TMD Reborn

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He casually picked up one and looked at it quietly. Suddenly, the man's dull eyes froze instantly!

Staring at the content on the paper, the fingers hanging in front of the pants seam clenched unconsciously.

he lied to me...

45. Truth

There was a "wow", the sound of the curtains being pulled open.

The strong light pierced An Ge's eyelids, he frowned slightly, and opened his eyes reluctantly.

His body was still weak, and even his breathing was light and soft.

At a glance, he saw Raleigh standing in front of the window, wearing a loose cotton top, and he could vaguely see two attractive collarbones under the messy fabric.

He looked straight at himself, with those empty, empty eyes.

"You lied to me," he said.

"What?" An Ge was taken aback.

"It's not a high-ranking government official, but an ordinary soldier who has been trapped on the eastern battlefield." Taking a step forward, the man watched him quietly, "I checked Ange's entry and exit records, from the day he joined the army until Now, he hasn't come back..."

Ange was silent, not knowing how to answer.

"Why do you know him?" Raleigh put his hands on his side.

"There's no need to tell you... um!" He immediately kissed him fiercely, biting himself as if to vent.

"Let... let go of me!" Thought he would violate himself again but he didn't.

Panting heavily, the man's handsome face was in a daze.

"Do you know which camp he is in?" he asked, "Why can't I find it."

"So there are things in this world that you can't do?" Ange smiled mockingly.

Raleigh lowered his eyes: "Can you tell me?"

"I'm just a male prostitute, how do I know so much?" Ange shrugged.

Raleigh looked at him quietly: "I have a feeling."

"What do you feel?"

"You're a devil," he said.

"Huh?" An Ge didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

"Besides this answer, I can't explain such an abnormal thing." Raleigh said slowly, "I enlisted in the army a year ago and never came back, but you know everything about him, isn't it strange? ?”

"We knew each other before he joined the army?" An Ge smiled.

"No, you don't know him." Raleigh affirmed, "A year ago, you followed Perot, and he brought you back to the imperial capital, but he had to sell you to Ling Bai because he owed a huge amount of gambling debt. "

Ange listened expressionlessly, as if he was listening to someone else's business.

"...Ling Bai has very strict requirements on newcomers, it is impossible for you to contact the outside world." Raleigh looked at him indifferently, "It was even more impossible when you were in the reserve, I can be sure that you were not Ange at that time Your lover, because at that time, your lover was Wei Jiu."

"You know really well." Ange smiled.

"Your life and his life don't overlap at all...Why do you know him?" The man's eyes were filled with confusion, "Why are you... so similar?"

"Like?" Ange opened his eyes wide.

"No." Raleigh's expression returned to indifference. "Tell me, what's going on...Why do you know An Ge so well, why do you go to the store for repairs, and why do you lie to us?"

"You have a lot of why." Ange pouted, "I also have a lot of why to ask you, why did you appear at the scene of the car accident, why did you bring me here, why did you lock me up, why did you Sleep with me? How about it, which one are you going to answer first?"

Raleigh: "..."

"If you keep silent, I can also keep silent." Ange lay on the bed like a rascal, "Oh, I'm so sleepy..."

"Someone is going to kill you." The man beside him suddenly said.

Ange's pupils suddenly constricted.

"Only here, you are safe. As for going to bed..." Raleigh paused, "You were the one who seduced me first."

"Yes, it's all my fault. I'm a despicable guy who seduced you recklessly..." Ange said irritably.

"That's not what I meant," Raleigh interrupted.

Ange couldn't listen at all: "I'm a bastard whore..."

"you are not."

"I am!" The blood was restless, "I'm a guy who has no self-sustaining power, a dirty bastard, I'm both vulgar and filthy, I... um!"

His lips were blocked immediately, and after a lingering kiss, Raleigh let him go.

"...You treat me like this because I'm an actor, don't you?" Ange said sullenly.

"Maybe." Raleigh didn't deny it.

"Ha, look, in your eyes, I'm just a lowly person..."

"No." Raleigh said, "I want you."

"Oh." Anger pouted.

"I have a desire for you," Raleigh said. "You're the first person besides Anger to make me feel this way."

