Li Daitao

Qin Shu didn't sleep well that night, he began to have some strange thoughts of his own, and gradually he didn't want to be as transparent as a piece of crystal in front of Yi Zhen.He speaks without restraint, and puts all his thoughts on his face, which can be seen at a glance.

Walking in the market today, he also always has a vague feeling of déjà vu. The scenes in front of him seem to have been experienced before. It was also to please himself, he didn't want to disappoint these two people, the high spirits yesterday were more or less faked.However, Yi Zhen's goal was to make him happy, but he didn't see the truth.

On the way, he was recognized by a person he couldn't remember at all, called out his name, and asked him why he was here in surprise, this feeling of inexplicability became more and more obvious.The same name, but when a stranger other than Yi shouted it, it seemed that it was another self, a completely different person from the current body and soul.

Qin Shu vaguely felt that he was not just the innocent little Shu whom Yi Zhen called out every day.But beyond that, who is he and why is he here.

I can't even sort out this kind of thoughts, and I don't know how to talk to Yi Zhen.But it's not that he has any strange thoughts about Yi Zhen.

It seemed that he had a lot of dreams that night, each one fragmented and disorganized. Countless human faces and blurred fragments flashed in front of him.

It wasn't until Yi Zhen shook him awake that he realized that tears were streaming down his face, and he was choked up.I was stunned for a moment, and when I wanted to speed up what I saw in my dream, I couldn't remember it at all.

Yi Zhen was standing in front of the bed, holding a candlestick in one hand, looking at him with worry and pity, but there was a trace of fear hidden in his eyes, he stretched out his hand to gently wipe the tears on his face, and stroked his hair , while coaxing softly: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I'm here, don't be afraid anymore." Apart from comforting, he didn't ask Qin Shu what kind of nightmare he had.Qin Shu couldn't remember what he saw in his dream, and he recovered after a while, being coaxed by Yi Zhen like a child, but rather embarrassed, he pushed Yi Zhen's hand away.

He saw Yi Zhen standing in front of the bed wearing only a thin unlined garment, and the shoes on his feet were not properly put on.He must have been awakened by himself, and went to get the candlestick without even putting on his clothes.In such a cold and twelfth lunar month, Qin Shu felt a little cold even if there was a charcoal fire in the room, not to mention Yi Zhen was standing on the ground wearing only a thin piece of clothing.Even though he was physically strong, he couldn't help trembling slightly.However, he himself didn't seem to notice it, his eyes only looked at him with concern.

Qin Shu felt warm in his heart, and felt sorry for him. He temporarily put aside the dream that he could not remember, and quickly said: "You only wear so little clothes, don't stand on the ground, come up quickly, be careful not to catch a cold, when you arrive I still have to serve you." His voice was still a little hoarse, but it was extraordinarily gentle and charming.

Yi Zhen agreed softly, and said nothing else, put down the candlestick, slipped into the quilt quietly, and when his body calmed down a little, he leaned towards Qin Shu and hugged Qin Shu into his arms , as if to make sure that Qin Shu was safe and sound, he stretched out his hand and touched Qin Shu from head to toe, and finally put his hand on Qin Shu's slightly protruding stomach and did not move, and exhaled softly like a sigh: "Xiao Shu .”

Qin Shu softly agreed in his arms.Although Yi Zhen's mood was very cold at the beginning, he also restrained himself from making a sound.After a while, he gradually warmed up, so he moved to a more comfortable position, and was about to wake up in a drowsy state, when Yi Zhen called him again in a low voice: "Xiao Shu."

Qin Shu agreed, and waited for a while, but Yi Zhen had nothing to say.

After several times, Qin Shu didn't feel sleepy anymore, turned over to face Yi Zhen, and asked, "What's the matter?"

"I just want to call you by your name." Yi Zhen said softly, knowing that he probably disturbed Qin Shu, but he couldn't feel at ease if he didn't call him by his name flatly. "It's okay, you go to sleep, don't promise me."

