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It was a very harmonious dinner.This seemed to be the most secure time when Xiao Jincheng and Zhan Zishu sat together.There is no aggressiveness like Zhan Zishu, nor is there complete silence like Xiao Jincheng.Moreover, Zhan Zishu seemed to suddenly become very interested in Xiao Jincheng's studies, and kept asking questions while eating.Even Xiao Jincheng gave an overview of some things in the school.

Zhan Zishu finally had an understanding of the school he chose to study in his life. When he lowered his head to eat, there was an unknown meaning in his eyes, but Xiao Jincheng didn't notice it.

This conversation made the awkward atmosphere between the two dissipate a lot.Zhan Zishu also calmed down a lot. After eating, Xiao Jincheng was busy packing up his things. Zhan Zishu also wanted to help, but Xiao Jincheng pushed him aside to watch TV.

Looking at Xiao Jincheng who was busy in the kitchen, the inexplicable Zhan Zishu actually felt that there was a faint reassuring atmosphere in this small room.He and Xiao Jincheng seem to have lived like this for a long time.Zhan Zishu wiped his face with his hands. In the past, he and Xiao Jincheng confronted each other. No, it should be said that it was a unilateral attack, right?There was no way they could have gotten along so peacefully.He was a little surprised how he could have such an idea.

After Xiao Jincheng finished packing, he seemed to have something to write, Zhan Zishu went over to take a look, and chatted with Xiao Jincheng for a while.Zhan Zishu was a little startled by Xiao Jincheng's thoughts and ideas.How old is this person?His way of thinking about problems is not much better than that of Zhan Zishu, an uncle with a youthful skin, and he is terrifyingly mature.The only thing lacking may be experience.This kid must have grown up too fast, right?Or is he a genius?This made Zhan Zishu a little envious.If he had Xiao Jincheng's brains, ideas and sophisticated way of dealing with the world back then, maybe today would be a different situation.

A little bit unwilling, Zhan Zishu sat back on the sofa, as if watching TV, but actually watched Xiao Jincheng flipping through books and writing at the table.Xiao Jincheng's expression was serious and meticulous.Zhan Zishu felt a little uncomfortable in his heart. When he was in college, he probably wasn't as serious as Xiao Jincheng.Zhan Zishu was praised by others since he was a child.Of course, he is also really smart.It is basically not difficult for him to study law, politics and economics, and his grades have always been excellent.The celebrity in the eyes of teachers and parents.

But because of his status as Zhanzi Shutian's proud son, he seldom participated in any social practice at school.On the contrary, it is the group of young people in the capital, who often eat, drink and play, the good and the bad are not left behind, showing the proud appearance of the second generation ancestors.Not to mention social work experience, even the most basic way of dealing with people, he didn't even bother to look at it.Who told him where to put his identity? If he said one, how could others say two?Others have always revolved around him, so why should he care more?

After that incident happened at home, Zhan Zishu didn't even have a chance to regain his senses, and fell from the clouds to hell.Watching the decline of his family step by step, there is no chance of turning around.Those friends and friends who hang out with him all day long are nowhere to be seen.From resignation, disobedience to final despair, it took just over a year.It came too suddenly and too dreamy, everything seemed unreal.

It was also because of this that Zhan Zishu really realized that what he always thought he understood, actually didn't understand anything at all.He is like a baby bird that has been protected too well, but he thinks he is already an eagle.What is power, what is struggle, what is politics, what is "not to let go of death"... the true meaning can only be understood at the moment when he is at the end.He was just a little frog who didn't even jump out of the bottom of the well.Even if he is unwilling to die, so what?If you die, you will rest.

And now, he is reborn.He did have another chance to do it all over again.However, knowing the pressure he would face in the future, Zhan Zishu was really anxious.There are too many things that he needs to face, but there are also too many things that he doesn't know how to do.However, time passed day by day.He is more afraid of making mistakes.Because once he made a mistake, it would push him and even his entire family into a state of eternal doom.

Zhan Zishu had to admit that he envied Xiao Jincheng.Xiao Jincheng possesses a firmness that he doesn't have. He knows where his goal is, and he moves towards it without hesitation.Maybe it's because Xiao Jincheng's personality is calm, or maybe it's because of his experience, family, himself, etc., that make him mature day by day.

But compared to Zhan Zishu, at this moment, he has almost nothing except his grasp of the direction of the next ten or twenty years.He had to learn to deal with people, he had to learn to be patient, he had to...too much!In the past, he lacked too many things.Those things that he once dismissed in his eyes.He still remembered that not only old man Zhan, Zhan Guohui, but even his elder brother Zhan Zixiang and second sister Zhan Zifeng looked at him helplessly many times and said with a smile, "I really spoiled you."

