I want to have a home

Lin Jiale's name is Jiale, and grandma said it means happy family, but since he was young, he never knew what happy family is like.He thinks his name is good, and his surname is not bad, but when put together, it is too damn ironic. Lin Jiale, isn't it "Neighborhood Fun", no wonder it is always happy and laughing at the neighbor's house , He sat under the low window of his house and listened secretly, like a mouse hiding in the dark.

So he hated his own name, and those two people who gave him his life and his name never gave him a home, let alone a happy family.He really hates being called by his first name and surname. You can either call him Xiao Lin, or you can call him Jia Le, Le Le, or Xiao Le. Don't call him Lin Jiale.

"Jia Le, someone is looking for you outside." When Lin Jiale's classmate called him, he was engrossed in memorizing English vocabulary, and the mock exam was about to be held, and he wanted to do better in the exam.

"Who is it?" He raised his head when he heard the cry, and his heart skipped a beat, "Fourth Uncle!"

Standing at the door of the classroom was his neighbor Uncle Si, his trouser legs were still rolled up, his legs were still wet with mud, and he was wearing a pair of rotten slippers, looking anxiously into the classroom to find him.Lin Jiale stood up and walked out, bringing the table down without realizing it. Usually only grandma came to the school to look for him, but this time it was his cousin who was not very close to him, and he came in such a hurry. Huge uneasiness.

The girl in the front seat shouted in a high voice: "Hey-hey-what the hell are you doing, Lin Jiale, can you slow down?"

Lin Jiale ignored her, even though she called her by name and surname, he would definitely correct her if she changed to normal, and ran to the door: "Uncle Si, why are you here?" The voice was unconsciously a little trembling.

The fourth uncle led him to the stairs, where there were fewer people, the fourth uncle hesitated for a moment, but still said: "Lele, your grandma is gone."

Lin Jiale suddenly felt dizzy, he stretched out his hand indiscriminately, and grabbed the handrail of the stairs, tears rushed out of his eyes like a flood that opened the gate, and dripped down his face wantonly.He bit his lip desperately, his lips turned white and blue, he didn't make a sound, crying extremely depressed.

The fourth uncle looked at the poor child worriedly. The last person who held an umbrella for him fell down, and he will be alone from now on. "Lele, where is your teacher? I'll ask for a leave of absence for you. Uncle will take you back."

Lin Jiale was crying and didn't answer, the tears ran down his cheeks to his chin, and then dropped to the ground, and soon formed into a ball.The fourth uncle had no choice, so he went to his classroom to find a student, took him to the head teacher, Mr. Zhou Qiang, asked the teacher for leave, and took Lin Jiale back.

Lin Jiale is not an orphan, his parents are still alive, but they are similar to orphans, his parents divorced when he was less than two years old.The whereabouts of my mother was unknown, and I occasionally heard rumors that his mother married a big boss and went away to enjoy life.

His father is also alive and well, but it's like nothing. He has grown up fast, and he has seen his father no more than ten times. The most recent time was three years ago, when he was in the third year of junior high school.He came back from nowhere, covered in bruises, stayed at home for half a month, and then disappeared without a sound, taking away Lin Jiale's lucky money hidden in the pillow.Those were brand-new banknotes that grandma gave him every year during Chinese New Year, totaling 110 yuan. He kept them all like treasures, and planned to buy her a present for grandma on her [-]th birthday.It is not easy for grandma to pull him alone, give him food and drink, and send him to study.I haven't been willing to buy a new thing for myself for so many years, but before grandma's birthday, my father took all the money away.

Lin Jiale's impression of his father was quite angry. He gave birth to him, but never took care of him. From childhood to adulthood, he grew up with his widowed grandmother for many years, and the grandparent and grandson depended on each other.He always thought that when he was admitted to university, he would be able to make his grandma happy, and when he made money, he would be able to let his grandma enjoy a happy life. However, it was too late for all this to happen, and grandma died!

Lin Jiale sat in the trailer of his fourth uncle's agricultural vehicle, thinking of grandma, poor grandma, kind grandma, capable grandma, grandma who was always good to him, and she was no longer here.He finally couldn't help but burst into tears, suppressing the chug and chug of the agricultural vehicle.The fourth uncle was driving the car ahead, and couldn't help but burst into tears.The two shed tears all the way.

When Lin Jiale returned home, a large group of people gathered around the door of his house. Before he saw his grandma's body, he couldn't stand up. He knelt all the way, crying loudly all the way: "Grandma! Grandma! I'm back, Le Le is back!"

