Li Daitao

Qin Shu woke up and fell asleep, and it went on like this for another two days.

During the period, Yi Zhen personally took care of his labors, fed medicine and water, changed clothes and massaged meticulously, Qin Shu slept dimly, even if he woke up, it was only a short time, still unconscious and in a daze Most of them are left to him to serve and fiddle with.

Although Yan Zihou condescended to his dignity and took on the errand of a servant, he didn't have any complaints or dissatisfaction at all. Instead, he was willing and secretly enjoyed it.

He really put his heart into it, but these trifles would not bother him, he tried his best to think carefully about everything, even if he couldn't meet the standard of thoughtfulness for a while, it was enough to make ordinary servants feel ashamed.

So under his careful care, Qin Shu really woke up on the third day since he woke up last time.

It was dusk when I woke up, and the sky finally stopped the rain, but it returned to the cold and gloomy autumn weather in the Northern Jin Dynasty.The sky is still gloomy, there is still a faint sky outside, and the table has already been lit early.Because of Qin Shu's weak constitution, two heaters were placed in the corner of the room, and the whole room was as comfortable as spring, with a smoky warmth.

Qin Shu opened his eyes and saw a pot of lotus on the small table beside the bed, with a half-opened and half-closed pink flower bud on it, with luxuriant branches and leaves, very lively.And Yi Zhen was sitting a few steps away with his back facing him. There was a wide-mouthed white porcelain vase on the table in front of him, and there were a few chrysanthemums beside him. Yi Zhen was trimming and pruning, picking out the ones he was satisfied with, and inserting them into the vase randomly. go.

The temperature in the room was just right for Qin Shu, but it might be too hot for him. Yi Zhen only wore an ordinary thin coat.Looking over like this, Qin Shu could only see his back, casting a long shadow under the lamp.After a few days, he seemed to have lost a lot of weight, and there was some discrepancy with his impression for a while.

Yi Zhen didn't notice it at all, and set up the vase.Sighing in satisfaction, he turned around and saw Qin Shu silently looking at himself.

Yi Zhen's mood has settled down, and he is no longer overwhelmed with joy as before, and there is still a smile on his face unconsciously.He walked forward quickly, leaned down and said softly: "You're awake." As he spoke, he reached out and touched his stomach, feeling that the child was also very quiet and showed no sign of trouble, so he was relieved and didn't wait When Qin Shu spoke, he naturally helped him up, and he didn't forget to put a soft pillow under his waist.Then pull the thin blanket over your body.

After finishing these things smoothly, I turned around and went to serve the japonica rice porridge that had been warming on the stove.

Qin Shu used this time to look at him all the time, but saw that Yi Zhen had indeed lost some weight, and the contours of his face softened.His expression was calm and stable, which seemed to be quite different from before.

Qin Shu was puzzled, but he couldn't explain why. Looking back on the situation when he woke up at that time, he felt a dream-like trance in his heart.Seeing that he was about to leave, she called him without thinking too much: "Master Hou?"

Yi Zhen stopped his movements, turned around and said pleasantly, "Are you really awake?"

Qin Shu hadn't spoken for many days, but when he spoke now, he felt his voice was hoarse, his throat was dry and uncomfortable, and he couldn't help coughing twice.

Seeing this, Yi Zhen didn't ask any further questions, he quickly brought a glass of water, and put his heart and soul in front of Qin Shu.

Qin Shu took his hand, and instinctively took two sips. The water was soaked in honey and chrysanthemum rice, and the entrance was refreshing and refreshing.Qin Shu raised his eyes from the rim of his cup, looking at Yi Zhen in a little surprise.

Yi Zhen said softly with a little guilt: "I have fed you water, but you always fall asleep and won't wake up, I don't know if it's enough..."

Qin Shu's expression flickered, he paused for a moment, lowered his eyes and took another two sips before pushing away Yi Zhen's hand.Shaking his head is enough.

Yi Zhen put down his cup, turned around and sat in front of the bed, looked at Qin Shu and just smiled blankly.The expression is sincere joy from the heart.The two of them didn't speak for a while, seeing Qin Shu's eyes fell on the bowl lotus, he explained to him: "There is no earth dragon in this house, and the charcoal fire is too hot, so it's more comfortable."

