A wild horse with a protruding "anus"

The topics that Liu Jianshen planned to discuss with Jiang Yirong about scheming and taking power were all wiped out.

At this time, Jiang Bin was sitting in He Jian's car and turned his head to look at the scenery outside the window.Maintaining this posture, the uneasiness in my heart continued to spread, so that I felt that the plants and trees retreating outside the window seemed to be counting down to the unknown ending.

He watched He Jian's movements out of the corner of his eyes, every slight movement of his touched Jiang Bin's tense nerves.The familiar expressway gradually appeared in front of him, so Jiang Bin immediately guessed where He Jian was going to take him.

The car finally stopped in front of the university, and the guard was busy chatting and looking at them, without asking anything. After all, the school also set up a training point for civil servants, and people from the society often come and go. He Jian's always dressed as an elite made the guard think It was this kind of person, and although Jiang Bin had graduated for more than a year, he still looked like a student, and he was not stopped by anything.

The moment Jiang Bin stepped into the school gate, he felt very complicated.

At the graduation ceremony, I put on a bachelor's cap and hung shoulders with my roommates and vowed to come back to see the teacher together, but after being asked out several times, I found excuses to shirk, and Jiang Yirong never fell behind.

Over the past year, the school has continued to expand, and its name will soon be upgraded from "college" to "university". The memories that had been pressed at the bottom of the box were pulled out one by one and spread out in front of Jiang Bin.

Wrinkled and old, but the mottled tear stains on it are still clearly identifiable, as if you can touch the undried warmth and deep-rooted inferiority complex with your hand.

Many reasons have been forgotten, only remember the sourness and despair experienced repeatedly.

People's memory is really amazing. The details that I thought I would not remember, just glanced at it, and it seemed to pull up the end of the thread, pulling out the whole appearance. This kind of revisiting the old place, which is equivalent to uncovering scars, gradually wears down reason and courage. .Jiang Bin originally thought that he had enough ground to resent, criticize and give up, but everything in front of him seemed to prove at the same time that it was his indomitable attitude that caused the endless entanglement today.

"Here..." He Jian suddenly stopped.

Jiang Bin, who was distracted, almost ran into him, and hurriedly stopped and looked around.

However, this road is too familiar, and countless memories are connected in parallel. He doesn't know which section He Jian remembers.

"This is where you first spoke to me."

Jiang Bin fell in love with He Jian at first sight, from the moment he appeared in Taoist uniform, he couldn't help but fell in love with him.

Jiang Bin planned for a long time, but due to various changes, he failed to talk to He Jian.That day, he was kicking stones on this "happiness trail for couples" thinking hard, and suddenly he saw He Jian walking past him leisurely.

The four big characters "destined to be" appeared in Jiang Bin's mind for a moment, and his head became hot, he grabbed something on the ground and rushed up to stop He Jian, saying: "Senior, you lost something!"

He Jian was silent for three seconds, and burst into a spring-like smile:

"Really? Then please keep it for me."

Only then did Jiang Bin realize that what he had picked up when his brain went down was a brick beside the flower bed under construction. He blushed to the point of his neck, hugged the brick and ran away with his tail between his legs. He Jian did not see He Jian looking at his back thoughtfully. look.

Before graduation, when his roommate was tidying up his things, he found that Jiang Bin had picked up the bricks that he had picked up and claimed to be "the foot of the bed", but had carefully wrapped the never-used bricks in newspapers and asked, "Why are these used?"

Jiang Bin looked at the bricks and then at the blue sky. A plane passed by, bringing out a trail that gradually spread out: "I hope someone will wake me up with a brick someday."

Jiang Yirong, who listened with his ears open, silently found a new newspaper and packed the brick back into its original form and stuffed it into his suitcase. Later, the brick followed its owner to Liu Jianshen's house, and then smashed He Jian's BMW...

Jiang Yirong shook his feet afterwards and said: "It is not you who should be photographed! I have been waiting for this day for a long time!"

Thinking of this vengeful girlfriend, Jiang Bin couldn't help laughing, but He Jian misunderstood his expression, his heart moved, and he blurted out: "I often think of this day..."

"I can give you a brick."

Seeing Jiang Bin's indifferent expression of "let's stop here", He Jian pursed his lips tightly and showed a hint of helplessness and self-mockery.

The two stalemate for a while, He Jian seemed to give up using the memories of the first meeting to awaken the warmth of that day, and walked in another direction.Jiang Bin, who wanted to pass by so much but was forced to be the hero, had no choice but to bite the bullet and keep up.He knew that He Jian would not give up if he didn't follow the plan step by step, and he only hoped that he could really keep his word.