At that time, Zhan Zishu didn't listen to him at all. He never thought that he did something wrong, or that he should give in.And his family loves him so deeply.Perhaps at that time, his family members never realized that they might really harm Zhan Zishu by doing so.But at that time, Zhanjia was in a time of boundless beauty.

In the eyes of his family, Zhan Zishu was always the youngest child, the most well-behaved, and the most beloved.They didn't even want Zhan Zishu to be exposed to too many things on the dark side too early, they always thought he was still young... There was never any reason for Zhan Zishu's protection.So Zhanzi was comfortable and unrestrained, living as he wanted, but fell hard!

The reborn Zhan Zishu didn't complain to his family.Because he understands that his family's love for him is selfless.It is precisely because of this selflessness that he chose to protect his family by himself.This time it should be him!He can no longer be as muddled as he used to be.But what to do... The anxiety in Zhan Zishu's heart was no less than when he was imprisoned.

"Zi Shu, it's time to take your medicine. Zi Shu? What are you thinking?" Xiao Jincheng checked the time and brought Zhan Zishu's medicine and warm water to him. He didn't want to, but found that Zhan Zishu seemed to be in a trance.

Zhan Zishu came back to his senses, looked at the pills and water in front of him, and felt a little restless again.That's it, the people around him treat him like this... in every possible way.Even this Xiao Jincheng, he used to speak so badly at each other, but now he still takes care of him like this.even for him...

How could this make Zhan Zishu feel so uncomfortable?

With his head lowered, Zhan Zishu took the pill without showing any expression, put it into his mouth, and swallowed it with warm water, a slight bitterness spread.He suddenly said: "Why do you treat me so well? You know it well..."

Xiao Jincheng paused, hesitating and hesitating, but he still stretched out his hand firmly, raised Zhan Zishu's chin slightly, looked into his eyes, and said, "I know and understand. But as I said, I won't Give up. Zishu, this is my business. You don't have to think too much."

Zhan Zishu pushed Xiao Jincheng's hand away wearily, and turned his head to avoid Xiao Jincheng's eyes that were beating deeply on his heart.Sure enough, this person is still the same, simple, straightforward and firm... This is what he doesn't have...

"Are you tired? Do you want to take a rest?" Xiao Jincheng could see Zhan Zishu's tiredness, so he asked softly.

Zhan Zishu was stunned for a moment, but Xiao Jincheng didn't notice it.Immediately, Zhan Zishu nodded and said, "Okay." He quickly stood up to wash up, while Xiao Jincheng helped him spread the bedding.

Zhan Zishu lay down on the bed, while Xiao Jincheng said apologetically, "You go to bed first. I'll change the light. I still have something to write."

Zhan Zishu let out an "um" and closed his eyes.He knew he couldn't fall asleep, so he could only wait for Xiao Jincheng to fall asleep before getting up and taking a sleeping pill.He didn't want Xiao Jincheng to see his nightmare appearance again.

But pretending to sleep is really not a comfortable thing.Zhan Zishu tossed and turned on the bed several times, and finally lay on his side with half-closed eyes in a position where he could see Xiao Jincheng.It's better than lying down and thinking wildly.

However, what Zhan Zishu didn't expect was that he just watched Xiao Jincheng writing vigorously under the dim light. His serious eyes and some hair scattered on his forehead made Xiao Jincheng look strange. attraction.Zhan Zishu just stared at him for a long while, unconsciously, a feeling of peace and tranquility surged in his heart that he didn't realize.Gradually, Zhan Zishu just fell asleep.

However, the nightmares every night are like demons.When Zhan Zishu was pulled out of the nightmare by Xiao Jincheng again, he was covered in cold sweat and didn't even have the strength to sit up.

Xiao Jincheng frowned, and just looked at Zhan Zishu without saying a word.

Zhan Zishu forced a weak smile, and said, "Excuse me, did I disturb you?" As he spoke, he avoided Xiao Jincheng's eyes as if nothing had happened, and tried to stand up with some effort.

Seeing this, Xiao Jincheng helped Zhan Zishu, but Zhan Zishu avoided him when he didn't want to.Zhan Zishu said in a low voice, "I'm fine. I'll go take a shower." The cold sweat all over his body really made Zhan Zishu very uncomfortable, but what he wanted to do more right now was...