Qin Shu served Emperor Jingwen in the palace, so he naturally understood these small key points in daily life, but people who don't believe that Yi Zhen is pampered and worry-free will also know this truth, so he stared at Yi Zhen steadfastly.

Yi Zhen was obviously relieved, and his tone was much lighter: "It's best for you to wake up. Otherwise, you can only feed porridge every day, so how can you eat enough for two people? Take care of your body first, and other things ...Let's see if you are in good health first." He paused for a while, still unwilling to promise Qin Shu that he would keep the child, but he never stopped talking.

Qin Shu heard his vague meaning and raised his head to stare at him.But he saw that the man was only looking at himself, full of persistence and worry.For some reason, I immediately lost the will to argue with him, and because there was a turning point in his words, the tense mind was finally able to relax, and then I felt sore and uncomfortable all over my body, and I didn't have any extra strength for a while. .

He experienced such a great change, almost as if he had died once.My mentality has changed a bit. Looking back at all the past events at this time, the loyalty of the family and the country is a bit distant. Except for the child, everything else seems to be no longer so important.

Looking at it now, according to Yi Zhenru's words, the only thing that really matters is keeping as good a body as possible, and other things can only be discussed later.Besides, if Yi Zhen really insisted on going his own way, there was nothing he could do.

Since he thought so, he lost his momentum, so Yi Zhen gained the upper hand and looked at Qin Shu without hesitation.The gaze was warm and sincere, and it seemed that there was something Qin Shu had never seen before, and there was something half-understood in it.

After being watched by him for a long time, Qin Shu felt guilty.This feeling is indescribable, and it is different from the palpitations when the fetus is sucking blood. It is not too uncomfortable, but it makes people feel at a loss.

Qin Shu was stunned for a while, and suddenly felt that it was strange that he and Yi Zhen were looking at each other like this, so he couldn't help turning his head slightly to avoid Yi Zhen's gaze.

The two people had different plans in their hearts, but both of them had a very tacit understanding and would not discuss this matter in detail.

Yi Zhen had countless things he wanted to talk to him, but he didn't know how to speak at the moment.After being silent for a while, he took Qin Shu's hand and held it in the palm of his hand, twiddling his fingers unconsciously. This has been a habit developed for many days.

He hadn't realized that Qin Shu wasn't made of wood, his complexion changed, and a flash of light suddenly flashed in his mind, remembering that when he was ups and downs in pain and was about to sink, it seemed that there was such a thing Only warm and strong hands held him and never let go, like the only driftwood in the endless sea of ​​suffering, the straw of life.

Qin Shu's eyebrows moved slightly, and he was in a trance for a moment, which prevented him from pulling his hand out immediately.

Yi Zhen had already said softly: "I have taken Jing'an's medicine away, and I am not allowed to take it again." Recalling what the imperial physician said, if he took the medicine until he gave birth, I am afraid that he can only take it as Qin Shu said. That's the way.Thinking of Cichu's heart ached, I was terrified.Pick and choose what the imperial physician said to Qin Shu.The meaning is to frighten Qin Shu a little bit, and the intention is very simple. If it is for the child's good, he must do everything possible to protect himself first, and stop using his body as before.

In fact, most of the time Qin Shu fell asleep unconsciously, and the person who was really frightened out of his wits was Yan Zihou himself.Now when facing Qin Shu again, his attitude is extraordinarily gentle and cautious.Not only was his tone of voice not vicious at all, but there was a bit of complaint and worry in it.In the end, it is unavoidable to blame Jing'an for prescribing carelessly, almost disregarding human life.Speaking of pain, he was filled with righteous indignation, and wished he could send troops to arrest Jing'an immediately, and torture him to serve him.

Qin Shu's eyes darkened slightly. From the very beginning, he felt that Jing'an had a different attitude towards him. Although there were no outrageous words or actions, they were definitely not kind.But Jing'an was the one who was put in by his senior brother. He became more and more ashamed of himself in front of people who knew him well. He felt that he was filthy.I can't hold my head up as a human being.I have always been in awe of Jing'an.So how to use acupuncture and medicine for Jing'an.He had no other thoughts except for the child, he thought that no matter what Jing An did, it must be for the good of the fetus, and he never had any objections.