When all the relatives and neighbors saw him, they hurried over to help him to the grandmother's bedside.Because the children and grandchildren have not come back, Grandma Lin has not yet been buried, but all the shrouds and shoes are neatly dressed.Lin Jiale knelt beside the bed, crying so much that he almost fainted. Is this person in black clothes and a black hat grandma?Grandma hasn't worn new clothes for many years, and now she finally puts them on, but they are her last new clothes.

"Jia Le, grandma's eyes are still open. You and your father haven't come back. She is worried. Now that you are back, help her close them?" An elderly man said behind him.

Lin Jiale knelt down and touched grandma's face with trembling hands. Her face was already cold. He cried and choked up and said, "Grandma, Lele is back. Don't worry, I will be fine. You can sleep peacefully." Bar."

Grandma Lin's eyes were closed as expected.

"Okay, the auspicious time has come, let's put the old man in the coffin."

Someone came to help Lin Jiale away, and several people surrounded her, wrapping up Grandma Lin in a bed sheet, and carried her into the coffin in the main room.Lin Jiale chased after him, grabbed the coffin and called grandma.However, he was still separated from his grandma in two worlds by wooden wedges one by one.

Grandma died of illness, not a serious illness, just a cold in spring.The old man didn't pay much attention to it, and always thought that it would be over, and he was reluctant to spend money on medicine. The 72-year-old lady has worked hard all year round, but she is not willing to eat and drink. Her health is not as good as before, and she doesn't want to just get sick.In the next few days, Lin Jiale let others arrange to attend the funeral in a daze. The married aunt came back, and the uncle presided over all affairs.His father could not be contacted until his grandma died.

Lin Jiale regretted it very much. If he asked for leave on weekends to come back to see grandma, he would definitely accompany grandma to see a doctor, so grandma might not die.So at the funeral, he cried several times and almost passed out.Relatives and neighbors sighed one after another: "Grandma Lin doesn't have a filial son, but she has a filial grandson, and she has been dragging her shit and piss all these years."

Lin Jiale wore hemp and filial piety, knelt three times and kowtowed nine times, fulfilling the responsibilities of a filial son and grandson, sending grandma to the mountain.A pile of loess, a wreath made of paper, a few yellow paper money, not even a tombstone, here is the final destination of my grandmother who has loved me for more than ten years.

The season of grandma's death is very good, it is the spring when all things grow.Lin Jiale knelt on the grave, looked at the grass that had just emerged, and his tears welled up. Is this grandma's heroic spirit?He still can't bear this underage grandson, grandma, I can't bear you, why don't you wait for me to grow up before leaving?

Many years later, when Lin Jiale heard the lyrics "If one day, I am old and have nowhere to live, please bury me in this spring", he couldn't help but think of that spring, the grandma who was buried in the spring, and the grandma who was kneeling in the fresh He had no more tears to shed on the loess, at that time, he was truly helpless.

When Lin Jiale returned home, her aunt and uncle and some relatives did not leave. They were doing the final liquidation and ending.Jia Le didn't understand all these things, and it was all relatives who presided over it.He looked at the messy yard and the empty house, and his heart was empty. His backbone was gone, no one reminded him to eat and add clothes, and no one discussed things with him anymore. It's up to you.

Aunt and uncle called Jiale over, and his uncle, grandma's younger brother, was present. They talked to him about his future and the distribution of the gift money at the funeral.According to local customs, married daughters only need to take out a small sum of money when their parents die. The sons worry about the bulk of the funeral expenses, so the excess gift money will only go to the sons in the end.But Jia Le's father is not around, and the funeral expenses are mainly borne by the aunt except grandma's inheritance, so the remaining gift money is also shared by the aunt.Jia Le listened, felt reasonable, and nodded repeatedly.

In the end, Lin Jiale got 600 yuan. He was at a loss with the money that belonged to him. This was indeed the largest sum of money that belonged to him so far, but what could [-] yuan do?The high school that can support him for one semester, he is already in the third year of high school, and he will soon go to the college entrance examination. After the college entrance examination, he will go to university. If he passes the entrance examination, what will he have to pay the tuition fee?

"Lele, what about the book? You continue to study. You have paid the tuition and living expenses for this semester. You can finish reading." Auntie said.

Lin Jiale nodded.

Uncle said openly: "If Jia Le is admitted to university, then we will find a way to help you pay for your tuition together."