Shocked for an instant, An Ge stared at him blankly.

Except Angle Except Angle...

"What do you... mean?" he asked.

Raleigh didn't speak.

"Do you like Ange?" He was cautious, "The kind of love between lovers?"

Without denying it, the man just straightened up.

"Did I guess right?" he went on. "You like him, don't you?"

"You are very long-winded." Raleigh said lightly.

"You just need to answer me, don't you?" An Ge stared straight at him.

Raleigh pinched his chin suddenly, and kissed him on the lips.

Ange's mind went blank for an instant, and when he came back to his senses, the man had already walked out of the room.

The door slammed shut and locked from the outside as usual.

Ange leaned against the head of the bed weakly, staring at the wall in desperation:

It does not make sense……

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Apart from knowing that someone was going against him, he didn't extract any useful information from Raleigh.

The man didn't ask himself again why he met An Ge.

Being trapped for so long, even the brain is starting to rust.

I don't want to think too much, eat and sleep every day, just like a rice bug.

Anyway, in the eyes of Raleigh, he is just a prostitute for others to vent their desires, and on the premise that he has no self-protection ability, he will die if he goes out, so it is better to accept Raleigh's protection with peace of mind.

You don't need to pay, you can eat and drink only by trading your body, and you have someone to serve you.

ha!What a deal.

If you think about it this way, you won't feel psychologically unbalanced.

The days passed day by day, staying in this building, watching the clouds rise and fall bored.

Raleigh is not at home every day, and spends most of the time alone in a daze.

Occasionally, Shia would come to accompany him, help him clean the wound, and change the gauze.

"You recovered very quickly." The boy smiled and looked at his right hand which could barely move.

"Why do I feel so slow." He sighed.

He didn't have the urge to escape for a long time, even if Xi Ya put the key in front of him, he didn't bother to take a look.

But he misses Wei Jiu.

Wondering where he is, wondering if he's alright...is he injured, is it serious now?

He was completely enclosed in this room without any news. If it wasn't for this last sliver of spiritual power supporting him, he might have gone crazy.

He was agitated, restless, he paced aimlessly up and down the room, but when Raleigh came back, he became very quiet.

Sitting quietly on the bed, watching the man approaching her, she could even calmly guess his next move.

He would hug himself, and then kiss him, the simple kiss gradually turned into a heavy panting, and the lingering lips and tongues made a sensuality.

Crazy □, indulge yourself in the senses.

Forget everything but happiness...

Day after day passed boringly, he didn't bring up the matter again, and Raleigh remained silent.

Apart from □, there is no deep emotional exchange between the two, but they have a good understanding.

With just one look, you can tell what the other person is thinking.

After making love, Raleigh lit a cigarette, Ange got up from the bed and took one out of the cigarette case.

Putting it in his mouth, he brought his head close to Raleigh.

The man leaned over and imprinted the cigarette in his mouth on Ange's cigarette butt.

In a kiss-like gesture, the cigarette was lit, and Ange took a deep breath.

Immediately choked and coughed violently.

Raleigh just watched from the sidelines, and waited for Ange to straighten up before he said, "It's better for children not to learn from adults."

"Who's the kid?" Ange glared at him.

Just as he was about to take another puff, the cigarette in his hand was snatched away by Raleigh.

"You're underage." He said, raising his hand to wipe Ange's eyes.

Under his touch, the black eyes that were seeping tears narrowed slightly like a kitten.

"I'm going to the Eastern Empire," he said.

Ange froze slightly, staring at him with wide eyes.

"Go to Ange." Raleigh said quietly.

"There is a war there..." Ange frowned slightly, "Don't go."

It's meaningless, even if you can find your whereabouts, so what...

It's just that I know the news of his death.

"I'm sorry..." the man said.

"Why...apologize?"

"I can't promise you." Raleigh said lightly.

"I don't need your promise at all." An Ge sneered.

Raleigh lowered his head: "If it weren't for Ange, I would definitely fall in love with you."

"What?" Ange didn't hear clearly.

"Last time you asked me if I liked him, I didn't answer, not because I wanted to escape, but because I really don't know..." He blinked his eyelashes slowly, "If it was before, I would not hesitate To answer you, yes, but now, I don't know."