At this time, listening to Yi Zhen complaining bitterly about Jing'an's carelessness in prescribing the prescription, he could vaguely figure out that there might be a plot to put him to death.He couldn't figure out the reason for Jing An's intention, and he didn't want to believe that it was ordered by his senior.But in the end, I was at a loss and miserable.

Seeing Yi Zhen gritted his teeth, he was afraid that he would really trouble Jing'an.I had to force myself and said in a low voice: "It was the anti-pregnancy prescription that I asked him to prescribe at the beginning. At that time, the fetus was weak, so I didn't care. Of course I had to think about the baby, and I have been taking this prescription for a long time since then." The month has not changed. Dr. Jing An has been away from the Hou Mansion for a long time, so how would he know what is going on with me? I took the medicine myself, so it has nothing to do with him."

Yi Zhen knew that Qin Shu regarded this child as more important than his own life, so he was not suspicious of Qin Shu's words, but sighed, half distressed and half blamed: "You will Don't take this medicine anymore."

Qin Shu hummed, he had slept for too long, and he finally recovered enough energy. At this moment, he slowly regained his strength, and suddenly asked, "How long have I been asleep?"

When Yi Zhen heard this, he pointed his fingers and said, "It's been seven days, you don't know, you almost scared me to death." After talking about it, he still had lingering fears.

Qin Shu was startled at first, then surprised, and blurted out, "Where's my book?"

"I still remember the book!" Yi Zhen couldn't help being a little annoyed when he heard this, and complained in his mouth: "You made this like this because of the damn book, you still can't forget it."

Yi Zhen held Qin Shu down and didn't allow him to get up, but he walked to the side to work on the desk, and took a neat stack of papers over after a while.Handed it to Qin Shu for him to take a look, but refused to let him take it. "A few pieces of torn paper, let's see what your baby looks like. Could it be that for some torn book, even the baby doesn't care about it?" Although it was a reproachful sentence, the tone was much gentler than usual, obviously it was a bit of an understatement Work hard to restrain your temper.

Qin Shu was originally afraid that his anger would really burn his hard work for several days.Now that he could see the handwriting on the paper clearly, it was written by himself, so he couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.He said softly: "This book is still useful to the people of the world, it's not a broken book like Lord Hou said..."

"I know, I know." Yi Zhen put the few pieces of paper away again, and interrupted him immediately when he heard the words. "You want to say that this is related to the safety of the people in the world. Of course I know that this is a major event that benefits the country and the people. But you are only a flesh and blood body, how can you save so many people? Everyone has his own life. Just do your best in everything, how can you work so hard!"

Although Qin Shu didn't agree with what he said, but judging from his tone and expression, he was all so concerned about himself, which was a bit unnatural.Although I feel that this person is obviously unreasonable, but I can't bear to argue more.Just hummed.

Seeing that he agreed, Yi Zhen felt a little relieved.After a while, I couldn't help asking him: "The scholars who came to Beijing to rush for the exam are almost here. I will show you the list of Zedi tomorrow. If there are any old friends of yours, if you are bored, why not?" Invite them to come over for a little gathering."

Qin Shu couldn't figure out his intentions, but said cautiously: "Thank you, Lord Hou, but there is no need for this."

Yi Zhen saw his vigilance, and knew that Qin Shu had misunderstood, but it was also caused by his past actions after all.Instead of getting angry, he blamed himself a little.Can't help whispering: "I don't mean anything else. It's just, it's just that I heard you thinking about your father and sister in your dreams, and I'm afraid you will be homesick..." In fact, Qin Shu also mentioned Xiao Hei, senior brother, etc. Lord Hou was feeling uncomfortable, so he kept it a secret and didn't mention it to Qin Shu.

It's just that Qin Shu has been ill for a long time, and it's not that no one knows about it, but no one came to visit and greet him. Qin Shu himself is ignorant.Yi Zhenliao stayed by his bedside for a few days, giving him some empathetic desolation.

Qin Shu was taken aback when he heard this, afraid that he might say something in his dream that he shouldn't have said, and seeing that Yi Zhen's expression was normal, he was finally convinced that he had no other intentions, so he was really grateful so far, and said softly again: " Thank you Hou Ye for your kindness. With my current reputation, even if I am an old teacher and friend, I would disdain to come and live here. Besides, I don’t have the face to meet my old friend with such a belly.”