The two continued to walk one after the other, Jiang Bin looked at He Jian's back, and recalled thinking more than once that he had faced this tacit distance, no matter how hard he chased him, he would never be able to catch up. The gap between will never be shortened.

Jiang Bin thought so many years ago, and Jiang Bin still thinks so now.It's just that Jiang Bin was a donkey on the road staring at the carrot hanging above his head.

He is used to seeing He Jian's slick face, long-sleeved and good at dancing, and he compares it repeatedly with the ruler in his heart. He has every reason to choose to shrink back with low self-esteem.Occasionally, just occasionally, trying to catch up because of unwillingness, all he got was He Jian's indifference and contempt.

For example, that year, he knew that He Jian had become the candidate for the chairman of the student union, so he mustered up the courage to apply for the election of the chairman of the student union in his department.However, during the second round of speeches, He Jian pushed the door open and made him completely forget his words.

He Jian, who was not informed by Jiang Bin in advance, with obvious dissatisfaction, walked straight to the first row of the auditorium and sat down, holding his chin and waiting for him to continue.

Jiang Bin only felt that the two gazes were firmly locked on him, as if they were going to burn through him.After finally stuttering and reciting the words, he glanced nervously at the audience, but there was no sign of He Jian.

Jiang Bin found out afterwards that it was He Jian who dragged the favor of the student union so that he entered the second round of election.

"He Jian said in front of so many people that you are Liu Adou who cannot be supported!"

Jiang Bin said indifferently to his friend who was fighting for him with a look of resentment: "He is right."

The friend showed an unbelievable expression, and Jiang Bin still had a faint smile on his face. The summer was scorching, but he couldn't dry out the cold and damp in his heart.

"Liu Adou who can't afford it..." When Jiang Bin was walking on the stairs leading to the activity center where the multi-functional hall was located, he couldn't help laughing at himself when he remembered this past event.

Who knows that He Jian heard it, stopped suddenly and said:

"I never said anything against you."

After a moment of daze, Jiang Bin raised his head and met He Jian's extremely serious eyes:

"Chen Xing hates me."

Chen Xing was Jiang Bin's informant friend.Jiang Bin had nothing to do with him until he joined the student union, and Jiang Bin got to know him because of He Jian's relationship.

He is a typical "top student" in Jiang Bin's heart. He is full of energy all day long and can be seen in almost any activity on campus. He has served as the vice president of the student union since his sophomore year and worked with He Jian. Later, he retired to the second line and returned to the department to work on the Youth League Committee.Jiang Bin couldn't see any gaps between the two who usually work together seamlessly.

"He and Lin Zhiyuan were on the same road. I used the student union to do private work in private. I warned him." Seeing Jiang Bin's blank face, He Jian explained patiently: "The youth league committee found out about this later, so they withdrew his appointment." At that time, it was the general election, he thought it was me..."

Jiang Bin didn't expect that there would be such a paragraph at the beginning, and after a long while, he tried to find a flaw: "But...why did he spread rumors about me?" Wouldn't "insider" be more effective?Why do you approach him, and then come to him again and again to "inform" him, making him feel troubled?

"He knows I care."

"What do you care about?" Jiang Bin regretted after asking.

He Jian's eyes made him look away in embarrassment.

He Jian stopped talking, didn't continue the topic, and led Jiang Bin through the activity center to the playground.

Looking at the plastic runway, Jiang Bin recalled that at that time the school stipulated that morning jogging was required to swipe his card. In order to let He Jian sleep a little longer, Jiang Bin used his card to swipe instead.However, the old lady who was sent to supervise was very serious. It is possible to do the painting on behalf of the brush, but it must be done by two people.An honest boy like Jiang Bin would not use the "disguise method" to fool the old lady. He really ran four laps every morning and swiped both of their cards.

Later in the second half of the semester, this formalistic morning run was cancelled. Before leaving, the old lady murmured to Jiang Bin: "There are very few boys who are so kind to little girls..."

Jiang Bin smiled back in embarrassment, thinking that it would be great if such a relationship was really the case.

That day, in the library, he handed the morning jogging card to He Jian. He put it in his pocket without looking at it, and continued to read as if nothing had happened.

Thinking of this, Jiang Bin couldn't help but glance at He Jian again, as if wondering how He Jian is different now than he was back then.