An Ge froze, staring at him blankly.

There was a trace of confusion in the man's eyes, as if he had returned to his childhood, he would always hide in the corner like this, with his eyes open, looking at himself uncertainly.

I would always take out the food and coax him carefully.

"Oh, Raleigh, look, the bread is fresh from the oven..."

But now he has grown up and is so powerful that he doesn't need anyone's protection.

But, will he still show such a confused expression...

I couldn't help but want to hug him, but I didn't move after all.

"Why... don't you know?"

"Because of you." He said, "I don't know if I like you."

His heart trembled suddenly, and he looked at him blankly, not knowing what to say.

"I want to see Ange." Raleigh said quietly, "I will feel at ease only when I see him."

"Don't go!" blurted out, "Even if you see him, what's the use? He won't accept you!"

"I know." White mist filled Raleigh's eyes, "I never thought of getting him."

"Then don't go." Ange persuaded, "It's a battlefield, stray bullets and gunpowder smoke are everywhere, there is almost no possibility of survival..."

Raleigh's pupils constricted instantly.

Ange stopped talking immediately.

There was silence, and bitter smoke wafted in the air.

"He won't die." After a while, Raleigh said, "I will definitely find him."

Ange was speechless.

How could it be found!

The body had probably been scorched by the flames of war, and he didn't even recognize it.

Taking advantage of the opportunity, he snatched the cigarette from Raleigh's hand and took a puff.

Still coughing uncontrollably, he threw the cigarette on the ground in a fit of anger.

The red light flashed and flashed, and finally went out.

Raleigh didn't stop him, but just looked at him without saying a word.

Ange leaned against the bed slumped, burying his head in his arms.

what can we do about it?

He is a man who, once he makes up his mind, cannot be pulled back by ten bulls.

Unless you tell him that you are Ange, he will definitely go.

to that horrible place.

That nightmarish Shura Field.

But...how should I speak.

Fell into trouble again, his eyebrows were tightly knit together.

"Don't worry." The man raised his hand and patted his head, "Even if I'm not in the imperial capital, someone will protect you."

"I've never worried about this!" Ange said angrily.

"The person who assassinated you was called Huo De, but he is dead."

Angus looked up.

Raleigh continued: "He was my assassination target. He wanted to assassinate you, but unexpectedly he died in my hands."

"Aren't you unwilling to tell me this..." An Ge opened his eyes wide.

Raleigh squeezed his chin with one hand: "Sorry, I haven't found out who his employer is until now."

"There's no need to apologize for this kind of thing."

"If you want to stay here, I will let Xi Ya take care of you. If you want to go back..." He was silent for a while, "Don't go back to Huaxiao, I can redeem you."

"Even if you redeem me, where can I go?" An Ge looked at him, "I have no other place to go except Hua Xiao."

"How much do you need?" Raleigh asked.

"It's not about money!" Ange pressed his shoulders. "You go to the Eastern Empire to die, Raleigh! If you stay, I'm willing to follow you forever!"

As soon as the words came out, he regretted a little.

What am I talking about...

But Raleigh laughed.

An Ge immediately widened his eyes.

he smiled...

It was the first time I saw Raleigh smiling, his eyes were no longer so empty, but filled with warm halos.

so beautiful……

She couldn't help but stare blankly, until the man's face came close to her and kissed him on the forehead.

After waking up, I felt like I wanted to find a hole to get into.

"I……"

"I swear, I will definitely come back." He said, looking at him seriously, "Then, let you belong to me completely."

46. ​​Repentance

I don't know who took the initiative first, but when I came back to my senses, the two were already lingering together.

The fingers crossed, as if they were about to merge, the hot but blank feeling, I forgot everything, I only knew that the man wanted me again and again.

Tired to the extreme, she finally fell asleep in his arms, and when she woke up, she found that he had disappeared.

After barely getting up from the bed, the wound on his body has been fully healed after nearly two months of recuperation, and his right hand can move freely as before.

However, my heart was empty.

Knowing that Raleigh loved her, knowing that he was going to a dangerous place, but... didn't stop him.