Yi Zhen remained silent, and Qin Shu said again: "Master Hou doesn't need to use tricks secretly. Even if he brings people here by force, it's just me asking for trouble."

Yi Zhen choked when he saw what was going on in his heart.His face blushed slightly, and when the redness slowly subsided, he said dejectedly, "I'm sorry." His dejected and self-blaming expression seemed to be more sad than Qin Shu.

Qin Shu's illness really frightened him severely.At this time, he couldn't help showing his true feelings everywhere. From Qin Shu's point of view, he felt that he was a different person. Although he seemed weird, he didn't know how to deal with it for a while, but he didn't seem to hate him at the same time.

Thinking about how he has fallen into this situation, Yi Zhen is indeed the biggest villain, but he managed to escape from death, those hatreds seem to be old things, and they are no longer so vivid and painful.Although he didn't mind me at all yesterday, looking at Yi Zhen, he couldn't help but hate him like he did back then.

Yi Zhen said sorry softly, but he only felt mixed feelings in his ears, so he could only pretend that he didn't hear it, and kept silent and didn't answer.

"I just wanted to make you happy, and I didn't want you to be wronged." Yi Zhen murmured in a low voice.

After hearing this, Qin Shu smiled wryly: "Qin Shu knows what his situation is, so there's nothing wrong with it."

"Are you blaming me for hating me?" Yi Zhen's expression suddenly showed confusion, and he panicked. "I have corrected those mistakes, and I will always treat you well in the future. I really like you, and I really want to be with you. You can ask me to do anything to make up for it. Please forgive me... ..."

"If I say that I have no complaints or hatred towards Lord Hou, can Lord Hou believe it?" Qin Shu lowered his face and stared at him for a while, as if to confirm how credible his words were, and then spoke softly after a long time Dao, seeing Yi Zhen showing a panicked and injured expression.Qin Shu couldn't help heaving a long sigh, hesitant and struggling.

He was stunned for a while, raised his hands to cover his face, and said in a low voice, "But I'm too tired of hating, and now I don't want to continue hating Lord Hou anymore."

Following these words, it was as if a dike of a thousand miles collapsed in an ant's nest.

He persevered alone in a situation that was criticized by thousands of people, and the left and right were isolated and helpless.There will inevitably be moments of weakness and weariness.The dangerous state this time also made his fragile nerves that were too tense to the limit.

When all he needed was a comforting look, what he got from the king who worked hard to help him was innocent insults and abuse. Just do the calculations.

Everyone's white eyes and sarcasm, all kinds of schadenfreude, all kinds of harm, he holds that little firefly hope, and has been silently bearing it all the time, but in the end he is only a body of flesh and blood, a heart cannot be indestructible, and he can bear it After a long time, there will naturally be times when you feel overwhelmed with pain.Even though his bones were still there, his heart was slowly getting cold.Now he hardly thinks about anything but his children.

Although the person in front of him hurt him deeply, he was driving him to a desperate situation step by step.But now, there is only this one person left who cares about him, and will cry for his worries and anger.Hate is still hating, but with all these things, the hatred has faded away a little bit after all.Although there are still shadows, it is like old handwriting. Although there are traces to follow, it is gradually unable to continue.

The strong mask only needs to break a crack, and then tear it bigger and bigger along the crack, and eventually it will be defeated.

Yi Zhen was overjoyed after his grief, and could hardly believe his ears. He jumped up from the bed, jumped around twice, and then stared at Qin Shu with uncontrollable joy: "Really? Are you serious? "

Qin Shu didn't expect him to be so excited.Startled slightly, he had to cough, and reminded: "I just said that I don't want to hate Lord Hou anymore, but I didn't say... I didn't say I like Master Hou!" Seeing that Yi Zhen didn't pay attention at all, he couldn't help raising his voice for the last sentence , he is the kind of person with deep feelings and introverted, he is upright and prudent by nature, he never talks about love and the like, at this moment, being forced by Yi Zhen to say these words clearly, his face turns pink immediately The color, but most of them are still annoyed.

Yi Zhen was delighted, and continued to go around in circles, the prudence and integrity he managed to achieve had long since been lost to the sky.His face was full of joy and his eyes were shining, only a big tail grew out from behind and he flopped and shook a few times to express his happiness.