Hearing such a reason, Qin Shu couldn't help but glared at him, but saw that his expression was a little uneasy, and the way he looked at himself was gentle but also a little sad. Qin Shu didn't know why he felt a little pitiful for him.My heart softened, and my voice slowed down quite a bit: "I'm really fine, and the baby is fine too. Now you can rest assured, go to sleep, don't make noise!" While speaking, he stretched out his hand to cover Yi Zhen's eyes.His hand was covered in the quilt all the time, it was very warm, Yi Zhen felt the temperature on his fingers, couldn't help showing a slight smile, but couldn't bear to let him be exposed in the air like this, pulled his hand down and put it under the quilt Li, said softly: "Okay. I'll just go to sleep." After a while, I couldn't help but whispered softly again: "Xiao Shu."

Qin Shu didn't want to sleep anymore, so he pushed his head into his chest and rubbed against him in protest.

Neither of them felt sleepy at all, just thinking about their own concerns, hugged each other and fell silent.

Qin Shu recalled just now, when he was awakened from his dream by Yi Zhen, he yelled the word "sister" in his mouth, and then recalled the dream in the past period of time, although Yi Zhen kept calling him son, but he It seems that what I saw in my dream was always a girl.Thinking of this, I couldn't help it.Lifting his face from Yi Zhen's embrace, he shook his arm that was around her.

Qin Shu whispered: "Yi Zhen, do you like your daughter?" As soon as the words came out, Yi Zhen didn't show any expression on his face, but Qin Shu clearly felt his arm stiffen suddenly, even touching her The hand on his belly also paused for a while, and then continued to stroke as if nothing had happened.

Yi Zhen also knew that his reaction was not quite right, so he cheered up and forced a smile: "Why are you talking about this suddenly? Aren't you sleepy, go to sleep, I won't disturb you anymore. It's almost dawn."

Qin Shu saw that his face was a little strange, and he just thought that he didn't like the child as a daughter, and felt a little unspeakable discomfort in his heart.But since Rarely raised this question, he had to continue talking, took a deep breath and said, "What if this is a daughter?" He took Yi Zhen's hand and put it on his stomach .

"Daughter?" Yi Zhen's complexion changed, his eyes were slightly dull, and he repeated it in a murmur, as if being scalded by something, he couldn't help shrinking his hands.

For Qin Shu, who was full of expectations, this move undoubtedly seemed a little hurtful. The smile on his face could not help but condense, and he became a little cautious when he spoke: "I mean, what if it is a daughter? I have a few days ago Every day I dream, I always dream of a female doll. I never dreamed of a son, if it is a daughter, would you not like her?"

Yi Zhen was powerless to resist his questioning, his complexion gradually became a little ugly, facing Qin Shu's earnest gaze, he hardly dared to think about it.

In his rage, he just glanced at the baby girl that day.Up to now, she almost no longer remembers what she looks like.Qin Shu's expression when he learned that the baby girl had died has been deeply imprinted in his mind, and every time he thinks about it, it hurts his heart.Qin Shu's sorrow and despair at that time, he did not dare to imagine that he had the courage to face it again.

Unprepared at the moment, Yi Zhen could only avert his eyes and dare not look at Qin Shu, forced a smile and said: "Our child, I like both boys and girls. Besides, the doctor said that he is a son, don't think about it, Go to sleep." The insincere in his words, but even Qin Shu could hear it, seeing that Yi Zhen hadn't turned his head for a while, Qin Shu was slightly disappointed, lowered his eyes, and hummed lightly.There was a girl in his dreams for several days, but he didn't quite believe what the doctor said.

When he woke up the next day, although Qin Shu was still acting as usual, as soon as he calmed down, he seemed a little sullen.Although Yi Zhen knew that he had misunderstood himself, he didn't want to bring up the matter of his younger sister no matter what.Right now, Qin Shu is keeping his mouth shut about this matter, and he is even more afraid of avoiding it, and will not take the initiative to bring it up. He only spends his time thinking of some interesting things to distract Qin Shu's attention.