He Jian thought that Jiang Bin was urging him to speak, so he looked up at the row of baskets and said, "Why didn't you come to the game against Huazheng?"

This question was very abrupt, but Jiang Bin knew what he was talking about.

In his sophomore year, the basketball league between colleges and universities was in full swing. As one of the main players, He Jian entered the league with his teammates from the school basketball team.

In the past two months, He Jian went to the playground to practice with his teammates almost whenever he had time, while Jiang Bin took a few bottles of salt soda and watched them sweat profusely.

But he finally looked forward to the final day, but He Jian did not see Jiang Bin.

"I have something to do that day." Jiang Bin prevaricated.

"You are here, I saw it." He Jian interrupted:

"But you left again."

Jiang Bin looked back at He Jian in disbelief.

At that time, he did come early with a new towel to wipe He Jian's sweat and some food and drinks, but he didn't expect the students to be so enthusiastic.Jiang Bin managed to find a nearby flower bed, stood on it and stretched his neck to look around. He happened to see Xihua from the cheerleading team who came forward to embrace He Jian warmly.

The picture of the handsome man and the beautiful woman stabbed Jiang Bin's eyes, and he remembered He Jian saying: "I want to marry a wife and have children."

Jiang Bin quickly jumped down from the flower bed, holding the plastic bag and forgetting all the booing and shouting.

That day, he huddled under the quilt for an entire afternoon with his eyes open, and then fell asleep in a daze. When he woke up, he heard the communication in a low voice from his roommate.

"How come that kid He Jian kept a straight face when the award was presented."

"Who knows? During the competition, he was always distracted and didn't know what to watch, otherwise he would have won it!"

"Tell me, is his childhood sweetheart also here?"

"What are childhood sweethearts? All the flowers from the Department of International Trade and Economics have thrown themselves into their arms, and I think it will be successful!"

Jiang Bin didn't like it, so he found an excuse to go out for a walk.Under the stars all over the sky, the lovers hid in various corners suitable for talking and talking to each other. Jiang Bin became irritable as he walked, and his pace became faster and faster, and finally he simply ran in the night.

Running and running, he gradually exhausted his energy, and the depression that he had finally suppressed just now resurfaced with the image of the man and woman, mocking his desperation.what can he doHe has no position, and he has no ability to fight against the ambush that has been laid long ago.

The helplessness and pain at that time are still fresh in his memory, but now, He Jian hints to him that he was actually the one who was distracted looking for him when he was competing.

"Afterwards you deliberately avoided me, and I had dinner with Chen Yanan, and you finally took the initiative to talk to me, asking who she is..." He Jian recalled that afternoon, his expression was first relieved, then sad: "I saw you at that time I deliberately provoked you because I wanted to hear you say something irrational, but you just left..." At that time, He Jian asked Jiang Bin, "Who are you?" He thought Jiang Bin would be forced to He crossed that line when he was at a dead end, and gave an answer that cut off his retreat, but Jiang Bin just walked away without doing anything...

The Chen Yanan in He Jian's mouth is the tie flower that Guomao threw himself into his arms.Jiang Bin thought that He Jian's rhetorical question at the time was to ask him to clarify his position and not to care about He Jian's personal affairs, but hearing what He Jian said just now, it seemed that he had misunderstood and let him down.

"You don't want to put the blame on me!" Jiang Bin grabbed He Jian's collar and shouted: "You are a fucking coward! It used to be! It is now! Back then you played flirtatious, now you play sensational? Let me tell you! There is nothing so cheap in the world! I will not go to the same place to plant several times, you can do art here alone! I will not accompany you!"

After yelling, Jiang Bin turned around and was about to leave, but was grabbed by He Jian.The strength was so great that Jiang Bin couldn't help taking a deep breath.

"I know it's late...but it's here, listen to me."

Jiang Bin's chest heaved and he was still angry, but his steps stopped.

Seeing that Jiang Bin seemed to have given up the idea of ​​leaving, He Jian let go of his hand, glanced at his watch, and snapped his fingers suddenly.

The moment the crisp sound exploded in my ears, the street lights from the teaching building to the playground were turned on one by one, lighting up the night one by one end to end.The orange-red light spots form a long undulating dragon, meandering to Jiang Bin, and then swimming tirelessly into the distance.

"I see you, that's the feeling." He Jian's voice is so bewitching in the night: "You are like the first light that lit up in my life, I have been living in..."