The originally serious and sentimental atmosphere suddenly became a little weird and inexplicable when he disturbed it.

Qin Shu was originally distraught, but he couldn't laugh or cry when he saw him like this, but forgot his sadness.Leaning back weakly, he said, "Master Hou, did you hear what I said...why are you so happy?"

Yi Zhen rushed to the bed in a few steps, hugged him in his arms, rested his chin on Qin Shu's shoulder and nodded repeatedly.The hot breath made his ears itch.

"I heard it." Yi Zhen said. "Of course I am happy that you are finally willing to tell me the truth. I know that everything in the past was my fault. Since you don't want to resent now, it doesn't matter if you don't like me. As long as I treat you well in the future, are you It’s not like you’ll fall in love with me one day.”

At this moment, his mind was spinning extremely fast.To be able to figure out this truth, and take it out to comfort myself at this time, it seems to be true.Although Master Yi doesn't like reading, it's not that he hasn't read books. He remembers reading that sincerity can lead to gold and stones, and that gold and stones can be carved away with perseverance. Sure enough, the ancients are not deceived by sincerity.

Right now, this might be regarded as fighting for jade, then he only needs to work hard, and sooner or later he will be able to make steel from face to face.

Yi Zhen thought about this point, thinking of Xiao Shu's soft words to him in the future, and Gu Pan's smiling appearance, he couldn't help laughing twice: "Hey."

After hearing this, Qin Shu felt that there was something wrong with what he said. What he meant was that he didn't want to face him every day with swords and crossbows, staring with big eyes and small eyes.She turned her face to the side and said helplessly: "Master Hou, your stupid look... you should change it too..."

Yi Zhen was in high spirits, and he was not annoyed when he heard the words. He smiled softly and said, "You are so stupid. You don't know, you have been sleeping for the past few days, and you have to shake for a long time when you are asked to eat. When you get up and sit there, your eyes are blurred." I can’t open it, I tell you to open your mouth, you open your mouth, you bite the spoon and refuse to let it go..."

Qin Shu's expression changed, and he said tensely, "Nonsense! Why don't I remember such a thing."

Yi Zhen just smiled, he was still worried after all, and suddenly asked seriously in his ear: "Is what you just said really a lie?"

Qin Shu wondered, "What?"

"You really don't like me?" Yi Zhen asked, with an apprehensive expression, he turned his head to look at Qin Shu eagerly, afraid that all this was just a dream, and that Qin Shu would change his words and say something resentful again.

Qin Shu thought about it, what he said was naturally true, and felt that although he didn't want to hate him anymore, he didn't seem to like him enough.But being asked by Yi Zhen, it seemed that Fang Na's words seemed to be a bit of a cover-up, and if it was judged at this time, it would be more and more dark.

Yi Zhen looked at him seriously in front of him, and was still waiting for his answer with anticipation. He didn't know whether this person was really stupid or fake, but there were times when he was so cunning and ghostly, it just made people grit their teeth secretly, wishing they could A pillow was drawn against his face.

The two stalemate for a moment, Qin Shu said sullenly, "I'm going to sleep."

Yi Zhen was a little disappointed, but he hurried over to put the quilt for him, as if he suddenly remembered something: "After sleeping for so long, you can still sleep? After talking for a long time, I think you are hungry, how much better?" Eat something and rest. What would you like to eat?"

Qin Shu turned over slowly, facing the bed, ignoring him.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Yi Zhen decided to go out and order on his own.There is an imperial doctor waiting outside waiting for you at any time.He confessed a few words, and returned to the room after a while.

He didn't talk when he came in, he stood by the bed and looked at Qin Shu quietly, slowly restrained his smile, stretched out his hand to gently touch Qin Shu's cheek, and said softly as if talking to himself: "I really like you .”

Unexpectedly, Qin Shu opened his eyes and looked at him. The anger just now had receded, and a thoughtful look appeared on his face.It was rare for Yi Zhen to see him looking directly at him with such a serious gaze, he suddenly became shorter, and quietly retracted his paws, standing anxiously under his gaze.

"Why does Lord Hou like me?" Qin Shu looked at him for a while, showing a puzzled expression.After hesitating for a long time, I finally asked this long-standing confusion. "What does Lord Hou like about me?"