Uncle pondered for a while, then said slowly: "It takes three years to finish a college degree, and four years to complete a bachelor's degree. One year's tuition and living expenses, if you save it, it will cost about 1 yuan. In three or four years, it will be [-] to [-]." His tone was very calm, just stating a fact, neither agreeing nor disagreeing.

Lin Jiale's heart tightened, it was true, even if he was admitted to university, where would he get the money to study?His father, who never sees the end of the dragon, who knows when it will appear, even if it appears, there may not be money for him to study.The conditions of my aunt's family are not rich, they are all ordinary farmers, and they have two sons, one is of marriageable age, and the other is also in high school.

Lin Jiale bit her lip, lowered her head and thought for a while: "Uncle, Auntie, I'd better go back to school and finish my classes this semester. As for the university, I won't take the exam. After graduation, I will go to Guangdong to work."

The aunt was obviously relieved. All the money given to the mother during the festivals these years was used by the old man to subsidize the grandson's education.It would be a lie to say that she has no complaints in her heart. Now that the old man has passed away, she has no reason to subsidize this nephew anymore. He is almost approaching, and he can be considered an adult. Such a family has read so many books , who owes him nothing.These days, there are so many people who don't go to college, who is not a job?Those who went out to work as soon as they graduated from elementary school and junior high school, not to mention making a fortune, didn't they all build new houses, marry wives, and have children?Didn't her eldest son also go out to work after graduating from junior high school?

My aunt just wanted to say yes, but was pulled by my uncle: "Jia Le, you should study hard at school, and take the college entrance examination as usual. Don't worry about the registration fee, uncle will give it to you. Your grandma always wanted you to go to the university. University students, don’t disappoint the old man’s wish. Uncle and aunt will find a way for you about tuition fees.”

When Jia Le heard him talking about grandma, his eyes were watery, and he shook his head: "Thank you, Uncle, all these years, I have been relying on you to push me to go to school, I have grown up and should not be your burden anymore. "Why doesn't he want to be like other children, study with peace of mind, and then go to college happily, but he doesn't have this fate.

Uncle stubbed out the cigarette butt that was about to burn his fingers on the table, and looked at Jiale with cloudy eyes: "Since this is the case, let's finish high school first. Uncle will find an acquaintance to let you follow him To learn technology, these days, studying may not necessarily lead to a future, not to mention that we are still such a family."

Lin Jiale nodded. The sadness and grievance in his heart cannot be expressed in front of these relatives. They owe nothing to themselves. If they want to complain, they can only blame the two people who gave birth to them. But now they are still with themselves. What does it matter?

The aunt suddenly said: "Lele, I heard that your mother is in Guangdong, and she has lived a good life these years, why don't you go and find her?"

Lin Jiale's heart skipped a beat when he heard it. Over the years, relatives and neighbors have often talked about his mother behind his back. He has never seen what she looks like, and occasionally heard people say that he looks like her.But even so, he still couldn't imagine what she looked like. Occasionally when he saw his face on the glass cabinet in the store, he would have an idea that she must be pretty.

That mother, according to his father, was coveting the money of an old man in Hong Kong, so she went to be his mistress and abandoned their father and son.When his father talked about it, he hated it, a bit like gnashing his teeth.Lin Jiale didn't have any special feelings for his father since he was a child. He didn't go away forever like his mother, but he never fulfilled the responsibility of a father, so he didn't have any special hatred for his mother.When he was younger, he hated it, but since he realized that his resentment had no effect on that person, he no longer cared about it. No matter how deeply you hate, she will be painless. , that is a stranger and has nothing to do with him.

But now my aunt said to let him find her, no matter how good she is, what does it have to do with me?When he needed her the most, only his grandma was by his side. Now that he has grown up, he can almost support himself, but he wants to find her just for money?What's the difference between that and her back then?He would never go to her if he died.

Lin Jiale shook her head: "Forget it, aunt. I don't know her. She is from someone else's family now. Besides, I have grown up too. It is enough to support myself. Isn't it that I can't go to college? Many people don't go to college." University has been great, too."

A look of disappointment appeared on the aunt's face. It is said that Jiale's mother was a concubine for a Hong Kong boss and gave birth to two sons for him. Following Zhanguang, they all went to Guangdong to set up shop and do business.It's just that this woman is cruel enough, she's also a son, how could she be so cruel if she didn't care about her for more than ten years.