Zhan Zishu stood up straight. Since he hadn't heard Xiao Jincheng's words and was stared at by him very hard, he had to smile and said, "Jincheng! Why are you looking at me? I said, it's okay. Just It's just a nightmare." While speaking, he casually picked up his bag, without looking at Xiao Jincheng, and walked towards the bathroom.

"Want to get something?" Xiao Jincheng took a step ahead of Zhan Zishu, and stood at the door of the bathroom.

Zhanzi was stunned for a moment, and said nonchalantly, "Just find a change of clothes. I can't keep wearing yours." After speaking, he naturally walked sideways around Xiao Jincheng and entered the bathroom, closed the door, and locked it.

In the next moment, Zhan Zishu leaned against the door as if he had lost all strength.He regretted why he didn't find a chance to take the sleeping pill earlier.Otherwise it wouldn't be what it is now.Xiao Jincheng must have become suspicious.But now he has no other choice.If he was allowed to lie motionless and pretend to sleep until dawn, Zhan Zishu didn't think he could survive.It might be better if he was at home... Zhan Zishu regretted why he didn't just stay in a hotel.Even if he is alone, it is better than being discovered by Xiao Jincheng now...

Zhan Zishu hastily wiped it with water, and then quickly took out the sleeping pill bottle, which was still sealed.He carefully opened the medicine as quietly as possible, and skillfully poured out two white sleeping pills.Putting it in the palm of his hand, it looked extremely flashy, and Zhan Zishu was stunned for a moment.At that time, he couldn't sleep all night, and later he had to rely on medicine to sleep for a while, and as his insomnia symptoms deepened, he had to increase the dosage of medicine more and more.At that time, he was very aware of the side effects of the drug on the body.This is also the reason why he insists on not wanting to rely on drugs any more to this day.And now, does he have to use these again?

There is no other choice.Zhan Zishu showed a wry smile, when he picked up the medicine and was about to swallow it, he didn't expect that the bathroom door was opened! "Zi Shu, are you okay, do you want me to help..." Xiao Jincheng's voice suddenly sounded.

Zhan Zishu was shocked, and hurriedly wanted to put away the medicine bottle on the sink, but he didn't expect that the medicine bottle was knocked over on the ground because of his too much movement.There was a "crash" sound.Zhan Zishu stayed on the spot.

Seeing this, Xiao Jincheng frowned completely, and said loudly: "Zi Shu! What are you doing? This is... what?" Xiao Jincheng bent down to pick up the medicine bottle from the ground, took a closer look, and couldn't help being shocked, saying : "You...are you taking sleeping pills?"

Zhan Zishu regained his composure at this moment.After all, he is not just a high school student like he looks like.Zhan Zishu didn't answer Xiao Jincheng's question, but calmly took the bottle of sleeping pills from Xiao Jincheng's hand, and most of the medicine inside had been spilled.He looked at it, closed the lid, and threw it into the trash can, then sighed deeply.

Xiao Jincheng watched Zhan Zishu's actions silently, frankly speaking, he was shocked.Ever since he woke up Zhan Zishu from his nightmare last night, he has been very concerned.When I saw Zhan Zishu this time, his thinness made people feel uneasy.And for two consecutive nights, he received a call from Zhan Zishu almost in the middle of the night and early in the morning. These things were connected with the nightmare he saw Zhan Zishu just now, which made Xiao Jincheng suspicious and worried.Perhaps he should be thankful that the rented house is not very good, the lock on the bathroom door has been broken for a long time.That's why he was able to push open the door and found that Zhan Zishu was there... Even Xiao Jincheng was young, but he also understood that taking sleeping pills was never a good thing.What's more, how old is Zhan Zishu?Does he need to take sleeping pills?

Xiao Jincheng was full of doubts, but it was clear that Zhan Zishu had no intention of explaining.After throwing away the sleeping pills, he picked up a towel and wiped his face again, then turned around and wanted to bypass Xiao Jincheng and go back to the room.However, Xiao Jincheng didn't move, and even reached out to grab Zhan Zishu's arm.

Zhan Zishu raised his eyebrows and looked at Xiao Jincheng, without saying a word.

Xiao Jincheng looked back at Zhan Zishu expressionlessly, and said, "What's going on?"

"That's what you saw. I couldn't sleep and wanted to take sleeping pills. But now, I don't want to take them anymore." Zhan Zishu pushed Xiao Jincheng away, walked sideways into the room, and said as if nothing had happened: "The door lock You are ready to fix it."