"I'm not a lamp. I don't rely on electricity to keep the light on." Jiang Bin interrupted:

"In my opinion, love is like an electric current on the pacemaker. I have really felt its existence, and one heart was revived by it, but there was no response from the other pole. The original An electric current can't last long at all." Jiang Bin exhaled a ball of white air: "Fortunately, you left, and you didn't watch it die." Jiang Bin looked directly at He Jian, and slowed down his speech: "He Jian, you still Why did you come to me? Not going well? Not reconciled? You still don’t seem to understand that I didn’t pass on the feelings that originally belonged to you to others. It died long ago... Today, the right is to remember, and from now on, each will go his own way .”

This was Jiang Bin's longest and most earnest speech since He Jian came back.

He Jian listened intently, but every word pierced into his heart, stirring his flesh and blood vigorously.

Numb from the pain, He Jian pierced his palm with his nails to force himself to concentrate.

He didn't understand, how could Jiang Bin dismiss their three-year relationship with such a few words?How could it be so hastily ending and begging for the unfeelingness of being inseparable from old age to death?

"It's time for me to go back..." Jiang Bin glanced at his iPhone and regretted agreeing to He Jian's visit.

Although Liu Jianshen repeatedly stated that there was no gate at home and Jiang Bin was free, but every time Jiang Bin went out, he would sit on the sofa and stare at the TV in a daze until Jiang Bin came back.

This duplicitous old fox!Jiang Bin thought to himself, wondering if he and Jiang Yirong had eaten. Normally, these two were the type of children who would obediently come to the living room to eat after shouting at the top of their voices.

He Jian watched Jiang Bin wander off to nowhere, and finally felt the pain of being ignored by the one he loves in front of him.It took a long time before I suppressed the surging emotions in my heart and said in a slightly pleading tone: "Come with me to the last place, and I will send you back when you are done."

Jiang Bin thought for a while, then nodded in agreement.

As expected, He Jian took Jiang Bin to Sheshan. At this time, the scenic spot was about to close, and all the people were going down, and they were the only ones going against the flow of people.

Along the way, more than a dozen stone tablets of the crucifixion of Jesus were engraved, allowing visitors to experience the process of the Lord Jesus carrying the cross and walking to the execution ground.

Jiang Bin stared at the stone tablet and thought, if He Jian had had the courage to go against the current regardless of the current back then, maybe the situation today would be different.

Arriving outside the church of a very old age, the gatekeeper looked at the two vigilantly, but He Jian had no intention of going in. He walked to the railing on the side of the church and lowered his eyes to look at the night below the mountain.

Jiang Bin looked after him. It was pitch black and he couldn't see anything.The night wind blew the hair of the two of them, bringing a trace of coolness into their necks. Just as Jiang Bin stomped his feet, a coat was covered.

"What are you doing?!" Jiang Bin hurriedly tore off his clothes and returned them to He Jian.

"Just put it on for me for a while..." He Jian had expected that Jiang Bin would refuse, so he smiled bitterly.But he just wanted to use this method to let his body temperature and breath stay on Jiang Bin for a little longer.

Seeing He Jian's insistence, Jiang Bin had no choice but to wear it awkwardly.

What is the taste of learning from it.

He Jian's discarded overcoat, which he put away carefully, also had the same smell.

Jiang Bin closed his eyes, but his sense of smell was more sensitive.He frowned and opened his eyes, only to see He Jian took out a dark red velvet box.Open it, and inside lies a low-key men's diamond ring.

"Thank you for being with me today, there is nothing I can give you..."

Jiang Bin was taken aback, staring blankly at the diamond ring.

"You take it, and I won't bother you anymore." He Jian said, took out the diamond ring from the box, held Jiang Bin's hand, and wanted to put it on his ring finger.

When Jiang Bin was touched by He Jian's fingers, he felt so hot that he wanted to shrink back, but He Jian seemed to only hold it lightly, but in fact he was so strong that Jiang Bin couldn't break free at all.

However, the ring was put on the ring finger, and slowly pushed to the second joint, He Jian stopped.

He looked at the ring with a slightly confused expression, as if the one who said those words and did this thing just now was not himself.

After another pause, He Jian suddenly pulled off the ring without warning, and then pulled Jiang Bin into his arms.

Jiang Bin felt his uncontrollable trembling and the tears dripping on his neck.

He repeated:

"Don't go...don't do this...I haven't told you yet..."

Jiang Bin listened to him muttering over and over again, for a long time, Fang pushed lightly, opened some distance and said, "I'm sorry He Jian, give me the ring..."