The fetus can't understand the feelings of the two fathers, and it is still growing day by day.In a few days, the waist and abdomen seemed to be slightly enlarged again.When his body became obvious, it would be difficult to hide him living in this small courtyard. I planned to find another quieter place to raise him in a few days.

Now that someone here actually recognized Qin Shu, I'm afraid that if there is one, there will be another, and without any hesitation at the moment, Yi Zhen simply took a fancy to a quiet and elegant villa with beautiful scenery outside the county seat, and moved far away. crowd.

He is powerful, but he doesn't care about the price, which made the original owner of the manor willing to sell it.It only took more than half a month to even deal with the business and clean up, regardless of the cold spring.He hurriedly moved there with a group of guards and the imperial physician, as for the affairs of the yamen, he couldn't take care of them at all now.He was afraid that if people wanted to find Qin Shu, the news could be concealed without letting a few people know.

Qin Shu didn't have much opinion on this. He likes to be quiet by nature and doesn't like to make noise. In addition, his belly is getting bigger day by day. Seeing that his clothes can't cover it, he himself feels very embarrassed and wants to live here. In this villa, it's rare to see one or two outsiders, but it's his heart.

As for the bumps and fatigue on the road, Yi Zhen had already put in extra effort, the carriage also moved extremely slowly, and the inside of the carriage was padded with thick cushions, and arrived at the new residence safely.

It is the season when the grass grows and the warbler flies, and the villa is full of green vines, full of greenery.There are also many fruit trees planted, peach blossoms, plum blossoms and apricot blossoms are all over the mountains and courtyards, bees and butterflies are buzzing on sunny days, and the spring water in the back mountain is gurgling. The fruits and vegetables are all grown by the nearby tenants. They are very fresh. , Qin Shu got used to not talking, and liked the environment here very much.

Every morning, he takes Jian An for a walk and fishes, looking at the peach blossoms in the yard. In the afternoon, Yi Zhen accompanies him to draw pictures and play chess, or put a deck chair under the peach tree with snacks and tea beside him. Leaning on it with a blanket and listening to Yi Zhen read him some miscellaneous books on travel notes, gods and monsters, while fanning away the bees, butterflies and flying insects that follow the peach blossoms.Qin Shu fell asleep unknowingly after listening to it, and slept all afternoon, living a leisurely and comfortable life—at least it looked like this on the surface.

The smiles on the corners of Qin Shu's mouth and eyebrows gradually increased.After that day, he never mentioned anything about his daughter to Yi Zhen.However, Yi Zhen knew clearly that he hadn't forgotten it, but was thinking about it in his heart day by day—he woke up more and more times screaming in his sleep, and asked him what nightmare he had after waking up, But he always said he forgot and refused to tell Yi Zhen anything.

For this, Yi Zhen was full of fear, the feeling of despair that he knew that the road ahead would be irreversible but he was at a loss what to do, and could only wait for it to come. revealed.

Whenever Qin Shu falls asleep under the peach tree, he puts down the book and carefully touches the swollen belly under the blanket. Qin Shu is easy to wake up at night, but sleeps more deeply during naps during the day. This is also a rare time for Yi Zhen to relax .You can look at him carefully without having to carefully hide your emotions all the time.

From the day when his hands and feet were able to move, this child seemed a bit too lively, and seemed to like Yi Zhen's closeness very much. As long as Yi Zhen put his hand on Qin Shu's stomach, he would kick him in Yi Zhen's palm. Kicking up a few times to show his existence, he thinks he has gained a lot of strength this month, the force hitting Yi Zhen's palm can already be felt very clearly, Yi Zhen can't help but smile slightly, fearing that the kick will wake Qin up. Shu, had to lower his voice and talk to it quietly, asking him to calm down and not make Qin Shu feel too uncomfortable. When the child calmed down, he seemed to take a nap with Qin Shu, and he stood by and watched Qin Shu's tranquility The sleeping face is often in a trance for one or two hours.