Just tell the truth.

Obviously as long as you tell him that I am Ange, he doesn't need to take any more risks.

Why can't you say it?

because of fear.

Selfishness wants to separate the original self from the present self, only in this way, when kissing or even sleeping with a man, he will not feel guilty, anyway, he is a male prostitute, isn't he?

Even depravity has become natural.

Because she is a male prostitute, she can play with other people's minds and indulge unscrupulously.

Because it's not who I used to be, everything doesn't matter anymore.

More because he was afraid of responding to Raleigh's feelings.

If a man finds out that they are actually one person...how should he face him again?

Having accepted Wei Jiu, it is impossible to fall in love with another one.

Just for such a reason, just for that ridiculous self-esteem, just to escape... so keep silent and push him into the fire pit?

No, no, I didn't!

Covering his head hard, he forced himself to calm down.

Yes, he didn't.

Everything is Raleigh's own choice, isn't it?

If he wasn't born again, if he was really just who he is now, why should he feel guilty?No need to feel guilty at all...

He stumbled to the bathroom and rinsed his body with cold water over and over again.

I don't want to look at that wickedly beautiful boy in the mirror anymore, I just want to empty myself and don't think about anything.

Put on clean clothes and walk out of the bathroom, wet hair still dripping down.

He sneezed unconsciously, his body felt cold even though beads of sweat were oozing out.

His head was a little dizzy, and his feet floated forward.

There was a letter and a passbook on the table in the living room.

On the snow-white letter paper, the man's handwriting is delicate and vigorous:

"wait me back."

Opening the passbook, he blankly glanced at the series of zeros on it.

The password is written on the back of the letter paper, which is a string of numbers with no rules.

Suddenly remembered the locked door at the end of the stairs, and couldn't help but want to try it. Even though he wasn't particularly curious about Raleigh's so-called "secret", there was an inexplicable force pushing him forward step by step. Walking all the way to the door, he entered them one by one according to the numbers on the back of the letter.

Immediately, the alarm sounded, and the piercing sound almost broke Ange's eardrums.

He punched the siren beside the door and tore off the circuit wire. The sound stopped abruptly, and there was a deathly silence in the room.

Not this password.

Without any feeling of frustration or loss, I just mechanically filled in the numbers I knew and tried one by one.

The door remained unresponsive, and the white door panel was filled with a hollow halo, as if Raleigh had no shining eyes.

——You are the first person besides Anger to make me feel this way...

——You asked me if I like him... If it was before, I would answer you without hesitation, yes.

what do you like about me?

Silently, Ange gently stroked the door panel with his fingers.

I can't understand your liking. Since I was a child, I just regarded you as an existence that needs to be taken care of.

Like Xiu, if you don't watch carefully, you might be deceived.

"Little brother, you look so cute, why doesn't anyone play with you?"

In the storage, there are people who are engaged in pimping business wandering there every day.

And little Raleigh, who was outstanding in appearance and had a natural dull expression, naturally became a plump prey in their eyes.

A seemingly friendly middle-aged uncle walked towards Raleigh, holding a biscuit in his hand.

"Have you ever eaten this?" He spread his palms, and put the biscuit in front of Raleigh's eyes, "Do you want to try a piece?"

Raleigh: "..."

"Don't you like it? I still have candy." The man took out a large handful of colorful sugar cubes from his pocket, "It's sweet and delicious."

Raleigh blinked: "Sweet?"

"Yes, as sweet as honey." The uncle smiled, looking into Raleigh's eyes as if swallowing him.

Raleigh hesitated for a moment, then raised his hand to take the candy from the uncle's hand.

If at that time, I don't stop it in time, what will happen?

A guy who can be cheated with just a piece of candy, how can he be at ease.

"Raleigh!" shouted immediately, "Don't eat his food!"

He quickly ran over to block the boy, and his weak self glared aggressively at the man in front of him: "Go away! You are not allowed to harass him anymore!"

"You little bastard!" The man got angry and raised his hand to grab his collar.

He avoided him nimbly and kicked him in the groin.

The man immediately bent down in pain, and he quickly took Raleigh's hand and fled quickly.

