Trivial Skin of Rebirth

After more than a month, the matter was finally settled, the insurance company paid a sum of money, the company paid a sum of money to the migrant workers involved, the project started again, and Xiang Qingyun was also released, and the punishment was only a fine and revocation of licenses.Of course, he also lost his job in Venus.Things have come to this, and it has a relatively satisfactory ending.

But Xiang Qingyun is not very good.He was imprisoned for two months. I don't know if it was because he didn't communicate with anyone very much in these two months. When Ye Jiawen went to pick him up, he was completely numb except for the man who walked out of the detention center. Apart from saying "baby, you have worked hard" at that moment, he didn't say a word until he got home.

After returning home, Xiang Qingyun started to work busy.He first washed in the bathroom for almost an hour before coming out, then he took off the sofa cover and threw it in the sink to wash it by hand, and after washing, he took off the quilt cover and washed it.At first Ye Jiawen knew he needed to vent so he didn't stop him, but when Xiang Qingyun started washing the quilt cover, he finally couldn't help it.He ran up and pulled the quilt cover from Xiang Qingyun's hand, pulled him to sit on the sofa, and said: "That's enough, otherwise you should sleep first."

Xiang Qingyun shook his head, dried his hands on his trousers, and stood up again: "I'm going out to buy meat, and I'll make braised pork for you tonight."

Ye Jiawen originally wanted to stop him, but it might be better for Xiang Qingyun to be quiet at this moment, so he had no choice but to let him go.

At night they slept on the same bed, and at two or three o'clock in the morning, Xiang Qingyun suddenly sat up in shock, panting heavily.Ye Jiawen didn't sleep very soundly, so he woke up with a start.He sat up rubbing his eyes and put his arms around Xiang Qingyun's shoulders: "What's wrong? Did you have a nightmare?" Xiang Qingyun gasped for a while, then lay down again tiredly: "I'm sorry I woke you up." Ye Jiawen asked What did he dream about, he just shook his head and told Ye Jiawen to go to bed early.

Xiang Qingyun has no job now, so he stays at home during the day, doing housework and reading books. Originally, Ye Jiawen hoped that he could relax by resting at home, so he didn't mention asking him to go out and find another job.But after a few days, he found that this was not the case.Xiang Qingyun often stared at something in a daze for an hour, and he talked less and less. Since he came out of the detention center, he didn't like to smile anymore, with melancholy on his brows.

Ye Jiawen has always hoped that there is one thing that can shock Xiang Qingyun, let him realize that he is not a hero, let him know that his ability is limited, so that he can pay more attention to himself instead of always thinking of others.What happened this time was obviously a heavy blow to Xiang Qingyun, but the blow was too much, so that he was a little devastated.

A week later, Ye Jiawen said to Xiang Qingyun, "Go out and find a job. Is there any job you want to do now?"

Xiang Qingyun was absent-minded, even a little slow to react, and it took several seconds before he said: "I haven't thought about it."

Ye Jiawen sighed, held his face and let him look at him: "Qingyun, the matter is over, please tell me if you have any unhappy things, there is no way for you to continue like this."

Xiang Qingyun suddenly buried his head in Ye Jiawen's arms, hugged his back tightly, and asked after a while, "Jiawen, why are you willing to be with me?"

Ye Jiawen was a little unhappy.This shouldn't be the Xiang Qingyun he knew. Xiang Qingyun shouldn't be so negative and pessimistic. How could he not be able to bear such a small blow?When they were the worst victimized by Haiping in their previous life, Xiang Qingyun didn't stay at home all day in a daze, but tried hard to cope with the predicament of life, and took several jobs to make money.This time, even if he made a mistake while doing the project, which resulted in a life and lost his job, so what, just stand up again, at least he has no criminal record in prison, and the matter has been resolved.It's been a week since he came home, and he's still complaining about himself?The Xiang Qingyun he knew would take the initiative to find a job, and then find a way to make his life better!

But what Ye Jiawen didn't know was the quarrel between him and his mother in the detention center.Xiang Qingyun was locked in the detention center and received very little information every day. Anything that happened was worth thinking about over and over again.He had never disobeyed his mother like this since he was a child. After his mother left, he was thinking about it for several days.Ever since he was a child, his parents have favored the younger ones, and he is only one year older than his brother. When the family was poor, everyone was growing up. His brother ate a bowl of rice, and he ate half a bowl; he and his brother got into trouble together. Every time his brother cries, his mother comforts his brother, and when he cries, his father scolds him for doing something wrong and still has the face to cry... All these things, he grew up in this kind of differential treatment .He has always been obedient, his younger brother dares to quarrel with his parents, but he won't, he is a good boy, he just wants to get his parents' affirmation and others' affirmation.He's so nice, and he's so nice to others, but why hasn't he come yet?The more I think about it, the angrier I become, and the more I think about it, the more powerless I become. Now that I can't even do a small project well, what is the value of my existence?

Ye Jiawen said: "I like your optimistic and positive attitude towards life, so I am willing to live with you. Cheer up and find a job."

The next day, Xiang Qingyun bought a bunch of newspapers and dug out all the recruitment information on them. No matter what the job was, cost engineer, architect, accountant... Anyway, he would send resumes wherever he was recruiting.Most of the resumes that were sent out fell into the sea, and it was rare for one or two to come back. He went to the interview, but they all failed.

After nearly a month of tossing like this, Xiang Qingyun still hasn't found a new job.During this period, he did not call his family, and his family did not know that he had been released from the detention center.He had been imprisoned for more than two months. During this period, his parents had called a few times to inquire about the situation. They heard that he was still imprisoned, thinking that he must be in jail, and gradually stopped asking.He was very chilled in his heart, and he was also angry with his family. Anyway, after contacting him, he must continue to use money to pay off his brother's debts.

