea.He and Meng Hai have been separated for too long, and no amount of time is enough to make up.One evening at the end of summer, the gate of the post office was smashed down.A drunk man yelled reeking of alcohol, "Get the second chair surnamed Fang out!"

Fang Jinning came out and saw that it was Hu Zheng.Somehow he didn't feel much surprise.

"If you have something to say to me alone, don't disturb others here."

"Don't touch me!...now you know you want face? What face do you want? You are a shameless stinky... You fucker!" Hu Zheng shoved Fang Jinning with his feet, so drunk that he couldn't speak. Blocking, "Damn it! Why did I put up such a lingering thing like you! ... That stinky bitch! I still miss you so much! I have given birth to the child, and I still fucking say you Good!...Didn't she want a divorce?! Tell her to leave! Leave!...I told her to regret it!...You f.m. don't even think about it! I could destroy you once in the past, and I can still do it now!... Damn bitch! Still calling me a hypocrite! Does she think she's passionate? Doesn't she stay away from you when that happens..."

Hu Zhengwai leaned against a tree by the side of the road, cursing.Fang Jinning wanted to drag him away at first, but when he heard it, his whole body shivered.Jealousy is indeed the most ruthless.Fang Jinning suddenly thought of everything.When Hu Zheng scolded Meng Hai all the way, he couldn't hold back his fist anymore.

"Fuck you! You dare to say a word to him again!..." At this moment, all the dirty words I haven't uttered since I was a child are used, "You think I'm afraid of you? You made a wrong calculation! Fang Jinning All the cowardice was used up ten years ago! I regret it to death! I am not afraid of anyone now! No one can scare me!..."

Lying in bed that night, Fang Jinning hugged Meng Hai's waist tightly from behind, pressed it to his sound ear, and told him that he had resigned, and that the two of them could stay together every day and live the life of their dreams.

"Brother, you don't have to worry about anything, don't worry, I'm here. I'm here."

Five years later, a seafood restaurant opened in a bustling neighborhood of the city.I heard that it is run by a couple who have been married for 17 years.But people have never seen the proprietress, they just think the name of this restaurant is a mouthful, called: Baiwei Ningguihai.

The author has something to say: the short story is over~~