Raleigh, who is unmoved by anything, has no resistance to candy alone.

It's been so many times, if people say, Raleigh, do you want candy?Immediately reach for it.

No amount of reprimand was useless, and in the end he was so angry that he punched Raleigh in the face: "I want to break up with you!"

Raleigh opened his eyes wide and didn't answer for a while.

Finally, he bowed his head and walked into the house.

I feel guilty for thinking that I have gone too far, and I want to apologize but I can't hold back my face at all.

After a while, the boy came out of the house, holding a transparent glass bottle in his hand.

"I, just, want to fill... the bottle." The boy, who is not good at expressing words, explained to himself word by word.

"What?" He took it angrily.

"Candy..." Raleigh said earnestly, "Ange... my favourite."

Immediately froze, the hand holding the bottle froze for a while.

It should be a glass bottle picked up from a garbage dump. It has been wiped clean, reflecting the colorful luster of the sun.

But it was empty inside, save for a few rough-wrapped candies.

"Raleigh, there's not... that much sugar..." he said, "Ange, birthday...so..."

An Ge stared at him blankly.

Do you want to give it to yourself as a birthday present, so you are so interested in candy?

"You... idiot." Mingming was very moved, but the way he spoke was still aggressive.

Raleigh blinked, as if he didn't understand why he was being scolded.

"Idiot, idiot, idiot!" A series of idiots said, the boy in front of him didn't respond at all, just looked at him quietly.

Unable to bear it any longer, she hugged him tightly.

I can't express my inner emotion in words, I can only hug him like this.

She buried her head in his shoulder, trying to hold back the tears that almost fell out of her eyes.

"...thank you," he said.

Because I was holding the boy, I couldn't see his expression at that time.

I just felt him raise his hand and gently encircle his body.

She wanted to let go but was held in his arms and couldn't move, so she leaned in his arms inexplicably for the whole afternoon.

I have already forgotten how I spent my birthday that year, I just remember being very happy.

Xiu and Raleigh were with me, and there was a large bottle full of sugar.

Birthday……

I remembered this somehow, and a string of numbers suddenly appeared in my mind.

His birthday is December 12rd.

Coupled with the year, it happens to be a set of passwords.

He entered the password in by accident, and only heard a "kecha", and the door opened.

His spirit tensed immediately, as if he was about to step into an unknown territory, he held his breath, and carefully pushed the door open.

A room without a ray of light, dry and dark.

Fumbling with the wall, her fingers touched a switch.

Flip it down, and with a "snap", the room lights up.

Immediately, he froze in place.

What unfolded in front of us was a small arsenal, with all kinds of guns and weapons neatly placed on the shelves soaring to the ceiling.

There are countless sharp cold weapons hanging on the wall, the most conspicuous of which is a worn samurai sword.

Ange had seen this knife before, it was the one that Raleigh used to.

The sealed box on the ground should be the ammunition that is equipped. There is a small path in the middle of the box. Go forward, turn right, and you will see a small door.

There is a voice-activated recognition and fingerprint recognition system installed outside the small door. Normally, it would be impossible to open it, but now, it is concealed.

Probably the owner left too hastily and forgot to close it.

Ange carefully pushed it open, and inside the door was another room with simple furnishings, a square table, a wooden chair, a black desk lamp on the table, and an instrument for receiving telegrams.

There are red dots blinking on the wall, which are cameras. Ange saw his own image projected on the receiving screen next to the table, and the phone rang next to the screen.

The sound of "jingle bell" is like the echo of hell.

Ange watched quietly, waiting for the phone to turn off automatically, the recording system to turn on, and a woman's voice came out.

"Mosen, the war between the Eastern Alliance has escalated. The chieftain and Muta have already started a war. I don't allow you to die! Mosen, did you hear that?!"

Ange lowered his head and slowly sat down on the chair in front of the desk.

Raleigh...does this work here?

A killer must have his own upline. Is this woman with a stern voice on the phone his upline?

"...Your life was saved by me, I don't allow you to die without value like this! If you are still grateful to me, answer the phone immediately! Mo Sen!!"

Pulling open the desk drawer, there is a thick stack of straw paper, which is filled with patterns of weapon modification and various range calculation data.