Even though this place is not in the palace, Imperial Physician Li still comes to check Qin Shu's pulse every day to check on the condition of the fetus.He knew that both Lord Hou and Emperor Qing attached great importance to the fetus in Qin Shu's womb, although the reasons for the importance were different.He could only do his best and dare not neglect half a point.

Although Qin Shu's health has always been poor, the fetus has been taken care of since it was formed, and it is very healthy, which reassures the old doctor.

Halfway through the pulse diagnosis that day, Qin Shu said that he was thirsty.At this time, there were only the doctor and him in the room.Yi Zhen did not doubt that he was there, Qin Shu asked for Xinghualu by name, although it was a bit troublesome to do it, he also agreed with Yin Le.

As soon as he went out, Qin Shu's expression calmed down, with a look of hesitating to speak.

Doctor Li is about to become an adult. Seeing him like this, he knows that there is something inconvenient to say in front of Yi Zhen. If you want to ask him a doctor, you must ask about the fetus in his womb. thing.But if you want to ask Master Hou without telling it, it won't be about how to have a baby.

While thinking wildly, he was preparing to deal with Qin Shu's possible strange questions, but after waiting for a long time, Qin Shu just rubbed his stomach in a daze, as if he hadn't decided whether to speak or not.

Doctor Li couldn't help being anxious for him, coughed and said first: "The fetus is very healthy, you don't have to worry too much."

Hearing this, Qin Shu raised his head to look at the doctor, his eyes were clear and clean, and he had an unspeakable determination and composure. At a glance, he taught Li Taiyi to sit up straight unconsciously. Halfway there, with just this look in his eyes, he is no longer the ignorant young man he was before.

Fortunately, Qin Shu didn't intend to target him. He only glanced at the imperial physician, then lowered his head to stare at his stomach, and said softly, "Doctor mean that she is healthy?"

The doctor didn't know why he said this, but thought that he was concerned and confused, and he was not at ease about the condition of the fetus. Parents are like this, so he assured him firmly: "It is true, I think you can feel it yourself, Is the young master lively?"

"Young master?" Qin Shu frowned, raised his eyes to stare at him and said, "Isn't she really a daughter? Is she really healthy? There are no problems?"

Doctor Li was taken aback when he heard the word "daughter", he was not as calm as Yi Zhen, and he immediately showed a bit of surprise on his face.

Seeing him like this, Qin Shu became more sure of what he was thinking, and pleaded softly to Doctor Li: "Please tell me the truth. I won't let Yi Zhen know. Is the fetus in my womb a girl? Her body, Is there something wrong?"

Seeing that Dr. Li did not answer, he rubbed his stomach and continued: "The doctor may not believe it. I saw her every night in my dream. She is a sick and weak girl. She has some problems with her feet and she is not very good-looking. I know Yi Zhen will not like her. But no matter what, she is also my daughter..." After speaking, he couldn't help feeling a little excited, and his voice became louder and louder.

Doctor Li heard what he said clearly, and was so shocked that he didn't know what to do.He knew about the baby girl before, and even the day the baby girl died, he was one of the imperial physicians present. Hearing what Qin Shu said, he naturally knew who Qin Shu was talking about.

Just as he didn't know what to say, there was a slam at the door, and the porcelain bowl Yi Zhen was holding fell to the ground, but he couldn't care less about it, and rushed in a few steps.In desperation, he grabbed Qin Shu's shoulder and hissed, "You don't have a daughter! She's not your daughter! Don't think about it all day long!"

Qin Shu looked up at him, and Yi Zhen's face distorted by emotions such as fear, anger, sorrow, and panic appeared slightly ferocious, a ferocious appearance he had never seen in the past two years.For a moment, he couldn't help being stunned, and even forgot to struggle when Yi Zhen pinched his shoulder.