The more he couldn't find a job, the more depressed Xiang Qingyun became.Ye Jiawen couldn't stand it anymore, so he contacted a psychiatrist and wanted to take him to counsel the doctor.Xiang Qingyun refused at first, but Ye Jiawen scolded him when he got angry, and he finally kept silent after scolding, so he took it as acquiescence, and Ye Jiawen dragged him over on the weekend.

People in the late 90s still had a little prejudice against the imported profession of psychiatrist. Ye Jiawen lived until 2012. Later, psychiatrists became more and more common. Because of social pressure, more and more people with psychological problems, so he He thought it was normal to seek help, but Xiang Qingyun didn't. He thought it was a serious matter to see a psychiatrist. He might have been regarded as a psychopath, so when he went, he had already given up on himself.

When entering the door of the psychiatrist's house, Xiang Qingyun grabbed Ye Jiawen and said slowly, "Jiawen, don't give up on me too, okay?"

Ye Jiawen was shocked at first, then sad.He didn't know how much Xiang Qingyun struggled to come with him.Xiang Qingyun's words made him extremely uncomfortable, he pressed Xiang Qingyun's head into his shoulder socket, and said with a smile: "What are you thinking about. I told you a long time ago that I am the one who wants to live with you. I put you first, so you should put me first. How could I give up on you? I will never hurt you, nor will I dislike you. "

Xiang Qingyun hugged him vigorously for a while, mustered up his courage, and went in.

The psychiatrist Ye Jiawen sought was surnamed Guo. He was a talented person who had returned from studying in the United States. He learned the more advanced methods of Americans. Ye Jiawen made many inquiries before coming here. Qingyun came.Dr. Guo is indeed more capable. After talking with Xiang Qingyun for two hours, Xiang Qingyun's previous nervousness disappeared, and Dr. Guo repeatedly assured that his privacy is protected, so Xiang Qingyun promised to come back in two days Time is not so much pressure.

Ye Jiawen had already secretly told Dr. Guo a lot about Xiang Qingyun's situation before he went, about his parents being biased, about his overreaching, and about his being a bit foolish and filial. Dr. Guo had better be able to enlighten him. Help him find his own position.Dr. Guo didn't fully believe what he said, and only said that he would only know after talking with Xiang Qingyun.

Afterwards, Xiang Qingyun went to Dr. Guo's house every two days, and talked for an hour and a half each time. Otherwise, he would do some housework at home or go out to find a job.

Dr. Guo is indeed capable.Through the conversation, he gradually discovered that there was indeed something wrong with Xiang Qingyun.Xiang Qingyun is a person who is easy to cater to others, and he is very used to consider others from their standpoint.For example, Dr. Guo asked him, if you have 500 yuan with you, you plan to use it to buy a TV, but you are not in a hurry to get the TV.At this time, someone asks you to borrow this money. The borrower also wants to buy a TV, but he wants that TV very much, and he likes it very much. Will you lend it to him?After thinking about it for a while, Xiang Qingyun said, I will probably borrow it.Dr. Guo asked him why, and he said that if I didn't borrow it, that person would be very sad.

In fact, Xiang Qingyun is not the kind of savior that Ye Jiawen thought he wanted to be because he thinks he is very capable. On the contrary, he wants to gain attention through dedication because he lacks the care of others. "I'm so good, can you also treat me better and care about me more?" In fact, Xiang Qingyun has a deep inferiority complex in his bones.

After discovering this, Dr. Guo began to counsel Xiang Qingyun.One day, he said to Xiang Qingyun: "You hope that through dedication and obedience, your parents will give you a little more love. But, maybe the truth is very cruel, no matter how obedient you are, or even give your whole life, they will not I will love you more. You have tried for more than twenty years, and if you don’t change, you will continue to live your life in this way. Can you accept this fact?”

That night Xiang Qingyun was in a trance after returning home, he didn't even cook dinner, he just sat in the room with a book in his hands in a daze.

The next morning, Ye Jiawen and Xiang Qingyun shaved each other.Ye Jiawen wiped the foam from his chin onto his eyebrows with his fingers, looked at his two white eyebrows and laughed.Xiang Qingyun stopped, frowned and did not speak.Ye Jiawen leaned over and kissed him on the mouth, both of them were full of foam.

Xiang Qingyun put the razor by the sink, and suddenly pulled Ye Jiawen into his arms.All the foam on Ye Jiawen's face rubbed against his clothes, holding up the razor in his hand and screaming.Xiang Qingyun hugged him vigorously for a while, and inserted his fingers into his hair to stroke slowly.Ye Jiawen also threw away the razor in his hand, and hugged him with his back.

"Baby." Xiang Qingyun gently rubbed Ye Jiawen's ear with his chin. Ye Jiawen's ears were itchy from the foam, and he couldn't help but wince. "I've made up my mind. I want to be an interior designer and design homes for others. I want to study , there may be a long period of time when I can’t find a job, you won’t throw me out, will you?”

"Okay, why don't you go to graduate school." Ye Jiawen said, "You give me a part-time job and serve me comfortably every day, and I will reward you with a bite of food."

"How do I serve you?" Xiang Qingyun asked in a hoarse voice, touching his ear.

Ye Jiawen picked up the razor with a smile and stuffed it back into his hand: "After shaving first, we'll talk about it."

Letting go of his embrace, he saw tears in Xiang Qingyun's eyes.