Ange flipped through it casually, listening to the woman's voice on the phone become soft:

"Mosen, I know you are an obedient child. You don't love Ange. What you love is just a shadow that you imagined..."

An Ge was slightly stunned: This woman knows herself?

He was still flipping through the designs in his hand, but his attention was all on the phone.

"Isn't it ridiculous to die for a shadow?" The woman said again, "And, in such a chaotic environment, do you think he has any hope of surviving? Don't be stupid, Mo Sen, maybe he is already dead It's..."

Ange was silent, and his eyes suddenly swept to dozens of glass bottles placed under the table.

He froze, leaning over to look.

Under the light of the table lamp, the glass is crystal clear, and each bottle is filled with candies. The five-color colored candies are shining with beautiful light spots, which are so out of place with this dark and monotonous room.

Ange picked up a bottle, opened it, and took out a candy.

Peel off the candy wrapper and smell it.

Sweet orange flavor, pure breath without the slightest impurity.

I couldn't help but licked it with the tip of my tongue and stuffed it into my mouth.

"...No, he must be dead." The woman continued, "Okay, don't be angry, I know you don't like to hear this... Take a step back, even if he is not dead, you think he will fall in love with you You?"

While chewing on candy, I read the design booklet.

Unexpectedly, this guy Raleigh is so talented, he can't understand the meaning of the dense calculation formula.

"...you gave so much for him, but he abandoned you mercilessly...he will never fall in love with you, Mo Sen..."

The hands that flipped through the album gradually slowed down.

An Ge turned his head and looked at himself in a daze on the screen.

"...Where was he when you were injured in training? Where was he when you killed someone for the first time? Did he save you when you almost died at someone's gunpoint?...Mosen, you did it for him Desperate to make money, you now have enough money to buy an island, but what about others? He ran to the battlefield without a word for his younger brother, and he just disappeared without considering your feelings at all. He doesn't need you at all, in his eyes, only his brother is the most important..."

The voice was silent for a while, and said again:

"Oh? Why is it so quiet today? If it was normal, you would definitely refute me... What? Do you know that everything is just your own wishful thinking? Mo Sen, answer me..."

A "rustling" sound suddenly rang out on the phone, and Ange remained silent, continuing to flip through the album in his hand.

But the body was so heavy that even the fingers gradually became stiff.

Flipping one by one, he saw his name.

At first, I just traced lightly on the edge of the album with a pencil, but later, more and more, the whole paper was densely filled with those two words.

"Ange" "Ange" "Ange" "Ange"...

Every stroke seemed to be filled with emotions that were too heavy for him to bear.

Angie, I like you...

Ange...Ange...Ange...

There seemed to be tears streaming down from his eyes, and he looked at the letter paper in his hand numbly.

Flip back again, and his profile.

The unskilled strokes, one stroke at a time, carefully outline his appearance.

An Ge quietly looked at his former self on the paper.

Was he that beautiful back then?

In Raleigh's eyes, he was just like that.

There was a canine tooth on the corner of his lips, and he smiled slightly, even the air became refreshing.

There was a hoarse noise on the phone, and intermittently, he heard someone whispering.

It was not clear what he was talking about, but after a moment, the phone was hung up, and the room returned to silence.

It was too quiet, so quiet that it felt depressing.

There was still a faint fragrance that was exclusive to men on his lips. Maybe he had kissed himself when he left in the morning, but he was too deep in sleep, so he didn't feel it.

He said, I don't know if I fall in love with you.

He said, when I come back...

He clumsily collects candies for himself, hugging him hard.

Obviously at that time, if he let go of his hand, he might die, but he still let go without hesitation.

Just don't want him to be embarrassed.

Just because...he loves himself.

And what about him?

I have sworn that I will never let him go again in this life, but now, what is he going to do? !

If Raleigh dies on the battlefield...if Raleigh never comes back...

"No!"

Standing up from the chair quickly, he ran out desperately.

If so, he

I can't forgive myself for a lifetime!

Must find him, must stop him!

Go fucking self respect!Go to the TMD festival!As long as Raleigh is safe and sound, he is willing to do anything!